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[Mondmellonw]

Today I basically feel like a bad person.

It's not a good feel.

[insert sad username]

its my birthday today and havent heard a single word from her..im devastated

[MoooOinkBaaa]

Why are you still tweeting about me after six months and playing the victim? You like to delve in the fact you dumped me, you get off on it.

 

I saw your tweet about how you think I've moved on already and probably have some perfect vegan/gym girlfriend by now. How you don't care because I was a "douche" to you and you'd rather be where you are now than sad with me.

 

Well you're even sadder now and I did have the perfect girlfriend until she decided to completely change and regress into what you've become.

 

I feel sorry for you that you're so desperate for a relationship to make you happy. I'm not even looking for someone, I'm trying to be the change I want to see, try it yourself and find happiness like you said. Go find yourself like you told me you needed because you haven't done anything of the sort.

 

I still love you because I know the real you is there somewhere but I don't want to get back with you, so you can stop posting on Twitter that you're never getting back with me. It's been six months Kitty, I kind of figured that out.

Edited February 8, 2014 by MoooOinkBaaa

[LostConfused123]

Hey Gorgeous!

Sweet Dreams!

[bubblesbursted]

N

 

Listen up. I feel so glad you left me right now. I dont know I couldnt be more glad. I had a dream about you. We were talking and you were telling me about your new girl and how much happy you are with her. And it didnt affect me! I think even my sub-conscious mind knows that its OVER now. And you know what? You have no respect for me or our 3 years relationship. Like what the f**k. You couldnt even man up to ask how I was. Too busy with her now isnt it? And you know what? I pity her. I pity her because she will get to know what kind of a person you really are. You never did anything to make me feel loved. You controlled me. I see through you now and trust me its not a good view! I am so glad we never got married. What was I thinking? Marrying you? It would have been a nightmare. I am glad we are over. You su*k.

 

~Ex

[AnyaNova]

I mean this sweetly and teasingly. Not meanly (since I know that non verbals and tone of voice don't come through the internet!).

 

Seriously! Are you part of some alien hybrid clone colony in my area? There are so many guys around with your particularly unique facial structure and eyes.

 

There are at least three of you if not more in the area.

 

Do you share each others' memories?

 

Apologies. I couldn't help it. But it explains alot. Perhaps it was one of your clones I saw at the gym that one time before Thanksgiving. Although I still wonder why your clone got so upset when my trainer smiled at me. Go figure.

 

Seriously, though. Shaking my head and wondering why we can't be friends.

Even if just on facebook.

[hearttopieces]

Dear Ex

 

 

You are an a-hole.

[Mondmellonw]

4 different guys had asked me to go on a date with them.

I would not lie. I found them interesting, but I am not healed and I only want friends (by the strict term of it) right now, and for at least the next year.

I don't think I can get over this easily. My mistakes were made by me and not by you. You have your own. I gotta understand that and say "well, this guy wasn't for me and this couldn't have happened in any other way".

 

I felt bad for confronting you.

It was useless, it just made my night suck.

But my day has been great so I won't take another step back again.

[ariesgirl-328]

Cast Away is on tv tonight... Do you remember when we watched it and you made fun of me for crying at the end?

 

I wish you and I could have had a movie romance, but even these two don't get back together in the end.

 

 

 

 

I hate going to bed without you. I've cried myself to sleep for the past 4 days. Why do I still love you, and miss you? It's obvious you don't care. You dropped me, you haven't even tried contacting me. How can you spend a year with someone and then just disappear? I thought the world of you, but now I'm starting to think you really were an a*shole in disguise.

 

 

omg ): you like wrote my hearts words down so perfectly... ahhhhhhhhhhh )':

[laura9]

This one goes to my two exes, S and M, and my current boyfriend and future ex, G.

 

S, I already apologised to you in the past but I'm sorry again for treating you unfairly and not being serious about our relationship. We aren't meant to be together but the sad truth is, I have never enjoyed someone's company as much as yours. You are the funniest, most loving and honest person I have ever met; you deserve someone who loves you unconditionally like I didn't. I don't think we would ever work together, but I miss you. And you gave me, hands down, the best sex I've ever had.

