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[leavesonautumn]

I begged you 5 years ago to not let yourself fall in love with me. I was so scared. There wasn't a single person I trusted. You promised to love me and cherish me for life.

 

And now, it's me who is heartbroken and sad and empty after 8 months without you.

 

I doubt I will ever feel comfortable enough to date anyone ever again.

 

Thanks for that.

[Justaguy30]

For some reason this fall weather is making me miss you like crazy. I remember last fall like it was yesterday. Taking the kids to the pumpkin patch and going trick or treating. Those are some of my favorite memories and one of the most joyful times in my life. I still miss you like crazy but I have promised myself that I will no longer put energy into thinking about you as you clearly never think about me and even if you do you don't want or miss me. I feel that I could have had you back a few months ago but I was really mean to you but you were lying to me again. Its probably better that I didn't try to believe your lies even though it would have gotten you back. You would have done the same thing to me again eventually which I cannot live with. Well still miss you all the time and love you very much but I love someone who has moved on in their life and it really just makes me look like a fool. All the best hope you are happy.

[Feelbettersoon]

I really thought you'd realise after this length of time.

[Justaguy30]

I begged you 5 years ago to not let yourself fall in love with me. I was so scared. There wasn't a single person I trusted. You promised to love me and cherish me for life.

 

And now, it's me who is heartbroken and sad and empty after 8 months without you.

 

I doubt I will ever feel comfortable enough to date anyone ever again.

 

Thanks for that.

 

I feel your pain, my ex promised me she wouldn't do what she did and she did it anyway fully knowing what it would do to me. I was so scared to love her and I loved her more than myself and now I am broken. About 8 months here and just can't even function. She is no doubt healed and is fully over me and has some new guy in her life. Its so painful and my heart goes out to you. Sorry you are in so much pain.

[leavesonautumn]

I feel your pain, my ex promised me she wouldn't do what she did and she did it anyway fully knowing what it would do to me. I was so scared to love her and I loved her more than myself and now I am broken. About 8 months here and just can't even function. She is no doubt healed and is fully over me and has some new guy in her life. Its so painful and my heart goes out to you. Sorry you are in so much pain.

 

Awww, my heart goes out to you as well. I've subscribed to this thread and read all of your posts. It really is painful and just when I feel like I've made a tremendous amount of progress, it all comes tumbling down again. I've not been in contact with my ex even once so I don't know how he is doing but I guarantee that our exes really were in love with us at one point because it felt so real. It just means that we are capable of it, so it'll happen again one day .

[Arient]

I have been so busy lately as one of my best friends came back to the country. I had a lot of fun. I felt a lot of hope. I felt sexy again. I attracted guys. But why, why I still managed to collapse today, cried again in the shower, or now?? It's half a year, dear, and here I am, at point 1 again today. I guess I'm in the down phase again? At least the cycle is longer now. But tonight, I can spoil myself again, let it cry and release the wrenching pain in my heart and my stomach. I miss you. I know, I can't and will never be able to make things work for us anymore, as it's your decision to end it. But I guess I will always love you somewhat, and there will always be a corner named YOU in my heart, no matter how long time it will be... Hug you!

[JFReyes]

J,

 

"If you don't like something you end up with more of it". Or the Christian version, why do you look at the speck in your brother's eye and ignore the plank on your own?

 

I recently learned that your excuse for leaving me was your disdain for my son. Well, it so happens that yours went back -- again -- to the "witch" that you hate so much.

 

Despite our best efforts, only they decide and act upon their own lives. What hurts is the damage that they do -- out of ignorance -- to the people who love them. But is is up to us to overcome such heartbreaks and ask the Lord to illuminate them. Maybe in a few years when they have situations with their own children will they reflect on their past actions and perhaps (if we're lucky) get an apology. C'est la vie...

[Justaguy30]

What I should have told you when you came to me asking to be friends. Sure ill be your friend! How about if you do absolutely everything for me, wash my laundry, clean my house, cook for me every night and take care of my kids.... I don't have any but ill come up with something and then Ill run around telling all of my co workers you are not good enough and that I am not even dating you and ill sneak around ****ing everyone while you stay totally committed to me and then when you get upset about it ill break your nose and smash your belongings and just generally treat you like absolute ****. Then when you are having a bad day ill tell you I am not going to help you and laugh about it. You can start my car all winter every morning at 5 am because I am a total baby. After I absolutely destroy you emotionally and pretty much **** all over you life then ill consider being friends with you. Just commit the next 6 months of you life to not getting laid and living in a total hell and we will be even. Ill even throw in my mom treating you the way your mom treated me, I bet you will really enjoy that!!!! Then I will respect you enough to be your friend. Go **** yourself

[ScarlettDaisy]

You know what sucks? The fact that you are still the only man to give me butterflies and weak knees. No matter how hard I try, I can't forget you. And I meant nothing to you...

