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[JoelBarish]

You've hurt me so badly. Yet I still miss what we had. Where ever you are, you 're not thinking of me. Please stay out of my area. I don't want to see you again. In spite of everything my heart has trouble giving up on you. If we had stayed together I would have never given up. Is there sadness in your heart knowing we can never go back? Are you happier now? Have you even thought of me once during this time? Probably not. My only regret is I will never get to treat you as coldly as you treated me.

[KCCK]

will I ever find someone to love me again? =(

[degearea]

I wanted to be with you forever... I did. When we were together we laughed so much... you were fun and adventurous... my dog loved you... i bought this house for us to have a family and life together forever...

 

WHY COULDN'T YOU STOP YELLING AT ME???

 

Be as angry as you want but don't yell at me! Lord. Every two weeks on the dot you would lose it and act insane! Why couldn't you just calm down and rationally explain your anger like an adult???

 

Oh yeah, its because you DRINK. You pound booze to the point where you lose control, turn into a 40 year old brat princess, and tear apart anything that gets in your way.

 

How do you think I'm able to let those moments go??? When I'm pulling away from you it's because you blacked out and can't remember what you said while I've got raw wounds all over my heart and head from the way you treated me!!!

 

You couldn't stop drinking... you couldn't stop screaming and berating me...

 

I dumped you. Part of me thinks we should have gotten counseling, but I don't really know if you would have went.

 

Now you've moved in with another guy... it effing kills me because I know you're in that honeymoon phase like we had where everything is hunky dory. You're keeping your temper in check, not ripping him to shreds verbally, actually working out instead of just talking about it...

 

It's not gonna last. It might take 3, 6, or 9 months but the real you will come out. It will. I know I shouldn't care but I do. ****ing hate that I really miss someone that abused me so much.

 

I just want to be over you... and it's getting cold outside... and the nights are longer... and you're just so in love and perfectly happy after stomping on me week after week.

 

I tried to give you everything and you spat in my face...

 

Damn you.

[Petunia20]

You're NOT coming back

You dont love me anymore

You seldomly think of me

You are happy with her

You will marry her

You will have children with her...soon

 

I will move on

I will be happy

I will find someone else

I will stop loving you someday

[Misfortune]

Happy birthday to you :/

 

"I guess that's just the motion."

[AnyaNova]

My levels are back. I am going to be fine. The creeper didnt cause a huge setback for me, it just came at a really bad time.

 

When I think about everything, and it all makes sense. And I'm sorry. I didn't know. If I had, I never would have risked hurting you by having a relationship with you. I don't think fundamentally you were ready for one, though I know why you wanted to try. You were right after all, I think you are probably right now fragile. But that can be changed.

 

It will take work. And change. And trusting someone with whatever thing you think about yourself that you think is unspeakable and unlovable. Because it needs to be spoken to someone trustworthy, and no matter what it is, you are not unloveable, and you don't need to push people away because of it. I hope someday you can find someone to speak it to, who proves to you that even that thing you think is so awful, does not make you unloveable.

[seekingpeaceinlove]

Happy Birthday. I was excitedly planning for this day before we broke up. I wanted to make you feel special, loved and happy. I always did. Remember last year? Amazing dinner, amazing night...

 

Who knows...you could be spending today with a new girl..or friends..or family. I know you're not awaiting a greeting from me.

 

No matter.

 

Happy Birthday. I will allow myself to think about you and the sweet memories of us freely today.

[AnyaNova]

Right now I am missing your sense of decorum and dignity. I just had some guy that I haven't even met in person yet (thankfully, not the guy that I am most interested in) talk in vivid detail about making love to me. I need a shower, now, I feel disgusting. You'd laugh nervously and sympathize. And probably blush, but that is not hard to accomplish.

[AnnaAnna]

Another nightmare....I hate waking up and not having you with me!

When will you come back?! Please hurry up, I need you so much!!

I miss you like crazy!

Babe, I still love you!

[AnyaNova]

I will give you credit for being a decent guy in many ways. One of them being your common decency and dignity. If a girl let you know that she was not comfortable and because of that, had to cancel a planned date and make it clear that this was not going to be working out, you would not bite back and insult the woman.

[love1336x]

I want to talk to you.....

Why do I want to hear your voice so badly tonight?

I wish you pick up... But I doubt you would... Even when we was dating... You didn't like to talk too late.

 

 

To think if I stay on NC I won't ever hear your voice again....

Sad. Your voice is so sexy. So nice. Even when we did fight... It was sexy.

 

:/ I'm tired of this.

[AnyaNova]

And you would never send a picture of that. Thank God.

