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Ally1993 Member

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I just don't understand you! Last time we spoke you told me to leave you alone! And then you keep walking past my work, you walked past six times! Was there any need really?

You told me to leave you alone which is fine but you should leave me alone too.

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ThatOneGuyThat Member

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"I just don't understand... How could you be so selfish and untrustworthy? And now you're spending everyday with the guy you basically cheated on me with? Don't tell me you don't have feelings for him.

 

Do you think he's more attractive than me? Find him attractive while we were going out?

 

I guess you just think he's better hence why you left me and just moved straight onto all your time with him."

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missunshine Member

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Here I am.. In bed.. Its time for sleeping.. Its one more day without you.. Its one more night without your good night... I miss you so much.

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STM206 Established Member

STM206

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How is it fair that you leave me for your ex, and you're off in Lala land, happy as can be - yet here I am 4 months later still hurting? How come I can't fathom the idea of being with anyone else - yet you were already in bed with someone "new" not even 2 months later?

 

I have a good heart, I loved you unconditionally and appreciated the simple things when it came to us, the cuddling and kisses, the late night talks, the things that money couldn't buy!

 

You tore my heart out and didn't even bother to look back... I stood there in shock and you proceeded to pack up your stuff and move across the state.

 

How is it fair? I guess for the first time ever, I realize that life really isn't fair.

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AnyaNova Established Member

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Sweet one,

 

I finally did it. I acted on what I knew in my gut. You had no intention of using facebook to reconnect. I know that now.

 

You are never getting back in any sort of touch. You will never provide me any resolution or assurance that you are ok after that last night and your utterly traumatic reaction to the complete separation you were imposing and insisting on.

 

So I did it.

 

I deleted your contact info. All of it, even that message that I buried in my inbox with it. I asked my parents to delete the extra copy I sent them as a security against accidentally deleting my own because of my ADD.

 

I deleted all of our messages and pictures.

 

And I blocked you on facebook. I had to. Hoping that one day you might accept my facebook request or at least message me with something was killing me.

 

It is truly over now. And I will have to find a way to reconcile the extreme pain you were in and accept that I will never get to have assurance that you are ok. That I will forever be left with the image of your suffering and pain. And the pain your pain caused me.

 

Goodbye sweet one.

 

We really really were a ****ed up couple weren't we.

 

God. All I wanted to do was show you that people could be trustworthy and show you what it felt like to have someone truly love you and care about you and truly validate your feelings.

 

I really right now cannot say which of the two of us is more ****ed up. But I'm really starting to suspect it is probably me.

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a1dasauce New Member

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yeah i want to call you that and then some.. what you did to me after a 5 year relationship, and 3 years of sacrificing to help you in school, jobs your sons little league teams, your daughters softball teams.. running around for you and your mother all so you can tell me.. "I WANT TO DO ME" chicken **** lame excuse ... you selfish bitch..... you take you take you take, then you give me the NO CONTACT attitude so you can move on easier.. i hope the next guy you ****...has a little dick , or a huge dick you you are ****ing immobilized you insensitive piece of ****..i hate you, i hate that i gave you everything and with a SNAP of a finger you replaced me.. after all i have done, the only good thing is you have no friends..so now you have to make new ones, now you have to start all over again as everyone is pissed at you for what you have done to me to us.. unless it was all a game for you... i can't stand you and i know our paths will cross and when they do .. i will be as cold you have taught me to be.. you ruined pure love, total love, unconditional love... all for your selfishness because you like attention.. you bitch

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CopingGal Established Member

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I hate you. I hate you for putting me back here. T, L, J, and now you? How many more rejects can I take? Thing is, I really tried. I tried to be accepting, I was patient. I was kind. I took some time and did some soul searching. And while I was doing soul searching, you were in the process of kicking me out of your life? What the HeLLL? No sorry? No sensitivity...just some jackazz who can't understand why I'm so upset....really? You may not be a sociopath like my ex, but you are approaching sociopathic territory....no sorry? Really? No sorry? How can that be? What kind of screwed up bastard are you? You ask me out and ask me out and shower me with all kinds of attention day after day and then you turn around and kick me out of your life, with no sorry? Really? Chuck you!

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JoelBarish Established Member

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Sweet one,

 

I finally did it. I acted on what I knew in my gut. You had no intention of using facebook to reconnect. I know that now.

 

You are never getting back in any sort of touch. You will never provide me any resolution or assurance that you are ok after that last night and your utterly traumatic reaction to the complete separation you were imposing and insisting on.

