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Gosh you sound like my ex

 

LOL, I hope you meant that in a good way :p

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How many girlfriends have you had since I left you? Oh, don't forget to count the one you continued to date after you cheated on me. From the outside your life looks perfect. You think you are Joe Cool and you act like him too. But I know the truth. I know how incredibly screwed up your life is. It's not easy being a sociopath, is it? It's great for a while, until you get called out on your behavior or end up in jail, or simply get abandoned when people get tired of dealing with you. So go on. Go ahead. Keep cheating on women. Keep screwing people over. Keep on with your incessant "hamster on a wheel" life. You never get anywhere. You will never get anywhere. You're just a pathetic moron who can't cut it in the real world but pretends like he can so he doesn't have to see what a loser he is. I feel sorry for you. I know you didn't ask to be a monster. You just are. You just are. Try to stay out of jail, this time okay? Sheesh!

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Well its been a month and a half now. It still hurts a lot, like being shot in the heart repeatedly each day. I am no longer a complete mess, I have picked myself up a bit. I miss you. I still have a little hope each day that you will end this craziness, but it never comes. Being unemployed has made filling my days even harder, giving me more time to think of you. You threw me out of your life at a really crappy point in my life, I could have used what we use to have to help me get through, now its all just piling on top of one another. I want to send a message to you, let you know that I miss you and ask again if there is any way we can save this relationship, but I won't as it will only push you further away and hurt me in the process. I still love you and wish you loved me too.

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People keep telling me that when I get past this I will be stronger but I don't think that's true. You broke me down to the point where I was so low I can barely function. You lied to my face every single day, you made me feel worthless as a human and a man. I wish you knew how it felt to be cheated on like that. You would sleep with anyone just for a thrill and I loved you more than anything in this world. That really hurt me so badly and the pain even 6 months later hasn't gone away. I think that a little piece of this pain will always be with me for the rest of my life and that is punishment that no one deserves. Why did you feel that you had to punish me for your actions? I would like to add that it really hurt my feelings that you didn't even wish me a happy birthday. Last we spoke you said how much you cared about me and this and that but that is bull ****. You don't even care about your kids or yourself. You are a cold heart'ed little bitch. Hopefully someday you will see what you have done to everyone's lives and you will have to feel this way but it would likely kill you.

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Every night I lay here and think about what happened. I think a part of me is trying to make sense of it but it will never make sense to me. Why would you start a new life with someone only to ruin it and abuse the person you loved so much. I guess you never really loved me, that has to be the answer. How could you hit someone that you loved. How could you sleep with so many other men while you loved me. You couldn't, I still have trouble dating and sleeping with other women because I still care about you on this really deep sick level. By all reason I should hate you and not even think about you. I messaged you a few days ago asking for my stuff that I never even had the chance to move out since you are such a huge bitch and you told me to **** off. If

I had known you were like that I wouldn't have ever even been friends with you no less dated you and asked you to marry me.

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So I stopped checking your FB and Twitter. Yes no more stalking for me I'm going to try to commit to that. It's not like you lead an interesting and beside you will be moving across half the way the world and as I said I wish the best.

 

 

I have to admit I'm glad your not messaging me anymore. I think our relationship run it course and it's best for us to stay away from each other for the next months and maybe a year. We are on good terms I think OK terms , but I'm allowed to ignore as I'm going through my own personal crisis , so it's not about you it's about ME.

As I said one day we will meet for coffee after years to come and maybe never, but right now I have to commit to stay away from you.

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I am missing you again.

 

Two months today.

 

I hate that I miss you. I don't want to miss you. I bet you are doing well.

 

"It's the last goodbye I swear

I can't survive on a half-hearted love that will never be whole"...

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**** you. That is all.

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Still trying not to reach out. I've been really anxious all week so the desire to talk to you is almost too much to handle. Then I remember how you always manage to make a bad situation worse, and the desire passes but before I know it, it's back again. I don't know what to do anymore. You haven't tried contacting me either, so I know you're not thinking about me. That hurts even more. Part of me wishes we really could be friends but I know that's a bad idea. I only wish I still had you to turn to....even though I know you're a horrible person.

