Post here instead of contacting your ex!

[newenglandkid]

As mad as I am at you for the other night, I am sitting here trying to get my mind off of you, but I am secretly hoping that you text me something, anything.

 

I miss talking to you, I miss seeing you.

 

I wish you didn't give up on me and us (just as you told me a few days ago)

 

I wish we can work this out, I still love you...

[irresolute]

I wish you'd loved me as much I loved you. I wish those ****ing walls you said you had, weren't there anymore, because inside those walls you're the person I wan't to be with. J. I loved you, I told you this so many times, and I told you to not let me go. Yet you preferred to be with all the other women in your life.

I wish for you all the best, I forgive you and I forgive me, and I also wish I could forget you, but not because I don't love you anymore. you are in my heart now and forever. I need to forget about you because this is destroying me. I need to let you go.

I loved you with all my heart. I'm sorry it wasn't enough for you.

 

OMG :_(

[Justaguy30]

I am so confused since we last spoke, I miss you everyday and since you apologized I no longer feel so much anger towards you which I am very thankful for. I do however still miss you and wonder if things could ever work which is totally insane of me after all the horrible things you did and especially all of the lying which you still do. I have never loved someone more and a big part of me wants to make up with you and make things right but I know you would always just lie to me to try and make me happy while you cheated on me. You could never not cheat on me and that I could not live with. I want to be your friend but you refuse to be honest with me about anything even the fact that you are dating someone else. I know you don't want to tell me because you think it will hurt me and it would a little bit but I have come to accept that you see other people. You obviously had relationships with other people while we were dating so whats new now.

[AnyaNova]

 

Ok! This is it!

 

I have decided I'm not going to post here when I've found someone else. You can just wonder.

 

The song? Well, I don't particularly want to get you high, but well, The Writing's on the Wall. You're gone. And I want to see some happiness and pleasure in my own eyes. And you know what, since I really decided to let you the heck go and sever the empathic link, I've had a lot more.

 

I am one of the most loyal and empathic people you could ever meet, but you know what? You made your decision.

 

Goodbye. And I mean it.

 

Forever.

 

I've got a life to live and its going to be a great one.

[VanessaVanessa]

Dreaming of the new.

 

Piece by piece.

[gj13]

I can't stop listening to a song called Back to December. I'm really sorry about the hurt i caused you a year ago, i know i should've been there and i wasn't and that was the start of our end as a couple. If could change something around, it'd be that because i really miss you, i love you and i'm sorry i failed at times. You failed me too, and we both gave up. I really wish we had a last chance to fix it up and be better, i know we would. God, i miss you...but i know this is all for the better.

[edgygirl]

I woke up from a nightmare with you. I try so hard not to think about you but you keep popping in my sleep and waking me up :/

 

You responded to that email so sweetly that I felt confident last week. And because it made me feel confident about trying again, I also replied in a cute and hopeful manner. I talked about our fertility thing that we spoke about in the past. Silly me. Only to get a reply 2 days ago cutting my hopes off...

 

After that email I got so turned off by you and a few words I read that I decided not to respond anymore. Move on. Cause deep down you're a jerk.

 

What a surprise that today you wrote again, even though I didn't reply. Saying you reread your last email and you think you sounded cold and you didn't mean to be mean. Sending me an article about fertility and saying "maybe" we should talk when I come back from my trip abroad. Hmm I see...

 

Why do you want to talk about?

 

a. You may be realizing after my lack of response that you're being an idiot and perhaps we should talk about the fertility thing?;

b. you're just testing to see if I am still around waiting for you and available?;

c. you just feel bad for having no reason not to be with me and having written that email and want to be friendly to feel less bad about yourself?

 

UGH!

 

I don't think I will answer you. Maybe after the next 3 weeks, when I'm back... if I decide to. Because now I feel that I'm the one who also has to do some thinking. You were blind to my soul and who I am even though you're mega brainiac. Maybe bc you are. For now, there's no use in answering. And I have to think if you indeed could be right for me as you are not a nurturing person. Can I live with that?

 

The funny thing is most times in my life there was a window of opportunity for people to regret. Those who really liked me and didn't take, did not get back to my life again. And one of them certainly regrets it up to this day. He tried to reconcile over and over. The window was gone.

 

You have to feel my absence for real and perhaps realize what we could have had. If not, good luck. Although I feel you're not missing me. How could you, if I wrote 10 days after we broke up? You need time without me. As much I hate to think about it, you should meet 1-2 people and see how it's not magical as it was / could have been with us.

 

I am moving on for now. I am taking care of myself. Amongst a few others, two specially gorgeous successful guys are interested. Why is it I am still thinking about you then? Out of my head!!!

