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[Mario79]

When I wake up at night, and when I wake up to get up, a thought of you is the first wall I hit, and that brings me down. Your memory. I really wish at times we could talk, but I know that in your mind, you have built me to be a threat, an annoyance, a person that is probably looking to do you wrong. Maybe that is right, since my feelings are still here, but my wishes for you are not those.

 

I want to be feel the day where I can just go through it without your memory coming to my head.

 

But today, you are on my mind. I miss you.

[CAdude82]

W,

 

I'm sorry I acted like a fool by behaving the way I did, but I was just extremely emotional. I have given you your space and I hope we can at least get back on talking terms. The fact that we can't even speak to eachother kills me. I miss you a lot and I think about you. I hope we can at least talk to eachother and check up on eachother in the future. In the meantime, I hope all is well and you are happy.

[CAdude82]

When I wake up at night, and when I wake up to get up, a thought of you is the first wall I hit, and that brings me down. Your memory. I really wish at times we could talk, but I know that in your mind, you have built me to be a threat, an annoyance, a person that is probably looking to do you wrong. Maybe that is right, since my feelings are still here, but my wishes for you are not those.

 

I want to be feel the day where I can just go through it without your memory coming to my head.

 

But today, you are on my mind. I miss you.

 

Damn dude! If I were your ex, I would take you back in a heartbeat if you texted me that. lol. Seriously, why can't these people see what they do to us! They suck!!!

[Mario79]

Damn dude! If I were your ex, I would take you back in a heartbeat if you texted me that. lol. Seriously, why can't these people see what they do to us! They suck!!!

 

Hehe, thanks. Its terrible the knowledge and experiences one gains from a loss one would think that we would make even better partners than ever before, knowledge that comes at a high price. In my head anyways.

 

All we can do is wish them well from a distance

[AnyaNova]

Damn dude! If I were your ex, I would take you back in a heartbeat if you texted me that. lol. Seriously, why can't these people see what they do to us! They suck!!!

 

I second this!!! Heck, I'm pretty dead set against starting anything with my ex even if he did have the courage to come back and own his feelings for me no matter what his family thought, because I would be so afriaid the next time they got upset he'd leave me again...

 

But if he texted me that, I would be in serious danger of giving him another chance.

[Mario79]

I second this!!! Heck, I'm pretty dead set against starting anything with my ex even if he did have the courage to come back and own his feelings for me no matter what his family thought, because I would be so afriaid the next time they got upset he'd leave me again...

 

But if he texted me that, I would be in serious danger of giving him another chance.

 

That would be nice. I wish you guys could talk to her and let her know. Day dreaming isnt a crime right???

[CAdude82]

W,

 

I'm sorry I acted like a fool by behaving the way I did, but I was just extremely emotional. I have given you your space and I hope we can at least get back on talking terms. The fact that we can't even speak to eachother kills me. I miss you a lot and I think about you. I hope we can at least talk to eachother and check up on eachother in the future. In the meantime, I hope all is well and you are happy.

 

I'm seriously considering texting him this. I just want to get back to talking terms so there is possibility of getting back together.

[Mario79]

I'm seriously considering texting him this. I just want to get back to talking terms so there is possibility of getting back together.

 

If you ask anyone about that here, they will advice against it. Myself included, as I didnt heed the warning. Of course I dont know your details, just meditate on it before you take actions.

[CAdude82]

If you ask anyone about that here, they will advice against it. Myself included, as I didnt heed the warning. Of course I dont know your details, just meditate on it before you take actions.

 

Basically, he said there was a chance of us getting back together. But my actions ruined it. I ended up pushing him away so much with my texts and emotional BS that he doesn't even talk to me anymore. I just want to apologize so that I can at least get back on talking terms. It's been a month (minus the "Happy Thanksgiving" text) since I actually tried getting in contact with him.

[Mario79]

Basically, he said there was a chance of us getting back together. But my actions ruined it. I ended up pushing him away so much with my texts and emotional BS that he doesn't even talk to me anymore. I just want to apologize so that I can at least get back on talking terms. It's been a month (minus the "Happy Thanksgiving" text) since I actually tried getting in contact with him.

