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[LostConfused123]

You tore my heart out, gutted me like a fish, left me for dead, said we.couldn't be friends, then you f.ucking text me months later that you're thinking of me???

 

WTF????

[SunsetWay]

Every time I hear that song by Coldplay, I get a sense of tremendous remorse and so badly wish that we could go back to the start and do it all differently.

 

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry

You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you, tell you I need you

Tell you I'll set you apart

 

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions

Oh let's go back to the start

Running in circles, coming in tails

Heads on a science apart

 

Nobody said it was easy

It's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh, take me back to the start.

 

I was just guessing at numbers and figures

Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science, science and progress

Do not speak as loud as my heart

 

Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me

Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles, chasing our tails

Coming back as we are

 

Nobody said it was easy

Oh it's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

 

Hello, my name is Sunsetway. It is such a pleasure to meet you...

[STM206]

I would be lying if I said I didn't still think about you and wonder how your life is unfolding these days. I feel like I've lost someone that was so special to me in so many ways.

 

4 years of us are now only a memory. I think about all of the good times we shared together, the late night talks we had, the cuddling on the couch watching our favorite TV shows, the trips to "our" Leavenworth, the happy times of holding each others hands, the I love you mores, the touching of toes at night, the early morning texts, the smell of your hair when spooning you before we drifted off to sleep, the smell of your cologne in the morning after you showered, the excitement of seeing your car pull in the drive way after work...

 

All of it, gone.

 

Why haven't you reached out to me? Why haven't you called saying you made the biggest mistake of your life? Why aren't you here with me right now so I can tell you this to your face?

 

I don't get it, I tried the best I could being that this was my first relationship. I navigated blindly, learned through the process but I guess I didn't do enough.

 

I hope you're happy, but I know deep down if you're happy then it means you've forgotten about what we once shared... So I guess I hope you're a little bit sad, sad enough to feel my presence in your heart as a reminder of someone who loved you unconditionally.

[STM206]

Keep your chin up STM and stay strong! Both you and I know you and the rest of us here will make it through. For a very, very long while I remembered the day my ex broke up with me. However! As of nowadays, I have completely forgotten when that day was, heck I even mix up two months and cannot tell which one it was.

 

I promise you things will be better!

 

Thank you.

 

Trying to stay positive that's for sure! Your words warmed my heart. <3

[love1336x]

I'll always be your 2nd choice, won't I?

[sooshi]

I miss you, even though I shouldn't.

[lamis]

I'm so mad at/dissapointed in myself that the knowledge of you being in a relationship has undone so much of the work I have done over the last couple months.

[VanessaVanessa]

Sometimes I wish I could get inside your head to uncover how it was that you ever thought your behaviour in our last month together was fine. I wish I could know why you chose to do things the way you did. I wish that just for one day you could feel this deep and consuming disappointment that I have been for the past half a year. I hate that I believed the things you told me. Why the hell did I think that this would go smoothly? Why the hell did I think you would fight for us? I have so many questions and the reality is that it may be in my interest never to know the truth, and that ******* hurts.

[STM206]

I had a dream about you last night, the first dream I've had in a long time.

 

Our paths crossed again, and we were hanging out - then before I knew it we were holding hands.

 

Upon waking up I for a split second thought that you were here again only to find that reality had crept back in - and my heart sank.

 

It's bad enough I think about you through the days, but do you have to creep into my sleep? Playing out beautiful fantasies that aren't true? Sleep seems to be the only relief I get from you.

Edited May 7, 2014 by STM206

[sooshi]

Hey, you.

 

So you flirted with my best friend a few days after you left me. You were drunk. You apologized to us both the next day. I let it go.

 

Less than two months later, you told me you liked her. That you had developed feelings for her gradually over the previous couple of weeks. But you told her that you'd been rejecting your feelings for a long time, meaning you had shoved them down. You've never met her. You've barely ever communicated with her. But you chose to pursue the object of your infatuation over our friendship. Over my friendship with her. Over her relationship with her partner.

 

If you had decided to pursue your mentor's ex-fiancée instead, would you have done it the same way? Or even at all? I doubt it. I doubt you would've pursued her without saying anthing first to your mentor. Why? Because you respect him and you want him in your life.

