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[lamis]

Ugh. Having to communicate with you yesterday after almost 3 weeks NC really sucked. But I guess I had to since my flight got canceled and I am stuck in Dallas, so now I need you to not be at the apartment later today to not get my stuff. I didn't really have a choice, but it was really depressing to have to talk to you. It makes me realize how much I miss you, and how our relationship was when things were right. I know we don't work now, but it sure was nice when it did.

 

 

Plus my flight being canceled and being stranded here sucks anyway, because I was hoping that last night would be the last time I'd have to deal with being in our old apartment, and could finally begin to heal in earnest. Now I have to wait until tonight. Stupid weather.

 

 

I love you. Even though I wish I could stop.

[mangetout]

Wow. For the first time I am not beginning to care if you care. I am liking this. A lot

[canuck03]

You pop into my head every now and then. But I just think of all the **** you put me through, and that you cheated on me. Helps me think of better things.

 

I'm starting to care less and less about you.

 

One step closer.

[HappyxFaith]

You ended our one year relationship today, and even though you're only my second serious boyfriend, somehow the hurt I feel is different from the first. I think there's still some part of me that's in denial and don't want to face the truth because I'm already reaching out for friends, wanting to unload, and distract myself from whats here waiting for me.

 

I have so many questions that I will never ask you. Why did you start our long distance relationship if you were already feeling this way? Why did you tell me you loved me, and said all those sweet words like you meant it only a couple of weeks ago? How can you do that when you didn't feel it, how come you didn't say this to me two weeks ago? If you had broken up with me then, maybe I would be feeling better now.

 

It's true I hold some resentment for you. Why did you tell me your feelings were genuine? why did you say that you were serious with me? Why did you tell me to trust you? And I know your answer would never be satisfactory because things won't go back to the way it was.

 

How is it that even though I loved you so much, that you couldn't love me back? My heart aches in a slow dull pain because I know I'm losing so much more than before. My love for you was genuine, but I will never offer it to you again. I wish I had listened to the little voice in the back of my mind in the early days that told me you were not the one. That this guy wasn't someone you could last with. But I ignored it, because I thought maybe I just needed time.

 

I'm tired. My heart aches, my head aches, and I can't take 5 steps without wanting to cry my heart out.

 

My first heartbreak was unbearably painful and intense, but passed in a heartbeat, I get the feeling that this time around, it will ache like this for a while, because you were actually a great guy who I loved inside and out.

 

And the truth was for you, you couldn't say that. I don't care that it was hard for you to tell me that, or you have good feelings about me, or that I'm a good girl, because in the end the truth still stands that we are where we are, and you simply don't love me.

 

I just want it to go away.

[coltsfan1]

Sometimes I still miss my friend.

[HappyxFaith]

I work up thinking I was okay, but as I talked with my friend about you, and her saying you've been thinking about this for a long time, it stung me inside. somewhere deep inside. And it makes me think whether it was really my fault after all. How could you do this to me? How could you lose sight of our relationship like that? We had so much going, and I did everything I could to make you feel like the distance wasn't too much. What changed in your heart? Everyone was surprised you broke up with me because they all knew how much I gave to you, how understanding I was. But in the end, it's on you. I can't replace what you say you don't feel, even though I feel it everyday. I can't make you want this relationship as much as I did if you didn't want it. Maybe you wanted your freedom. Maybe you realized you didn't see me in your future. But either way my heart aches, a dull steady pain, that I hope will ease soon enough.

 

I woke up feeling grateful for you though. You healed me in ways I couldn't imagine, I was no longer stagnant, I regained my sense of self and kept it, because your love made me feel safe and strong. I wanted to grow to be a better person ultimately for me, but also for you, and I changed. I would've waited for you to reach your ambitions because I knew they were important for you, but ultimately maybe you didn't want me to be standing at that end line, maybe because you can't even imagine that right now. I loved you, but so many of the things I treasured are gone, the trust, those feelings of love and calm, the thoughts of you.... what's left behind is the notion of wanting to move on, the keep being strong, to keep developing myself to be a better me for the next man I meet and for myself. After all just like you, now you seem just like a sweet dream too.