 

That would be your judgement. A while a go I tried. It did not go well. But that was me. Your call. Either way. I hope the best for you

[Shaine]

Im all dressed up right now. I am planning to apply for a job. But righht now, i want to cry. I want to reach out to you. And ask you if you're back home so i can return your stuff. I just want this to be over with. I feel like i cant move because im waiting for you.

 

Im in bed, i dont want to apply today. It feels like im forcing myself rven if im not ready. Im already dressed up and everything. But my mind is not prepared. I want to cry right now. :'(

[CAdude82]

That would be your judgement. A while a go I tried. It did not go well. But that was me. Your call. Either way. I hope the best for you

 

You're right. I am better of not doing it.

 

Dear W,

 

I gave you five months of my life and my love. You turned out to be a selfish bastard! You were an absolute ass towards the end of our relationship. You called me stupid because you didn't like the way I played your silly game. You got mad at me for little things. You then dump me and immediately start talking to another guy. You are nothing but a mean, selfish bastard who is going to have a sad lonely life! Good riddance!

[TanTry]

Hey

 

I went out last night, just to a music thing

 

I had fun, I wish you could of saw my outfit, you would of liked it

 

I miss you so much...

 

How is work? I hope everything is going ok and your not too stressed out

 

I hope your boss hasnt been giving you any problems

 

That film we wanted to watch is out now, we should go and see it if you are free this weekend..

 

I wish you were here, I need a hug so bad

 

I just hope your ok

[Kansas87]

I ran into your dad today. He was so nice. Your family is being so nice. Somehow seeing them doesn't bother me and I don't know why. I know it bothers you that I talk to them, but I don't know why. It doesn't bother me at all because they aren't the ones that gave up on me, on us. I know if you ask them they'll say I seem fine- really good, even. I look good, I look happy. I am happy.

 

I feel a little guilty for talking to other guys, for thinking about hooking up with someone. I feel like I should wait longer in case you change your mind. And then I mentally slap myself and remind myself that you made your choice.

[Never Again]

I never needed you, but I think I took my independence too far.

 

I tried to shield you from the fear and anxiety I was experiencing, but because a husk of my former self. I couldn't cope. I couldn't contain it all. It was just too much, but I wanted to protect you. I wanted to be strong.

 

But what you saw was me being dull. Being depressed and melancholy. I'm sure that you saw a wimp. A wuss. A sulky, mopey manchild.

 

I always tried to be positive around you. I tried my very very best.

 

But I withdrew because I was conflicted...but mostly because I didn't want to lose you. At least, I didn't want to get hurt.

 

I wish I could do it all differently. But, I guess I've learned it all...now that it's too late.

 

I really just wish I had been ME back then.

 

I wish you had asked me what was wrong...what was REALLY wrong...just once.

[AnyaNova]

Wow.

 

So much has happened.

 

Is happening. Tonight I won't talk about the research, or academics. It is my after-late-class Wednesday time which is me time.

 

Do I begin with being chatted up and asked out at the store the other day? Still texting the guy? The invite involved his place, but I am not sure that he meant what I thought he meant in the moment (and of course, given who I am, I had to say no to that) Definitely interesting to talk to. Has some interesting books he likes. I think I will definitely accept a date with him, when I have time to do so. I think I could fall for him.

 

Or the guy in my class that I really have a crush on. All I wanted to do, I promised myself that I would smile at him. I think he wanted me to. It was like, I kept looking at him and he kept looking at me, but I think (I could be wrong) we were both watching and gauging the other for a signal before we really gave away, and well) and I couldn't smile at him even though I wanted to, I was too scared and oh, the look he turned and gave me as he was walking out the door. I am kind of praying that somehow we can get it together (if I'm reading him right) to at least try some coffee or something.

 

You are a ghost now. An insubstantial wisp of memory. If on some off chance you are reading these words and are hurt by that, remember, it was your choice. YOU decided. You must live with the consequences.

 

And it is his face I see. I don't really know him and have only talked to him once, I must admit, but I think he is shy like I am.

 

And it is not "Sail" I am listening to, thinking of how you made me go away. It is not "Its Not Your Fault' (I know I made mistakes, but I think what happened at the end was not mine, forgive me if I am wrong) I am listening to, trying to believe that the reason you sent me away wasn't because of me.

