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[Justaguy30]

I still miss you everyday, I don't know why. Its over forever and it sucks. I wish you had been better to me so that we could have fixed this. Ill always miss you.

[edgygirl]

Finally. No need to contact you anymore. I finally stopped loving you.

 

What a bless.

 

I've been expecting this moment for the last 3 months and it finally happened when I stopped trying too hard to forget you.

 

I feel blessed for the 3 sets of people who crossed my way this week, specifically on Tuesday. It was a self-discovery day. The first person took me to an event that caused me to realize things I should be seeing and thinking about in a spiritual level; the second person was a guy I met who kind of fell in love with me in 3 hours and said he wanted to date me (super interesting guy, and although not right for me age-wise, it felt really good); and the third encounter was with 2 guys friends visiting from abroad who reminded me how many good acquaintances I have and how my whole life is not just my current life right now. So much fun. All in one night.

 

Where did it lead me? To understand that:

1) You were insensitive and blind to me as a person in a spiritual level. Do I really want that for my life? Did I like you so much to be able to ignore that? Probably not.

2) I am awesome and lovable and super interesting guys can fall for me within hours if they get my soul. Unlike you, who never did.

3) I have to reconnect with my acquaintances. I obviously gave all the free time I had to you only as I was respecting our relationship and wanting it to work, but I think all I did was becoming a less interesting person to you. And you didn't even appreciate my effort.

 

In any case. There was probably a reason why we didn't work out. It wasn't a good match. I am not supposed to be with someone who can't connect with me in an emotional and spiritual level, who doesn't know how to make a girl feel special (what was the "we are the type of people who have many choices and there is no such thing as only one person who is right for us in a whole lifetime" line of thinking? - OMG! How romantic lol! I get it, you're rational and not an emotional person, but it's so sad for someone to think like that, it means you never truly loved someone from the right place in your heart, what a sad life...) and who is not able to fulfill emotional needs I have.

 

While I can't say I'm a 100% over you, I think you were not a good partner. You only wanted to party and never get to a deeper emotional level. I don't think you got to that level with your former 4-year gf either. I am not sure you are capable of that and I am not sure if you even realize it. Without realizing it, you won't be able to work on that. And that's probably not a good match for me.

 

I believe now that there is probably a reason we didn't work out. It is much easier to see it without being in contact with you and having the distance I needed to sober up without all the emotions involved.

 

Tomorrow I am starting the process of the procedure we talked about doing together. It feels weird of course to do it by myself. But I don't think you could ever truly support me emotionally throughout the process. You are just not that kind of partner anyway.

 

So it's probably a good thing I am doing it by myself.

 

Maybe that's the cosmic reason you came into my life. To show me that I had to do this. This is very emotional for me to think about it this way. I feel tears might be coming to my eyes right now.

 

But the events of this week helped me realize that the universe seems to have its reasons, no matter how they make us suffer. The reasons need to be there to make us grow as individuals. You probably came into my life to make me grow as a person, to reach the place I needed to reach, and to understand my utmost needs, that although you are a catch and probably good on paper, this is not me as a person specifically need. I need a true partnership, someone who is sensitive to my needs, and is able to share their inner world with me and take on mine. (While I still miss your companion, the awesome sex and the fun times...) You are not that.

 

Here's hoping I will hopefully be 100% over you soon.

Edited August 29, 2014 by edgygirl

[Justaguy30]

Well here we are, I know you are not happy. A mutual friend tells me how you keep posting on facebook about how sad you are and how you are a loser. Well what did you think was going to happen when you threw away everything with everyone that actually loved you. I still miss you every single day. Maybe there is something wrong with me. I have reached out a thousand times trying to make it right but at this point I realize that there is nothing in this world that I could do to fix any of this. I am so sorry that you are sad and not having a good time. At least you have the most amazing two children I have ever met in your life right! They love you very much, I need to learn to be patient about all of this and just let the years go by. One day we can be friends again but I doubt it will be anytime soon. Until then I hope things get easier for you. I miss you a whole freaking lot and wish that you would stop being such a bitch and just be something to me. Hope you get better, I fear that one day ill hear that you have passed away and that will crush me. You mean the entire world to me as you always have for half of my life. Hope it all gets better and one day you figure out how to stop all the pain inside of you without using drugs and having meaningless sex with people. My heart goes out to you. Sorry bebe

