Post here instead of contacting your ex!

[Haydn]

ted Hughes drove her mad. I remember from O. level English.

[AnyaNova]

Ugh! Second round of vitamins and supplements kick in, please??? Now??? Soon!

 

I have a test to study for and I don't need to be all sleepy and sad. Please kick in very, very, very soon. You were doing so well, all through my class and even after I got home. Can't really take the time to think of you right now.

[im_thedude]

Hey darling,

 

Go **** yourself

[AnnaAnna]

Hey, How are you love?

I miss you.

What gives?

 

I found somebody else... I like him a lot... Maybe even more than you...

 

You go girl! So happy for you

[AnyaNova]

Maybe you're right not to contact me. Maybe I am just nuts. I certainly am without enough magnesium and b vitamins in my system.

 

I really wish I could take another b complex today, but I can't. Furthermore, I wish I could absorb more of the one's that I've taken. Thanks to them my mood is going up and down like a ping pong ball, and where I'm in regards to you seems to follow. When they're good, I'm okay with everything and only slightly consternated that we can't be friends.

 

Well, when they're bad.

 

Here I am.

 

Why couldn't we have had a nice clean and normal break up like everyone else?

[JoelBarish]

So I hear you stopped by today. That was nice that you brought that stuff for my niece. She really liked you, ya know. It's too bad you had to do this to "us". I'm grateful that you are still going to pay me back after everything we've been through. And I don't regret loaning it to you either, you needed it.

 

Good night. I could say something really sweet but instead I'll say this; every time your phone is not ringing, that's the sound of me not calling.

[reddragon588]

Tell your mom Happy Birthday.

[TylerDurdenn]

Good morning beautiful, i love you x

[Haydn]

Creeping around Budapest. Hoping not to run in to you. As Anna says the gates of hell will be opened! I want this week to end and get back to London. Away from you. But guess what Sugar? I love you. Uncomfortable? Not for you, i will never tell you again. For me? Oh yes. Very. Haydn

[JustaRegularGuyZ]

I miss my ex GF and I hate it. My mind knows how different we are and how selfish we both are, and how bad we are for each other. Many wonder how the **** we spent 6 years together, I wonder that myself. I do miss her though, very much. Its been a month since breakup and I feel like she doesn't think of me. She dumped me and I understand how hard it must've been, she is so kind to do that.

We both need this, we both want to meet people and find Love in someone else.

I am talking to this wonderful girl who also had a recent breakup and we are basically using each other as rebounds, but we are happier this way.

But the most I miss is not sex, is not going to have dinner with her, but going to the movies with her. We Loved them so much.

[Transplant]

I know my clothes are comfy but you weren't a boxer at Oxford University, sweetheart! Give me back my stuff!

[AnyaNova]

There are several thoughts are conflicting in my head right now.

 

1) I did the best I could, I've managed to keep 3 classes going reasonably well even after having to miss 6 days of class due to bronchitis in graduate school.

 

2) My first semester, when I got bronchitis (seems to happen once a year in the fall) and had to miss 8ish classes, I still pulled the semester out with a 3.8.

 

3)This one class I am taking really doesn't lend well to missing, or to having to forgo studying on it as much-- to keep the other classes which affect my career and my GPA far more going--and I have spent as much time on it as I could.

 

4) I have also been fighting the all symptoms of an extended glutening from the medication I had to be on while I was sick, and some mystery ingredient that I have twice ingested from my own kitchen from one of the ingredients that I had thought were safe.

 

5) I know I failed the test this morning.

 

6) I don't fail tests. 99 percent of the time, I tend to do very well and even blow the lid off of them.

 

7) But I failed it today.

 

8) I am really disappointed in myself.

 

9) I am keeping three other classes going, and am confident that I can finish the work and do well in them.

 

10) Whatever happens, I will do my best, keep working, and I will be successful. It may take me several tries, but I will do this.

 

I am hungry, but I know that if I eat, it will hurt. I am tired because I didn't get enough sleep last night. I am discouraged right now.

 

But know this. There is a fierce well of determination within me that has kept me going through my ADD, through all the gluten related health issues that weren't diagnosed so long (Looking back that what I was fighting through, physically, the fact that I have a bachelors degree is really amazing), and that has kept me able to keep going despite everything. And is the source of my accomplishments so far

 

And once I am over this stupid glutening, have found the ingredient that is making me sick, and my brain chemicals bounce back and stay bounced back, I will again have my joy and resilience back. Count on it.