 

Thought I saw you on my street the other night and almost had a heart attack. I knew it probably wasn't you, but I still wanted it to be and I don't know why. All this has me wondering what's wrong with me to have cared so much about you. I know I wasn't perfect, but at least I didn't lie to you. What you did is unforgivable but for some reason, I'm still willing to forgive you.

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Hearing from you would heal a hundred hurts

I'm so worried about so many things

But a word from you would bring me instant comfort

I remember it always did

I don't know how to survive everything that's happening without you

If I don't write here I will surely write to you ten times to no reply and only feel worse.

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2nd active true active no contact where after muting you on twitter and unfollowing you on FB it's like you are just not there. I admit the truth is that I do regret not letting you go months ago , but I guess I did not want and I was not ready because I was going through my own **** and I did not want to loose you even though I should came to term with it as long distance sucked the life out of me and I was miserable. I was the mature one telling you nice things even though gosh you could have told nice things but whatever I don't need anymore and I never needed you , but I wanted you and you made me feel safe and now you just don't.

 

Your like an image of the past of a guy that sucked into his charm , but never really fulfilled me joy. I guess maybe what happened needed to happen ,so I can no longer long for you or try again with you because I would know better. I think even though I did love you but the fantasy is what I in love with when I refused to leave you kinda. We where never going to meet in a road even though you tried and I did but we met at the wrong times in our lives and even if we met by the right I'm not sure I could have fixed your commitment issues or even fix us as a whole. We both were better off as friends and maybe we will get back to being there but I doubt as a close.

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I broke NC (I think) 12 days ago. I say "I think" because I am not sure if she ever received the text because I am think she blocked me on her phone.

 

The bottom line is that I am a little sad about it because I am 100% sure that it was my final attempt to ever contact her again.

 

I started NC 2/9/2014 and broke it a few times.

The last time she ever responded was 3/18/2014 so its been 3.5 months since

we ever had a real interaction.

 

NC has helped me heal and I am still healing.

I was hoping the NC would make her miss me enough to want me back but what I found instead through NC was proof that through her inaction to make contact she essentially showed me just how little I really meant to her.

 

So NC really helped me rule her out as someone I can ever trust to be there in tough times.

 

If she wanted me in her life she could have easily put me there.

 

My ego took the rejection hard and this more than anything is what I have to work on. That is, the self-esteem, part.

 

I was completely shocked at her inaction but just goes to show how overblown my ego was.

 

I am becoming more humble now. I am working on loving myself.

I know she doesn't love herself.

 

The best case scenario for me is she is really taking time to work on herself

and if she is, I would be proud of her. I don't want to hate her. I don't want to put her on a pedestal either. I just really cared about her and hope that she finds happiness someday.

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Has it ever occurred to you maybe I'm going through hell right now because of my family situation and maybe I just don't feel like talking to you.

Maybe as you said we don't need to talk remember when we are together you weren't interesting in talking :rolleyes: ahh like yes of course I would do a favor I'm not a hateful person and I never wished harm or failure , but sometime people need their own space for unknown reasons without needing the ghost of the past that irks them ad pisses them off.

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I am still just broken. I can't enjoy my life because you punished me mentally and physically. You knew what you did you evil ****ing bastard. For what reason would you do this to someone. Did it make you happy to break me down so low that I almost died?? You should be in prison or a mental institution and sure as **** should not be allowed to have custody of your children. I really hope your retarded ex husband catches on and makes sure that happens. You are scum of this earth.

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Why do I still miss you and think about you every single day. I wake up thinking about you most days and often think about you all day long. I think it has a lot to do with the fact that you put me through hell. I was so anxious about you cheating on me it put my mind in some sort of loop or something. My therapist says it will get better with time and it has but you really should feel horrible for doing this to me. I am going to jail tomorrow for 5 days because of the DUI I got shortly after we broke up. I don't blame you for that because it was my doing but you sure know how to hurt someone. I often wonder if you are happy or if you think about me very often. I can't imagine you are too happy seeing how you have done so many horrible things and how could someone who will screw pretty much anyone be happy. I am sure its a really low place for you living in a town where you probably see someone you have slept with pretty much everywhere you go. A part of me feels really bad for you knowing how much pain you went through in our relationship and i caused a lot of that. I think you wanted to stop what you were doing but I was pretty much always upset with you and your actions. I mean how was I going to calm down after you did even half of what you did. I still miss you every night as I lay in bed and try to sleep. I loved you more than anything in the entire world and I know for a period of time you felt the same way. Its just so sad that things went the way they did. Ill probably always miss you and that is hard to deal with. Peace beautiful, hope you are better

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I love you. I miss you. I so wish that things could have been different between us. I knew all along I wasn't enough to make you happy, but I tried to ignore it. I hope you manage to resolve your issues. I hope you realize now that you need to be at peace with yourself and your past before you can find happiness with another person.

