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[Agent Orange]

The strange thing is that as much as I want to talk to you, I have absolutely nothing to say that hasn't been said 10,000 times already. I don't miss the way you always manage to make things worse, the way you belittle my goals in life, or your passive aggressive mind games. I do miss talking to you, spending time with you, and the way we would goof off together. It's been almost six months and I'm still not over this. You left me with so many unanswered questions, knowing how much that would frustrate me. After all that time together and all the sacrifices I made for you, as soon as you had to face your responsibilities you cut me off like a gangrenous limb.

 

I've made some realizations lately...that you're a total coward, that you were always embarrassed of me and ashamed of our relationship, that you broke every promise you ever made. I pity whatever poor girl you're victimizing these days. She doesn't know you're a monster.

[leavesonautumn]

Was going through the pictures on my phone and I'm glad that you hated having your picture taken so much that I don't have a single photo of you from the 5 years we were together.

 

But I did find the picture I took of our Link Between Worlds gamer weekend. Your huge 3DS beside my tiny 3DS on our pillows. We were SOOOO excited for the game to come out that you bought a special 3DS just for the weekend! "Is it Friday yet?" for the whole week. We laid there and had to start the game literally at the same time, doing different dungeons so we could help each other out. During our session we would play side by side, at least some parts of our bodies touching and then a kiss every once in a while. Who else could I do something like this with?

 

I miss this so much and I wish we were still best friends. I miss when you were silly and I miss the little things like when you'd point out how tiny my feet are and you'd tease me in such a cute way and made me feel adorable. Now I feel unworthy and unlovable.

 

How could you have done this to me so many times? Leave me like it's nothing and come back like nothing happened. I hate you.

Edited September 25, 2014 by leavesonautumn

[Arient]

Hey dove, it has been a while since I wrote on this thread, I guess it's a sign that I stopped wanting to reach out to you? I have gradually reclaimed my heart, despite the big hole that it still has inside. I'm still tortured over with Why sometimes, but I think I managed to overcome it. I have had enough time to reflect on things, and I can see my fair share of mistakes, as well as yours, in bringing down our love. Poor us, and poor the love. It was one of the most beautiful things I've experienced in life, and to this point, I'm confident to say that it will always be one of my biggest regrets in my life. But dove, do not worry, as that fact will not keep me from moving on or enjoying what life has to give me. I'm going to 'sail' out there soon, and who knows, maybe our boats will bump into each other again, like they did in the past. I still love you very much, and miss you too. My love for you and your love for me had always been on par with each other in the past, so when I miss you, I think you were missing me that much too, and it kept me warm. Thank you for loving me, and giving me a chance to love that much. I have no regrets in meeting you and loving you. I'm sure we will meet again, and deep in my heart now, I wish you lots of happiness, as I'm sure you're wishing me that too. Hug you!

[me85]

Sorry for the drunken email the other night. I know I didn't say anything bad. I just sent some music videos and told you I was going to Ireland this year (WTF?! I'm definitely not! LMFAO!) to which you said was "gay" so I got pissed and told you I was changing my email and goodbye to you. You responded "WTF? Good" and that was that.

 

Although I have no intention whatsoever of changing my email...I did, however, delete every single one of your emails that you have ever sent me and that I have ever sent you. And because I have none of your contact info written down or memorized, I can no longer get in touch with you occasionally when I'm drinking!!!!!!! It's the best way I know how. I have finally protected myself from myself! Maybe now that you think I changed my email you won't attempt to contact me anymore. I can only hope. Oh and don't worry, I did a memory sweep on my phone as well. Otherwise no matter what I delete my phone still searches on recent contacts in it's stored memory. (;

 

I've also deleted some of our pictures. Slowly but surely, I'm on my way to completely forgetting about you.

Edited September 25, 2014 by me85

[dumbass2]

What the heart wants to do

 

I need to see you one last time to say "good bye". I need this in order to move on. I can't do it unless you agree to this. I hope you find it in your heart to do this one last thing. I will move on and let you go forever. I just cannot allow myself to move on without this. I hope you agree to do this. I'll take whatever time at whatever place you want to. I will be there. I need to say good bye to you in person. I have to see you one last time now that I know it's really over. I didn't realize it until recently. I finally got it. It doesn't make it any easier and I have accepted it and I know I need to let this go once and for all. This is how I will be able to do it.