[Justaguy30]

Sometimes I wonder if I attribute this physical feeling of anxiety and pain to missing you. Do I actually miss you or does feeling like this make me miss you. How do you live with yourself? I just do not understand how someone could do what you did to me and be alright emotionally. I guess you are just crazy. I am really looking forward to getting better so that I can move on with my life and be happy without you. I will always miss your children and love them but hopefully ill be able to just forget you exist. I know you want me to be happy and you don't want me to hurt. You didn't want to hurt me but you did and I told you everyday how badly I was hurt and explained what I need from you to help me get better but you just kept driving the pain into me. I felt feel bad for what I did to you accusing you all the time but you were doing stuff. You said oh you don't know what you did to me. What is worse lying to someone and emotionally raping them or being accused of doing that. I guess you will never understand because you are a beautiful woman and will never have a lack of guys chasing after you. Of course you didn't have that hard of a time getting over me, you just kept as many men in your life as possible to mask the pain until you felt better. You were doing that while we were together. I was doing so good yesterday, thinking so rationally about this and realizing that I would never want someone like you in my life but I still miss my life with you and I think still love you. Its hard to stop caring about and loving someone you have loved for 10 years. I wish that you could have seen that what we had was real and worth stopping your crazy behavior. I think you did realize that but felt it was too late because you had already pretty much ruined anything we ever had. You are so ****ing stupid.

[Agent Orange]

I want to call you. I almost did but then I realized I had nothing to say except that I almost died last week...you knew that. I know you're aware of my situation because I asked for your help and you ignored me. It's probably a good thing that I wasn't relying on you. What I don't understand is that I'm still willing to forgive you. I hate that. You don't deserve forgiveness. You don't deserve me and yet I still want to be with you. The thing I hate the most about all of this is that you got out, got what you wanted and are happy. Meanwhile I got the short end of things and have to clean up the mess that you made. Where's the justice in that? Once again I'm stuck doing all the work while you just go along like nothing happened...like I never happened.

 

What's wrong with me that I could have ever loved someone like you?

[Emma1234]

I have such an urge to check your facebook. It has been a week of no contact now, week since break up, but i know you'll contact me on your birthday. I don't know whether to reply or not. I have such an urge to check your fb but i know it'll just set me back seeing photos you always post of your fabulous new life. I know it'll get better, I know one day I won't care but I also know that I'm going to find the next few months hard, it'll be hard just getting over you but even harder participating in all of the same things again that you made me love and enjoy but without you there. I feel empty, but i know you're not a healthy thing for me to have in my life, i have to get over you for myself! I need to move on, something please help me to move on faster, I know time heals but it hurts on the way

[Sad26]

If only I would have said 'no' to you when you asked me out that Friday. If only I had not continued our meetings beyond a week when it became a relationship. How could I not see the brutal, selfish, narcissist behind the innocent smile and the green eyes. How could I make such a huge mistake for which I have paid with the worst misery of my life till date.

 

How can you be this cruel to break up with me without giving me a chance to say a single word? I am suffering every moment and you are posting pictures of your breakfast dates. How cruel you could be that when you I texted you about the death in my family, you didn't reply but immediately posted on twitter that you are enjoying your dinner.

 

It is my mistake- why did I fall in love? Why did I misjudge you? I am responsible for my misery and I have to pay for it.

 

You live your life with all the fun you are having. You know that there is nothing called Karma, or God, or justice in this word, hence you will always have fun.

[me85]

Today is hard. All this time I've been happy to be single and still am...I don't know what I'm feeling. I just had to leave my desk and go tear up in the bathroom. I emailed you that I'm truly happy for you, to which you replied, "Thank you. I hope you're happy I really do." and it hurt when it should've felt good. I know I should not be contacting you ever for any reason. I'm very sorry and I'm disappointed in myself. I'm trying so hard to do better for myself and change my life. I want so much to be happy. To fully get over you and honest to God not care that you're with someone else and far happier with her than you ever were with me. I know you are. I know it's true. I just wish it didn't hurt me so much right now. I thought I accepted you wanted her and not me. I would've sworn I was closer and closer to being ok with it all and maybe I am and this is just a "down day" I'm having. It's incredibly hard to let you go. I feel so foolish. And jealous that you moved on and fell in love again, so easily getting over me. How come that happened for you and not for me? It's so unfair. I feel like a ****ing child right now. This is petty. I'm sure it's just my ego. It HAS to be! No way should I still be broken hearted after more than a year of being BU with. It's so stupid. Knowing that you most likely want to marry this girl, have traded the ring you bought for me and may even propose to this girl in the near future or already have...sexually and emotionally satisfied with her, more so than ever with me...the fact that you respect her and think that she's better and everything I'm not...all these thoughts suddenly popped into my head an hour ago and there's this ache in the pit of my stomach. God please please give me the strength I need to never feel the need to reach out to you again. I'm sorry.

[Arient]

I so damn want to reach out to you today, to write you some words to see how you are doing. But I am scared as hell too, as I feel that I will just stab again in the wound, which barely closed at all. Today I felt tired, and once again, be in the "can not understand" mode when thinking about how we ended up to be. I want to find some dates soon, or at least, meet new people, but you're still looming in my mind. Sometimes I just hate the circumstances too much. But I guess I have to understand that it's your love that it's not strong enough to overcome the circumstances, not that the circumstances are too hard for your love. I will try to chill today, I love you dove!