[Cjr1981]

- 30 + days not seeing her

- 14 + days complete NC

 

I was actually doing good this week. A friend of mine said look,

You just have to let her go. If she comes back to you, she's yours. If she doesn't, she never was.

 

This was working until I wake up this morning, the Friday before the long weekend and I wake up with tears running down my face, numb feeling, not knowing why really.. Then a minute passes and I remember my dream, my beautiful ex dominated my dream. No words. Just there looking absolutely adorable and beautiful.

 

Pain is intense. I wish I could feel nothing.

[Lostdreams]

You've been gone since two months and I have to admit I have had way better days than today

 

The weekend is approaching - this used to be our time - maybe that's why Fridays are harder. I miss you so much .............if only you knew, if only you would reach out to me....

 

But then if you did what the heck would I do ? That's the most absurb thing, you threw us away like a piece of trash - you decided your life was better without me in it - Is that the kind of guy I want to be with ? No way

 

I'm grieving for what we once were - not what we are today - I hope that this gets easier soon ......... I just want to be free of this sadness

 

Todays Silver lining

You've made me rediscover the deep value of friendship, more especially those supportive friends who are close by me now - every day - this is true loyalty and love.

[edgygirl]

I really thought we could've worked it out

Even gave us the benefit of doubt

But we couldn't stop playing around

Didn't understand, but I do now

Sometimes I wish that we could get it back

Because everyone deserves a second chance

But we can never go back like that

It's a shame how our good thing turned so bad

Too bad, baby

So sad

Look at all that we could've had

Just too bad

 

[Cam'Ron - So Bad]

[myhearthurtsbadly]

You were my best friend and I really need you right about now. It crushes me to know that I wasn't yours.

[Cupid's Puppet]

You were right. Everyone does wear flip flops out here

[Lalocket]

you don't deserve me. i hope she gives you everything that i apparently could not. i will find someone that gives me the same. my heart is in a million pieces and i think yours is already healed! i want to understand why you are so hostile towards me and what i did wrong. i hate you but i miss you.

[hedyo]

I had to go to the emergency room yesterday. I felt pretty sorry for myself, sitting there alone. Then I got to thinking that even if we had still been dating, I wouldn't have felt comfortable asking you to come with me. I never felt sure enough of your feelings to ask for that kind of support. That made me feel grateful that we're over. I might be on my own right now, but at least I'm free to find someone who can give me what you couldn't.

[Justaguy30]

I wish we could talk like reasonable people but every time we talk you feel attacked because I want to know whats going on in your life but you are too embarrassed to tell me and it really sucks. I know I am supposed to stay in no contact but I want to talk with you so bad. a few months ago we were talking and it was really nice but I got upset because you were always busy and wouldn't tell me why. I later found out you were dating the guy you were cheating on me with among other people which I already knew. Why couldn't you just put everything out in the open so that I could deal with it and be like okay that is how it is. I was not mad because that is what you were doing I was mad because you lied to me AGAIN! Like tonight I would really like to just chat about life and see how the kids are but you are too much of an ashole to do that. You don't care about anything but you getting stuffed by a bunch of dudes. I hope that some day you see that there are much more important things in life than sex. I know you are not happy and maybe talking to me just upsets you and brings back all the bad feelings and makes you remember what you did to me. I so badly wish we could just start over. I love you so much and have not been able to get over you even though you are a awful person and a pathological liar. How could you do what you did and sleep at night or feel okay. I am sure your actions haunt you and will forever. That makes me really sad because I care about you and want you to be happy.

