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[Mario79]

I heard a song tonight that just triggered a wave of emotions. One more night, cause I can wait forever.

 

You are always there even when I try to move on, with those eyes, just killing me. I am so afraid that I will be alone with these feelings that dont go away. Its been so long, why doesnt this stop? Why is it just more present at times then ever. I am putting the work and the effort.

 

I want you back so much. I have stayed away. I have kept myself busy, seeking and trying to learn a way to let go. But why is this like this? I have asked help from everyone, even God.

 

Cant take it. Cant take feelings like these at times. I am sliding back into that dark place. I find myself making wishes for something to occur. I feel so stupid writing, to no one to myself, wishing it were you.

[The Situation]

I miss you madly, then I feel I can cope without for a little bit longer (mainly to give you more time and space).

I feel it's a good idea to get in touch, then I don't.

 

Yep, the usual indecision only because I hurt you so badly.

 

However, one thing has changed. I used to come running to you when things got bad. After we broke up I used to think of you when bad things happened. But it's different now. I've had a few mini successes lately, and feel this year is going to be great personally. Got more good news yesterday and you were the first person I wanted to tell. I wanted to be positive and excited towards you like you never knew. I want to be there for your troubles now and return everything that I never did. Even better, I want to be there when good things happen to us.

 

Instead, without you, I welled up in the car on the way home, gutted I couldn't share the news with you. Other than reconciliation, our great rapport still being there, and you giving me time to show that I have actually changed this time and can be supportive towards you, I just don't see how telling you anything will change your mind or be interested, even as a friend.

 

I hope things are working out for you, too.

[The Situation]

I just saw you in a photo on Twitter by chance. You looked different. It was strange. Maybe too much has changed now, maybe I'm stuck in the past.

[AnyaNova]

I just saw you in a photo on Twitter by chance. You looked different. It was strange. Maybe too much has changed now, maybe I'm stuck in the past.

 

It sounds like you aren't going to be able to let go until you try. Remember, women often do something to change or better their appearance when romantically hurt.

 

But either way, if the answer is no, you can move on to be with the person you thought she was. If the answer is yes, than you have the chance to give it a fair shot.

 

I think perhaps for you, you need to tell her how you feel.

 

Don't be like my ex. Don't let fear get the better of you. Have a backbone. :-). Vertebrates are really considered hot this year. :-p (I mean that lightly and teasingly, not meanly, knowing all that my ex was fighting against and many of the tools he was never given). If she has a brain, she will respect that you had the courage to tell.

 

I know I would.

 

But either way, for you to be able to move on, I think you have to tell her.

[Erlaad]

Hey J,

I get the feeling anger phase is kicking in tonight. I'm angry and hurt and it's all your blasted fault.

 

You used me, you took advantage of my feelings to get over your ex. All the promises, all the fights and kind words, all the things we've dreamed together - you threw them into the toilet and flushed. Without a single trace of remorse.

 

So, how's it going with your new Spanish friend, J? Oh, you really thought I didn't know? Has he left his girlfriend for you? Because this is what you became. I've seen you 3 months post our break up. You are a selfish, tiny, self-absorbed party kid who's highest expectation in life is probably to run 15km and getting a new international in her bed.

 

And to think I was ready to move abroad for you.

 

I gave you everything I could muster, accepted every insult, even took you back in your tears.

 

You do not deserve me.

 

S

[Mondmellonw]

1st day after break up I was expecting for things to work out (eventually).

I was shocked.

2 weeks later I was feeling like crap. Sad. Couldn't do anything without feeling hurt, and lost.

1 month later I was feeling sad every morning, as the days went by it started to fade away.

1 and a half mth later I was DAMN upset. I still get angry at times.

But, today (almost 2 months later) I feel free. It's a feeling I haven't tasted for a long time.

 

 

Not thinking about you the way I used to. It is very, very good

[jphcbpa]

I feel free. It's a feeling I haven't tasted for a long time.

 

 

Not thinking about you the way I used to. It is very, very good

 

Love this for you!!!!!!!!

[JDPT]

I don't have anything to prove to anyone except myself. I'm glad to say that what I think you thought of me was just an irrelevant thought that I have now solidified. And it now rests in the past thoughts.

[jphcbpa]

I am going to dominate 2014 and this life that I have been blessed with. Thank you!

[AnyaNova]

I nearly have all the clutter in the living room from the B vitamin deficiency cleaned up. Still have a bunch of papers to get paper protected and in the binders, but the papers are organized and separated. Will do one a night.

 

After I finish the living room, I will start a load of dishes and then move on to the wreck that is my room. You can't imagine how awful it was being a neat freak without the energy to keep things neat and organized.

 

On the one hand, I am afraid I might miss you a little or it might bring things back a little, because the last time this place was even close to truly being clean was when we were together, and even then things were slipping.

 

But right now I am happy to have things freshening again. To have the sunlight coming in.

 

All I wanted was for you to be you. It has hurt so much to see you reject not only me, but also your very self.

 

But I can't carry this any more. No strategy of mine, no going over things isgoing to reveal the magic combination that makes you want to be you and to want the things you want and make an effort to get them.

 

I need to learn where and how to meet people, because I want to share myself with someone deeply. I miss that.

[JDPT]

Stuck on this sweet song...Jhene Aiko- The worst

 

 

"Please don't take this personal, but you ain't **** and you weren't special until I made you so....."

[Never Again]

Turns out I internalize too much. Big surprise, right?

 

When the intensity of our relationship began to lessen, when things began to slow down (like they always will), I suddenly realized that I never really dealt with all the stuff that's piled up on top of me.

 

I know I complained about work too much, but I had to let it out somehow. I guess I should've handled it better.