 

Nope.

 

It is AWOLNation's (yeah, I seem to be on an AN kick right now) "All I need." And though it isn't accurate, i need a lot more, such as my instruments, my studies, my music, my writing, my cat, my life, and my identity...him smiling at me would be wonderful.

 

It is not you I need smiling at me anymore. Because of what you chose and did, i am very grateful for this fact.

 

It is him I would greatly like to see smile at me. It is his arms that keep my distracted (a little bit, not enough that I miss any of the class content/major points/ equations etc.) as I think of what they might feel like around me if that ever were to happen.

 

Ah crushes.

 

So rarely do they come to fruition. It would be wonderful if this one did. :oj

[amorydiver]

All I really wanna say. Is **** YOU! a million times in a row. I am so angry, right now.

 

you are a selfish wench, you blame everything on other people, you blame your past loves, your mother and your father and me. but it is you, it is you. You have not the slightest amount of compassion. you're a selfish sloot.

 

you allowed yourself to become the monster you are today. take some responsibility.

 

and my good lord, thank god, I found this forum, cuz you are absolutely nuts, and have mindf**ed me the last time.

[Mrlonelyone]

I have seen pictures of you lately and you don't look well.

 

 

While I have moved on in life and so many ways, you cared for me and my family like you were one of us. So my old dear friend I do hope you are truly ok.

[The Situation]

It doesn't matter what I do or who I see, nothing changes the way I feel for you. I miss you so, so much Charl. You weren't something to me then, you are everything to me now. Not being capable of making you happy for all the reasons you know and being without you now is the toughest lesson I've had to learn in my life so far.

 

It was all my messed-up self's undoing.

 

I'm not like that any more. I just hope you're happy now, I really do.

[AnyaNova]

You know, I wasn't going to post this for all the world to see, but I don't want you ever saying I was one of those fake people posting all kinds of happy stuff to make themselves look good when stuff goes bad.

 

So here goes.

 

In a few minutes, when I have recovered from the shock, I will go and pick myself up (switch plans around, finalize and send the survey emails tomorrow morning and work on the paper tonight so I don't have to go out in public with this stupid tear stained face) and do what needs to be done.

 

I just facebooked my crush.

 

He is married.

 

Apparently I had built my hopes much higher than I even knew (how do I do that, and how do I stop it from happening ever!!!).

 

I know. I am a stupid naive idiot. I don't remember when walking with him seeing a ring on his finger. It is fascinating though, with the B vitamins in place, though I am in tears right now over him and what my hopes apparently were, I am not missing you.

 

I mean, it is not like I am without prospects. I have a date with the guy who asked me out set up. He is interesting and I am pretty sure I could fall for him.

 

But.

 

I really did have my hopes set on the guy with the soulful eyes.

 

I wonder what you are thinking right now (or since the likelihood that you are reading this is severely low) what you would think if you read this.

 

Would you be laughing? My ex was dumb enough to fall for a married man that she'd barely even talked to?

 

Would you be sad for me?

 

Would you feel much of anything?

 

Who knows. Only you. And you certainly aren't telling.

[Mario79]

I hope you are ok, its been so cold these days, and your birthday is coming up, last time we spent it at our favorite restaurant, our restaurant. Those precious memories.

 

Everyday takes courage to get up and go, I know you probably hurt like I did, I made you cry. I cant stop thinking about your eyes, I can stop thinking that the reason it hurts was because I never gave myself as much as I did with anyone. Its been so long and I can still evoke that pain and it rushes and consumes me.

 

You challenged me, you made me better, why couldnt we figure this one out? Just why couldnt we solve this? I dont regret going through this hell because its made me better, because it gave me an insight to myself. But I hate that I lost you in this process.

 

I am gonna take my engagement ring and bury it in the highest mountain, and pray for your happiness.

[AnyaNova]

[Never Again]

 

[Steven33]

Sad day!!! Waking up to hear our Former President Nelson Mandela has passed away...RIP!!!Proudly South African!!!

[headinthecloud]

Just wanted to let you know that I'll be in your home town around Xmas in case we bump into each other. I really hope we won't but just know that I'm visiting my friends. I don't want you in my life and am much happier without you.