 

I don't think you truly ever respected me. I don't think you came to want me in your life, not truly. I think you kept me around after you left because you didn't want to seem like a big jerk. And as I learned about you pursuing my best friend, I felt like you only kept me around because... well, so you didn't look like a big jerk.

 

If you had pursued your mentor's ex-fiancee, would you have sent your mentor the love song you wrote for his ex, if he had encouraged you so much to write music? I don't think so.

 

Because you respect him.

 

You know how much she meant to me. It was your idea to help pay for her trip to our wedding if she needed help, because you KNEW she was THAT IMPORTANT to me.

 

I learned how much you truly value me, and how much you care about and respect me: not at all.

 

Not at all.

Edited May 7, 2014 by sooshi
*two months, not three months.

[AnyaNova]

It's official.

 

I signed the lease on the new place. It is over: you really didnt strike me as if you were telling me the complete truth when you said you werew going to keep my contact info.

 

Which means if you didn't, as soon as I'm out of my current place you will have no way to find me. And it will be really real 100 percent no going back.

 

I'm looking forward to the clean break which you have already made.

 

And there is a dude in my life who I really hope will want to cuddle with me on my new private porch. :-)

 

Well see what happens.

[Haydn]

Like this A LOT. Anya. Good for you.

 

 

It's official.

 

I signed the lease on the new place. It is over: you really didnt strike me as if you were telling me the complete truth when you said you werew going to keep my contact info.

 

Which means if you didn't, as soon as I'm out of my current place you will have no way to find me. And it will be really real 100 percent no going back.

 

I'm looking forward to the clean break which you have already made.

 

And there is a dude in my life who I really hope will want to cuddle with me on my new private porch. :-)

 

Well see what happens.

[sooshi]

Good morning, friend of the sun.

 

Where have you gone? Are you shining at all?

 

I miss you.

[NCGirl1983]

I can't even believe you would abandon your 4 month old daughter in order to go back to a toxic relationship with a woman who is so SICK of your **** too, that she is no longer in love with you, and is using you.

 

SHE'S NOT EVEN YOUR WIFE.

[NCGirl1983]

You and I were friends for years...I was there for you through all the BS she put you through...the relationship was dead LONG before you and I ever even met, so WHY are you continuing to beat a dead horse WHILE ALSO now putting at stake the chance to have a beautiful future with two people who would love you???? You and her have been off and on for freaking 10 years, when is it ENOUGH??? Everyone wants this over, except you two. And really, you guys do too, that's why you slander the hell out of each other behind one anothers back to anybody else who will listen (and not JUST romantic partners, so thats how I know its genuine feelings about each other).

 

I hate BOTH of you.

 

But what I really cant wait for....what I'm REALLY ready to see...is within another few weeks or months, when she goes frigid on you AGAIN, and starts refusing you love and affection, ESPECIALLY now due to finding out about me.................you'll be trying to come back to where the friendship, hot sex, and love is....will it be there? Maybe, maybe not!

[NCGirl1983]

Tomorrow marks the first day of NC!!!!!!!

 

I already ****ed up by texting my heart out this morning...well sir, you just save those texts and let 'em marinate because they will be the LAST you hear from me for a while! I even blocked your texting on my phone to make sure I can control myself....you'll have to CALL if you wanna check on me............I mean it this time! I'M DONE!

 

I love you and I miss you so much.

[love1336x]

I am so angry.

I will never be a priority in your life. ever.

 

EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Haydn]

Yet again your selfishness shows itself. Time to stop and let me go as you did. So go, you will find nothing here now.

[AnyaNova]

It is rainy and so I am a touch morose. Not too much, though.

 

I think very soon, I will start to imagine? think? That your disappearance was so perfect, so complete, that you are nothing more than the ether you disappeared into.

 

A ghost. Demon lover. Phatasm, Non-corporeal.

 

And maybe that is the problem. I want to miss you some, but whoever misses the fog?

[STM206]

Patsy Cline has been with me since I was a toddler. My mom would play her records all the time. Through the years I always found comfort in listening to her angelic voice as it would touch me in a way that a lot of music can't.