 

That's why I can't imagine dating you again. What we had, and what I had for you, was destroyed in that one moment you nodded to me, and I ended our call. I can't imagine the same thing I did when I was younger, giving my heart back to someone that for even a moment in time, didn't want it. When you didn't want it anymore for that moment, I realized I couldn't bring it back ever again, even if you thought I was your mistake to let go. There was so much we built together, even if you couldn't notice it. I wonder if you'll always keep chasing your feelings, or if you're going to realize that one day, those precious feelings someone feels for you, and all the actions that they do, can blossom into the most beautiful love inside of you when you truly treasure the things that they do.

 

I loved you and I still do. You'll always be the first genuine love I remember, the man that surprised me, but not the man who wanted me. But because of you, I know now what I want in a man, what to look for, and wait for, and not settle for. I'll find another free spirit, another kindred spirit yet.

 

I suppose as days go by, these thoughts I have for you will slowly shorten and fade. But I'll always be trying my best like you, and living my life for me. I will not stop and sit in one place, I will become once again who, the girl who I remember to be. And then maybe on one spring day, somebody will see me shining.

[lamis]

I thought being here in my hometown would be a nice reprieve from memories of you, since obviously my memories here predate and outweigh the number of memories I have here with you. While it is definitely better being here than in the city our relationship was born in, I still really can't escape memories. You were probably here 7 or 8 times after all, and it is a small town so I have been to pretty much every restaurant in town with you.

 

 

Plus, I had kind of forgotten, but our "courting" or whatever you want to call it began over a winter break years ago when we started texting eachother/talking on the phone while I was visiting here for winter break. We went on our first date the day I got back. So in some weird way our relationship was actually born here. Or the idea in both of our minds that we could be in one, anyway.

 

 

Anyway it sucks. I wish I hadn't had to be in your apartment the other day or see our dog. It really caused me to regress. But, that's the end of that and it will be a long time before we communicate again, so I'll be ok again soon.

 

 

I love you. Hope you are having a nice weekend.

[beembm]

I can't stop crying. My heart feels so heavy. I miss you so much. I just want to lay with you on some grass and laugh about things and hold you. I want to reach out so bad but I know you need to heal. I miss you and love you and think about you all the time. I haven't lost hope but I'm scared to hurt you again

[jonsnuh]

Thought about you today, a I've accepted that I never was for you. I neglected you because of my immaturity and because I couldn't keep up.

 

What a fool I was.

Edited April 6, 2014 by jonsnuh

[elseaacych]

I miss who you were when you were in love with me. That's all.

Edited April 6, 2014 by elseaacych

[Ally1993]

I miss you and I still love you.

Don't think I'll ever stop feeling this way.

 

Just need you so bad.

Tonight's not a good night, I can't stop crying.

 

Need you here to tell me everything's gonna be okay and hold me and wipe my tears away.

 

 

I love you so much.

[HappyxFaith]

I tried what some people suggested, to write the bad things about my ex (even using this word is weird still) but I couldn't bring myself to do it today.. I don't know if its because its so fresh, or because he really was a great guy, and it was a great relationship while we lasted. I wanted to write down my mistakes too, haha but I also couldn't bear to face those, because even with all the wrongs I made, I know with the genuine effort I made, its difficult to point other things out especially when my confidence and heart is already low.

 

Making love last is difficult I realize, especially because the other person is out of my control. It's funny because really we were good together, even though we had different interests and were different individuals, we were similar in the things we appreciated and found value in.

 

It's just kind of frustrating because in the end, I am the one who has to move on and get over it. Even with all the people I try to see, even though its tiring, in the end I'm left with myself, and I have to depend on myself to move past this.

 

If you didn't feel what I felt, then there's nothing left for me to do, but leave everything behind, and face forward, standing tall. Because after all, I was somebody surviving before you, and I'll be someone whole again one day soon.

 

I love you, I loved you. It's too bad love doesn't fade as quickly as I want it to! But then again, love has never been like that, and I think that's what frustrates me the most. Its because I'm hurting, with my love inside, and know that I have to let it go, because this cat belongs to someone else.