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I still anonymously check your Facebook page.

I created a face page just to spy on you--how sick is that.

But you knew that already, didn't you? I didn't make it very anonymous because I wanted you to know that it was me--my way of reaching out.

 

Just like I know it was your way of reaching out by posting about my home town, my favorite rock group, and the foto of you wearing that shirt I bought. I still think about you and you still think about me...and that's okay. I realized that doesn't mean anything...doesn't have to mean anything. Maybe you realized it too and that's why you stopped contacting me. It's not that you realized that you didn't love me. You did...I did...but now it's time to move on.

 

I see the women who like your status updates and comment on your pictures and I try to figure out which one of them you are dating. I want to laugh because they are all old, trying to look young and sexy...but I can't laugh. I imagine you looking at their fotos, comparing them to me, silently criticizing their baggy eyes, fleshy faces and deciding that you will settle.

 

I don't want to go back in time. Even in the beginning when we were crazy in love our relationship wasn't good. It was always segmented and separate from everything else. I always called it Fantasy Land and Fantasy Land is fun...but it isn't real.

 

Maybe that's my hang-up with you...I know our relationship wasn't every really real but my love for you was. Maybe that's all I really need to acknowledge. I loved you like crazy...like a crazy person. You called it a couple times--that our relationship wasn't healthy. So now we're moving on...and that's good.

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THEY all say - it's his loss, he will truly regret this, he must be crazy, how can he walk away from you - I guess the only problem is THEY are not you

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Just so you know I was going to write back. I'm not angry or mad. I do miss you and care about you a lot. I think about you all the time and hope things are well.

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I warn you guys...this is long. But I need to post it here instead of unblocking her and sending this to her.

 

I really want to send her a message like this. So I will use this outlet instead of bothering her:

 

"This is what I wanted to prevent. This is why I told you to stop everything with him(guy #1). Yes, I was immature and rude and angry. So PLEASE, forgive me for how I handled things. I was everything I wasn't supposed to be. But it honestly hurts me so much knowing that I'm giving you my loyalty before we meet in real life and you do this to me. You have to keep some other guy as your back up. You deny it to me and say he's just your friend. Your best friend. You even got drunk at some party and "kissed" some other guy(guy #2). I saw how you were on cam. You couldn't even sit straight and you admitted you couldn't remember some things. I FORGAVE you and TOOK you back while your friends were leaving you. And then you keep in contact with that guy from party. And when I find out you get mad because I spy and can't trust you. Obviously it's my fault I can't trust you and you have done nothing wrong.

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I still wish you would show some sign of missing me.

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WHY????????

 

Why did you have to play me like that? Why did I stick around? WHY DID I DO THAT TO MYSELF

 

 

 

 

 

I miss her even though I see how bad she is. How is that even possible, for us to miss someone we knew that was playing with us and keeping us as choices. That conversation was when we broke up and had limited contact for 3 days. When I started talking to her again I found out she went straight to him and became "confused"

 

What in the actual ****?

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Coming to terms with the fact that you probably never cared about me has shaken my core. Everyone told me you were a good guy. I never thought you'd use me. I never thought you'd play with my emotions like they were a toy.

 

I was doing so well these past six weeks. I was improving my life and now I feel broken all over again. I can't believe you feel no guilt over this whatsoever.

 

I hate myself right now because I'm still hurting over you. I wish I never met you. There was no purpose to you ever entering my life. I have learned nothing from you. If anything, I have realized that caring has caused me pain. My life was better never having known you.

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Over you and no desire to contact you

I can't believe it!

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I've been having a rough time lately and all I wanted was to talk to you about it but I knew you'd just make it worse. In the end I pulled through, resisted temptation, and made it a few more days without you.

 

Today was pretty awesome, and I wish I could tell you why but then I remembered you'd find a way to ruin it.

 

Wow...you really do suck.

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