 

M, it's been 2 years that you rejected me and brutally cut contact with but I know you still stalk me online on a weekly basis. Why do you do that? You seem quite happy with your new companion. Why did you exclude me from your life like I never meant anything to you if you're still desperately keeping an eye on me? I'm finally over all the trauma that you caused me - I don't even have nightmares with you anymore... so get your sh*t together and move on too. You switched me for someone else, so give her the attention that she deserves.

 

G, for the first few months that we were together, I was in heaven. All I wanted was to bring you home to my parents and live happily ever after with you. How could I be that naive, thinking that love is so simple? We still have a great relationship sometimes... but your explosive personality, your unwillingness to mend things after an argument, your current situation in life and problematic family, all make me wonder how long it will be until you're finally another ex. I'm with you because I couldn't possibly leave you in the situation you're in right now. So stop being inconsiderate and using your troubles as an excuse to treat me badly. You are over-demanding and idealise your "perfect woman" to an unhealthy degree. One day when you're hopelessly alone you'll remember me, and all the effort I put in just to try and be with you as long as we could.

Edited February 9, 2014 by laura9

[AnyaNova]

I'm really low on B's because I'm limiting supplementing until Monday, when I get my levels tested to be sure that I'm not toxic so we can continue the shots.

 

So I'm succumbing to my temptation to post here about this. I'm really low right now.

 

A couple of nights ago, I had this dream about you.

 

It was in your town. I and some of my friends had to travel from my town to yours. To this big glass building (one I don't think I've actually seen in real life) where something horrible was going on that we had to stop. It was nighttime of course and there was some unnamed evil we had to fight. You called us in to help you fight it.

 

So once we're in the building, some of us went off to go do something unspecified to help fight the unnamed evil. And the rest of us, you had stayed with the group I was in, we discussed strategies for how we were going to fight the unnamed evil.

 

But then, you decided that the best way for us to have the best chance to beat the unnamed evil was for you to go do something (I think it might have been something like cut the power to the building) off by yourself, and that the rest of the group should stay together. I argued vociferously against this, saying that at least one other person should go with you, that you shouldn't go alone.

 

But I was overruled. I was terrified as you went away that something was going to happen to you.

 

And then the rest of our group pieced together some important piece of the puzzle (I wish I could remember details, but most of what I have are images) and we realized we had unwittingly (as my intuition suspected) sent you right into the path of the beast/unnamed evil.

 

We took off running. A friend of mine reached you first. You were in the big glass entryway/foyer of the building and I caught up in a second, the others were way behind. I shoved my friend out of the way to get to you.

 

Your face (maybe I am an idiot, maybe I am naive, but even when my B vitamins are good and I am over you, your face will always be dear to me) your dear face was covered in bruises and you were bleeding and it was very clear that you were dying.

 

You started to say something, something that seemed very important for you to say to me, but you couldn't get them out and as you were trying to speak you died. And that is when I woke up.

 

And the answer to the obvious question is yes. I was.

 

crying.

 

I don't know why I had the dream, though a friend has certainly posited at least one good explanation.

 

And even when my B vitamins are good and I'm over you, I still do miss you in my life as a friend. And I will always recognize that we could have been very good together as more, had both of us been healthy and I'd had enough B vitamins for long enough to have a shot at being reasonably sane (or at least an explanation that would help you deal with it when they fell and I wasn't).

 

Over and out again.

 

Just a snapshot into my head that you're still most likely not reading.

[SimonSerenade]

I think about ya all the time, but I don't need the same, it's lonely were you are, come back down, and I won't tell em your name

[The Situation]

I need you in my life. It makes no sense to carry on being so far apart and distant. And I sense that you might give that thought a chance.

 

I've never felt this way about anyone before, or so certain!

 

How do I approach you? How do I not sound desperate? How do I assure you that I won't repeat my mistakes? How do I show you I'm not that person any more? How do I convince you that it's you I want to go to bed with and wake up next to every day?

