Post here instead of contacting your ex!

[Always Pondering]

I saw your Facebook profile picture for a very brief half second with two people in it. This is because I was looking through old posts on my wall and I guess even though I have had you blocked for a while, Facebook decides to leave your comments on that one post but just black out your name.

 

Great job Facebook, great job.

 

It didn't upset me, I'm not curious at all to what your profile picture is and I'll 100% not bother to check but I found it silly by Facebook's part.

 

/end rant

[Justaguy30]

Its good to know that you are still the same old abusive person you have always been. I hope when you get to hell there is a nice little patch of fire waiting just for you.

[Mandy26]

Up early today- not in for work till 7am - yesterday was awesome !!! Screw you T - for all your non support when I was dealing with the ex and access matters - guess what? They actually supported my son, found nothing negative about me and I was able to withstand hearing the abusive ex continue his rants - so F u about me still being in live with him after nine years, rather then fear- a persons frame of reference comes from there personal views- so your assumptions had to do with where u wee at- and btw way I did it and survived. another sign from the universe - you are not the one

[sammiexo]

Least favorite part of the week, Saturday and Sunday. Up early and have the whole day ahead. Will try and keep busy today so I don't obsess over your dumb ass.

[Justm3x]

I spent the whole week convincing myself I was moving a step further to getting over you.... but today ive just broken down and i know im still on that rocky road. I dont know why i miss you so much, the weekends are the worse because it used to be our time together and now ive only got memories and i dont want those memories anymore because they are not letting me move on.. i need to hate you for what you did to me.. i just want to give up right now, go to sleep and never wake up... i cant stop crying

[JDPT]

Just went up to my attic looking for a few things and came across the blanket that you brought to my home roughly 5 years ago, remember the one you loved so much and called "blanky" and the one you brought with you when I woke you up at 3am and you didn't know what was going on and I said "roadtrip!" and took you to this amazing place that had an amazing view of the city as we both watched sunrise covered on that blanket, so ridiculous.

 

 

I just tossed it in the trashed. I didn't think twice about it, memories came and went, it felt as if I was taking out the trash it's something that needed to be put out. I have no use for it. It be longs in the past.

[edgygirl]

Going out with my former beautiful lover tonight. Making him my lover again. F you.

 

He's so much more beautiful than you. Why is it I am still thinking of you?

 

this is how I feel:

 

Staying in my play pretend

Where the fun ain't got no end

Oh, can't go home alone again

Need someone to numb the pain

Oh, staying in my play pretend

Where the fun ain't got no end

Oh oh can't go home alone again

Need someone to numb the pain

 

You're gone and I got to stay high

All the time to keep you off my mind, ooh ooh

High all the time to keep you off my mind, ooh ooh

Spend my days locked in a haze

Tryin' to forget you babe, I fall back down

Got to stay high all my life to forget I'm missing you

 

[Justaguy30]

The only part about our relationship I really miss anymore is the sex. I still think about you although I don't miss you as a person. You were nice when you were not lying about everything but that was all the time. I still wonder if you thought you were going to turn things around. It just disgusts me that I dated and loved you so freaking much and how you turned out to be such a horrible person. You don't even deserve to have your children. Your entire family is made up of really crazy bad people. Today I am thankful that I am no longer living in the hell you put me in but I am lonely and wish I had someone who was actually amazing to spend time with. It makes me sad that I allowed you to ruin my life and cost me 2 years of it. I am stuck in this stupid little town because of you. I hope your new life blows up in your face and you wind up in absolute misery because that is what you deserve.

[Heartbroken Eagle]

I know it's been 20 months since we split after all your lies and cheating, and you are marrying the next victim next month after knowing him for just over a year. I don't miss you or your crazy family (Especially your interfering mother). I am simply better off without you. I do miss my son, and peed off that he is caught up in the madness of your lives.

 

I do however have one question which I would love you to answer honestly for once in your life.

 

WHY???

 

Although I will never admit it to you, what you did still hurts like hell. I deserved better after 12 years...

[singsparkles]

I don't know what to say to you. I really have nothing else to say. I feel defeated and beaten down emotionally. I just want you to leave me alone and never contact me again. Please let me live my life and be happy.

[Justaguy30]

I have been talking to this girl I went to high school with and she seems really nice. Like she is actually a good person without all of the crazy issues you have. I am trying to be serious about NC for the rest of my life. Its hard some days because we were so close but we were not really close you just pretended we were and then went around telling everyone I was no good and we secretly planning on leaving me for the guy you work with. I knew the entire time what you were up to. Whats funny is that you lied to him too. I am sure you still sneak around and have sex with other people behind his back. In any event I am still kinda sad but hey its my life and ill make it as awesome as I can!!!!

[CrazyCat17]

That was how I felt. It's hard when all you want is to spend time with them and they are too busy. You feel like a real nuisance.

 

Same here. I want to progress to a bf/gf relationship, but if we can't see each other at least each week it will make me sad. Its like Oh... I see you online playing a game... you could have spend that time with me - right? =/ I wish there was more room for me. So hard to move on...

[JDPT]

I'm sick of the inadvertent thoughts and memories. I wish there was a delete apparatus on my brain to eradicate this bad experience. This feeling will not perpetuate I'll make it my business that it doesn't. I allow myself to feel and allow all these memories and emotions to go right through me. I'm done fighting, I give up.

[MajorOak]

Why?

Maybe you already know the answer, you do deserve better.

[Day.One]

Thank you.

