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[Cupid's Puppet]

Everyday I think about something you said that threw my self esteem for a loop. Do you remember telling me that you told your mom, "Mom, I'm sorry. The next woman I bring here will be my wife."

 

I was so at a loss for words when you told me that. Excuse me, I didn't realize I was visiting a royal home all these years. Oh how could you ever bring poor, lowly me in front of your mother. I guess you all need to bulldoze the house now since I stepped foot in it at some point. Like you feel that terrible and regretful for bringing me among your family? Gee, you are a jerk for that. You really succeeded at making me feel less than a person.

[me85]

In light of everything, I have seen the best and worst of me. Some of the best, is loving you and some of the worst, is loving you.

 

I hate this disease. I hate that I'm an addict. I hate that I contact you sometimes when I'm drunk.

 

You are the last person in the universe I should ever want to contact or hear from.

 

I'm so ashamed of myself for faltering this past week. Why? Because I feel lonely? Because I was bored? Because I'm crazy? Because im stupid? No. Because I was drunk and can't bring myself to dislike you as I should. I don't even know if I really still love you but it seems like alcohol tricks me into thinking that maybe I do. God help me slack off the bottle. Please.

 

Sober Me85 is over her ex. Drunk Me85 still wants to talk to her ex sometimes.

 

SO EFFED UP!

[JDPT]

Still in pain but because of my own doing. I didn't need to know where you stand at this point in your life. I suppose curiosity did kill the cat this time. I just need to continue to pick myself up. There isn't much I can do. I hate that allowed myself to love you so much in the past. I don't love you anymore, so why am I still hurting?

[StrangerThanFiction]

I guess that's that. I asked you to call me after you got off work. It's getting late and no call. So, I'm going back to NC now without giving you the courtesy of a goodbye just like I am so unimportant to you that you can't even call when you say you will. Yeah, I'm mad. I don't know if it's more at you or at myself for being so weak as to have contacted you on the weekend. Honestly, I think I'm more mad at myself. Lesson effing learned. Don't worry, I won't make this mistake again.

 

I wanted to talk to you tonight to tell you that I can't be friends right now and to make arrangements for you to get your stuff back and out of my house ASAP. That would've been the nice neat end of things. But here you are playing your pathetic little power games. Well, have fun playing them with yourself because I'm taking myself out of the game. Don't bother contacting me unless it has to do with getting your stuff back. I'm done. If this is how you treat your friends then I'm better off not having you as one now or ever.

 

Goodbye.

[Lostdreams]

Happy Birthday dear ex,

 

It's the first time in 12 years that I didn't wish you this myself - as always on the dot of midnight.

For the record I hope you have a really crappy day - just like my last birthday was when you chose to dump me 36 hours beforehand..............and then still had the nerve to text "Hi, I wish you all the best for your birthday" yeah right sure thing.

 

I realize that I can't wish you anything happy at all - you don't deserve it

[Cupid's Puppet]

Frick you broke my contact with the birthday text. Of all this time I've been suffering alone, you choose my birthday to send a bunch of apologies? Out of all those texts I don't even know what you apologized for. I don't even know what the texts mean. You got me all excited and now that you once again got what you needed off your chest, you disappear from my life again. Awesome.

 

I shouldn't be getting sorries on my birthday. You know damn well you are supposed to be here with me like you have been for the last 7 years celebrating my birthday. I'm going to sleep. Stop texting me. My inbox is full dammit.

 

And I still love you. smh. I can't even get mad correctly.

[Jingle14]

I’m sat here replying to Christmas invitations – a weekend away with a group of (mostly coupled, apart from a few terminally single trainspotter anorak types) people. I’ve just looked at the place we’re going to on Tripadvisor, it’s beautiful – old country house, log fire, gorgeous countryside, loads of walking (remember our walks, romantic and mischievous, always hand in hand and gazing into each other’s eyes, talks of our future and the cottage we’d live in – I believed all that too). I’m struck with overwhelming sadness that I’ll be alone when, really, I should be with you. I’ll be there making people laugh, with the sarcastic and dry and direct wit I’m known for, giving every inch the impression I’m the solid, independent, strong and straightforward woman they all think I am (and mostly I am), giving no hint to the bitterly hurt, heartbroken, broken and grieving person beneath – one of them, a lovely friend, even said at the weekend, when I mentioned you (no doubt in a cutting, heavily sarcastic way) ‘but you’re over all that now’ – if only he knew! You’re still my first and last thought, the grief is often overwhelmingly unbearable, the pain I feel at having to drive past your parent’s house every single day, of going to school events when you live opposite it, it’s just too much. I miss you, but I’m forgotten to you. How did we get here, how did we not remain ‘us’. That’s something I doubt I’ll ever know or understand. I wish my life was ‘normal’ the way it was before you, before ‘us’. Most of all, I wish we were ‘us’ again.