[LostConfused123]

You suck!!

But I love you! At least I got to tell you this before ANOTHER round of NC.

you would think this time would be easier but nope. Hurts just as bad as it did almost a year ago.

Why did I fall for your bread crumbs??? If I had stayed strong and ignored you, I would be over this by now. But then again, I wouldn't have ever had the chance to tell you I love you.

 

Which I don't regret, by the way. It's the truth.

 

Well, anyway, sleep well baby! I love you!!

xoxo

[OffRail]

I deleted my blog because it was just a bloody desperate way of keeping in touch with you. You thought I didn't know that you were checking it out, didn't you ? It hurt all day yesterday that you hadn't visited it since Sunday morning - I thought WTF, how needy and desperate am I being if you avoiding my blog was such a big deal, and just went ahead and deleted it, to sever that tie as well. After all, if I going to be honest with myself, the only reason I even had a blog was for you.

 

Anyway, the blog is gone and you were already blocked on my phone & email. But I still think of you. A lot. Some days - like yesterday - were awful difficult.

 

When, oh when, will I be able to block you from my thoughts and feelings ?

[CDRdelta]

You make it look so easy. You just switched off your emotions and made me look like some desperate loser trying to win you back.

 

I did NOTHING wrong and you treated me like dirt.

 

Here's how I see your priorities:

 

1)You

2)Your Work

3)University

4)Friends

5)Your DAMN IPAD

6)Your Car

 

100) Us

 

I'm not exaggerating that fact either. You just don't realise it. You manipulated me into thinking everything was my fault. I went through all this before and you pulled me out of it. Now you're kicking me back in and spitting on me.

[Agent Orange]

Our last conversation didn't go as I hoped it would. I miss the days when I could go to you if I was upset, and you would help me feel better. All I wanted was some help and you made me feel like a jerk for asking. As much as I hate losing you, I know it was for the better. You're a truly vile individual. The thing is, I hate myself even more for loving you. I may not have been perfect, but at least I didn't lie about the important stuff. Last night I was thinking about how bad things were for us around this time last year. My anxiety really did a number on things. I wish I could have made you understand how much pain I was in, but that would require you to have empathy...and a soul.

 

As much as I miss you, and as sad as I am that our anniversary would have been this week, I deserve so much more than you are capable of giving. I don't think my hatred for you will ever last more than a few hours or days. Hopefully it will turn to indifference, but right now I pity you. You will never understand love, or friendship. You're like a less ambitious, less intelligent, talentless version of Voldemort. It must really suck to be you.

[Xemyd]

I heard this song for the first time yesterday, was it a coincidence that it was right after I saw you?

 

My life isn't a movie, I know it means nothing but I still hoped you'd call me.

 

 

Say something, I'm giving up on you

I'll be the one, if you want me to

Anywhere I would've followed you

Say something, I'm giving up on you

 

And I am feeling so small

It was over my head

I know nothing at all

 

And I will stumble and fall

I'm still learning to love

Just starting to crawl

 

Say something, I'm giving up on you

I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you

Anywhere I would've followed you

Say something, I'm giving up on you

 

And I will swallow my pride

You're the one that I love

And I'm saying goodbye

 

Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you

And anywhere I would've followed you (Oh-oh-oh-oh)

Say something, I'm giving up on you

 

Say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something...

[me85]

Every since my Grandmother died, I am different. I feel a great deal of sorrow, yet I'm stronger. I'm more spiritual. My life's changing. I want to live life to the fullest. I'm choosing happiness above all. Life is just too damn short not to be inspired and take hold of my dreams. I'm going for it.

 

The fact that you didn't even bother to send me so much as a card saying you were sorry for my loss, really really was finally it for me. Why did you ask for my address in the first place??

 

After more than 3 years of history with me, after all we went through...all I got was an email from you telling me you'll pray for me and my family. Oh and coldplay's "fix you" video...which infuriated me to no end because it wasn't appropriate in the least to send me a song with those kind of lyrics, about a man trying to fix his woman's broken heart after her relative dies. That is a song for couples, or at least for friends who are close and spend time together.