Thank you for meeting me today. Thank you for sharing with me, and letting me know your pain. Thank you for talking with me and opening a door, a path that I hadn't truly known of, or appreciated fully before and a route I need to go down, no matter how painful it will be to travel. I know how important it will be for me to travel this path, but I cannot live in fear of it, no matter what I find along the way.

 

I hope your path will also become clear and you are able to make that journey.

 

Know that no matter where our paths lead, you are, today, no longer invisible to me, your light has illuminated the beginning of my way forward. And the mistakes I have made on the road behind.

 

Thank you.

Edited October 13, 2014 by Day.One

[Stsm5934]

I'm having such a hard time these last couple days. I wish you had picked someone else.

[Xemyd]

Thinking about you, just so you know.... Not that you care.....

[singsparkles]

I'm trying to give you the benefit of the doubt. You have been going out of your way to contact me more than ever, and you also said you are "in love" with me... right now it's hard for me to believe and I need you to prove this and a lot more things to me.

 

Last night you asked me to come see you and when I said I couldn't you seemed less interested in our conversation. Then you asked about how my mom is doing through her hip surgery, and when I started going into depth about it, you cut me off and said, "I gotta go I'll call you back" and now it's almost been 24 hours since I've heard from you. You never called me back.

 

I'm taking myself and emotions away from this situation for awhile. I want to believe in you so badly, but you need to prove to me that you're worthy of my belief and trust.

 

I'm not going to call you and next time you call me I will make sure I'm busy... I will treat you how you treat me, and see how you react to that.

 

You're young, and I'm realizing not everything is black or white.

 

I know you care...but maybe you just don't know how and you're way too immature to put love as a priority and are more concerned with sports and your guy friends.

 

I appreciate you coming to realization that you may not be able to give me what I desire right now, but saying you love me and care and still making an effort to talk to me.

 

But the disappearing once again just leaves me uninspired an disappointed...

 

For once, I want you to prove me RIGHT about you instead of WRONG.

[Day.One]

I was wrong.

 

This is a really hard email to write. But I needed to put to words the thoughts I've realised as part of my recovery and 'process' I'm going through. Today's counselling reached a major breakthrough today. It was an incredibly emotional but releasing session, opening up sealed doors that I have allowed to prevent me from realising and releasing the pain I have kept hidden away.

 

I have finally accepted that who I am and how I'm 'wired' has been affected and poisoned by events of my past. Not my past with just you, but from long before then.

 

My abuse as a child, the beatings from **** that Mum didn't even know about and the things that she also did (that she claims she doesn't remember), my adoption and the feelings of abandonment (twice) by *birth mother * and later by *adopted dad*, plus many other things have already been brought to light and exposed in therapy. But also, finally, the beginnings of how that set me down a path, the wrong path, to a self destructive, harmful course.

 

And eventually, to a self destructive, harmful relationship with those around me. I have wasted so much time projecting my pain on the people I should be able to love. I have hurt you because of the pain that I feel, instead of healing with you.

 

I'm not claiming that my childhood is solely responsible for who I am now. But I accept that it has, in part, poisoned who I am. Equally, I accept that my inability to heal from it has also prevented me from growing into the man I could have been, should have been.

 

Unfortunately you got what was left. Broken, and incomplete. I realise now that you had tried the best you were able to do to help me, but I wasn't ready to accept it. I feel into a relationship with you when I wasn't ready. And I never moved forward from that. A mistake on my part.

 

I held onto my pain, and used it to (unconsciously, perhaps) hurt you and others as a way of easing the pain.

 

It was wrong. My anger, my pain, my need to feel in control, has been focused incorrectly. And pushed those I love, away. Especially you.

 

I have a long road to travel, but I'm determined to finally walk it. Without being unable to accept what I find along the way, and at it's destination. I will be continuing the counselling, and continuing to work on my self. It's a long way from being over, but I'm finally ready to get there. No matter how long it takes.

 

 

 

I'm not telling you this as my Wife, or my partner. I accept that you aren't either of these any more. I'm telling you this as my friend. Someone I have hurt, critically, mortally. And I do not hope for, or seek, forgiveness. I accept that it is not something you may not be able to give.

 

It is an acknowledgement that I was wrong.

[Haydn]

Been a long time. Your always were the bees knees but so am i. No chance S.

[leavesonautumn]

Happy Thanksgiving. Hope your face is so sore from surgery you can't eat turkey.

 

 

..........*******.

[JFReyes]

Had a wonderful -- though expensive -- date with A. on Friday night, and a couple of even more wondrous dates with S. on Saturday and Sunday. Went to the movies, and even went fishing, which I never did with you in all of those 10 years. I still can't shake you out of my head, but damn, I'm trying... It'll come...

Edited October 13, 2014 by JFReyes

[Xiang]

Why did i have to fall in love with you and cry myself to sleep years after we broke up >_>. Love u bye.

[Seraque]

Why did we not stop going out on date #3? Or 4? Why did we both continue to see what would happen? Why did you go on with it even though you knew you didn't really want any sort of a relationship?

 

You suck. You might look good but you're ugly inside. I shouldn't have replied to your last text it was simply to make yourself feel validated and I was still too into you to realize that. Now I just hope you can msg me again so I can ignore you like you ignored my last text.

 

I hope you fall flat on your face again. I hope you feel like I feel right now. I hate you and what you did to me over the last few months. Damage is what you are and nothing else.

[JFReyes]

Hmm, surfing through the interwebs I found this bit: "Whosoever lives with pride, dies in loneliness"... We both know you feel lonely. Good night.