 

a) I already told the guy I didn't want to go on a date with him, and wished him well on his search.

 

b) It really pisses me off that said guy thinks that of all of his qualities that I might miss or think I should have given a chance to or regret not having, it is the size of his erect member.

 

c) What he had to do before to get it as it was. Ugh.

 

I thought I needed a shower after the phone call.

 

It is odd that I am writing this here. I'm not in love with you any more. I miss you in my life. But I think there was way too much stuff you needed to work on for you to actually be in a relationship. But still. You would understand. You would share my horror.

[achilles333]

I think with any sort of rejection, you’re angry that you weren’t enough for that person, I don’t know if I’m angry at myself for not being enough, or if I’m angry at you for not considering me to be enough. I am sorry.. I cry all the time real tear from my real soul, heart, mind, from true pain, no lie just my feelings. that just don't matter to you anymore. I cry because I need you I love you and I lost my sweetie. Everyday I cant stop thinking about you, you are the only person that used to hold me, to care about what hurt me the most. I don't cry because I'm weak. I cant stop, crying because I'm beat. So you say "I am the loser, the joke, the *******, lazy father and the worst boyfriend," who is now lost everything You the kids and my home wow not to hard to see why I cant stop crying. You never even told me that I had a second chance. I guess we weren't meant to live our lives together? ........ and ....... forever nope ...... and ....... never. This breaks my heart I feel the pain. HELP ME HELP ME PLEASE. When will this horrible nightmare end. oh it wont it just gets worse everyday for me. I have begged and I'm alone just like all the other times, in my life, before you, no one there for me, no one cared to comfort me and no one EVER will. Well if that wasn't enough for me to take maybe if I lost my dad or never saw my daughter. Afraid again with reason, Yes scared Yes alone Yes hurt real bad Yes, You tell another man the words you used to say to me. Ouch more tears more more and they don't stop. I deserve worse, I know that much. Because the worst it yet to come for me.

I am only telling how I feel not to make you mad and go tell #<$* or to emotionally hurt you, I love you. And that's all.

I will not never get to tell you that again so please just take this last letter as a way to let you know how I really feel

about you.

[TrappedWanderer]

Why have you done this? Why did you deceive me for so long? Why did you pretend that you were ready for this-a life together, commitment, trust...sharing our lives and building our own family??

 

Why did you put me through saying vows and having such a happy day full of promise and excitement? My mom says she's never seen me so happy.

 

Why did you make me move across the ocean for you?? Why couldn't you at least have given things a shot? Why did you allow your family to call me names? Why did you wait until I was literally all alone in this country to totally destroy our marriage?

 

I've been trying to be strong....but you did a number on me. And I HATE that you have that power over me. You got me to trust you-and I don't trust easily, and you know that. I put my all into this...why did you have to discard it all so carelessly?

 

And now I'm left with having to tell everyone. And deal with their pity. I'm hurt and humiliated and destroyed.

 

And I know you don't care. Your life isn't changing...i wasn't you who left their entire life behind to build something new. Now I'm left questioning everything. Will I find love-real love? Will I have a family? Will I have that partnership, that someone to share life's joys and sorrows with?

 

And yet, I still love you...or what I thought was you. And I hate you for that.

[headinthecloud]

My heart goes out to you and I'm sorry you're going through this. But try to take solace in that you're not alone.

 

Put all that energy into changing your reality by bettering yourself. Go the gym, go out with friends, do yoga, go for a walk. Get out of the house and keep busy. This is the hard part, being alone with your thoughts. But fight it and better yourself - if not for you, then for your child.

 

Post here whenever you feel overwhelmed or need advice. We're here for you. Be strong. You will get through this.

[jimloveslips]

M: wow, we had a really great time!

 

D: wow, we had a really great time!

 

H: wow, we had a really great time!

 

J: wow, we had a really great time!

 

S: wow, we had a really great time!

 

V: well, I wasn't that good - you should have stuck around I ended up being really very good, just ask M, D, H, J & S!

