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[HappyxFaith]

I know it hasn't even been a week since you broke up with me, but I can't help but wish I could stop thinking about you. Because although I no longer cry about you, I can always feel a pervading sadness take over when I let my guard down. I think its the sadness of loss and it's a different form of pain that's slightly harder for me to endure because it takes the sunshine out of my face.

 

But I'm glad that its spring and not winter anymore, because now I can appreciate all the beauty surrounding me. Maybe one day you'll think of me again and regret your decision once upon a time, and maybe you won't. Maybe you'll contact me again and maybe you won't.

 

But whatever happens, by then, I'll be stronger, and facing forward, and that's what I'll do and focus on everyday.

[STM206]

I won't lie to myself...

 

I still think about you every day, I wonder if you're truly happy with your new love, or should I say old flame.

 

I find myself waking up every morning still having to grasp the reality that you are no longer a physical part of my life, you're now only a memory. Here I am waking up in a bed that we shared together for so many years, and now I wake up knowing you're waking up in a bed with someone else.

 

I should hate you, I should despise you for leaving me the way you did... But I don't.

 

We created memories together, talked about growing old together... And now those thoughts ring in my head as useless chatter that becomes nothing more than an annoyance I consciously have to fend off.

 

You left me believing that you were "trying to figure things out" and now in hindsight... I know that I've figured you out.

 

I wish you could've been honest with me, I wish you could've told me exactly how you felt... And then just maybe, we'd still be waking up together every morning, getting a coffee and taking a day trip somewhere.

 

I do believe in karma, and perhaps one day you'll understand what it feels like to be in my shoes.

 

I really did love you, more than you will ever know. I miss you, but I also can't keep doing this to myself... I'm certain that I don't even cross your mind anymore, and I deserve unconditional love just like anyone else does in this world.

[HappyxFaith]

Even though I can't shake this feeling, I feel at peace with how it feels. I don't resist feeling the loss of you, because I know I can't, you were a very important and special person to me. To me I saw you as unique and so captivating, because of your thoughts, your drive, your focus, your determination, and your dreams. I loved the you like that. But I think I met you at the wrong time of your life. I wonder if it would have been different otherwise.

 

Now when I think about you, I realized I should've acknowledged the overlaps of you and my ex boyfriend even though I noticed it.

 

I remember that night sitting with you in the back of my car, cuddling in the cold. And you told me that for the longest time you felt nothing, and you weren't sure what you were living for, and things just felt so grey. But meeting me, I lit up your life, and that's what you told me. And I filled a gap for you.

 

But what I want to remember is that, when I meet someone new, I don't want to have to fill a gap for someone who isn't fully emotionally mature yet, because like my last boyfriend, they haven't fully grown up yet.

[HappyxFaith]

Haha I wonder if it really was commitment and the sense of losing your freedom, that there might be better things out there that freaked you out, or really if that is just a figment of my imagination, and you left, because honestly you had no feelings left for me even when I had so much inside me.

[beembm]

I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you

 

I feel so sick

 

My heart hurts the loss is so big. I feel like you died I hate being so disconnected I hate that all we had is gone I hate that you seem to have moved on I hate that I don't know if you're getting my mental messages

 

I hate this so much

 

**** everything

[dontgiveuponme]

Im feeling so down tonight I cant stop crying, i missing u badly..How i wish u are here right now and cuddle me like and kiss me tell me everything will gonna be ok..

I never felt so alone in my whole life.Its so unfair

[Mary Oak]

Hey. It's me. BUt not the me you used to know, a new me. Someone who is no longer going to be there for you. I know you have moved on, good for you, but know there is no coming back now. It's been too long now, it would be like meeting a whole new person. ANd I never want to be friends with you. WHy would I be friends with someone who replaced me? I am not a second place prize. I can pretend that I don't love you, don't want you and don't miss you... but I really do... you just no longer deserve it, so I will no longer be your backup plan. Enjoy your life...or don't... not my concern anymore....

[HappyxFaith]

Maybe I did something stupid yesterday, I sent you a text, and the terrible thing about this text message, is I know I can see it after you've read it. Although I carry no expectations for you to reply to me, there was a minute hope that maybe you would reply, after all, i wonder these days whether you've really forgotten those feelings.

 

But I've decided to let you go, to move on, and to live my life as how I see fit. Although things tend to always get a little bit more difficult during certain parts of my day, I do feel lighter, and more peaceful, because I know I'll always have myself to depend on. And however many people come and go in my life, although they are fluid and I cannot dictate who will stay, I always have myself to look forward to. To see me take one step forward is my favorite.