[sammiexo]

Want to text you and bitch you out because I am feeling angry and it's the day before what would have been our 10 year anniversary. I still do not understand how you could have moved on so quickly with the girl yuo cheated on me with. did I really matter that little to you?

[me85]

Hey, well look at me drunk and not the slightest urge to contact you.

 

Thanks to my cyber buddies on LS I have been entertained all throughout today. Had a good debate with posters I don't know & may disagree with, but I respect them nonetheless. It's all positive in my eyes.

 

Go ME. (:

[leavesonautumn]

I hope I meet someone who is like you but also not even close to the same as you.

 

I'm in the drunk boat with me85 and also not feeling like I should contact you, even though I haven't in 10 months. 10 months, I feel pathetic. I bet you are happy and not missing me at all

[me85]

I hope I meet someone who is like you but also not even close to the same as you.

 

I'm in the drunk boat with me85 and also not feeling like I should contact you, even though I haven't in 10 months. 10 months, I feel pathetic. I bet you are happy and not missing me at all

 

Don't you dare feel pathetic! You are awesome! 10 months?!! I barely went 10 days! You are wonderful beautiful and so strong! Believe that.

[me85]

you just watch how my pride takes over. Much justified and such a long time coming.

[Emilia]

Bored!!!!!!! Looking for jobs and trying to occupy myself productively. Should post here less . Booooooooooored.

[StrangerThanFiction]

I slept with someone else last night. It was a mistake and I regret it. All I could think about was who was in your arms while I was in his, wishing I was with you instead. It wasn't fair to him at all and I feel totally guilty. Won't be doing that again any time soon. Damn booze. I guess at least I managed to keep from crying after.

 

Then you go and text me this morning. Just something random and pointless. I still haven't responded even though all I want to do is talk to you and have you tell me you still love me and that you want me back. Yeah right. Me and my wishful thinking gone crazy. I know you're happier without me in your life and it is seriously killing me.

[me85]

I slept with someone else last night. It was a mistake and I regret it. All I could think about was who was in your arms while I was in his, wishing I was with you instead. It wasn't fair to him at all and I feel totally guilty. Won't be doing that again any time soon. Damn booze. I guess at least I managed to keep from crying after.

 

Then you go and text me this morning. Just something random and pointless. I still haven't responded even though all I want to do is talk to you and have you tell me you still love me and that you want me back. Yeah right. Me and my wishful thinking gone crazy. I know you're happier without me in your life and it is seriously killing me.

 

 

I'm sorry Stanger )= I hope you feel better by the end of the day. It took me 6/7 months to see other guys but I was all excited that I finally did because my ex was miles ahead me in moving on to other people.

 

But I remember the first LTR I was in. I BU with him and after some time, slept with someone else and felt just as you described. I called my ex crying telling him what I had done and that it felt like I cheated on him...all that. He actually comforted me and told me to come over so I did. That was a really long time ago. But I remember how it felt.

 

You were with your ex 6 years. Feelings won't be going away anytime soon. No matter how much we think they should. I mean, I should hate my ex after what all he did to me. But I don't. I am over him though. He is a thing of the past. I don't know him anymore. We've been BU for 15 months. I don't know how long you have been BU with your ex but it's going to take more time.

 

Do the things you want to do. Try your best not to let yourself wonder what he's doing or who with. I know that seems impossible but it's not. You can redirect your thoughts. You seem like such an level headed and sweet polite person.

 

Think about your life and where you want it to go. I'd like to hear it. There's so much more to your life than your ex. Do you want to go back to school? Do you want to travel? Do you want to do volunteer work? Think about you Stranger. Think about how wonderful your life will be once you get back to you.