[JoelBarish]

So you've come back to me now. You're here and you're telling me all the things I've wanted to hear such as you love me, miss me, made a mistake and want me back.

 

Here is my response. We can try again. We can go back. It isn't too late. However, though we can go back and it is possible and it isn't too late, I choose not to.

 

I'm sorry. My heart just isn't in it anymore. I want what we had back but what we had was special and I don't want to try to recreate it with you.

 

Once upon a time you were who I wanted but you have burned that bridge and I don't want to rebuild it with you. We had a really amazing bridge. You destroyed it all on your own. Now you want to rebuild what shouldn't have been destroyed in the first place and my response is "frankly my dear I don't give a damn".

 

Now go build your own effin bridge

[The Situation]

You killed it dead. I think I'm finally indifferent towards you after all this time. Onwards and upwards. See you whenever.

[HappyxFaith]

I find myself thinking about you, and wondering if you would delete me on facebook. Why that even matters, I'm not sure myself. I wish you were here, but maybe for you, I'm just a distant figure in the dark, no longer shining brightly for you in the end.

 

I laid awake this morning at 5, wondering about you, but trying to push you out of my mind.

 

Slowly you're fading away too, your figure becoming more unfamiliar to me, but somehow I want to hold on, because I don't want to lose you. But I'll try my hardest to let you go, because dear, you let love go. And if love leaves, and chooses someone else, then freedom is the best option there. I can only let you go because you're not mine.

 

I have a battleship of feelings inside, because this time was different from the first. Although you haven't been here physically for a while, so that pain isn't here, and I'm not missing you, but emotionally it hurts the same, like yanking something out from the ground when the roots have gotten so deep.

 

I hope by making this first step towards something different and new, and challenging myself, I won't be afraid to put my feet down and make the right decisions for myself.

 

I will look at the next guy carefully, and give gently, but still love wholeheartedly because that's the only way to love. He has to be honest, committed, faithful, trusting, and understanding. One day, I think when you're ready to commit and can imagine your future beyond yourself, you'll make a great boyfriend and future husband. And even though right now I'm sad it won't be me, I know in the end Maybe I'll meet someone like that and even more. I think people always have a way of surprising you.

 

It hurts, it hurts, it hurts. I can't explain it anymore than that. But somehow I can still smile through all of this, maybe that says something about the peace I feel. That because I really loved you, it's okay to let it go.

 

I thought about the trees yesterday, about how every winter they shed there leaves faithfully, but every spring they grow back enduring everything, yet they're never exactly the same again. I'll be like that with you. Now it's winter, and it's time to shed my leaves, but its okay, because spring will come again

[HappyxFaith]

Will I meet again, someone who makes me happy like you? someone who makes me smile like you? Someone who'll understand me like you? Who will appreciate me even more? Someone who'll treasure me even more? And I would feel the same? Someone who has honest values, and an honest heart. Will I meet another someone like that?

[dontgiveuponme]

I miss the old you

They said people change but should be for the better you is the oposite.

The cheating and affair doesnt really hurt me its all your words i believe that hurts me the most. All the things you said before that you love me more than anything else,that you wont give up on me,that your the luckiest guy to have a gf like me and that you cant imagine yourself touching another woman again.

 

Im so stupid to fall for that.You wasted the 3 years we have just because you being shallow and now you want me back again and why?hope you just go and never come back.

 

I cry myself to sleep every night thinking of you.I wonder what you are doing do you still think about me or is it that easy to forget me and our 3 years together.I still love you and you have a special place in my heart forever

Edited April 7, 2014 by dontgiveuponme

[STM206]

I've had more better days than bad days - but I still find you on my mind frequently, I can't listen to certain songs and do find myself having push through the day to day reminders of you.

 

You left me, ran back to your ex and yet I'm the one still picking up the pieces. It just doesn't make sense.

 

You were the best thing while I had you, but once you drove off with all of your luggage everything changed. You treated me as if I wasn't even a blip on your radar anymore, was this the real you coming out?

 

We went from being everything to each other to now being complete strangers.

 

Oh how I hope Karma is real, that one day you'll have to face the consequences of your actions and realize how cold you were to not only me, but others as well.