 

And yesterday I thought a lot of you and me, and I accepted that you left me, and even though there are many moments where I feel the ache of loss, that it's normal and okay. But I don't wanna see your picture and your name everytime I open my chat, I think I don't even wanna do it because I'm hoping for something, but I will for myself, that I am going to leave the chat room right now, because I think if you really wanted to send something back, you would've by now, and because nothing you say can change the present anyways. And I finally deleted it even though it was a difficult thing to do.

 

Because I want to get over you.

[lamis]

I have resolved to stop checking your Pinterest like a crazy person. It is the only window I have left into your life, and while it doesn't inform me of much, I think that it informs me of enough that I should really stop. I don't need to be reminded of things you like or think are funny, because it doesn't matter anymore. You don't want me, and I need to let go of this last thing.

[Kill_Bill]

Ex: I don't love you.

 

Me: I do .. neither

[HappyxFaith]

I think I might be a going a little crazy. I woke up stalking you on facebook and looking through your recent friends, trying to find some sign that you haven't forgotten me, and wonder if these days you're still thinking about me. I saw half of you in one picture and wondered if you were heading towards a girl or somebody, or if you were ever lonely. You know, you've always been popular with girls, you just didn't know it.

 

You even updated a cover photo on kakao, a girly one that I've put up before, the kinds that I put up, and I wonder if you did it because a girl suggested it.

 

maybe I'm healing, maybe I'm not, these days it seems like I can't really tell. I have to stop myself from wanting to know what you're up to these days... the process of loss is really something...

[HappyxFaith]

I wonder if you've deleted all our photos and our memories...

[HappyxFaith]

These days its hard to not think about you, to wonder about you. Maybe I come on here more often than I should. I read an article today wondering if I should've done something differently. It said that guys like to build connections by doing things, while girls try to fix it by talking. And I thought about how maybe I should've taken you to the coffee shop when we skyped sometimes, or took you on a walk with me on that little path by my apartment, but in the end the past is the past, and maybe I can't change your mind anyways.

But maybe I shouldn't have to, because it takes two people to work on a relationship, and although I tried my best with everything I could do, I wondered if you tried your best, if you put in everything you had, or you just gave up because you felt like things could never change.

 

I wish I could tell you things, I wish we could work on things. But you ended it, and now I know if I ever messaged you about this, it would only be desperation on my end, and ruin my self-respect...

[redbaron005]

So I drafted this maybe 1.5 months post-bu, 4 months ago. Never sent it. Now feel there is no harm in posting it as it will never get mailed. I've come a long way since then, however everything in this letter is still true :

 

----------,

 

I want you to know that I have accepted our past relationship and am happy that it happened. The long-distance made it difficult to give you the love you wanted. My schooling made me a different person than when we first met: aloof, cold, fragile. You deserved better.

 

I want you to be happy. To have others know the warmth of your smile like the way I did when we were together. For you to not be hurt from trying to get emotional commitment and having to face failure. To have someone hold you close in their arms, and dance with you in the kitchen without a care in the world.

 

I want you to remember. To remember our fingers interlocking as we stayed warm in bed and you rested your head on my chest. To remember whispering sweet thoughts to each other deep into the nights over the phone. And to remember that anticipation of opening that next letter at camp.

 

I want you to know that you made a difference. You helped me to become a better person and I will forever be appreciative of that. And although at the end I still cared for you and was ready to commit, I was scared to sing. Because of you, I am no longer afraid to express love to others for fear of damaging them, and although I originally wanted to protect you, I now see you never really needed it.

 

Most of all, I want you to know how sorry I am for pushing you away when I only meant to bring you closer. And that if I ever felt like home to you it was because you were safe with me.

 

 

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[HappyxFaith]

I saw something today that opened my eyes and my mind, and I thought that it was such a surprise and a gift that I can relate it to myself and my situations.

 

There are many things outside of my control, that really I can only influence. I tried my best to pour what I had in my present state of mind into our relationship, but I do not control what you chose to do with that, or how our relationship played out. And really to change the feelings of frustrations and anxiety of how it didn't work out, I just needed to focus on the attitude and the behaviors I took with those facts. To let those things go that I cannot control, but to focus on my attitude and focus on what I can control, which is what I feel.