 

But yes, BLAME IT ON THE ALCOHOL! & please don't respond to his text! NC all the way!

Edited October 16, 2014 by me85

[ralfgarnett]

For the first time in our 20 years tonight I f-king hate you you nasty up your own a=rse bithch, go and f-k yourself you pompous stfuffed up piece of shot, don't you f-king well try and take the p-ss out of me, when I met you you were f=king nothing just a simple estate girl, I gave you everything I even f-king paid for your degree you parasite, you told my mum and dad you would be with me and look after me for life as I would you, you stupid bitch you got yourself in to sh-t with debt and I balied you out, and you talk to me like that todfay, don't push you f-king luck with me if you do then you know my legal might and I will f-king crush you and your low loife family like rotten grapes, you have plenrty to say so far but now you have no more cards to play but guess what I haven't even played one of my cards yet, strap yourself in girlie and enjoy the ride because any day now I will f-king snap and put the first of my many cards on the table and you WILL suffer I hope you enjoy it.

[Cupid's Puppet]

Don't make me be the bad guy. You have to stop texting me. Though you're healed, I am still not at that point. I read your text messages 5 times, and my final conclusion is that they're just BREADCRUMBS. Yes, of nearly 40 texts you sent me, they are breadcrumbs because one statement stood out to me, "Happy Birthday, Buddy."

 

 

Buddy?

 

Buddy?

 

Yeah, I am definitely not at the point where I feel comfortable being called your buddy. I still fantasize about being your wife and having your mini me. I miss you, but I miss us more.

[Magnet]

Hey you're with a new guy barely 2 months after we broke up.

 

And it was THAT guy I wasn't too pleased you were spending rather a lot of time being friendly with.

 

You were emotionally cheating for sure. And probably you had a little affair. Anyway you went for what you want.

 

I don't feel any pain 80% of the time. When I do feel pain, I feel the sadness of the good parts of what you were, or actually, what I thought you were.

 

But hey!!! I feel good in myself.

 

I am in the best shape of my life and want to get in even better shape.

 

I've got my strut back. I'm on new roads, roads that I choose to walk. I'm drug free, smoke free, I've got a six pack, I'm unafraid to say what I think; I have the courage to be true to myself more and more. I'm chasing my dreams and goals like never before.

 

Guess who I have to thank?

 

YOU. For making me realise I didn't need you. Good god what a miserable tortured clinging existence of cycles of inflicting pain and giving comfort,

 

Honestly you're the hidden enemy that spurs me on. I'll never speak to you again so that you'll never know the real me, the real me that was forged through the molten furnace of my broken heart that I gave to you.

 

You're history for sure.

 

The pain is diminished as my self love increases. **** you for what you did to me, thanks for putting up with my crap and I honestly wish you the best, I hope you discover your dream.

 

You will and someday you'll realise when you come across a certain point that you'll know "so this is what HE was feeling, so this is what HE was enduring, so this is what HE meant. So that's why He DID what he DID."

 

You haven't got the life experience yet.

 

Happy living, girl.

[Mandy26]

feeling really down, crying, I know it wasnt going anywhere, You lied and used me. Hiding our relationship from your ex, and your female friend. Me listening to your lame excuses and reasons...wanting to believe that you really had deep feelings for me. I feel used, sad. I dont get it. I knew it was not going anywhere, cant stop crying tonight, broke the NC thing by going on FB and looking at your ex's account looks like it good for u tonight...it sucks because I saw the signs early on and just stuck around withdrawing, wish I had the courage to confront and stand up for myself appropriately and with kindness...this way I wouldnt have crawled in my hole - I would have walked away with my dignity and integrity...**** you T- but I realize also that you are who you are and you will never change....you will always be mean and put downs will always come and your drinking will never end...tonight I really dont get why I am crying over this loss

[StrangerThanFiction]

I wish that you would've been honest with your reasons for breaking up. Yes, I know things weren't working and we were heading for this for years, but I know that wasn't the main reason. I know you and this means that I know why you just let us go so easily was because there was someone else. Why couldn't you have just come out and told me (like you did the last time)? **** that would've made things a heck of a lot easier for me to let go of! But no, you have some lame reason. The thing about me knowing you is that I know you are sadly incapable of being alone. This is why when you meet someone new you date them behind your current's back until you can see if it's an "upgrade" or not and then you leave your current gf (or wife) for said "upgrade". This is why I am positive you were seeing someone else while we were together. You never would've dumped me if you didn't have something else going on already.