 

However, in my heart I do hope you'll reach out to me again, but I know that's just my ego wanting to feel validated - to feel that you really did care and weren't so cold as you seemed to be... as each day passes the hope slowly begins to die down and reality begins to set in - you're gone and I'll be moving forward, in whichever way I have to.

 

One day I know I'll be with someone I'm meant to be with, someone that will love me unconditionally, because your love had conditions - the proof is in the pudding.

[dontgiveuponme]

Woke up from a bad dream im missing you but then i remember all those things u did that hurts me and it makes me so mad that i cant help but to cry.

 

Im fighting the urge to contact u and tell you what i really feel right now.I jut hope u can put yourself in my situation right now just so u can im hurting badly u think u did the wrong thing but u didnt know how big the damage was.

 

You are selfish and insensitive and i cant believe you are so different when i met you 3 years ago.Just at least put your self in my situation so u can understand one day ill get tired of thinking of you,of crying,of missing you

[Dinozzo925]

Nothing about you is authentic. You go with whatever the majority does or says. You're weak. You need people. You could never survive what I've had to, and you could never come out as strong as I am. You're much dumber than me, and you're clumsy too. You only get validation because of your body, and even that is all painted. You have the self awareness of a dumb child, you use your ignorance as a defense mechanism so that you can avoid the pain the rest of us had to when we face our faults head on. You aren't very ambitious, you don't want to improve yourself or your condition. You leech off your parents even though they are a day away from bankruptcy. No one has the guts to tell you this, and the people who do you ignore.

 

I didn't like you when you drunkenly grabbed me in the hallway, and I was never proud of hooking up with you. I thought you were slutty and stupid, but I wasn't invested so I didn't care. Then you started to fall in love with me, and the amount that you seemed to care made me reciprocate. You infected my friend group and you moved yourself in with me, but I let you. Then two years went by, and I kept catching you lying. I kept taking you back, one last time. Maybe I was controlling, maybe I was hard to live with. But I loved you and I always took care of you. I took care of everything because you wouldn't. You started to become ambitious, you started to become religious. You were the one who asked to get married.

 

Then one night I get arrested with your drugs, you show me that you care more about my legal fees than my record/well being. We argue, you get scared I'm leaving this time (because you know I should) and you have a one night stand with my best friend.

 

I don't care if you cried after.

 

I don't care if you hurt yourself the next morning.

 

I don't care if other people said because of how drunk you were it wasn't consensual.

 

Because after you lied to me about it for two months while you watched me move in with him and loan him money. You stayed in that house with him instead of making sure I got you the hell out. You were in New York the night I found out. Sure you cried on the phone, sure you made a scene. But you wouldn't drive back until your folks said you could, and then on the day you arrived you were late. At first I felt bad for you so I tried to put you back together while I had my own melt down. I got you to eat, so that I would eat. I got you to sleep so that I could sleep. And we were joined to the hip for three days straight and had the best sex and it was all love love love. You even wrote a public apology for me in front of our dorms.

 

And then I met a new girl and jetted faster than a boeing. Because **** you, you rotten, rancid, gaping c*nt. I'm not sorry that when you dramatically let yourself into my house you found me with someone else. I wanted to see you earlier that night, but you decided not to come outside the party to "dance". You changed your mind too late, I told you that.

 

Then you get a new boyfriend. Not only do you cheat on him with me, but you leave him for a random stranger when he's leaving town in a month anyway? Then you approach me at a dance in public, in front of him? I keep pushing you away but you always want to come back to "be friends" -_- .

 

You know you've always flaunted your jealousy to get me to come back into your life. You think this time has more bite because your "single"? Well that's cute, but there's a reason I never liked letting you get on top. I know the best way to hurt you is just by ignoring you. My revenge will be you having watch this new girl in your place, in your life, getting all the attention you used to get and happy for it. My revenge will be you seeing how little I care about you now.