 

But between my grandfather dying, my other ex sending me photos of her self inflicted wounds - days before harassing you and killing herself and pinning the blame on me - getting demoted at work, being turned down from countless jobs, having a friend die in a drunk driving accident, training for a month for a job that turned out to not be real...

 

...what was I supposed to do?

 

I boxed it all up inside. There was some spillover and I did vent, but it was minimal. But I shut down. I was scared of being too emotionally intimate with you, so I backed away. I stopped planning dates, I stopped cuddling with you, I communicated with you less...and if we did talk it was usually more like friends than a couple. I was overwhelmed. I went through most days in a fog. I felt like I was watching events a few seconds after they actually happened.

 

I didn't want to lose you though, so I tried to do nice things for you. I was kind and considerate, to the point of being a little weak, when I was in a rut. I wasn't going to treat you poorly, ever.

 

But I was a mess, I guess. By cutting off all intimacy with you, no wonder your interest faded. I was boring, spineless and closed off for close to two months. That's a long time to deal with the kinda crap I was dishing out.

[love1336x]

I dunno why. I went on your facebook.

You have a cat now? I thought you hated animals.

Being in this college reminds me of you so badly. I hate it.

 

But so far I have not heard from you, and that's a good thing...

i hope you are happy. :]

[Mondmellonw]

I actually feel kind of optimistic....

 

[AnyaNova]

Sitting in my clean room.

 

I'm going to get so much done this semester. Including finding someone to share this part of my life with.

 

I am happy.

 

Our relatiionship sounds like the start of a joke.

 

"So a woman with nutritional deficiencies and a man with mono walk into a bar..."

[JoelBarish]

Last night I said that I didn't miss u. Tonight I do.

 

It's really over this time isn't it? No more breadcrumbs. No more false hope. I think your previous breadcrumbs put me back in the denial stage. I always thought we had a chance to go back but you don't want to go back. So here I am once again wondering how we could be happy for so long and then poof! You go from not being able to live without me to not wanting me around anymore.

 

I dreamed of you last night, I don't know why. Maybe it's because it's getting close to VDay which would have been two years for us.

[Xemyd]

I don't know... I just don't know anymore. I thought I was getting better, moving on, but I don't know. My mind is all over the place, I just jump from one thought of you to another, it gives me a headache. I want a breadcrumb, I don't want a breadcrumb, I want to talk to you, I never want to talk to you ever again.

 

The only constant is me missing you, and yet you probably don't even think about me. I'm not one of those girls that guys come back to, I'm nothing special. "Always the bridesmaid, never the bride."

[AnyaNova]

Last night I said that I didn't miss u. Tonight I do.

 

It's really over this time isn't it? No more breadcrumbs. No more false hope. I think your previous breadcrumbs put me back in the denial stage. I always thought we had a chance to go back but you don't want to go back. So here I am once again wondering how we could be happy for so long and then poof! You go from not being able to live without me to not wanting me around anymore.

 

I dreamed of you last night, I don't know why. Maybe it's because it's getting close to VDay which would have been two years for us.

 

Oh, I am sure that as soon as you are interested in someone else and she gets wind of it, you will get more breadcrumbs. Hopefully, by then, you won't care.

[AnyaNova]

Watching Heroes a little before bed in my freshly cleaned living room.

 

I'll put his out there even though I know you're not reading these. I'm not pining for you. I could go either way and if the same stone cold silence is all I'm ever going to get, I know for whom the loss is greater, and it is not me, and I am fine with your choice, if eternal silence from you is all I get.

 

But intellectually, especially given the health issues we both were facing, I still think we never got a fair shot, and I wouldn't mind another one with you, as long as you showed me you were serious about valuing and standing up for yourself.

 

But you would have to come to me after ignoring all of my attempts to communicate with you.

 

But anyway, my gut says I will never hear from you again. Just thought I'd put that out to the universe.

[ElecTriX]

I miss you so much. I miss us. I miss our family. I miss your smile and your laugh. I miss our hugs.

 

I still love you so much and I would do anything to be with you again.

 

I accidentally heard our song yesterday;

"Because days come and go, but my feelings for you are forever"

/Papa Roach - Forever

 

I will always love you in some way Sofie.

[RDawg]

Clive and I have almost finished planting the grass you always wanted. I am excited to watch it grow now.

 

Funny how you and I could never work together on anything without a fight..

 

I hope you're doing ok LawLaw. Have you found somewhere to live yet?

[jphcbpa]

Told my 4 yr old son that you moved away and that is the reason you will not be in our lives any longer. Told him it was sad and that we will miss our friend. He asked "why", but not much more. That made me feel better. I was worried how he might respond. Like you, he seems good with out of sight out of mind.

[AnyaNova]

So it is sunny here and I am feeling great. I wish I could share with you the joy of finding that missing link, and truly knowing what energy is. Sometimes I still miss your laugh, but I will find another man. Tonight I will brave a coffee shop, and I will brave smiling at a single man or two.

 

And somewhere down the line, I will a man who wants a relationship with me. And I am sure that I will come to love his laugh.

[JoelBarish]

So it is sunny here and I am feeling great. I wish I could share with you the joy of finding that missing link, and truly knowing what energy is. Sometimes I still miss your laugh, but I will find another man. Tonight I will brave a coffee shop, and I will brave smiling at a single man or two.

 

And somewhere down the line, I will a man who wants a relationship with me. And I am sure that I will come to love his laugh.

 

Wish it were sunny here. It's overcast and chilly. You are so sweet. Those who catch your smile will be lucky. And I hope they have nice laughs - mine sounds like broken glass :-p

[AnyaNova]

Wish it were sunny here. It's overcast and chilly. You are so sweet. Those who catch your smile will be lucky. And I hope they have nice laughs - mine sounds like broken glass :-p

 

Thank you!