 

I have a life with ups and downs and people who really know me and get me.

 

Those people know everything that I am capable of, all my gifts, and are there for me on days like today to remind me that I can do this.

 

I have my beautiful cat, who seems to know when I am down, and cuddles up with me.

 

Now that I am mostly caught up (save the articles, but I'm getting there), and back on track, I should have more time to study for this class. I will do well on the next one.

 

And.

 

I have so much to be grateful for. Even with everything that I have struggled against in this past year (and it has been so much), I have plenty of things to be thankful for as previously stated, so many things to look forward to, and even if I have to transfer to a smaller school to better be able to manage my ADD, so be it.

 

I will rise again from this, I will pick myself up, dust myself off, and do whatever I need to do to succeed. That is what everyone who wrote me a recommendation letter knew about me and that is why they did wrote those letters.

 

And you know what, if you would judge me harshly for failing one test in a class that doesn't easily lend itself to the kinds of conceptual linking that allows me to pretty easily succeed in other classes with everything I have been through in these last semesters followed by what I have been through <i>this semester, than you clearly don't know me and my determination, don't have much compassion, and really don't deserve to.

 

I don't really think you would. But I do remember being a little jealous of your extreme organization. It is something my ADD causes me to struggle with, and I wish I had a little of your organization gene.

 

Anyway, I am going to knock this out of the park, somehow, someway.

 

And I'm going to do so without you.

[AnyaNova]

Feeling emotionally somewhat better. Thank you b vitamin.

 

Physically worse, though.

 

But I will get through.

[AnnaAnna]

Creeping around Budapest. Hoping not to run in to you. As Anna says the gates of hell will be opened! I want this week to end and get back to London. Away from you. But guess what Sugar? I love you. Uncomfortable? Not for you, i will never tell you again. For me? Oh yes. Very. Haydn

 

I used to love going to visit my family in NY. I used to go every few months or so but now I have no plans of going there any time soon because that's where he lives. I want to stay far, far away for now. Knowing he's so close and not being able to see him or talk to him would be just too much for me.

I understand how you feel Haydn.

Keep your head up high. This too shall pass.

She will miss all your love some day but when she does it will be too late.

[AnnaAnna]

Hey as**ole, I think I'm finally getting over you!

 

 

After I sent you a message I really didn't know if you were going to reply. When you did, I didn't feel anything. When I didn't reply to your message you sent another one. I still didn't care. I bet you were thinking I would be so excited. There are no more butterflies left in my stomach for you. I am no longer waiting for your messages and I don't care if you send any ever again. I don't want your breadcrumbs. I don't even want you anymore. Sucks for you because you have lost somebody who was willing to love you forever. This chick will never be yours again!

Have fun with the horse looking woman you been spending your time with!

[Janni]

You are right. The deposit you got back does not add up. Why? Because I am not freaking paying half the rent for the two and a half months where you stayed at OUR place while cheating on me with her. I am not paying half the rent so you could live ONE building apart from her. If you still believe so, you must be out of your mind.

 

But I guess you are. If you weren't, you would have respected me enough to stop trying after I blocked your number and your facebook. But you didn't. I actually feel sorry for you. You have ruined your financial situation so bad with all your impulse shopping.

 

Not my fault. And you can not blame me for you not paying back the money you borrowed from your mother. It is NOT my fault. It will NEVER be my fault.

 

You decided you did not want to live with me anymore. You decided you didn't want me. And you take the responsibility. I am not here to protect you anymore. I am not here to solve you problems. You are on your own. Or maybe, try asking her. She was so much better than me anyway, right?

 

When you leave someone, you take the consequences. I did so too. I had to pay for YOU leaving ME. So don't you ever dare contact me ever again.

 

And btw. I blocked your e-mail too. Both of them.

[love1336x]

I have a choice.

To resist or give in.

[Haydn]

Thank you Anna. That will get me through the night. Haydn

 

 

I used to love going to visit my family in NY. I used to go every few months or so but now I have no plans of going there any time soon because that's where he lives. I want to stay far, far away for now. Knowing he's so close and not being able to see him or talk to him would be just too much for me.