 

What the brain is telling me to do

 

 

 

 

 

There you have it. My brain is starting to take control. Slowly but surely I will get to the point where I don't think about her. Maybe another month or two. Who knows. I do know it will happen. It's sad to think about, but it's not.

[Justaguy30]

I am beginning to realize that I went pretty crazy about everything. I truly didn't mean to and I know you wanted things to work but it still hurts. I still think about it everyday and it sucks. I know you didn't do this because you don't love me or didn't you did it because you are sick. You didn't mean to hurt me it just wasn't what you wanted it was what you needed. I wish things had gone differently as I miss the **** out of you and the kids even though you were so awful to me.

[StrangerThanFiction]

And here I go back on the downward spiral on the break up emotional roller coaster of effing doom. I never should have looked at her profile. I don't know for sure if she was talking about you but why else would she be in your city? Who else does she know there? I know it shouldn't matter who you're with anymore but it effing does.

 

Why the hell did you come crawling back if you were going to continue seeing her at the same time?? Who does that?

 

But you know what? She is more than welcome to you now. My guess is that she had no idea about me either. And if she did, well, enjoy you're completely effed up relationship. You guys can have competitions on who can out-cheat the other judging from her profile, you're not the only guy she has sniffing around. You guys can award each other prizes for who can give the other an std first. Go you! And if she DIDN'T know about me, well, I hope she doesn't waste 6 years of her life on you before figuring out what monster you are.

 

I hope everything comes crashing down around you, your life goes to ****, and you die alone and unloved because of all the horrible things you've done and the awful way you've used, abused, and treated me and others. You are incapable of making a relationship work because you are a selfish, cheating, manipulative liar. Don't ever change because you don't deserve to be happy. You probably won't, not at your age. Old dog, new tricks and such. You may be able to fake being a nice guy for awhile, but your rotten core eventually reveals itself.

 

I hate you so much right now and that makes me feel terrible. I don't want to hate you...or anyone. Hate does nothing but hurt me in the end. I'm trying to embrace this anger and let it go but the hurt won't let me step back from it yet. Just get the eff out of my head!!

 

I don't know why I keep lingering on you. You were a bad person and a worse boyfriend. I'm so scared that I'll still be hung up on you in 6 months. Hell, 6 years even. I just wish I could erase you from my mind. At this point, sacrificing the last 6 years of my life would be worth it just so I wouldn't have to go through this. I've already wasted so much time on you, I don't want to lose any more of my youth to you.

 

Please, please, please I wish this would just stop....

[leavesonautumn]

I wonder if you've been in for your surgery yet...

 

I know you had some time off, I wonder if it was last week...

 

How do you look now? You literally had your jaw broken, shaved and added on to. Your ears pinned back. Your gap tooth is gone.

 

Would I even be attracted to you? Would you be a different person? Would it change who you are completely? I'd love it if you were less self conscious but it would be so strange if you changed too much...

 

I'd want to see you, just to know...

 

I wonder if you will be so down on yourself that you'd contact me, like usual...

[Candy_Pants]

It is pretty pathetic how you keep trying to manipulate my emotions and loyalties. Saying we have to make our marriage work for the baby. What about my "replacement"? Tired of sucking cocks already??

 

HA!!! You are just a sad little bitch to me. Not a man. You lied and faked and wormed your way into my heart. You are a stranger.

 

I thank you for our beautiful child. She's the best thing about you and now I can simply throw the rest away like the garbage you really are.

[JFReyes]

J,

 

It's been a year since you left me but I still miss you so much... When you finally broke NC a couple of months ago and told me about your OLD disaster and how you've sworn it off forever, I thought I might have a chance. However, your demeanor since then has shown me that it really is over between us and that you'd prefer to be alone than with me. How sad, for the life of me I never thought I'd disappoint you so bad...

 

The problem I'm having while trying to move on is that my dating efforts -- while somewhat successful -- are hampered by the high standard you have set. I know and God willing I'll find a new love to replace yours, but like I've always said, "it's the in-between that kills me". It's up to me to get you out of my head and heart but I reckon I'm not ready yet so I'll keep trying daily until it happens. That will be a happy day for me...

 

Today I have a first date with a new lady friend, so I'm doing my part. You told me that you love me but are not in love with me, so wish me success.

Edited September 27, 2014 by JFReyes

[JDPT]

Once I get rid of this hate I have towards you I will be utterly free from you, you worthless scum!