 

I always knew what she meant when she sang her songs... But I never really knew what she felt, until now.

 

"Crazy, for thinking that my love could hold you..."

[Erlaad]

Great, another ExDream.

 

"What would it take for you to come in my bedroom?" you asked. Your mom was staring at me. almost in tears. Pretty much like last time I was there.

 

I didn't want to come in. I didn't want to be hurt. Sorry honey, I'm not risking emotional hurt again just for a shot at bedding you. I'm not that person anymore.

 

But what was I supposed to do? I tried to resist you but my heart still longs for what was. I came in and you closed the door.

 

What did you want to tell me? I do not know, I do not remember. Was it a reconciling dream or just another messy fight?

 

It doesn't matter: I will not break no contact, no matter how many dreams I've made or will make. I've sacrificed way too much in order to heal (including money, friendships, family). I will not fail just because my brain is tricking me.

 

You left me because of your whims when I was doing my absolute best for us (which now I know wasn't the best I could be, only the best for the time). I told you I was going to disappear and you just ignored me.

 

I'd like to curse at you but I know it would only hurt me. So I wish you happiness, peace and love in your life, exactly the way you want them.

 

God knows if it make me sad to say this.

 

- Erl

[Jam3s]

Frustrated. It has been 6 weeks since the break up and I was going relatively well with coping and NC and then BAM today she contacts me and it wasn't just a "hey hope you are going well" type of contact, it was a "I was an idiot, I regret breaking up with you so much and I wish it could be different" type of contact. I explained best I could that what was done is done and there is no going back but that really hit hard. In my mind I was playing scenarios of her moving on the same as I have been and that made it easier for me but to know now that she regrets it and wishes we were still something has thrown a spanner in my emotional works.

 

The NC begins over again now but I feel like I am back to square one with recovery, frustrating.

[VanessaVanessa]

It's been raining the whole day again today. I walked around the city looking for gifts for my mum and sister. Everyone I look at isn't you. But not even you are the you I thought anymore. We live on the opposite sides of the world and that is about as far away as two people will get. I saw couples walking by and some seem really in their own zone. I got pretty wet once I walked to the bus stop, I had an umbrella in my backpack but with the bag of shopping I just couldn't be bothered holding it up too. Things take a lot of energy for me nowadays. A man offered me a space under his umbrella, it was really kind of him, and then I noticed that he was about your height so naturally those memories just flooded right back into my head. I am trying really hard to just distract myself on a daily basis but it feels like some days I take two steps backwards. I wish everything was linear but it's not and it hurts so, so much. I wanted to see you again more than anything. Some days I wonder if you really understood that I was willing to make a lot of people uncomfortable just so that you could live at my house in your visit...but that never came to pass. I loved you. I actually thought things would come together and it would be okay. I come home now and my fu***** father isn't here, and it sucks that he was the one who made some things difficult by telling me it wasn't a good idea to have you stay with us and that it would not be appropriate if you did end up coming for you to stay here. Well, he doesn't live here anymore as of very recently. Isn't that funny. You're just left with no answers and nothing really makes any sense. For a few days I've been wondering what I will do with those shirts of yours that you gave me. Do I mail them back? Is that 'too' rude?. Do I throw them away? But I won't do that because I still remember the story you told me about them. Do I keep on having them in a hidden drawer forever? What the hell do I do if I want to let all this piercing pain disappear?

 

I don't want to love someone who has probably been taking out some other girl out for a while now. I don't want to love someone who isn't here. I don't want to be like this not even another day. I wish I could just sleep for days until I just woke up like as though I had been reset.

[lamis]

I had a dream about you last night. It sucked.

 

It was at some point in the future, and we were on a hiking trail or something. But it wasn't just you and me, it was me and the guy you're dating now and two kids you had with him. What was weird is, in the dream I don't really remember being upset or anything. We were all just friends.

 

When I woke up was a different story. It was a pretty devastating feeling. I don't understand why I can't bring myself to hate you or really get angry at you for longer than maybe a day. Love is stupid.

 

Have a nice weekend.

[NCGirl1983]

good morning

hope you have a good day!