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[greenfairie]

I'm sorry for the way I hurt you. I don't think the way I handled things was the best way to end things. I don't have anything better to say than just sorry…. For that, I blame myself for all the crazy madness I've been putting myself through this past year. I've grown a lot through this heartache. I really do have to thank you and I've told you this a few times before that I would never trade anything for what we've had and I would never want ANYONE else to be my first love like you were my first love. It was special having all the firsts with you. Just knowing that I had you first and I broke your virginity makes me feel special in a way knowing I'm a big part of who you are now. It sucks that we can't be friends right now but I know maybe in the future, we will be. I just pray that my pain goes away 100 percent one day and I do have faith I will. I see so many women fall from heartbreaks and once they fall, they get up higher and stronger. That gives me hope that life does go on and I will indeed find another great love

[ByMyself01]

It pains me to know that you are away from me again and I really felt that you were the man for me, but I guess not. From the moment we started trying to be together, we were both wrong from the beginning. Even though we knew it, we both still had a longing to experience one another like we have and take a chance. I hope that everything goes okay with you on your journey, my heart really wanted to be on a journey with you. I really appreciate the experience, from allowing me to visit your city and you show me around. I also appreciate you coming into my life at the appropriate time to help me through the tough times when dealing with my ex. You completely made me forget him and for that, I thank you. I thank you for showing me around your city. It was an experience I will never forget.

[AnyaNova]

You wanted me gone.

 

You got your wish.

 

Whatever they are, the full consequences, whether good or bad, of that decision will be experienced by you.

 

I choose to make the consequences of that decision for me, for the better.

 

You got your wish.

 

May you enjoy the fruits thereof, whatever they may be.

[Kansas87]

I feel guilty. I feel guilty for talking to other guys, even if I haven't done anything. I feel guilty for thinking about it. I feel guilty for being positive and thinking about moving on, when I told you so many times that you were "the one" for me and I'd never get over you if we broke up. I told you I'd love you forever. I still do love you, of course, which is why I feel guilty. But I'm scared that if I don't do something you'd never forgive, I'll always hold out hope that you'll come back. I don't know what to do here.

[love1336x]

You suckkkkk!

[AnyaNova]

I feel guilty. I feel guilty for talking to other guys, even if I haven't done anything. I feel guilty for thinking about it. I feel guilty for being positive and thinking about moving on, when I told you so many times that you were "the one" for me and I'd never get over you if we broke up. I told you I'd love you forever. I still do love you, of course, which is why I feel guilty. But I'm scared that if I don't do something you'd never forgive, I'll always hold out hope that you'll come back. I don't know what to do here.

 

Sweetie no!

 

This is pure media enculturement talking. Yes. I know you love him. I know it hurts. I know how oceanic and titanic this thing feels.

 

BUT!

 

There is not "the one." There are many who could be "a one" for you. But this stupid idea of "the one" is what keeps many young idiots like I was when I was 19 stuck with abusive a-holes who don't deserve it. Like I was, after the abusive a-hole dumped me, listening to Garbage and "I'll Die for You." (and not perceiving any hint of irony). Epitomizing Romeo + Juliet and honestly considering final acts that cannot be undone.

 

Listen. Do not cloister yourself forever. There is another. There are lots of others who could be "a one" and "a one" the one you choose to be with for your entire life.

 

heal and wait for him who desires you enough to deserve you. :-)

[JoelBarish]

I don't know what to say to you anymore. Just that you've made your bed, now lie in it. You wonder why you are depressed all the time. Could it be that it's because you've thrown me away and I was the best thing to ever happen to you? You've spent a lifetime making yourself miserable and making bad choices that made you unhappy, why should now be any different?

 

I really don't miss you anymore. I miss the relationship that we had. But that is gone now. I don't miss who you are as a person. The more time that passes, the more I understand that I didn't truly know you. I only knew the persona you showed me to fool me into believing you were the one. As soon as you stopped wanting me, the persona was dropped and at last I saw who you really are.

 

I'm not angry. I'm not sad. Honestly, when I think of you now I just feel 'blah'.

[Shaine]

Ive come to accept it. I mean, why would i want to be with someone who doesnt want to be with me?

Goodbye.

 

And i saw you changed your twitter pic. Dont fool yourself, that was a very old pic of you. You dont look like that anymore! I bet that was taken like 5 years ago. Pfft!

Edited November 20, 2013 by Shaine

[JustaRegularGuyZ]

Kitty, out egos are so huge! Nether one of us will admit that we miss each other. You sent me a letter asking if I am alive and I sent back a letter to tell you that since you dumped me you should move on and forget me, the way I forgot you. Behind all those words there are few I could not add "i miss you". You replied to my letter stating that you don't care how I am but you care if I'm alive. You also wanted to say that you missed me but we are so stubborn like children who are trying to hurt each other and prove that we are happier.

 

I honestly am happy. I stopped drinking, I stopped smoking pot, I started working out. I don't need to impress you anymore, I don't need to be who you wanted me to be. I am already in a better physical shape than I have been with you. Now you have the freedom to drink without me limiting you yet you can't understand why you can't lose weight. God, we tried to change each other all these years, what is wrong with us? We would have been amazing friends! But not now, maybe in a year or so.

