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[sealyons]

I... don't know anymore..

 

 

I don't like what my ex is becoming. Damn, how can I stop myself looking!!

 

I don't want to care about her at all. I want to wake up one day and not think of her with every f..ckn second.

 

F F F F F is all I want to say. Most of all, I wanna say F to myself because I can't stop caring for somebody who isnt deserving of my attention.

 

Screw her friends for telling me to move on! Screw her for posting pictures all smile and happy. Screw me for looking!

 

Can somebody carry me in a trance and never let me back until I'm healed. I'm so tired of my self and this habit of caring. It's not healthy, it's not givng any positive thing on me. ****e, I know, I am aware of all the bad things it gives, but why do I still care. Please, help me...............

[AnyaNova]

Thank you so very much for resensitizing me following my friend's death. Thank you so very much that when my friend ledft after his visit I cried like a baby and still am.

 

Thank you so much for leaving when I knew it was going to be so bad for me (yes I needed no contact for quite a bit) but to sever all ties forever?

 

Thanks.

 

A heap.

 

Now I have hey line from Hurt, which I know it isn't true and my friend even pointed out when I told him that some people come back, but the line. "Everybody goes away, in the end."

 

How much did you think about me and be effect it would have? Haven't I lost enough people this year?

 

I don't want you back. It was funny, I showed my friend a few of your messages (and I'll admit, a few from the new guy) and the difference is obvious. He really speaks my language in a way that you don't, but we still could have been good for each other as friends, and I can see that now.

 

But you will have none of it.

 

And I am left trying to remind myself that everyone doesn't go away in the end, and that death is not the last word, even though it seems so now. And I can't call you to tell you any of this and it sucks.

 

Thank you so very, very much.

[Petunia20]

Tomorrow is Boss' Day and I'll be in Palm Springs with two friends. I really need the girl time. So today I went out and bought my boss flowers from the flower shop where my roses used to come from. I felt very anxious being in there. To know that in that same room you once stood buying roses for me. Its pathetic I know. I think I'm getting more used to the idea that you are never coming back. At times I fantasize that you are and other times I even convince myself that what we had cannot end this way and that you will return. But in reality I cannot see this happening. You are with her. And as much as it pains me, you love her. You will do anything for her I think. She's like your dream girl and you even said that once. I lost, like I have always lost. I was never the girl that a man picked over anyone. So for me to have thought that you chose me over her was stupid. You proved that to me by going back to her. One thing I am happy about tho is that I at least did not keep you by force. That I knew you were unhappy and in a way let you walk away from me. Because i didnt want you to be with me but secretly hurting for her.

[AnyaNova]

@Petunia--There is a guy out there, probably more than one, who would choose you above all others if they but knew you! Don't give up yet.

[Friggia]

I'm leaving in eight days. I'll be ten hours away.

 

Please contact me well before then.

 

Last time you said you were waiting until X date so you wouldn't distract me. I asked you this time not to distract me. I'm waiting for you. Please do this for me. Please. Before it's too late. My birthday is coming up. You told me you'd not neglect contacting me on my birthday. I've broken my previous record of seven days after a fight, by 6 hours. I have to muscle through waiting for you to step up for another week at most. That's all I have.

 

Please don't let me down again.

[Petunia20]

@Petunia--There is a guy out there, probably more than one, who would choose you above all others if they but knew you! Don't give up yet.

Thank you! That literally made my eyes water right now. I hope to someday be happy again with someone who sees me as their everything.

[Minneloa]

Well, you're fading now, at last.

 

Sometimes I think about what you said when we broke up, and then I think, "Yeah, it hurt you to leave me, but not enough to stay."

 

Wherever you are, I wish you well, but I see your weakness now. It gives me strength, sweetheart.

[AnyaNova]

This is why I am Christian. The evidence of sin in the world is so obvious. People get hurt by people. You were hurt. But then, even if they don't mean to, even if they don't want to, even if they essentially have beautiful hearts, like you do, they still pass that hurt onto others. I think that you couldn't trust me not to hurt you at some point in a major way, so you had to hurt me first to protect yourself. You were hurt first to get to that state. You hurt me. I wonder, without thinking about it and unconsciously, who have I hurt in response? I wish I could say that the answer was no one. But I am not so sure.

[love1336x]

Hopefully this will be my last message about you...

You had your chance YOU BLEW IT.

YOU LIED. YOU CHEATED. YOU PUSHED ME AWAY!