 

I'm tired of pondering whether or not you're over me, or if you've moved on. In the end it doesn't matter, one reply doesn't mean you're not, and no reply doesn't mean you are. It just is the way it is. I'm tired of spending my mental energy trying to figure out the meaning behind you uploading photos even though there might not have been any meaning attached, maybe you just like the way you looked, maybe you liked seeing it on your profile, maybe youre looking for my attention. I don't know what really the reason is, maybe you just want to document your journey from the US, but I do know that I don't want to play games, and I don't like to. And that my energy should be spent on living each day in the present and as fully as I can, because I love who I am.

[mangetout]

Five months later and you have had a change of heart. Now you want me back.

Well I have grown stronger so it won't be easy for you

[Omei]

Five months later and you have had a change of heart. Now you want me back.

Well I have grown stronger so it won't be easy for you

 

Make him/her work for it! They need to prove it!

[Omei]

a year and two months today

 

I accept its over I guess we were not ment to be

 

But I feel like im missing half of me

 

I miss how I felt with you, I have a few tears

[HappyxFaith]

I watched some movies today, drove around town wanting to stop by the park, but found too many people there because of the nice weather, so I went back and walked around on my own on that trail we used to go down.

 

I decided that I wanted to let go of you, wholly and completely, I don't want any more attachments to what we had before together. And I think the hard part now, is not so much what to do without you, its that I feel restless in not doing something, not being somewhere even though I'm sick and not feeling well.

 

I wonder what I can do about that...

[ScarlettDaisy]

It's been 13 months...I wonder how you're doing and I wonder if I ever cross your mind...I gave you no thought for a few months but you've crept back in. Please go away...

[DontBreakEven]

It's weird how you duped me.

 

I kept my guard up for a good 4 months dating you. But you were so into the relationship, and you were such an all-around put together woman, I would have been a fool not to finally give it a shot and let you in. You gave out this attitude of someone who was whole and had her sh*t together. You told me that relationships should be two wholes coming together.

 

So I started working on myself to be able to meet you halfway. I believe I was already "whole", but I definitely had areas of improvement to look at in my life that would ultimately make me a better life partner. The main thing I did was finally change careers so that I was happy and fulfilled both professionally and financially. I could financially contribute completely (I always could do that too, but now, a cushion).

 

Anyway, the moment it seems that I let you in, the moment I started making strides to improve myself ultimately for the betterment of both myself and us, you turned on me.

 

It was so sudden I pretty much didn't believe it happened. Then over the course of a month it became devastatingly clear that it was happening. I finally found the strength to break my own heart and just ask you straight up if you wanted to be with me. The answer: "I don't know".

 

Obviously that was the beginning of the end, but somehow 16 more months went by before our ultimate demise.

 

Why did you lead me to believe you were someone that you weren't? It really is bittersweet, because by trying to catch up to equal that person you originally portrayed (and succeeding), my own professional life became 100x better. Even my friendships, my values, my relationship with my family .. everything. I became quite a catch over the 2 years I was with you.

 

And it turns out, you were none of that. You were not whole. You didn't have your sh*t together. It was all a complete and total front, that culminated in you admitting yourself to a psychiatric outpatient for a what could only be described as a nervous breakdown (I still have no idea what it was, really). And yet I was still there for you through it all. I mean, I would have a nervous breakdown too if I was bullsh*tting everyone around me, and even more importantly myself, about who I was and what I was about. But I supported you during your leave of absence from work. I massaged you every night. I spent 9 hours in the ER with you because you had a headache.

 

I am so disappointed in you. In a strange way I thank you for helping me grow up in the most backward way, but I am so disappointed that you made me to believe that I was working to catch up to you. When all along I was just surpassing you, and probably was already above your level the day we met.

 

You pumped me up for a marathon of life that we were to run together. I was out of shape at first, but I worked so hard to get to the finish line ... and you weren't there to celebrate with me. Turns out you never even registered for the race.

Edited April 13, 2014 by DontBreakEven

[Jingle14]

If you're running in the London Marathon today, I hope you drop down dead with a heart attack. Almost 3 years now since you dumped me over Champagne I was paying for in a public bar, the rose tinted glasses firmly removed, adoration long gone, so I can see you for genuinely what you are. I hate you, and loathe you, but I also loathe me for how I allowed myself to be treated. Never again.

 

I'm glad that, when I last saw you - at my request - in November, I only gave you a half hearted hug (and you know it was, we know each other well) as we parted and walked away with 'have a nice life'. It was you, not me, who said 'of course this won't be the last time we see each other' (as I had said it would be when I asked if you would meet me) and who replied to my final comment about having a nice life with 'don't say that, I'll see you again', which I ignored as I got in my car.