 

You know what I am afraid of Kitty? That we will see each other at the mall and I don't know if I should be noble or arrogant, purely ignore you or give you a "hello" and walk my way. Eesh, I can feel the awkwardness even now.

 

From best friends and lovers to nobody. I will always help you but you will never call me.

 

Good Bye Kitty, you were my best friend, my lover, my other half.

[Never Again]

I'm sorry.

 

I really am.

 

The amount of grief and loss I went through last year - I tried to cover it up, to spare you from the worst of my pain while I tried to privately cope.

 

Instead the tension built up and I let it out by complaining about the stress of my job. Not every day...maybe once a week when things got really rough.

 

I dragged you down. Hurt you. The negativity in my life creeped over into yours no matter how much I tried to bottle it in.

 

You told me to keep my chin up, to be happy. I tried, and I was...but I needed to vent because I had so much inside that I was overflowing.

 

I exposed my weak underbelly. I was a wuss. A whiner. A b*tch. A weakling.

 

No wonder your feelings for me faded - I killed off all attraction.

 

I sent you into emotional turmoil because you knew you loved me, you knew I was just in a rough spot, and you knew that underneath it all I really was someone you'd want to be with...but you didn't feel it anymore. You cried for days. You felt guilty, hurt, confused.

 

You didn't fall out of love...I sucked it all out of you because I was weak.

 

What I did wasn't fair. I'm sorry.

[im_thedude]

I..... miss you

 

Obviously the logical, rational part of my brain knows that we can't be together again. At least, definitely not for a long, long time.

 

But the irrational part of my brain just wants you to forget this new guy in your life and come back to me. I just want you to realize how big a mistake it was that you made. You made so many drastic changes to your life immediately after breaking up with me and I just want you to snap out of it. I don't want the grass to be greener.

Edited November 21, 2013 by im_thedude

[Kansas87]

I thought I was doing well, but I'm still glad I chose to leave so I didn't have to see you dropping off the rest of my stuff. It was jarring, just knowing you'd been here, just having the three-text conversation we did to arrange it. I probably shouldn't have said "thanks," but I didn't want to be rude.

 

I miss you so much, but at times I'm not sure I miss the real you. I miss you the way you were for the first year. The way you were sporadically for the second, when you weren't over-analyzing everything. I miss the man who loved me like crazy.

[love1336x]

talk to me again.... Please?

[AnyaNova]

Yup. It's official. I'm (as the cool kids say) twitterpated (or do they still? I have never been, "cool."

 

Its that guy from my class.

 

I don't know. I can't tell for sure what he thinks of me. I'm so bad at reading that sort of thing. Sometimes I think maybe he might "like" me a little like that, and sometimes I am not so sure.

 

I think he might be shy though, which makes him all the more attractive to me. :-)

 

I will admit to getting a little distracted in class for a couple minutes imagining what it would feel like to have his arms around me.

 

But, as we only have a couple more classes together, if it is shyness, probably nothing will come of it. Which is kind of too bad, but I'm not placing any expectations or anything.

 

It is just nice. He has such soulful eyes. I kind of sometimes want to drown in them. :-)

 

In class, the professor made a quip after he asked a question. I fear from his face that he was afraid for a moment that we were laughing at him. We weren't.

 

Wow. This is really disjointed. But it has been a good few days (thank you Lord for introducing me to b vitamin shots!).

 

I think it is good for me to have a small crush right now.

 

If, on the off chance, he does what I hope he will do, and asks me out for coffee, I will be sure to post about it here. I realize, my man-reading skills are so bad that it probably won't happen and I'm probably wrong.

 

But it still is nice. :-)

[AnyaNova]

Deleted. Accidental double post.

[JoelBarish]

Well I saw your car today. I assume that was "his" house you were at. Wow, he's gotten a real prize with you (sarcasm). That's why I texted you about the money you owe. That's why I said I don't ever want to see you again. That's why I told you to mail me the money. You didn't respond so I take it that I won't see one more cent that you owe me? Well good! It's worth it if I don't have to see your face or deal with you again.

 

They say it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. What a crock! Sure I have all these good memories of being with you. The problem is I can't look back at those memories and feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Instead I just feel angry and negative every time the memories of you surface. So really I don't need nor do I want the memories of you. You keep em'. Take em' and shove em' because the thought of our past together repulses me.

Edited November 21, 2013 by JoelBarish

[Mario79]

I swear I wish I never met you. I wish I could just delete you like I would a file. I want to stop feeling your eyes on me all the time. Those amazing eyes. I want my life before you back, I was just hoping for love, and I am fool for wishing the impossible. It's hard. Even remembering the wrongs, they seem to be outweighed but just 1 right. That look of love. That first kiss. That night underneath the biggest moon. I shouldnt even be writting this. My only prayer is now to be able to forget. To forget you ever cared. I dont know what to do. I dont know.

[Agent Orange]

I just miss you. It's really that simple.

[Jules78]

You sir, are a d.i.c.k.