I AM BEAUTIFUL. SMART. AMAZING. I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING I COULD POSSIBLY GIVE YOU.

WHY DID YOU RUIN THAT FOR HER?

FOR YOUR USER! A WOMAN WHO NEVER LOVED YOU, AND NEVER WILL.

SAD THING IS... I FORGIVE YOU... I FORGIVE YOU BECAUSE HOLDING BITTERNESS AND HATE IS LIKE HOLDING HOT COAL. YOU'LL ONLY GET BURN.

 

Know this... I will always miss you forever maybe.

This chapter in my life the wanting you needs to be over.

 

We had fun together... I won't ever love a man the way I loved you. </3

I know I truly loved you because even though you hurt me i would take you back. </3

 

if it's meant to be we'll find a way back to one another, but for now... good bye my love...

[RDawg]

i put so much into it. one day you will appreciate what you had and regret your choices. speak to your therapist about the need to communicate in a relationship you stupid TV addict.

[im_thedude]

95 percent of the communication you received from me since dumping me was me on my knees, and I hate myself for it. I wish I could send one last letter to you telling you just how terrible a thing you did was, and how many things YOU did wrong both during and after the relationship!

 

You're the most disrespectful, heartless, two-faced, delusional, self-centered woman I've ever met. Gosh, how selfish you are. I still don't know if I could ever take you back, or if I even want to. I still probably do. But it will only be well after you realize that the world doesn't revolve around you, and it will only be after you acknowledge how terribly you handled this relationship.

[LifeGoesOnMan]

your a skank & I really don't like you. suck a d-ck & die.

[Janni]

I don't want to contact him. But I miss him so much. It's been three weeks of NC tomorrow. The longest we've ever gone without talking. I don't understand how he could choose her over me. Six years with me. Didn't it mean anything? It sure looks like it didn't. He didn't miss a single day of classes and I've missed three weeks. Staying in bed. Not eating. I've lost at least 6 kilos and I did not have anything to lose in the first place. I don't know how to move on. How to find me again. Me. The strong, confident, independent woman I used to be. The woman who fights with all her heart and mind for what she wants. I don't even care if I am unable to pass my BA next year. And it's getting increasingly possible. I am lost.

[AnyaNova]

your a skank & I really don't like you. suck a d-ck & die.

 

On the one hand, I know we all have some anger towards our exes that we need to work out. But I have to admit that I read that and wondered, "what if my ex is saying that about me?" Ah life. Please don't censor yourself on my insecurities. Just putting my reaction out there. :-) I really hope that he isn't saying that about me, but then again, I really have no idea what, if anything, he is saying.

[UnknownFX]

This is one of those bad days were i just want to contact you because i miss you so much I'm really trying to let go but its hard hopefully in a few months from now i don't have to feel this pain anymore.

[AnnaAnna]

I don't want to think about you anymore. I'm tired of you. I can't even look at your ugly face anymore. You make me sick!Why do I bother thinking about you? You are not worth my time!

I don't wish you all the best! I hope you suffer as much as I have!

[RollTide10]

You left me. After 6 years of what we built together. Giving each other our best and understanding each other's worst. You left me. You will never see the side of me that I am a week into this. I am torn. I'm beaten. I have no hope. But for 15 minutes I wish you could be in my shoes to feel this that you have done to me. While your off at work with the guy you've been texting religiously for the past 3 weeks, I wish a sudden rush of THIS that I feel would hit you dead in the center of your chest. I wish you could comprehend what you are putting me through. But....I know it won't. Your content. You have found your way out of this and are on your merry way. You couldn't wait for me to have my medical schooling out of the way, yet it took you till 26 to graduate. You need stability and money without the real parts of a relationship oh yeah like commitment and you needed it now. I love you more then you could possibly fathom and I don't know when I will stop or how I will, but I hate you. I hate you for what your doing to me and the way you are doing it. I pray to The Lord above that I wake up tomorrow and these feelings of hatred override all the memories and wonderful times I've shared with you but....they won't. If only....if only you could understand.

[petall]

Hi D, today's my birthday. I still remember reading how our stars are perfectly matched. Me Libra you Gemini. In my heart, I know you will always regret letting me go. Pride. That awful thing keeping us apart.

 

I still miss you. We had so much potential. Silly. So silly. Threw it all away. Maybe our paths can meet again some day.

 

Goodnight darling.

[JoelBarish]

I feel nauseous today. I thought of you too much. I am sure you're doing just fine without me. I bet you didn't think of me today.

