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[love1336x]

I don't think I ever loved you.

Yet why am I so sad for you?

[love1336x]

Today is a miss you type of day.

[leavesonautumn]

I've been doing so well this past little while and I've been finding it easier and easier to push you out of my mind when I want to. But this morning has been awful. I dreamt about you last night and woke up remembering that you haven't talked to me, not even an email, since January. This is the longest time we've gone without any type of communication. You usually come back by now. Part of me wants you to and the other part is happy that you haven't. I have this gut feeling that you met someone. I hope she was able to give you what I couldn't . I gave you everything, all of my time, I was so sweet to you, our sex life never faltered and it still wasn't enough I'll never be enough for anyone if I couldn't be for you in the 5 years I poured my heart and soul into loving you.

Edited July 13, 2014 by leavesonautumn

[love1336x]

Today a tough day. Not really doing much but laying in bed.

And trying to give advice to people.

Miss you like always.

[mangetout]

I think of you all the time, don't know why. Maybe questioning something that was and no longer is. Seeing us like a dream. But I don't miss you and thats a damn good step forward.

 

My prices of letting go is now happening

[Thegreatestthing]

I told the boy I'm dating that I was coming to these forums

To ask if he was Into me he said I don't have to ask anything

Because he is very very Into me,we say I love you every night.

It's pretty great,I am starting to forget you as my head is filled with him

I don't see how I could ever forgive your silence ,so many emails and

Not one reply.

[Justaguy30]

For some reason I really miss you today even though I know you don't miss me. I pretty much slept all day besides going out for a couple of smokes. Its pathetic and I am trying so hard to just be a normal person again but you really ripped me to pieces which I told you while we were together but I guess you were hoping this would happen to me. I have missed you all day and am still missing you even though I know that we can't even be in the same room without hating each other which makes me sad. Why did you do all of this to someone you have known for so long. You knew what you were doing was very wrong and disrespectful to not only me but your children. Do you just not care about anything in life? I miss cuddling with you like we used too in CO and just laying in bed watching TV talking about nothing. Its really hard, hope you are having fun tonight with who ever you are with. I am very sad and lonley

[Justaguy30]

I'm banging your suppose friend.

I'm addicted to his sex. His lips. His eyes. Everything.

He's my happy pill while you are away.

 

I hope i dont crash down hard, but other than that. I been hanging out with friends more, ive been more active. Simply more happy and with peace of things I cannot change.

 

What I can change is what I feel and the way I view stuff.

And I'm happy.

 

Why do girls bang guys friends when they break up. Do you know how hurtful that is? My ex slept with a few of my friends when we broke up and it still really hurts me.

[Justaguy30]

I have been trying to date other women and everyone I have hung out with is a better person than you. You are just rotten to the core yet I still miss you. You are so entertaining and fun to be around and pretty and I just adore you. Its hard to not compare other women to you even though I try not too. One of these days ill find someone that just makes my life amazing like you did. I am still confused how someone could make me feel so damn good about everything and then turn around and absolutely ruin my life like you did. You were evil and mean at every turn. I mean its been 5 months and I don't even have the rest of my stuff from our apartment. A normal person would have let me just move everything out but not you because you are a cuntrag.

[hockeydan]

I realized what I did wrong in the relationship, by being too easy going and bending to her every need. She got bored, I realize that now and all I want to do is tell her I had this realization and I know what I need to do. I want to tell her that I am going to fix this and be a more independent and interesting person. I know I shouldn't contact her, but I want. I want to let her know and see if she will give us a chance.....

[pappa k]

Damn I miss you so much. I wanted to marry you so bad. I wanted us to be a family so much. I understand I messed up our relationship with my drinking. I just wish you would give me a chance again

[Justaguy30]

I got myself into a little pickle today with a friend and used your way of lying. I hate to lie but in this case I had no choice. I let someone know what my friend did and they of course used my name in calling me out. It was kind of interesting lying like you did to me constantly. It really made me realize how often you were lying about everything haha. Anyhow thanks for showing me how to properly lie to someone. You are very good at it and me being the honest person I am I never really knew how to totally spoof someone. I generally don't do anything wrong so that I don't have to lie. It makes life much easier and you can feel good everyday knowing that you didn't do anything wrong. You wonder around always feeling like **** because you are always hurting someone and lying about everything. You should seriously try not doing that sort of thing... You might feel good.