[Omei]

Sigh I have had other relationships as long as ours was but I never felt the pain for very long a month maybe? Now its 10 months I still care, I still hate, I still love and I still want revenge.

 

I wish you had cheated, I wish you stole, anything to make me feel like i couldnt ever love you. Not trying and giving up is the lamest excuse ever! Five years? And you never felt the need to put the type of effort I did?

 

I dont want an ex that has a place in my heart for life, screw you for doing that even tho you dont deserve to leave and then forever having a place in my heart.

 

I will never be your friend I will never look at your social media I will never find out when you have a new gf you will always just be a kid that gave up someone great, me. Never will I look at your pictures, spy see you be happy see you matured or see you better yourself this is my revenge you think maybe inside ill or have looked but I wont! in my head you will forever be stuck at 23.

 

I will make you a faint dream, something never real someone I never knew or will know or know about.

Edited November 21, 2013 by Omei

[robbm1979]

I wish I didn't fall for you so hard. We had so many great times together and it seems like once you got to know me after all these years, you didn't like me anymore. I feel like I should have kept that side of me you didn't like to myself and we could still be together. I really miss you and want you to come back.

[AnyaNova]

I really don't know why I am posting this here. This really has nothing to do with you.

 

But essentially, my AvPD, my inability to speak to my professors in person about all the things that have been going on with me (particularly the B vitamin crashes, and everything) or even really let them get to know me, who I am, and how much I really do care about my work (so much so, that often I am very afraid to even begin it, because I care so deeply and want to do such a good job and am so afraid of messing it up or doing badly), that I haven't done necessary things like keep in touch with them about my research and have tried to solve all the problems I have come across all by myself, when already behind by missing class from illness, so I am even more behind.

 

Anyway. I think I am about to lose my academic career here. I have a plan b, c, and d.

 

But it sucks.

 

Because even though I didn't have a name for it, I've always known this strong anxiety, extreme fear of any criticism, negative comment, or rejection was a part of my life. And I really have been trying to deal with it, but then all those years of being so sick with the gluten intolerance before it was diagnosed and having severe bronchitis for months at a stretch gave me the out I needed to not have to participate and continue to work against it, grow around it, and develop strategies for dealing with it.

 

I am essentially 10 years behind in where I should be at in trying to deal with it. Frankly, I am pretty sure that you are way ahead of me in that score, because of those 10 damned years or so.

 

But I can see all the opportunities I didn't take out of fear. All the jobs over those years that I could have tried for, (and even if the illness fundamentally would have caused me to lose them--the employers I did have, to a one, all said that I did a really good job and worked really hard while I was with them, but the obvious illness was too much), even the process of interviewing would have been good for me, and you know, I really think that here in grad school I could have probably done 12 to 16 hours a week.

 

I think, if I get right down to it, in this instance I was using the ADD and "focusing on my studies," as an excuse to avoid the extreme terror that the idea of a new job and all the attendant people/evaluations/critique an whatnot that comes with a new job. But I didn't see it then.

 

I can tell you that now that I know what I am dealing with, I am going to take every step I can take to work around this, to keep myself from giving in to the fear, and make myself take every necessary risk I need to.

 

But, the knowledge, right now comes too late. I'm not saying it is a complete given that I will lose my academic career here, but I should definitely be ready for the possibility.

 

And the worst part is, I don't think any of my professors have any idea how deeply I care or how badly this is affecting me.

 

I think, because I haven't been in to see them, they think that I don't care.

Edited November 21, 2013 by AnyaNova

[Mario79]

I keep coming back here. I am at work right now, unable to concentrate, working at half speed, surrounded by people that mean not much to me. I feel alone, yet in a crowd. I wonder how you are. I wonder if you are happy, I wish that for you always. I am angry at you most of the time, I am angry at how things went, I am angry as to how powerless I was to stop this. I miss my girl, I would call you little fighter, since it seems you were out to fight everyone and make everyone yield, me included. If you just felt it in your heart for a second to tell me, lets go out, I would be there with bells on, and 2 dozen roses. I would give in to everything. I am alone, yet I still love you.

[love1336x]

I've been thinking 'bout the times you walked out on me

There were moments I'd believe, you were there

Do I miss you, or am I lying to myself again

I do these things (it's all because of you)

I keep holding on, but I'll try (try not to think of you)

Love don't leave me lonelyI'll be alright without you - there'll be someone else, I keep tellin' myself

I'll be alright without you - oh, love's an empty face, I can't replace

(you don't need it)

People wondrin' why we broke apart, the great pretender here I go again

These things I do (it's all because of you)

I'll keep holdin' on, but I'll try (try not to think of you)

All I wanted was to hold you

I'll be alright without you - there'll be someone else, I keep tellin' myself

I'll be alright without you - love's an empty face, oh I've got to replace

I'll be alright without you - there'll be someone else, I keep tellin' myself

I'll be alright without you - oh, love's an empty place

I can still see your face (I'll be alright)

Read more: Journey - I'll Be Alright Without You Lyrics | MetroLyrics

 

Perfect song for my current situation.

[love1336x]

Truth is nobody can replaced your ex.

But you can learn to love another...