I understand how you feel Haydn.

Keep your head up high. This too shall pass.

She will miss all your love some day but when she does it will be too late.

[Familia]

Well time for me to make my first post, I have been reading all the "coping" threads for days now and certainly of benefit.

 

My girl left me a week ago after a six year relationship, she simply said that I am no longer the person for her and she did not feel the same way toward me anymore. I have reacted as most do contacting and asking to go for walks and to discuss our future in which she has ignored or told me to go away over..... I finally decided to go NC 3 days ago now and have deleted her from all communication channels on my phone / computer.

 

Reason for this post was I had thoughts of sending flowers or just turning up at her house to talk things through, although I know that would only make things worse so I must stop that temptation, believe me its killing me knowing this is it and she will no longer be in my life after 6 years, its a terrible thought and the pain is terrible.

 

First post of many to come on this thread. Thank you ALL

[AnnaAnna]

Well time for me to make my first post, I have been reading all the "coping" threads for days now and certainly of benefit.

 

My girl left me a week ago after a six year relationship, she simply said that I am no longer the person for her and she did not feel the same way toward me anymore. I have reacted as most do contacting and asking to go for walks and to discuss our future in which she has ignored or told me to go away over..... I finally decided to go NC 3 days ago now and have deleted her from all communication channels on my phone / computer.

 

Reason for this post was I had thoughts of sending flowers or just turning up at her house to talk things through, although I know that would only make things worse so I must stop that temptation, believe me its killing me knowing this is it and she will no longer be in my life after 6 years, its a terrible thought and the pain is terrible.

 

First post of many to come on this thread. Thank you ALL

 

First of all, welcome to the forum. I hope we can help you get through this difficult time in your life. So sorry for your heartbreak.

 

 

Second of all, please do not break your NC. Do not send flowers and do not go to her house! She wants you to go away so that's what you need to do. Just disapear and give her some space. It will be good for both of you.

[Familia]

AnnaAnna - Thank you for the quick response. It certainly is a great feeling having this support and what feels like a instant friendship bond with people like yourself on this forum and across the globe I have done lots of reading regarding NC and certainly understand the need for this during this time.

[AnyaNova]

Oh you.

 

Tim.

 

 

This is the question I keep stumbling over. Whether, if I could go back and do it over knowing what I know now, if I still would, or if I would just be friends with you, as I'd originally intended.

 

There were a lot of sweet moments, and every opposite to each other thing that we brought to each other.

 

But if I knew how badly my heart was going to get shredded, how we were going to end, and the confusing push/pull that would occupy my mind for over a month and a half after it was over.

 

I really can't decide. I know you said on that last night, that you definitely would. That you wouldn't change a thing.

 

As much as I love? loved? you, I can't say the same. Maybe after I am farther away from this. Maybe after I am over you and with someone else. And maybe, with plenty of time past, after you have sent me something of yours, even if it is just a handwritten note, so that I have something to prove that you were actually a part of my life, other than our shared memories.

 

But right now. I can't. I can't say I would change anything. But I can't say that I wouldn't either.

 

What I can say is that I do miss your unique viewpoint and the way you showed me to observe things I never would have noticed (like those darned pixelations...oh that's a reminder I should go add that to the "annoying things about your ex" thread). :-p

 

My magnesium and b vitamins seem to be picking up for now. Hopefully this rollercoaster will end soon.

[AnnaAnna]

AnnaAnna - Thank you for the quick response. It certainly is a great feeling having this support and what feels like a instant friendship bond with people like yourself on this forum and across the globe I have done lots of reading regarding NC and certainly understand the need for this during this time.

 

Believe me, first few weeks are the hardest but just remember you are doing this for yourself. You have to take care of you now. Do what you can to keep busy and we are here if you need help

[AnyaNova]

My magnesium is kicking in, which means that everything else is kicking in.

 

You know, I'm getting sick of these mood crashes which seem to want to take me on a mini trip through memory lane about each step in the recovery process. I don't mind reaching the nearly healed stage each time.

 

I really do mind being dragged back through the desperate early and crazy parts.

 

It is nice to be back. I don't want to go there again!

 

Tim; I miss you and wish we could be friends. But if you can't handle it, if you're too afraid of really trusting someone right now, that is okay with me.

[TylerDurdenn]

You're a cruel, heartless person.