 

If I spill everything you'll never take me seriously, but if I don't say enough you won't feel assured.

 

I need to find a way before it's too late and someone comes along. Maybe I should just speak from the heart.

[AnyaNova]

You know.

 

Right now, I am struggling so badly. In a way I am doing well and much better. Now that I truly know what is going on with my brain and body--why my energy, mood, disposition, and physical body just crash--I am getting my work done despite it.

 

Though I very much love (within reason, obviously) the person I am when I have enough B vitamins, I really hate the energy less, brainless, depressed, bitchy dishrag I become when my levels drop far enough.

 

You know.

 

I do have friends that I talk to about this, and of course my parents, but they could use a break from this too, because it is not easy for them to deal with either. And the bizarreness for them of how different I am from one state to another.

 

I could use another friend to talk to about this. To be there for. I was there when you needed me on multiple occasions.

 

But you're not here now and you're never going to be here again. I don't know why or what I did wrong to earn this. I never cheated on you, I never did anything purposefully to hurt you. I don't understand.

 

I was there for you. You're not and never will be there for me. You've made that clear enough.

 

And yes, right now with my B vitamins so low while I'm holding off extra supplementation until I can get my levels tested on Monday and see more clearly where they are actually at, I am angry that you're not here.

 

I am angry that I was there when you needed me. I am angry that (yes the more I think about it, I think it was that email about the ED that caused the breakup--the very one that caused you to choose to talk to your doctor about it instead of hide it--the one where I said I'd rather lose you because the email made you angry and have you healthy than have some major health problem go unnoticed because of it) I was as much as possible unselfishly there for you.

 

And you aren't for me.

 

I mean it should hardly be a surprise by now. You haven't been since September, you'd think I would have learned.

 

But I have been going through Hell, and frankly, for what I am dealing with, kicking some pretty good (excuse the crudity please) ass while I do.

 

And here I thought you were trustworthy.

 

Forgive the rant. I am sure I will regret it as soon as my levels are up. This is bloody hell and you have no idea how bad it feels both physically and mentally and intellectually.

 

But you left me to go through it alone. I hope I don't forget that. When my levels are good I am a very forgiving person.

 

Perhaps not so much when my brain is starved for oxygenated red blood cells and I can practically feel the dymelination going on (if I correctly understand what is happening to my brain and body when my levels are this low).

[AnyaNova]

Maybe I should just speak from the heart.

 

Yes!!!! Do this!!! Do not pass go! Do not collect 200 dollars. Go. Do. This. Now.

[The Situation]

Yes!!!! Do this!!! Do not pass go! Do not collect 200 dollars. Go. Do. This. Now.

 

But my heart is a very deep place. I think keeping it simple is the best way to go. Maybe. Uttering anything would be a good start!

 

 

And your post seemed very conflicting, but keep up the venting, it really helps!

[The Situation]

I give in. I love you so much. No idea whether I'll be able to tell you that, as I never did when we were together.

 

Hopefully someone as incredible as you will come along, if not.

 

Really wish you were here.

[AnyaNova]

But my heart is a very deep place. I think keeping it simple is the best way to go. Maybe. Uttering anything would be a good start!

 

 

And your post seemed very conflicting, but keep up the venting, it really helps!

 

Given what you put her through, I think I would need deep. I don't think a simple, Hello and how are you doing would do.

 

I think, prefacing all the deep stuff with a very large dose of humble pie, recognizing how badly you screwed up and hurt her (not that she didn't screw up sometimes too, that's not what I'm saying right now), and that you can understand if she decides in the end, no, and then tell her all the deep stuff. Just make sure to do so in a non-pressuring way.

 

I mean, that is what I would need from my ex to welcome him back into my life in any capacity after how he hurt me. I am not saying I was perfect. I screwed up bigtime too. I know it. But he was the one who cut and run despite feeling whatever he so clearly felt that night.

 

Oh, and last thing, if you never told her how you felt. TELL HER NOW! (Apologies, my tact runs low when I'm low like this!).