Edited October 11, 2013 by jimloveslips

[Petunia20]

yesterday i cried for almost an hour. i hadnt cried like that in awhile. My mom was so upset she wanted to call you and cuss you out. I stopped her, i dont want you to know how much i'm hurting. You've seen me cry like that before. Right after I found everything out I cried like that while you were at my house. You held me and tried to make it better but i kept crying. It hurt more that the person who was comforting me was the person i was crying for. Now that i think about it, i cried a lot this past year. I cried while we were going to bed one night and you asked if i wanted to talk about it, i said no. Then on your bday in the car. when we were coming back from Hollywood. Mornings are the hardest. I wake up knowing that you are waking up next to someone else. To someone who you always preferred over me. And that there is where you are truly happy. I have to keep moving on though. i've stopped snooping at im at day 4 of not snooping. I dont want to see that you are happy or that she is pregnant or that you guys are getting married. Like i always told you tho, if that is what you want i will not get in your way. And i havent gotten in your way. It hurts like hell not to have you anymore and knowing you are happy and making someone else happy. Not caring what im doing. Im going to stop rambling. Hope you are really happy, and i mean really. I hope you're not faking this like you did with me. Because then i will know tha you are human and that you can love. Because with me it didnt feel like you loved me truly. You no longer belong to me David, and i dont think you ever did

[im_thedude]

For weeks I wondered why you didn't seem to miss me, or hurt at all from the demise of our relationship.

 

I know now that it's because you more or less had another guy lined up, from one of your stupid social media websites.

 

And for the longest time, I hoped I'd run into you when out and about.

 

Now, I hope to god that doesn't happen because I think I would slap you square across your stupid, horrible face. I know you did nothing to hurt me on purpose. I should probably feel sorry for you essentially being a serial monogamist. But mostly, I just really want to scream in your face what an awful thing you did.

[sniperz]

Call me bad. From ENA to LS, I have posted something significant.

 

YOU were the cause of the relationship's failure. YOU have committed the sin of beauty. WHO in the world asked you to cut off a black dots for your appearance? IT does not affect your health so there's no need of minimal surgery. IT still makes you lose confidence and it brought bad lucks to me all the way accumulating.

 

DO you know this will be repeated? I will be so HAPPY to see you single or even dating some less fortunate guys around you. YOUR network is so shallow that I wanted to laugh. BUT I love someone like you for some reason. YOU did not appreciate and feels like asking for more. THERE is no ideal boyfriend.

 

GET a life, woman! TO you somewhere in the states of Malaysia. GOD bless you.

[AnnaAnna]

I don't know why tonight seems so hard. Tonight I miss you a lot.I almost broke down tonight and messaged you. I almost called you! Had to tell myself it's ok, he doesn't want you anymore! He's moved on! He's not thinking about you! He's not losing any sleep over you!

Why am I being so stupid?! Why can't I let it go?!

There's nothing special about you...But to me you're special.

I miss you damn it!

[sealyons]

My ex is going through some emotional pain right now. She is definitely missing her family as they all left to another country except her and her sister. There's just no place for me in her life anymore. She is sad, but not sad about me at all. Somehow, I wanted her to be sad I am lost too but it's been 5 months since the BU and I know she's over the stage of missing me. Yes, she's back on the hunt, got broken even by another already. She maybe nursing a heartache but nursing it for another man. I know this because I have been stalking her online. I learned about her posting songs about her new infatuation...and got disappointed because that same man is a playboy who hooked up with a hooker.

 

I am hurt that she's hurting, I am more hurt that she's hurting from another love. I ask myself, did she ever mourn about our relationship the way she mourned for her new love?

 

I hate her to pieces for leaving me just like that. But she also brought me the greatest happiness in life. How can I hate someone as beautiful as her. I could have love her more.

[SimonSerenade]

Sometimes I wish I could lose you again.

[Friggia]

Almost four hours into day four.

 

Dontdoitdontdoitdontdoitdontdoitdontdoitdontdoitdontdoit.

 

Remind myself I'm doing this for a reason.

 

Goddammit, why the hell won't you ever take any initiative?

 

I miss the absolute hell out of you and this feels like the hardest thing I've ever had to do. No idea why, we've conducted our relationship mostly apart for quite some time so I'm perfectly fine alone.

[Never Again]

Why did you keep approaching me at the wedding?

 

Why did you hold my hand? And why did you save the last dance for me?

 

You wouldn't look me in the eye, but you wanted to be near.

 

I'm not reading into anything or getting my hopes up...I just don't know why you'd do these things. Can't you tell that they might give off mixed signals? That they are intimate moments that "friends" don't share?

 

Bweh. You made me miss you again, and I'm mad at you for it.

[seekingpeaceinlove]

I can't be mad at anyone but myself right now. I'm the one who chose to reach out and wish you a happy b-day. I'm the dumb one analyzing your words in the emails. I'm the idiot who keeps checking my email to see if you wrote back. It feels amazing to re-connect with you but I'm wrecking myself. I wish you missed me. I wish you were feeling what I feel.

 

I was doing so well and now I'm on the verge of tears and ready to breakdown again.

 

So mad at myself.