[Agent Orange]

I hate that I miss you. I hate that you've moved on so easily, while I'm stuck trying to make sense of all this. I hate how much I want to see and talk to you. I hate that I'm willing to forgive you. I hate that I loved you enough to make me feel like this.

 

I'm pretty sure I meant nothing to you. Maybe not at first, but sometime in the last year you stopped caring about me. I should have seen the signs. Some of them were obvious, others not so much. It's hard not to blame myself for this...I never should have trusted you in the first place, and it will be a long time before I forgive myself for that (if ever). You made it so easy to believe your lies. Now I'm left with a bunch of memories and a feeling like there's a hole in the middle of my stomach. Thanks for that. I loved you. I waited for you. I trusted you. It hasn't even been six months, and it's like I never existed. You completely erased every trace of me from your life. This from the man who said he would never hurt me. Oh well, just one more time the joke is on me.

Edited September 28, 2014 by Agent Orange

[JDPT]

I hate the effing fact that it's 1.5 years after the fact and I'm still so concerned with you screwing your new love. You truly are scum you bring him to your home and mosikely screw him in the same bed I used to screw you in all night, well I'm sure you aren't faithful to him like the many times I found certain clues that lead me to believe you cheated on me. But then again that's just the type a person you are you have no character. So you will suck that life out if this sugar daddy you have found, you gold digging opportunist. As gorgeous as you are, he will get tired if you, like I did, like the next guy/girl will because yes you and I know you are into girls as well. The only person I feel sorry for is your ex husband. He truly is a good hearted man unlike what you portrayed him out to be, you are the Fawked up on, you always were. And I feel sorry for your kids as well. Your husband still has to deal with your lies. But keep in mind that I no longer need to live a double life, I never did, I never had to but I did because if you. You on the other hand will have to for the rest of your days. You choose to live a double life because it's enticing and exciting, yes I did at one point thought it was as well but that's no way to live. And my subconscious kep telling me to get the hell out of that screws up relationship. You will never find the love of your life as you stated. People will see right through you and either keep you around for sex like I did or simply move on. Yes the last year of our relationship I only kept you around because you would give it up on command. And that's just the reality of it. I no longer need to live a double life, you do you go sneak around and live in hidding for the remainder of your life fawk you!

[me85]

DAMN! While clearing you from my email list I saw your email address, now it's etched in my memory!!! ERRRRR

 

The whole point is to not be able to contact you because I have none of your contacts memorized…DEAR GOD please do not let me get drunk and reach out EVER AGAIN!

 

P.S. thanks for leaving me alone since I said goodbye.

[JFReyes]

J,

 

It's me again. The date went great, although it's too soon to to know if it will lead to anything. But it was really nice not having you in my head for a few hours. I'll keep it up, thanks!

[JDPT]

Yeah still wishing you the worst in this world. I'll make it my business to get rid of this anger towards you once and for all. This is honestly the only emotion that links me to you and I swear once I'm over this I'll be able to breathe again. I just need to find my way out of this dark place.

[StrangerThanFiction]

I really miss you today. I wish you would call or text and tell me that you still love me and that you miss me too. I hate this emotional back and forth that keeps happening in my head. Some days I hate you, other days like today I love you and I feel like I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life because no one will ever be as good as you. Is the reason you're not contacting me because you're with someone else? I wish I knew for sure one way or another. Yeah, it would hurt knowing you moved on so quickly, but it would also help me banish what's left of this delusional hope that you still have feelings for me. How much longer until I don't have to hurt anymore?

[JFReyes]

Yeah still wishing you the worst in this world. I'll make it my business to get rid of this anger towards you once and for all. This is honestly the only emotion that links me to you and I swear once I'm over this I'll be able to breathe again. I just need to find my way out of this dark place.

 

Take it easy dude, I understand the state of mind but in reality you're only punishing yourself needlessly, as she doesn't know and care. Move on... As they say in my country, "a nail drives out another nail"... Peace... :-)

Edited September 29, 2014 by JFReyes

[JFReyes]

J,

 

Not that you need to know but today I had a number of great conversations with my new lady friend. Things are looking good! Once again, wish me success; I sure do wish you luck in your endeavors...

Edited September 29, 2014 by JFReyes

[edgygirl]

I have a plan.

 

This week you will be out of my life. I hope you will.