[tippydog90]

How could you do this to someone? You have no heart, no emotions, no empathy, or compassion. How could you marry someone, adopt a little girl with them and then bail out when she isn't even three years old? How could marry someone, then tell them four years later you never loved them, only married them to "get out of the barracks", and then act like you hate MY guts. I stood by you, supported you, encouraged you, loved you and you treat me like a pile of garbage you took out to the curb. How could you put me through the emotional abuse you did? Signing up for dating sites, writing women on Craigslist, screaming at me when my dog was dying, and all the other appalling things you did and said. And why didn't I see it from the beginning? You are a sick individual who cares about no one but himself and his own selfish needs. You have left me a single mom at 49 with a toddler in a tiny town in the middle of nowhere, with no support network while you go and pursue your fu**ing mid life crisis. Why do I spend my days crying over a pathetic monster like you? Why do I feel like I am having panic attacks. I feel like such an idiot for ever believing a word out of your lying mouth. So I tell you what buddy, watch me pick myself up and build a beautiful life for myself and my daughter and leave your sorry a** in the dust.

[mangetout]

Why am I thinking of you a lot more today? Why do I feel all warm when I think of you?

 

 

I was doing fine for weeks on end but suddenly I feel your entire presence today. I can cope though. I can live without you. Just find it odd how my feelings come and go

[TamYBella]

I don't know what's going on. One minute you telling me you never want to break up and you want to work things out and the next you never talk to me anymore like I never mattered at all. it's all about her now, you tell her the words you use to say to me. You tell her you love her and I'm sitting here crying over you. Thinking about all of our memories. If i go away for a while would you miss me because you are use to me being around or would that just get you closer to her? God I miss you so much and I wish I could understand what you are doing and why you are doing it. I wish i knew if you really loved me or not anymore. God this hurts so bad

[Xemyd]

I want you to come back just so I can say no. I can honestly now say that I no longer want you back and I finally see you for what you truly are. Not for me.

[Sad26]

How much more you want to hurt me ? What could I do for you to stop hurting me, what will give you your highest point of enjoying my torture. You know I can't kill myself or I would have given you that ultimate satisfaction.

 

Before I met you my life was so good. I was happy, used to enjoy the simple pleasures of life, getting up in the morning, getting ready for work, enjoying the cup of coffee on the way to work, enjoying my work. Now I don't have any of these. I lost the job, which I liked so much. I have to now change even the country. I lost all my friends because they don't to keep listening my miseries. What more of my pain could I possibly offer you ?

 

 

Please don't hurt me anymore. Please don't. I have no life left to take anymore pain.

[edgygirl]

3 months post-breakup, 2+ NC and finally I don't miss you anymore.

 

Yay to that. Yay to NC. Really the only way to go. F you.

[edgygirl]

Wow. That happened to me a day before you. And I felt exactly the same. Not sure if I would have asked him either. That says so much about a relationship, doesn't it? Thank you for your post.

 

I had to go to the emergency room yesterday. I felt pretty sorry for myself, sitting there alone. Then I got to thinking that even if we had still been dating, I wouldn't have felt comfortable asking you to come with me. I never felt sure enough of your feelings to ask for that kind of support. That made me feel grateful that we're over. I might be on my own right now, but at least I'm free to find someone who can give me what you couldn't.

[Sad26]

3 months post-breakup, 2+ NC and finally I don't miss you anymore.

 

Yay to that. Yay to NC. Really the only way to go. F you.

 

I don't even believe this will ever happen to me. When would I feel normal again. I think I am the damaged kind of person that's why this BU is so hard on me and I am not feeling normal.

[Hello201]

Happy birthday

 

I was never happier than when I knew you , then I didn't know you any more

[W101]

I told you I would give you the chance to prove yourself, seeing you try so hard for me and fighting for me to the death isn't the experience I dreamed it would be, it's a hollow feeling that leaves me thinking all this effort is too little too late to change anything, a lot has happened, I've seen things in my head that I can't possibly unsee, it's changed the way I see you through my eyes, when I say I love you now, only half of me means it, the other half feels too broken up to feel anything at all, I don't know how much longer I can carry on this charade, the idea of hurting you by walking out of your life for good is the only thought right now that causes me immense pain, I don't know if I'm strong enough to know your going to go through that kind of pain.

 

I know your sorry and wish you could go back to change everything that's happened these past few months, seeing you so broken up yesterday was more than I could take, more than anything I wish I could forgive the past and move on, I will do that, only, if won't be the way that you want it to be, when I walk away I'll feel no remorse for doing what is right for me, I'll look back feeling no guilt, there's nothing you can say or do to change anything now, I'm sorry.

 

 

For the last time, I love you, I'm going to miss every last part of what you meant to me all these years, our love was truly a wonderful love indeed. <3