 

So I did it.

 

I deleted your contact info. All of it, even that message that I buried in my inbox with it. I asked my parents to delete the extra copy I sent them as a security against accidentally deleting my own because of my ADD.

 

I deleted all of our messages and pictures.

 

And I blocked you on facebook. I had to. Hoping that one day you might accept my facebook request or at least message me with something was killing me.

 

It is truly over now. And I will have to find a way to reconcile the extreme pain you were in and accept that I will never get to have assurance that you are ok. That I will forever be left with the image of your suffering and pain. And the pain your pain caused me.

 

Goodbye sweet one.

 

We really really were a ****ed up couple weren't we.

 

God. All I wanted to do was show you that people could be trustworthy and show you what it felt like to have someone truly love you and care about you and truly validate your feelings.

 

I really right now cannot say which of the two of us is more ****ed up. But I'm really starting to suspect it is probably me.

 

Anya,

 

That night we had dinner I looked into your sweet, caring eyes and I knew just then how easily one could fall in love with you.

 

I hope that in my life I find someone who loves me as strongly as you loved your ex.

 

You do have such a good heart and I am always convinced of this by how much concern you have for him . Though your emotions tell you otherwise, you know that logically there has to be someone out there for you....after all T may have been rare but he is not completely unique in this vast sea of humanity. Think of that special someone who must be out there waiting for your compassion and love. What a fortunate person he will be.

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AnyaNova Established Member

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Yup.

 

Still crying when I read this. Thank you.

 

Anya,

 

 

That night we had dinner I looked into your sweet, caring eyes and I knew just then how easily one could fall in love with you.

 

I hope that in my life I find someone who loves me as strongly as you loved your ex.

 

You do have such a good heart and I am always convinced of this by how much concern you have for him . Though your emotions tell you otherwise, you know that logically there has to be someone out there for you....after all T may have been rare but he is not completely unique in this vast sea of humanity. Think of that special someone who must be out there waiting for your compassion and love. What a fortunate person he will be.

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LadyM Established Member

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Anya,

 

That night we had dinner I looked into your sweet, caring eyes and I knew just then how easily one could fall in love with you.

 

I hope that in my life I find someone who loves me as strongly as you loved your ex.

 

You do have such a good heart and I am always convinced of this by how much concern you have for him . Though your emotions tell you otherwise, you know that logically there has to be someone out there for you....after all T may have been rare but he is not completely unique in this vast sea of humanity. Think of that special someone who must be out there waiting for your compassion and love. What a fortunate person he will be.

 

What a beautiful sentiment.....

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AnyaNova Established Member

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Is that why you left me: I mean part of it?

 

Because I told you about it? Because you knew I could never give you my virginity because it had been take. From me?

Miggy New Member

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You left in mid feb for another person who you did not know. The grass was greener.

My sister accidentally phoned you last week, she took a week to tell me she had done this. She told me how much you cried and what a dire place you were in now.

She told me how you knew the grass was not greener and how you wished you had not ruined what you had with me.

She told me how you wished you had accepted my offer of going to counselling to help our relationship.

She told me how you wanted to be back with me.

She told me how you asked about me and how you said to her sorry that you had to tell her I was doing really well.

She told me how this news made her cry even more.

My sister told me that my ex was in a terrible state, telling my sister this was the worst year of her life.

My sister told me she agreed to speak to my ex again because of the state she is in.

I can't go back to you, we were married for less than 3 months before you went off with another person. You were so cold to me, so uncaring, so annoyed with me.

I feel for you so much now but can not harm myself by contacting you.

When you left after a month I wished you well in your relationship and moved on myself.

I was in pain, not sleeping or eating but had a good friend to help me through.

It was is a mad time for me.

I picked up a social life, lost weight, bought new clothes, started dating. Changed my whole house around including decorating the whole place, not one memory remains from you here.

I did no contact with you and still do not have contact with you

How can. I help you now?

You did not wish to help me when you went with the other person.

I was in hell and I realise you are now. I don't wish that on you anymore as I have moved on.

I wish you well

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love1336x Established Member

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Back here again... lol, but good thing is not for an old love.

For a new love...

 

We're on a "break"....

My biggest fear that you'll find somebody within a month.

In that month I wont be sad, and being all emotional.

 

 

I am going to DATE.

I am going to hang out with FRIENDS.

I am going to pretend you never existed because if you don't come back... AT least I am living my life to the fullest. I'll be damn to stop my life for you.

 

It's so strange what I really feel because I feel at peace.