 

He has the same personality type as you. Therefore he does seem to have that stare of yours or at least the same demeanor. He does seem to have a heart though. And a a visionary in his field. Into innovation. He works with creative stuff and might be part of the next industrial revolution. I can't wait to meet him and I haven't felt this since... you. You. I am sick of the idea of you. It's been 4 months. We were together for 4 months. I think it usually takes me the same amount of time to forget someone as I was with them. So it's about time. I am excited for this coming week. Busy at work, busy at social life. But feeling alive again. And hopefully will totally forget you very soon

 

--

 

[if You Forget Me - Pablo Neruda]

 

I want you to know

one thing.

You know how this is:

if I look

at the crystal moon, at the red branch

of the slow autumn at my window,

if I touch

near the fire

the impalpable ash

or the wrinkled body of the log,

everything carries me to you,

as if everything that exists,

aromas, light, metals,

were little boats

that sail

toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,

if little by little you stop loving me

I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly

you forget me

do not look for me,

for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,

the wind of banners

that passes through my life,

and you decide

to leave me at the shore

of the heart where I have roots,

remember

that on that day,

at that hour,

I shall lift my arms

and my roots will set off

to seek another land.

But

if each day,

each hour,

you feel that you are destined for me

with implacable sweetness,

if each day a flower

climbs up to your lips to seek me,

ah my love, ah my own,

in me all that fire is repeated,

in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,

my love feeds on your love, beloved,

and as long as you live it will be in your arms

without leaving mine

Edited September 29, 2014 by edgygirl

[JDPT]

Take it easy dude, I understand the state of mind but in reality you're only punishing yourself needlessly, as she doesn't know and care. Move on... As they say in my country, "a nail drives out another nail"... Peace... :-)

 

I totally agree today was a much better day. I honestly need to work on this grudge and residual feelings I harbor. There is absolutely nothing beyond that, that links me to that dark past. It's no longer for me to worry, I've been there and done, good luck to the new guy. And I truly mean that without any any animosity attached to the statement, it's just the reality of it. And I'm pretty sure I've heard that saying in Spanish in the past. Thanks for the encouraging words.

[Justm3x]

Me and N took S back to Sheffield yesterday, we played Arctic Monkeys in the car and we all sang our hearts out.... just like you used too when we did it. The sadness was overwhelming and I tried so hard not to cry. I cant talk to the girls about it because they hated you so much for what you did to me, what you put me through. I talk to you all the time in my head, I ask you what your doing and do you miss me, but i already know your answer.

 

Do i ever cross your mind? do you ever think about me even just a little bit, because 7 years was a long time.

 

I know you've moved on and so quickly with her, your affair. I live in hope that one day she will destroy you like you did to me and you will sit back and think, T would never have done that to me. I live in hope that she will see the real you and run and leave you and when your all alone, youll think back and say T was always there for me, no matter how bad things got, she was always there.

 

If you ever wanted to come back, im not sure if i would ever take you back because i dont want to feel like this again and the trust issues we had would just be too much for me to take.

 

I just wanted you to know in the words of AM

 

What's been happening in your world?

What have you been up to?

I heard that you fell in love

Or near enough

I gotta tell you the truth...

 

I wanna grab both your shoulders and shake baby

Snap out of it (Snap out of it)

I get the feeling I left it too late, but baby

Snap out of it (Snap out of it)

If that watch don't continue to swing or the fat lady fancies having a sing

I'll be here waiting ever so patiently for you to

Snap out of it

 

Forever isn't for everyone

Is forever for you?

It sounds like settling down or giving up

But it don't sound much like you.....

[Mandy26]

F@#@^ You!!!! 46, 2 years and you break up via texting? Its like someone said you were digging a hole and I was jumping in with you...Until I woke up Thank God:))) Money can't buy you everything dick head...especially a fufilling intimate relationship ....Adios and hello to my new day ))

[JDPT]

Busy and overwhelming day today. Yes the last thing I would ever want to do was tell you anything about it or let you know how happy, sad, or angry I'm doing. And yeah fawk you too!

[troubledhusband]

Have you ever loved someone that doesn't love you back anymore? Do you know how painfull that is? And for what? Because we weren't able to sit down and have a talk about our lifes? Oir feelings? You know... Work stuff out in our marriage. Is now too late and it hurts so bad... I wish I could have a brain transplant just so the memories of you would be out of my head... And this is why i need no contact... Not to send you this txt message

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