 

The only time I think of you now is with disdain that you're still roaming the Earth.

 

I'll post again on Wednesday, your birthday, but I don't think I'll feel the need to again. I don't need you, you sad ****er!

Edited April 13, 2014 by Jingle14

[dontgiveuponme]

I think i need to give myself a break need to know what i really want in life...I love u sooo much u know that.

I am honestly not interested in being with anyone else.You are my 'other half', and I will do what it takes in any way possible that I can to show you.

You are the one I want and I won't be ashamed to tell you when the time is right.

If we are meant for each other we will be together..This is not giving up this is just giving myself a time to heal.

There are mybe a hundred reasons to give up but i only need one reason to hold on..but if ever u will just tell me....I love you

Edited April 13, 2014 by dontgiveuponme

[LifeTwist]

Hello Friends.

 

I have been with a married lady in relation for good 5 years. In these 5 years, we have talked everyday 3-4 times over cell. To cut short long stories, she started behaving very odd with me. And of course i am human too, i must have acted weird. But what i always used to ask her is don't ever dump me or don't ever go to any other guy. I got married 1 year back but till this day i am not getting adjusted with wife. The country i live in has tradition that most of marriages are arranged and we don't get to see our potential wives before actually getting married. I asked her time and again to marry me in these 5 years but she has kids which she cant give up and i never blamed her for that. I always made her the princess of my life. She is 5 years elder to me but i always made her feel like the prettiest gal on face of earth. When you are in love and you are terribly sincere, you feel highly insecure about your beloved. Same happened with me. During our last 7 days breakup, she started talking to a random guy over face book. I got to knew about that. She apologized and i hugged her and kissed her forehead saying, "You are someone i can give up my life for baby. Don't cry as i can never see your tears. You made a mistake, and you apologized, thats what matters to me. And next time, i will try to love you even more so you never feel need to talk to someone else". I got my job out of city and she started getting changed. I told her time and again that please dont change your feelings. I can see things are not going the way they should be. I heard distances make people miss you more, but its totally Crap. Distances snatches away your love and all happiness that is connected with that. I planned an official trip and travelled long way to meet her but she couldnt spare few minutes to meet me. (I live 1100 kms away from her currently). I had a fight with her and after 7 days she called and told me that i am mean bla bla. I was like you hung up on me saying things to me for me asking you to spare few minutes. We again hooked up. This time again i planned an official trip, but she couldn't spare time and i just complained in soft tone that cant u spare sometime so we sit in car and i get to hold your hands and look at your while you talk. This time she raged up with anger telling me that i am mean and i donot understand her problems. I asked her, "you were already driving out, what would have been so wrong if you just stayed with me for 5 minutes, and that i could never love my wife because i am terribly in love with you", And she answered "Dont blame me for your F***ing Marital life". I cant gather words to explain the state of hopelessness and pain which all accumulated in my eyes and they filled with tears. So she stopped calling me and i tried to man up which i never did all these 5 years and also didnt initiate any contact. But God knows and i know how i spent these 33 days without her. Even writing this makes me cry loads and loads. I just messaged her once that i am going back and God bless you. She replied, "what ever you did, i didnt deserve, but what i did, you didnt deserve it either, i am n ot making any sense, God bless and you will be in my prayers". My reply was" I know". I dont know what she is upto, whether she is dating someone else etc. I always doubted the statement "Ignorance is Blessing", but now i totally understood and agree with the essence of this saying. We have roughly talked for 55,000 minutes as shown in my cell records. But even then, i am the one who approached her, liked her and we ended up in a relationship. I see people abusing their Ex and calling them names. But i can never abuse her in my mind even when i am crying for all that she has done to me. I just need clarification. May be i am wrong, or may be people are wrong in abusing their Ex. Most probably i will be wrong as i see hundreds of guys/gals doing this so i alone must be wrong. But i just need guidance and any word of advice that can help me stop my tears. If any, any words that can stop my tears, i would be thoroughly grateful for the gentleman/lady giving me such advice...

It all went long but trust me, i cut it as short as possible. The actual events are 10 times more than these coz this was whole 5 year relation. ?

God bless you all !!!

[mangetout]

Ha you are doing and saying everything I ask of you. It's so funny to be in this position. You are such a sad idiot. Don't even think that you have got me back.

 

After all the crap you put onto me..then walking out and leaving me with heartache. My god that hurt me. It was like physical pain.

 

So don't you have won me at the snap of a finger. I love myself more than you now. My walls are up. You have a lot of grafting to do and if you can't deal with it then I will dump YOU!!