 

I don't want you back. But it would've been nice to know you cared enough about me to call or send a card. You knew how close I was to my Grandmother.

 

You are not a decent individual. You are selfish and have no idea what love or friendship is.

 

I am very sorry I reached out to you in such a vulnerable state of mind...that I reached out to you at all. I've had a few extremely emotional nights over the last 2 weeks.

 

I don't love you anymore. In any kind of way. I meant what I told you. I was serious about wanting you to stop contacting me. All this time I have been able to refrain from anger but if you contact me again I'm going to unleash all mighty hell upon you.

 

I just want to not think about you like I don't think about any of my other exes. I'm happier without us staying in touch. You have your life and I have mine. That's that. I'm letting go. You're not worth my anything. You never were.

 

I'm not angry. I know I sound angry but I'm not. I won't go there again. It isn't good to be angry, so I'm not...nor will I be. I'm just done. Reeeeeeeaaaaaaallllllly d.o.n.e.

[btvdts]

I almost slipped the other day. I almost sent you a letter I wrote. I wrote it almost a year after you broke up with me. its funny, well its not really funny how things still seems strange to me here. At first I thought, she will reach out to me soon, but you never did. In retrospect, I never did either, just like I said I wouldn't. that's because I was afraid of being hurt again by you. I think my biggest fear was that the day I left you stopped thinking about me right then and there. I truly hope that it wasn't that easy for you to forget me, but I guess I'll never know. You still cross my mind once in a while. When I'm home alone I think of you because the house is so quiet. I try to stay busy so that doesn't happen often. all in all I've come to the conclusion that I will love you until the day I don't. I hope you are well. that I will always hope for. you were one of my best.

[Cupid's Puppet]

(bless the person who started this thread)

 

I am trying so hard to let you go but my heart keeps putting up a fight. You are forcing me to forget about you and our love. Baby I'm so sorry. I never meant for it to end this way. I want to cherish our love for as long as I can. It feels so wrong to push you out of my mind. I understand you are ready to find "better", but you will always be best to me.

[Dontfindme]

I hate you, H.

[Allumere]

Simply put you are missed...10 months and I miss you the same. We have had random contact (no worries folks, the reason for breakup isn't something that is fixable so contact is strictly as friends) but I miss talking to you and hope you and the kids are well. It's been quiet lately, so maybe you have meet the one this time and giving her your full attention. Hopefully one day soon, you will reach out, fill me in, and we can have a proper conversation. I can accept you wanting to go a different direction relationship wise but will be hurt if we don't stay in touch....makes things fell like a waste.

[Nathaniel Hawk]

Lately I miss you twice a month.

[Amy74]

Thinking about you....

[Keepsake]

Loathing You

[edgygirl]

I don't care about you anymore. Not that much. And I think of you less and less frequently.

 

Went out with a guy tonight I felt extremely attracted to for the first time since we broke up 3 months and a few days ago.

 

He jumped on me almost right away. Kissed me and was all over me. It felt awesome. Such a hot guy and so attracted to me. I did remember you and compared him to you. But he was so delicious, I felt alive for the first time since our breakup. So yeah... F you.

 

So fing F you right now.

 

I'm glad I went home by myself and didn't let it continue to bed or so... it was so animalistic that I think it would. But it was good to feel alive again. I'm glad to know you didn't manage to kill my soul THAT much.

 

ps: I bet you didn't hurt as much and are already with someone... awesome for you that you don't have a heart but that's not how it works for me in general.

 

Such a hot, nice guy... more than you are. Yet, I missed our unspoken mental intellectual connection. F you.

 

I'm going to "clean" my signature from you tonight. So this is for the record, 2014:

 

"| BU: 06/01 | Me: NC since 6/21 | Him: NC since 06/25 |"

Edited September 7, 2014 by edgygirl