 

My ex never told me how he felt, though it was very clear on that last night we were together.

 

And even though I am over him (completely, when my B vitamin levels are good!), I still cannot tell you how much it would mean to me to hear it from him. To know it and have it confirmed. I can't explain why.

 

It just would.

 

Please at least try to make one of these wrongs in the world right.

[MissTrudy]

This weekend was very hard for me, I am proud of myself for getting through it and maintaining NC but I am sad and having second thoughts about keeping NC CONSTANTLY.

 

I went to a party with my friends on Friday night and I had LOADS of fun letting loose, dancing, and drinking a little, but at the end of the night I had to literally hide my phone from myself so that I wouldn't drunk dial you a misspelled "I miss you!!!!!" I remember rationalizing it as "I'm drunk so I can be bold!" But fortunately I was sobering up, and knew that such a text would not be bold, just stupid.

 

I was out all day with friends yesterday too, shopping, and again I was constantly thinking about you. Ditto for today, when I've been trying to write a paper. I just can't concentrate. I have so many things to share with you, I could talk to you for days. I could listen to you for just as long. I miss having you hold me, I miss your smile, and your lips too, but I would be content with just being in your presence, just being your friend.

 

Two weeks have past but it feels like months. So much has happened but my feelings for you are unchanged. I wonder if you would've dumped me had I not called it off, or would we have kept forging through the mud that was your conflicted feelings about your ex.

[Redhawkk]

It's only been a week....And I found myself feeling better the last couple of days. I went out with friends, forgot about you, yet, not really. Tonight of all nights, our "one Week" breakup, I find myself missing the hell out of you. I want you right here beside me in bed, looking at me from your book and smiling. I can't help myself, I'm almost in tears. I haven't cried since you said goodbye to me for the last time.

I still can't believe you're gone..and I know you'll never come back to me because you told me yourself you weren't in love with me anymore. I want to see you again, hear your voice, hug you, and kiss you. But it cannot be.

It's funny, I know you're moving on faster than me...hell, you got a head start before even leaving "us".

You still have my things and I want them back. I want them back so I know our ties are finally through.

*sigh*

I hope you read the letter I left in the box--my farewell. I hope you know that I do love you, and that you know in certainty that I won't come back to you. As much as I still love you, I know your love can never come back to the way it was; I watched it change from flame to smoulders. I guess I just wish to know that you're happy, and I wish I could have congratulated you on your bursary, and been there to see you receive it.

My first love....a series of memories I'll treasure forever. Locked away, to be remembered when I'm old.

[Redhawkk]

One more thing:

 

I'm just glad that as a couple we tried. We tried it together and in the end, we agreed together. Though I rue the day I left your apartment, I will refrain with all my heart to lament our decision. We fought hard, and we fought to the end. I can say that for our first loves, we learned a lot from each other, and I can never thank you enough for changing me as a person, making me better.

[LostConfused123]

Yes!!!! Do this!!! Do not pass go! Do not collect 200 dollars. Go. Do. This. Now.

I concur!

Go for it and best of luck!!!

[LostConfused123]

Sleep well baby!

[Xemyd]

Right now, I'm a wreck. I can't let go of you and I don't know why. It's obvious, I see that I didn't mean very much to you, you never came back. You're right there, every night you're so close to me and you don't even care. I cry myself to sleep and you have no idea. Every night I want to call you, hear your voice. This breakup shouldn't have happened. We were getting more and more serious and then all of a sudden you end it. I know you chose to end it, so why can't I end this pain? Why can't I just stop caring about you, and missing you and loving you. I don't want to love you anymore.

[The Situation]

I concur!

Go for it and best of luck!!!

 

Thanks both (you and Anya)! I'm on the verge. Saw a recent photo of her the other day, she looked gorgeous and I just want to tell her that, even if she doesn't want anything to do with me.

 

You're right Anya, I've told everyone but her how I feel. That's just stupid.

 

Bit wary that Valentine's Day's coming up. Don't want it to look like I'm cheesily tying it in... But then, she knew I hated it anyway!