 

On a side note I find it very interesting how you use people. You see people as objects which you can use to get what you want. One of these days the entire town will know how much of a nasty slut you are and no one will want anything to do with you. At least no one of quality which seems to be where you are now. Hanging out with low life drug dealers and sleeping in trailer parks. I had the realization that your Ex husband is better than me. He has a better job and makes way more money. He bought you a car and did everything for you for many years while you were acting I assume the same way but he put up with it. So I guess in retrospect losing me wasn't that big of a deal but you really ****ed up with him and he is the father of your children. When you lose your kids maybe you will realize how bad you messed your life up but you don't care about anything and you never have. I imagine for you replacing me was is pretty easy besides the fact that I actually really cared about you and your kids. One day you will realize that I gave you everything and was there for you constantly and finding a man like that isn't easy when you have two kids and act like a total bitch. Well I guess you did realize that but even that realization wasn't enough for you to want me. You sat there and told me how I was everything to you and it was all my fault. By the way for someone who has slept with so many men you really suck in bed.

Edited July 14, 2014 by Justaguy30

[love1336x]

If we ever did get back together....

Would you forgive me for sleeping with your friend?

 

Why am I feeling regret?

[love1336x]

I have a heavy dark tension today that won't fade away....

[Thegreatestthing]

Spoke to the new guy on skype all night ,it was beyond wonderful

Afterward I couldn't get him off my mind and I feel as if I've forgotten you completely.

I am definitely falling for this new boy.

(For those suffering join OLD immediately and meet someone else)

[Justaguy30]

If we ever did get back together....

Would you forgive me for sleeping with your friend?

 

Why am I feeling regret?

 

Perhaps you could shed some light on this. I am not judging you but why do girls do this. Is it to feel closer to your ex or to get revenge

[redbaron005]

If we ever did get back together....

Would you forgive me for sleeping with your friend?

 

Why am I feeling regret?

 

Did you apologize for this?

[SycamoreCircle]

When you wake up from all these ridiculous fictions you created about me, about us, about yourself to justify dumping me and f***ing and following that new guy(with his cheap suburban Satanism), putting him on a pedestal, fashioning yourself into a mature, determined, career woman, when you wake from these chimeras, you're going to fall so hard on your face. You'll pick yourself up and the smack of the concrete will be imprinted across that once lovely mug. You won't recognize yourself. You'll find yourself old, less attractive and damaged. You'll come looking for me. A true man who gave you everything he had, who loved you wholly and completely, who would have sacrificed everything for you. But I will be moved on. Released and happy, doing my thing.

[Justaguy30]

I don't know why but for the last three weeks Monday seems like judgement day. I can barely get my **** together to go to work and spend half the week in horrible emotional pain and regret. I don't know why I miss you every second of everyday. Is it because you abused me so much and it just got my mind going on how I could fix things or is it because I loved you so much. I mean I loved you to the point I would have died for you. The thing that you missed in the entire relationship is that all you had to do to fix things was tell me the truth because if you can't admit your wrongs then how would I ever be able to trust the fact that you are now telling the truth. Today has been really tough on me for some reason. I am back to having a upset stomach and feeling very tense.

 

I just don't understand why you strung me along for so long acting so mean and cold and would never just cuddle with me or kiss me just to do this while acting as if the entire thing was my fault. You really have no idea what you have done to me. I am a total mess everyday just thinking about the same thing over and over. You literally drove me insane and I don't know how to fix myself. I am in therapy and hopefully starting meds soon but this is just ridiculous. Before I met you I was pretty happy and had my own life. You got me to move to another state in a town where I can't even work in my profession and then got me arrested for battery because you went crazy and parked my car in the middle of a highway and ran off with the keys. I just don't know what to do. I am so lost, most days I get home and just can't stand the fact that the kids are not there to hangout with and then I sit around until I go to sleep thinking about what happened and I wonder what you are doing... No doubt hanging out with other guys which is fine and normal but damn it I miss you and I can't figure out why. You were only the person I was in love with for the first 1/3rd of our relationship and I spent the rest of the relationship trying to get that person back but you were always on the defensive side making me feel like I needed to fix it which was bull ****. How could I have fixed the mess you were making. How was I supposed to be nice and not accuse you of things when you were coming home late every night or leaving for work hours early telling me you were just going in early. It made no sense at all and you were cheating and lying. What I didn't understand was that you didn't care about me and you were just using me to pay bills and take care of the kids. I wish I had just walked away in Oct. when I was still a normal person and didn't feel this horrible but I stupidly let you damage me perhaps beyond repair and now I lay here. I lay here in misery feeling so alone and hurt and you have just moved on with your life like I am some horrible person. I mean you went around telling everyone how crazy I was and controlling and abusive which is utter bull ****. You were the one doing all of that and trying to convince me I was in the wrong.