 

Because I've always been smarter, wealthier, more successful and better looking than anything else you ever got. I picked up girls like you from bars with cheap drinks and stapled cab fare on their heads in the morning like a habit after we split. You don't deserve the type of lifestyle you had when you were with me. That's why it hurt so much for so long when I left. Because I'm living in the house, I'm living with the dog, I have all the financial and material support we shared. I still perform onstage and go on romantic dates in the best venues downtown, I still party in M. You live in a small rectangle with a microwave and no ac. You can't even leave our small town. Stop trying to fight me, I'm tired. I've already won, and the more you keep coming back the more I will hurt you. Because I still love you, and I hate that I can't still share this with you. We would have been happy after I launched my company and beat the rap, all that stress would have paid off. You ****ed it up, not me. You deserved the treatment I gave you, and you can never repay what you did to me. I don't want to be friends, I want to be enemies. I want to hate you. I crushed you and now I'm trying to move on, if you get in the way of that I will drain you all over again.

Edited April 7, 2014 by Dinozzo925

[elseaacych]

I really wish you could have understood me like I thought I understood you. I wish you didn't throw everything we had away. I wish I didn't have this whole tornado of emotions welling up inside me. All I want is to be loved again, and I wish it could be by you, but I don't think it can ever be like that again, regardless if you want to try or not.

 

I miss the person you were when you were in love with me.

[HappyxFaith]

I thought about you today during the morning and I cried while listening to a sad song, although its weird lately because only one or two teardrops come out even when I'm crying about you. It's anguish but I know I still have to get up in the morning and endure it.

 

I talked to some of my friends today because I didn't feel like being alone yet. And I cheered up with a different mindset, venting about you, and a different mood. I know moving on isn't continuous progress and sometimes we slide back alittle, stumble a little in the road, but keep walking on. And I hope that's what its going to be like with you. Focusing on getting better everyday, and trusting myself that with time there will be a day that comes when I don't feel the need to write here, and I don't feel the need to mention or think about you again.

 

I hope I'll just let go gently, and ever so softly without resentment, and just live in appreciation and gratefulness. And one day I'll look back at you, and smile at the fact that I once thought you were that one guy that would have been great just for me, though you turned out to be a stray cat looking for your owner. And I hope (in the far future) you one day find her, and I hope I find my own cat too.

 

My love for you has always been this calm and gentle. But I guess in your present state of mind, it would be hard to see, wouldn't it? But soon, I know, I'll let go of you soon. We are resilient people, living every day.

[misswhitlock]

I am trying. You are everywhere.

 

Everything is tainted with you.

 

I can't stop thinking about you.

 

I miss you.

 

I fear that you don't.

 

I fear you've moved on. I fear you never cared. I fear you're with someone else now- with her. I fear you've built up the courage to be with her. I fear that it was her all along.

 

Was I anything? Are you just forgetting about me now? This has affected me so much. I haven't stopped crying for weeks. You're probably okay. You're probably better than ever.

 

I didn't mean anything. probably. I am resisting the urge to check up on you. I know I'll see that you're happy, probably with someone. I can't check up on you. I can't. It'll hurt. Everything about this hurts. Everything. I fudged everything up I know. Im sorry. Im sorry it didnt work out. Im sorry i lost one of my closer friends. im sorry i miss you.

 

It hurts. Everything is tainted. I miss you. It hurts. so much. i can't stop thinking about you.

 

i miss you. this sucks.

[Mary Oak]

I want to hear your voice, but there is nothing left to say. I will no longer come to you begging for validation. I will no longer come to you about something we used to do. There is no "we" anymore. I may not have been the best, but I wasn't the worse, and I sure did love you for seven years. My family made you their own, even when your family turned their backs on you. I guess all that is better now, they like you new girlfriend. My suffering will not bring you back, and I will be damned if you ever see another tear from me. I leave you knowing I told you everything I needed to. I have no regets. I still miss you and will probably always love you, but this is my life now. Peace... that is all I asked for.

[hea]

ive been seeing someone else, but I cant see it being serious. Its bad really because it only reiterates how much I loved you, and the connection I THOUGHT we had. Its been seven months and I miss you. I know we didn't work, and I understand the reasons why, but I don't understand why I miss you so much still. Maybe its because you were my first love, my best friend and ill always feel this way. Something ive got to learn to put to the back of my mind I guess. And live with forever.