Yes, I miss you, but my soul telling me... "shh Child... you're gonna be okay... you're gonna be okay...."

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love1336x Established Member

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I am angry.

You let go of me like nothing.

I broke up with you, yet I feel you are in control.

I understand going to your house was dumb, but I did want to see you.

at least i wasn't crying... ugh. I never wanting to break up. I wanting for you to feel like its not okay to lose me! I am somebody you want in your life, but at the same time... You simply can't force things to happen.... must happen naturally.

 

:[[[[

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love1336x Established Member

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You text me today! :):):)

I am happy! :):):):):confused:

 

I waited couple hours before txting back... I didn't want to seem clingy since today I did bad by going to your house.

 

I miss you.

A LOT.

 

I miss your sex badly too. Ugh.

What if i show up naked? But, blah I don't want sex I want you. All of you... but I could use some good sex.

STM206 Established Member

STM206

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Get outta my head you... Come on, any day now.

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thysecret Member

thysecret

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I hate that after sacrificing so much for you, you simply tell me you don't love me anymore. And now you're interested in someone else.

I was there for you when you have NOTHING.

Now you LEFT me when your life start to get better.

 

**** YOU

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L1ght Established Member

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Is that why you left me: I mean part of it?

 

Because I told you about it? Because you knew I could never give you my virginity because it had been take. From me?

I doubt that's it Anya. I mean it doesn't reflect too good on him if that was the single biggest reason. You're looking for answers when you just gotta let it be. If he cared about you he would have dropped everything and came back to you by now. You wanna be with someone who doesn't give a crap about you? Let it go and start living for your own happiness again. It gets better over time I promise.

Good luck. Chin up.

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AnyaNova Established Member

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I doubt that's it Anya. I mean it doesn't reflect too good on him if that was the single biggest reason. You're looking for answers when you just gotta let it be. If he cared about you he would have dropped everything and came back to you by now. You wanna be with someone who doesn't give a crap about you? Let it go and start living for your own happiness again. It gets better over time I promise.

Good luck. Chin up.

 

Indeed. He had enough of his issues that they overpowered any caring he did have for me.

 

But if he was able to care enough about me, he would have by now. And he is not.

 

For him and who he was, I don't think this would have been the main reason, but I wonder if it wouldn't have played into it a little bit.

 

The whole thing just makes me sad.

 

But I know this.

 

Please don't misunderstand. I spent months caring for him and thinking about him and hoping even after that last night that I could again be there for him and help him.

 

But I cannot do that anymore. I can't, I'm done.

 

I have got enough of my own issues. I cannot be lugging around the issues and pain of someone who is not even in my life anymore. No matter how much knowing that I am doing so might actually help him and alleviate his anxiety some, I can't.

 

I'm through.

 

If he is going to insist on using this whole thing as a self-fulfilling prophecy that people will always leave him it is his choice, something he needs to work through, and good job he succeeded in driving me away because of all people out there, I would have stayed.

 

I would have stayed.

 

But I can't. I'm done.

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L1ght Established Member

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Indeed. He had enough of his issues that they overpowered any caring he did have for me.

 

But if he was able to care enough about me, he would have by now. And he is not.

 

For him and who he was, I don't think this would have been the main reason, but I wonder if it wouldn't have played into it a little bit.

 

The whole thing just makes me sad.

 

But I know this.

 

Please don't misunderstand. I spent months caring for him and thinking about him and hoping even after that last night that I could again be there for him and help him.

 

But I cannot do that anymore. I can't, I'm done.

 

I have got enough of my own issues. I cannot be lugging around the issues and pain of someone who is not even in my life anymore. No matter how much knowing that I am doing so might actually help him and alleviate his anxiety some, I can't.

 

I'm through.

 

If he is going to insist on using this whole thing as a self-fulfilling prophecy that people will always leave him it is his choice, something he needs to work through, and good job he succeeded in driving me away because of all people out there, I would have stayed.

 

I would have stayed.

 

But I can't. I'm done.

 

There is no going back now. I mean I'm in the same boat. How can we go back to someone who abandoned us even though they knew we really needed them? The way I see it is that they would have had to have been kidnapped in a foreign country or something similarly extreme for there to be real justification for them to leave in such a way if they actually cared about us as much as or more than they cared about themselves. The sad thing is that it takes us a really long time to accept and understand this. You will learn from this situation the same way I have. If someone f*cks with you in this way again in the future know when to tell them to go shove it and turn your back and walk away. I wish to God(even though I aint religious) that I had the strength and fortitude to do this when my ex started shutting the door on me but I didn't and that's ok because its a lesson I really needed to learn from at this stage in my life.