[AnyaNova]

You were right to break up with me. I see that now. Not to separate yourself cometpletely from my life, but to end the romantic thing between us was right. I think we both will be happier with someone who shares our perceiving style. The two of you, when you brave a shot at a relationship again can have a euphoric discussion about the various places you both love outside the windo of Carlos okelleys. She will enjoy that sort of thing far more than I was ever equipped to do so.

 

I think there is a good chance. I don't think it is too soon. I hope not. But we are taking things slow to see where they go.

 

If and when I get into a relationship I will not post I this thread about you ever again. It would seem like disloyalty, other Han one post to tell you that I have found someone and that I am happy. And I will be. :-). Whenever it happens. Two weeks or two years from now.

[AnyaNova]

Also, the fact than you broke your word on at least one if he two career related notes you promised to send (your class is surely done by now) is causing me to lose respect for you. I know things happen, but you knew how much it meant to me, to see you succeeding and becoming established.

 

I will reiterate.

 

You broke your word.

[BritneyLynn]

He will never read this, nor do I want him to, I'm using this to get out the emotions I could never say to him...

 

There are things in your past that I never knew, things I could never understand, you've been through a hell worse than any I've ever known. I didn't want to fix you, I couldn't if I tried. All I wanted was to bring the sunshine back into your life. You lived in the dark for so long, stuffing your emotions down so deep I'm not sure you knew what pain was anymore. You are a beautiful person with so much to offer but you stand in the shadows and won't let any light in. It was impossible for me to love a man who honestly didn't know what love was. I tried, I truly did. If there was a way to erase your past and let you see everything I saw in your eyes, all the beauty and wisdom, I would. But I was broken too, scarred from past loves, do you have any idea how difficult it was to even let you in to begin with? I don't know where the man I fell in love with has gone, but he's not within you anymore. We created a life together, and it ended before it even began. I wept alone in bed because you weren't there for me. Maybe we are both just too broken to be able to be together, or maybe it was me, maybe I resented you for your lack of emotion when it came to matters of the heart. I'm sorry I wasn't the best towards you in the end, I know I made mistakes of my own and I regret them. The truth is all I ever wanted from you was some comfort, I needed to hear you say we would be okay, we would make it through and all you could say was that I needed to move on and stop thinking about it. You were so cold, so distant, and I don't get why. Do you truly not have a heart at all or are you that broken that you can't feel?

[BritneyLynn]

Today, I hate you. I hate that you weren't there for me when I needed you most, I hate how much you drink, I hate how distant you can be one minute and how caring you can be the next, I hate that you made me look inside myself and face the fact that I'm just as messed up as you, I hate how you walked away from everything we had worked so hard to build. I want to slap you, and then kiss you, I want to scream in your face, and then hold you close to me. Don't call me when you're drunk anymore either, do you have any idea how hard it is to see your name on my phone? Today, I hate you, I'm sure tomorrow I will love you, but either way I will not be calling you.....

[AnnaAnna]

Today I'm celebrating 20 days of NC. I am so happy I made that decision for us. I miss you but I am so much happier without you. You made me so miserable. That emotional roller coaster you had me on was the worst thing I ever had to go through. I am finally happy and I look forward to my future without you. You go ahead and drink your life away. No more calls from the hospital, no more worrying about you, no more fights... No more you!I'm going to celebrate by treating myself to some shopping and relaxing.

Cheers!

[Petunia20]

I had a really good time yesterday in Palm Springs. Always good times with Daisy and Jannely. So many foreign guys there. I met a few and gave them my #. One i was really interested in. Today Im back home and I feel kinda scared. On my drive home I talked a lil about you to Daisy. And when i got home i felt like i missed you so I went on your FB and saw your profile pic. I can honestly say that I saw you as a stranger. Like so far away from me and like someone who has nothing to do with me. like you never had anything to do with me. That scares me because at one point in my life you were everything, you were my world. As the day goes by i feel like im not missing you and like i have finally let go or moved on. It is a seriously scary feeling. I feel like I need to talk to you or text you or something to "check" if this feeling is true, real ...idk. But I wont do that. I dont want to hurt myself and in reality there is no reason to because even if i realized that i still had feelings for you , its not like you do. So there is no point. If you wanted me back then there would be a point but you dont. Idk this is scary but im just going to go with it. Maybe tomorrow i will feel different. I hope this is good in the long run tho for my recovery. Honestly today I wish you the best in life and I can say that I dont want you back