Edited June 25, 2014 by edgygirl

[leavesonautumn]

Finally meet someone who I'm interested in and who is into me and yet, I can't stop comparing you two! It's so unfair, why can't you just get out of my mind, I feel so crazy

[Oregon_Dude]

You moved out today. Good luck. You won't ever do better than me.

 

Ever.

 

I can easily do better than you. Don't know why I settled for you. You were good for a while. You became an annoying child.

 

Love ya babe. Later.

[edgygirl]

Hey you idiot. I'm getting sick of the idea of you

 

Yay to me!

[edgygirl]

Remembering how you surprisingly got self-conscious after I didn't reply to your jerky response.

 

And... you wrote me again, apologizing. Interesting.

 

Saying in the end that "Maybe let's talk" when I'm back from my trip. Whatever that means.

 

This time I won't reply. I won't try to show you "we're" worth it.

 

Let you have it now. Let you miss me and maybe realize what you're losing.

 

And even if you don't realize, I WILL meet someone who has a bigger heart and forget you.

 

I know I will. Even if it takes a long time. I will.

Edited June 27, 2014 by edgygirl

[Oregon_Dude]

Today I got an iced green tea. I've never gotten an iced green tea before in my life. Coffee and especially you have been making my stomach sick. Mostly you. But I've been trying to do different things. Because of you.

 

Now that we're not together, I'm going to do whatever I want. So are you. I accept it. All that time we would've sat around here doing nothing, I can now apply for jobs, play music, date. I wish you luck but you need a lot of it, your life's a mess. You pretend it's ok but you're broke, needy, annoying, childish. Am I being cruel? Good.

 

I don't think I feel hurt anymore after finding out that you lied. Not to me explicitly, but to others, about things that matter. I could never be with a liar. Did you lie to me the whole time? I'll never know, but I'll be fine. Without a liar.

 

Please take care of yourself. I still love you in a sad way and want you to be happy and ok. Come get your f*cking bed and dresser. Bye.

[VanessaVanessa]

Those moments aren't yet a blur

But I want them to be

 

This day was not special again

But I wish tomorrow would be

[IrishEyez]

Its your birthday today. I've tossed around the idea of sending you a message to wish you a happy birthday..........but......to what end? I've decided the best gift I can give you is a big day of NC wrapped up in a ****ing ribbon. Why you hang onto this novel idea that I am still your best friend is beyond me - probably to make yourself feel better I guess. So by the end of the day I hope you feel that twinge of my indifference towards you. Yes I am bitter,but am getting better, yes I miss you, but I will live. The days get better, I get stronger - at the moment I wish nothing good for you. You so easily forgot our past. I know the silence will hurt you today. Good!! So rather than write it to you, I shall write it here. Happy ****ing Birthday!!

[Mary Oak]

Hi, I miss you. You will never know how much.

 

Today is a bad day for me. I wish I were just going home to my old life. To you, the girls, and the weekend full of possibilities.

 

Instead, I will go home alone. Because I can stand to be around anyone when I am feeling like this. You will go on to your GF's probably to a weekend of possibilities. You may be spending the weekend with your one week old nephew. How nice.

 

Whatever the case you will not be thinking of me

 

I love you and told you I always will. WIsh it weren't so. It will be two years next Friday that you broke my heart. "Independence Day". I see the irony.

 

Been wanting to tell you to listen to this song... especially these lyrics...

 

Remember when I told you I was never going to stop

Lovin' you with all my heart and soul no matter what

Now it seems I'm breaking every promise that I made

'Cause every night I'm desperate

Askin' God if He would just let me forget it

But I wake up lovin' you

 

Bye again.....

[sportygirl]

Today is a bad day for me. I contacted the ex. We dated briefly over a year ago and tried to stay in touch as 'friends' on and off. He pursued me, and continued to be the initiator of all messages for a few months after he broke it off. I was devastated as soon as things ended, and kept responding to him as I wanted any form of contact. Now he's easing off I'm missing him even more. I'm trying NC and just broke after 2 weeks. It wasn't even to say anything profound!! WE just chit chatted. not about anything important.

 

All the while I just want to tell him that I wished I was the girl he was looking for, that I was sure I was the one who could make him happy, and that I would do anything for him to feel for me the way he once did.

 

But I know deep down this isn't what he wants. He replies because he's polite and probably bored. I know he's with no one else which makes me even sadder as it means he'd rather be alone than with me.

 

I'm so upset. He's the only man I've ever felt for. I'm 29 and I fear that I've lost him for good, and that I'll never feel this way for anyone else. I'm so desperately sad.

 

I wish I could turn back that clock and have him look at me the way e once did. What I wouldn't five for that moment again xx

[Always Pondering]

came on Pandora today when I was driving home and I'm glad to say I didn't feel sad or mad, not even one bit. I even sung along and it was a nice sunny day. The funny part is that you're the one who loved the song so much but you're the one who gave up. I feel relief however and I know my life can only get better from this point.