 

I think that I deserved the truth. Oh well, you never were one to be honest unless it furthered your own goals so why would you start now?

 

I hope that once the honeymoon stage with this other woman ends she turns out to be either dull and boring or full of constant drama and makes your life a nightmare. Petty, I know, but you've hurt me so much and I think a little anger and vengeful thoughts are understandable. I'll get over it, don't worry.

[JFReyes]

J, after last night's date with S. I became inspired because it went so well. So much so that I just checked "Can't Hurry Love" (The Supremes original and Phil Collins' remake) and I feel pretty good because I got another date with S. this evening -- which will be wonderful -- but I'm not hurrying anything. Feels great... :-)

 

I also started practicing my "cuatro" again so I can serenade her. Good things are coming my way, so wish me success. I wish you the same. As per Elie Wiesel (could've sworn it was Ayn Rand), indifference -- as in the opposite of love -- is getting closer... I'll match your bet and raise you a whole future...

Edited October 18, 2014 by JFReyes

[True Gent]

I couldn't give a **** about you, but I do wonder how my little dogs are doing without me.

 

I hope they are happy and receiving plenty love. I would love a dog cuddle, but seeing them again would only be a backwards step for myself.

[StrangerThanFiction]

I wish I would've seen the signs, from the very first night we met, that you weren't the one for me. I know I deluded myself into believing, over the years we were together, that you were...but you weren't. Why? I think it was loneliness and complacency combined that did it and settled for the first guy that showed an interest in something other than my body (well played, well played). I wanted so badly to have a deep and intimate relationship with someone that I let the floodgates open with you because you were different than the men I had dated before. You were a listener. In all my other relationships, I had always been the listener. The silent listener that never shared anything about myself because I was afraid that I wouldn't be good enough if someone got to know the real me. So, I just listened instead of saying what is actually thought. You were the first guy, well, the first person, ever, to actually ask me questions about myself and seem to care about the answers. You made me feel like I was actually worth something more than just being a sounding board and that maybe what I had to say was important.

 

You may have treated me awfully throughout the years of our relationship, and I know I wasn't always the pinnacle of girlfriendly sainthood either, but I'll always appreciate the fact that you were a catalyst in me becoming the person I am today. I like who I am now. No, I love who I am now. You may have planted the seed, but it was me who cared for and worked at and sometimes fought into what it is today. Me.

 

I see so many of my friends and acquaintances that can't seem to be alone. And I don't mean single or without a partner, I mean just alone, with themselves. Before you, I used to be the same way. If I wasn't hanging out with someone I felt like a loser. I read a book that changed my whole perspective on "aloneness". Now, I look forward to and cherish the times when I get to be by myself. I really do wonder if you can do the same. I have a feeling you can't. Thus why you jump from one relationship to another. What scares you so much about being alone with yourself that you can't? Ah well, not my problem anymore. Thank you for all you taught me.

[richburn]

I know you were on a date last night and have found somebody else so quickly. You told me it would take months to get over me.

 

A week before you were telling me how much you loved me and that we wouldnt split up. I introduced you to my children and all of my life.

 

You broke up via text and I deserved far better then that, I agree things werent right but there was loads of things that were really really good. I wish you could have waited while I sorted myself out, which I am in the process of doing - tbh I couldnt be working harder I have been told to calm it down.

 

I hate the fact that I miss you soo much, you brought a lot of happiness into my life and you will now be doing that for somebody else - its childish and jealous I know.

 

On one level I really wish you the best as you are a brilliant person and I will cherish the times we had, but I am still hurting. Not to sound to cliched I do hope one day we can be friends again - although when I sort myself out I dont think I will want to know you or you will be in a happy relationship.

 

Good luck in all that you do.

[ralfgarnett]

Jayne I miss you with all my heart, I almost feel dead without you, it wasn't meant to be like this in 1997 we married life, me and the babies miss you so much, tbh I don't want to live without you I don't see the point any more.