 

It has gotten so bad that I have resorted to posting on websites like this just to vent because no one else in my life wants to hear it anymore. They just think I am pathetic and can't understand why I would be so upset over a stupid Biitch like you. But for some reason I am and I can't help it. I feel like you are the only thing that can fix me but you refused to be kind to me while we were together so even the idea that you would try to help me now is absolutely insane. I just can't live like this anymore, I am not suicidal and don't want to die. I just don't know that the Fck to do anymore.

[love1336x]

Why an ex would get a rebound sex, or buddy.

It is way better than feeling down and crying and thinking about somebody you can't have...

 

When you can spend your time with a person who wants to be with you even though might be sexually... Still nice.

 

I think that's why I am healing up nicely...

Don't get me wrong I still think about you every single day.

I still love you, and chances are if you wanting me back i would dumped this rebound for you. But im not hurting not being with you.

[redbaron005]

I cried today honey. I hope it all was worth it.

[Justaguy30]

Why an ex would get a rebound sex, or buddy.

It is way better than feeling down and crying and thinking about somebody you can't have...

 

When you can spend your time with a person who wants to be with you even though might be sexually... Still nice.

 

I think that's why I am healing up nicely...

Don't get me wrong I still think about you every single day.

I still love you, and chances are if you wanting me back i would dumped this rebound for you. But im not hurting not being with you.

 

I wish I were able to do that. I am too picky with my partners and can't just enjoy spending time screwing someone I don't actually have feelings for. I know I am not a normal person. Most people enjoy that sort of thing and it helps them heal. I am not trying to bring you down or say anything bad but screwing someones friend is just dirty. How would you feel if he slept with your friends? I mean its no friend of his anyhow if he is hooking up with you. It just confuses me

[Justaguy30]

I guess what I am missing in all of this is that I made you feel like you were never going to be good enough for me and it really hurt you because you really did truly love me. You cheated on me and lied and I was only able to forgive you if you were honest but you chose not too be. I know you tried for a few months and I still thought you were doing it and maybe you were IDK. It really pushed you to just give up all together and turn into a sex crazed maniac which I am sure was very hard on you. What you have to understand is it was so incredibly hurtful to me and your children as they were always waiting for you to come home but you would rather be out screwing some stranger as you said for an hour instead of coming home to your children before they had to go to bed. I mean they were not even my kids. It still pisses me off that you want me to believe that I made all of that stuff up in my head and that you never did any of that. I mean it was just pathetic. Then you come over to my house 4 months after we break up and tell me how much you miss me and you are touching me and kissing on me telling me how much you miss banging me. Well too little too late *******.

[love1336x]

I wish I were able to do that. I am too picky with my partners byt can't just enjoy spending time screwing someone I don't actually have feelings for. I know I am not a normal person. Most people enjoy that sort of thing and it helps them heal. I am not trying to bring you down or say anything bad but screwing someones friend is just dirty. How would you feel if he slept with your friends? I mean its no friend of his anyhow if he is hooking up with you. It just confuses me

 

I've always been like that. Always having to be in a relationship in order to have sex, but I sorta wanting to change things up. Break out of my moral code that I hold dearly and have fun!

 

My ex isn't losing any sleep for me.

My ex had a new girlfriend less than a week of is being broken up.

 

So, I'm going to do what makes me happy!

Plus I've known this guy longer than my ex. It just took this break up in order to push things along.

[edgygirl]

It's been 22 days since my last email to you.

 

It's been 19 days since your last email to me.

 

1 month and 2 weeks since we broke up.

 

--

 

4 more days passed and I am back from my vacation abroad - and for me going abroad is the best way to get over someone. I feel it's working its magic.

 

On my way to work today, I realized I do not miss you / being with you. I was amazed at this, as I've been so sad on the morning commute for a few weeks while remembering you and the nights we've spent together and how we parted on so many mornings this year.

 

But not today - today I wasn't sad. Today I remembered clearly how you were mean to me out of nowhere and for no good reason. Immature. A bad partner even. It's so much easier to look analytically and not sentimentally at your behavior when I don't have the influence of missing and craving you like hell.

 

Do I really want in my life someone capable of being as mean as that for no good reason? Someone who can become blind to our shared intuition and awesomeness just because of his mental laundry list? Despite all your incredible brain, you seem dumb to me right now. Yes, sex was amazing. We connected. We could have been a super power couple and have an amazing fun life together. But you took it all for granted.

 

Nothing like some distance to achieve clarity. Good luck in finding again what we had.

Edited July 16, 2014 by edgygirl