 

I have nothing else to say but I have been curious about a thought lately. I wonder after everything I've learned, will I still be "blinded by love" in my next relationship like I was with you? Maybe it'll happen, maybe it won't, maybe I should wait until I'm older.

[love1336x]

Yesterday was stupid.

Yesterday was fun.

Yesterday shouldn't have happened....

 

I am glad I did not sleep with you. I feel so much better about that.

But, holding your hand and you calling me babe was nice.

 

I am so tired of all these failed relationships, after a while... it gets to you... like what's wrong with you? We started off as friends... I miss you. I want to text and called you, we are good together... I freaken just wanting more of your time... but let's face it... you was after what's between my legs.

 

You rather had smoked pot with your friends every single day vs being with me. I need a man that wants to spend time with me. that wants more than what's between my legs.

 

to listen to me, to want more than smoking weed...

 

I know you love me i guess... i dunno... I know i haven't been perfect. I'm sorry.

 

but how was am suppose to react when i felt like I was begging for your time? Pleading and wanting to spend time with you, and all you could do was spend time with your friends!!

 

I am suppose to be YOUR QUEEN! Not the SIDE MISTRESS! While your friends are the KINGS. What kind of crap is that?!

[love1336x]

I miss you....

I miss you...

How can you let go of a person who loves you?

'That's what I don't get when people end it. How can you let go? How?

 

I've done it before... with two other men, but it took forever and a day.

 

Now there you! </3

[love1336x]

I check on her twitter account.

I can't for the life of me remember if your living room couch had pilliows.

I would always go straight to your room.

 

Blah. Why should I care if you sleep with whore?

Why?

[CopingGal]

Been thinking about your a lot lately- especially when I wake up...but it's not enough to contact you. I don't think I will ever be that desperate. I don't date severe dysfunctional men anymore. God help any woman who dates you.

[Allosdiver]

Hey M,

 

How're you doing?

 

I'm feeling like **** really. Not hearing from you, not seeing you, it's killing me. You have to know.. I changed. Ever since some point last year, with my dog getting ill, I just started shutting out the world. I'm sure you noticed.

It made me think being alone would make everything better, that if I'd be in my comfy lonely corner, I could die in peace without more hurt.

 

I now realize what I did to you in acting like that. You loved me, but I never repaid you.. you were the most important thing in my life, ever since we got together, and I didn't even tell you it. I got annoyed over everything you did just so I could push you away and be alone, and I didn't even TRY to be connected to your life.

 

I am so sorry M. Please hear me out, please give me a chance to just show you that I am becoming myself again.. the me you loved, not the one that just murdered your feelings for me.

 

Forever yours..

 

 

 

postscriptum : yes. that's begging. I really, really feel like begging, and I know it won't do me any good. She detests me at the moment, she suddenly decided I don't deserve any kindness from her within the duration of one party, and before she went she even gave me a (virtual) goodbye kiss. It wrecks me to tears, but this seems to help..

[Always Pondering]

Hey M,

 

How're you doing?

 

I'm feeling like **** really. Not hearing from you, not seeing you, it's killing me. You have to know.. I changed. Ever since some point last year, with my dog getting ill, I just started shutting out the world. I'm sure you noticed.

It made me think being alone would make everything better, that if I'd be in my comfy lonely corner, I could die in peace without more hurt.

 

I now realize what I did to you in acting like that. You loved me, but I never repaid you.. you were the most important thing in my life, ever since we got together, and I didn't even tell you it. I got annoyed over everything you did just so I could push you away and be alone, and I didn't even TRY to be connected to your life.

 

I am so sorry M. Please hear me out, please give me a chance to just show you that I am becoming myself again.. the me you loved, not the one that just murdered your feelings for me.

 

Forever yours..

 

 

 

postscriptum : yes. that's begging. I really, really feel like begging, and I know it won't do me any good. She detests me at the moment, she suddenly decided I don't deserve any kindness from her within the duration of one party, and before she went she even gave me a (virtual) goodbye kiss. It wrecks me to tears, but this seems to help..

 

At least it's good you posted here instead of actually sending this to her . It would've turned out disastrous. I hope you and your dog feel better though and I hope it's not something too serious with the dog. Your dog can be one of the best comfort sources for you in a time like this.

[Allosdiver]

At least it's good you posted here instead of actually sending this to her . It would've turned out disastrous. I hope you and your dog feel better though and I hope it's not something too serious with the dog. Your dog can be one of the best comfort sources for you in a time like this.

 

Would that he were alright, but he died then.. the trauma over that (that magnificent beast was like a brother to me) twisted me to wreck over my entire relationship, and just now she walked away I woke up from my dissociation.

 

Thanks for the care though, you couldn't know that.. it's appreciated greatly

[love1336x]

Not feeling well... today.

been so tough.