Your ex shares a couple of similar traits with mine....self fulfilling prophecy about people always leaving her, tons of issues consuming her and I guess I also felt like I could help her the same way you feel like you can help your ex. They don't want our help anymore and in my case I know for a fact that one of the main reasons is because I was very very close to finding out her deep dark secret which frightened the living hell out of her. I don't know what it is but she is deeply troubled by something in her life that she refuses to share with me.....I came very close to learning what it was but ultimately the level of intimacy we had was not sustained for a long enough period for me to find out. But anyway, that's enough of her and the bullsh*t.

Billions of people on the planet...take your pick. Well take your pick after you have learnt to be happy on your own again that is. You can do it! Onwards and upwards we march!

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It's been exactly a year since we have spoken and you have the balls to send me a friend request on FB? After the hell and torture you put me through? Are you kidding me? I debated on lashing out at you and telling you that you really need to f**k off for forever. But then I thought - what would drive me nuts the most if I wanted to get back in touch with someone? It would be if they straight up ignored me. So thats what you get. I blocked you so that you couldn't even attempt to send me a message on there. Don't want to hear from you and I don't want to see you ever again in my life. And it feels SO good to say that and more importantly MEAN it. I'm happy with my new boyfriend =)

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STM206 Established Member

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Why the hell do I still miss you?

 

Here's all the logical reasons I shouldn't.

 

1.) You left me, plain and simple - you abandoned me when I would've needed you the most.

 

2.) You has the audacity to place the blame on me for why you left.

 

3.) You brought out the worse in me, I pleaded, begged and also lashed out.

 

4.) You shattered my idea of what love meant.

 

5.) You never once bothered to reach out to me to see if I was okay, every single time we talked - it was because I initiated, foolishly so. Yet I know I initiated because my heart still believed in us.

 

6.) You packed up all your stuff in the span of one hour, cried, said you loved me but still wanted to be friends because that's how you felt... "I always stay friends with my exes" you couldn't even wait a day before calling me an ex?

 

7.) You moved across the state to be with your ex. You didn't even bother to see me one more time? You just left?!

 

8.) You kissed and cuddled with me mere minutes before you left...

 

9.) You made me feel like I wasn't worth it, that I was a nobody.

 

There are so many more reasons that I don't have the energy to type right now. Even though the logic behind these reasons slap me across the face, my heart still remembers what we once were, my heart still struggles to come to terms that you probably don't even give 2 ****s about me anymore. You've tucked me away into a "file" in your heart... A file of "memories" that you'll tap into whenever you desire.

 

You're off starting a new life without me, yet I'm still here, stumbling through my days trying to cope.

 

It doesn't make any sense at all.

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ScaredAlien2 Member

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**** you. Stop coming into my life.

 

I admit it's my fault for letting you in, but you are the one to initiate. Same thing every ****ing time. You feed me all the bull**** you think I want to hear. I'm the best person to ever come into your life, you've made a hug mistake, I'm the only one to ever accept and love you for you... Yet you run back to him always with ignoring me.

 

I do not care anymore, I told you over and over it wasn't going to work. Yet you assured me I was wrong and that you just needed to find out how much you loved me.

 

The real truth is your a manipulative bitch. I hate you with a passion. No empathy or care for anyone else but what you want. I was so naive to think it was worth it

 

I wish I never met you and you one day feel the pain I feel.

 

Never will you hear from me again. You will see everything I accomplish and hear about it from our group of friends. It sucks you alienated yourself like this. You are a dumbass. I get you don't know what you want, I get you don't feel the same way towards me as I do you, but seriously stop leading me up and then ripping my heart out.

 

I'm ashamed and feel judge by everyone for even thinking you would change.

 

I guess I had to follow my heart and learn this painful lesson.

 

One day you will see, one day you will regret, most likely not. You have no feelings. When I forced you to talk to me the last time, you blamed it all on me! Such audacity, maybe just fooling yourself. It doesn't matter. I gave you my complete all, multiple times. Never again.

 

You know how I knew I was in love with you- the moment I realized I stop putting myself first and was focusing on you. My thoughts and actions were always geared towards how can I help you? How can I make you happy? How can I show you that you mean the world to me? That was my fault I guess, my fault for falling in love. Your fault for taking advantage of that, and lying to get what you wanted.

 

Stay out of my life, I wish I never met you.

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I just want to know - why?

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mangetout

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I curseeee the day I met you

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