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[AnnaAnna]

It's been nine days today since the last text you sent me. You told me you will stay away from me if that will make me happy. You denied being with another woman and said she was just a friend but I knew better. I saw the posts she wrote on her fb about you guys. She was so happy your birthday was coming up and how you two were going to have so much fun. How you were going to meet her friends and how she's happy you walked in her life. I was hurt and angry at first. I couldn't believe you were making plans with somebody else already. How could you when the week before that you were telling me how you loved me? We were together the weekend before that. I drove 4 hours just to be with you. I met your friends and we had so much fun. You spend a whole night showing your love to me in front of everybody. How could you be so fake? I remember you telling me how perfect I was and how I deserved so much better. I told you no matter how messed up your life was I still wanted only you! Now all those things are going through my head. Was that just your way of trying to get rid of me? I don't even know why I write about you! Sometimes I think you're not worth it!

[AnyaNova]

I can't explain it, and I'm not sure I even know what it means.

 

But--

 

I am done. Oh, I will still probably write you here. And I know I will have some more, "getting over you" work to do, but I'm done.

 

Finished.

 

I would have given everything to be with you as you learned to trust and learned to self soothe and define what you really wanted for yourself. I would have given anything.

 

But either you did not care or it wasn't enough. I am not waiting around for you to realize that you want to try trusting again. I'm not waiting around for you to work out whatever forced you to against your feelings for me.

 

I'm just--

 

Done.

[JoelBarish]

I can't explain it, and I'm not sure I even know what it means.

 

But--

 

I am done. Oh, I will still probably write you here. And I know I will have some more, "getting over you" work to do, but I'm done.

 

Finished.

 

I would have given everything to be with you as you learned to trust and learned to self soothe and define what you really wanted for yourself. I would have given anything.

 

But either you did not care or it wasn't enough. I am not waiting around for you to realize that you want to try trusting again. I'm not waiting around for you to work out whatever forced you to against your feelings for me.

 

I'm just--

 

Done.

 

Anya, it looks like you and I are both on our way to getting over our break ups. I am very happy for you. I am not quite there yet and I will be posting at LS for a long time yet to both help others and continue healing. I also want to remember the lessons in strength that I have learned and continue to learn

[AnnaAnna]

Anya, it looks like you and I are both on our way to getting over our break ups. I am very happy for you. I am not quite there yet and I will be posting at LS for a long time yet to both help others and continue healing. I also want to remember the lessons in strength that I have learned and continue to learn

 

I am ready to move on! I hate to sit here and think how miserable I am while he's enjoying his life and not thinking about me.

I'm saving all my love for somebody who will appreciate it.

It is very hard but it's time.

[AnyaNova]

Anya, it looks like you and I are both on our way to getting over our break ups. I am very happy for you. I am not quite there yet and I will be posting at LS for a long time yet to both help others and continue healing. I also want to remember the lessons in strength that I have learned and continue to learn

 

Had a bad bit this afternoon, due to not being able to get my b vitamin in time, and had a major mood crash. Of course, my brain ascribed it to Tim, but as receiving another message from interesting man did not cause me to get the usual excitement jolt, I knew it was them.

 

And now that I have taken them and my levels are back up, I am back to where I was this morning. I am just done. He could have made the choice to grow and risk, but instead he made the choice to wound both of us.

 

Whatever.

 

On to find a healthier relationship. :-)

 

I am not by any means, "over" him yet, or totally recovered, but I gave him every chance to break free from whatever problem was holding him back. He chose not to. I choose to move on.

[AnnaAnna]

Another man I love dearly and who's been there for me many times is moving away. I really depended on him to cheer me up many times and get my mind of you. He's a great friend and I don't know how I'm going to manage without him. This year really sucks for me! All the people I love end up leaving me.

I really don't know if I'll be able to let anybody get close again!

This sucks big time!

[AnyaNova]

Missing how perfectly our bodies fit together while cuddling. Hoping the next man I am in a relationship with is a cuddler too. :-)

[love1336x]

Today been a crap day.

Usually when I have these days... I want to text you.

Lately, you haven't been on my mind too much.

I'm happy. You are leaving my brain finally, and hopefully my heart.

[love1336x]

With each day I get stronger, and stronger... I love this feeling... <3

I mean it sucks to miss you, and not having you...

 

But, at least I am not throwing myself at you... I'm not being needy...

I am living my life without you. I wish you could be part of my life, but you don't want too... So, i'll deal...

[JoelBarish]

Had a bad bit this afternoon, due to not being able to get my b vitamin in time, and had a major mood crash. Of course, my brain ascribed it to Tim, but as receiving another message from interesting man did not cause me to get the usual excitement jolt, I knew it was them.

 

And now that I have taken them and my levels are back up, I am back to where I was this morning. I am just done. He could have made the choice to grow and risk, but instead he made the choice to wound both of us.

 

Whatever.

 

On to find a healthier relationship. :-)

 

I am not by any means, "over" him yet, or totally recovered, but I gave him every chance to break free from whatever problem was holding him back. He chose not to. I choose to move on.

 

I feel like crying tonight but I just can't get the tears out. This whole time since the break up I've mostly been in denial or numb. I haven't really cried but one time I was teary eyed. Maybe since I saw her with that person the other night my denial is truly gone and I am getting hit with sadness...

[RiceaRoni]

I feel like crying tonight but I just can't get the tears out. This whole time since the break up I've mostly been in denial or numb. I haven't really cried but one time I was teary eyed. Maybe since I saw her with that person the other night my denial is truly gone and I am getting hit with sadness...

 

and that's okay J

 

Let yourself feel sad..if the tears fall, they fall.

 

Just know that everyday you're getting stronger, even if it doesnt always seem that way. You're going to get over this, and come out a better person in the end, with much more knowledge.

 

"Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional"

[RiceaRoni]

Hey...I'm over you.

 

Yep, I said it...bye bye.

 

It wasn't a long relationship anyway and I knew something was off from the beginning...I just couldn't trust you for some reason.

 

And how you tried to sleep with me after a week knowing each other..ha, yeah right.

 

Unlike those other girls you may have been able to sleep with so easily, I, my dear am I challenge that must be earned.

 

I'm not there for a guy when he's lonely, bored, or horny...no.

 

You want me? You have to earn me.

 

Simple as that..

 

Good Riddance...

[love1336x]

I feel lonely tonight...

I hate this feeling </3

[JoelBarish]

I don't really miss you. I miss the life we had together. I miss the life I was planning on having with you

[RiceaRoni]

I don't really miss you. I miss the life we had together. I miss the life I was planning on having with you

 

now you can save those plans for someone willing to be loyal!

[JoelBarish]

now you can save those plans for someone willing to be loyal!

 

You weren't supposed to see that! That was for my ex! BRAT

[UnknownFX]

I don't really miss you. I miss the life we had together. I miss the life I was planning on having with you

 

I hear you on that one man

[AnnaAnna]

I feel like crying tonight but I just can't get the tears out. This whole time since the break up I've mostly been in denial or numb. I haven't really cried but one time I was teary eyed. Maybe since I saw her with that person the other night my denial is truly gone and I am getting hit with sadness...

 

I have the same problem. I want to cry and let it all out but I just can't.

I thought maybe if I cried it will make me feel a little better.

I'm still holding it all inside.

[AnyaNova]

I had to break NC today. Please have the emotional maturity to at least assure me that the man with his face up to my window at 11:00 PM was not you. I'm not asking much and if you want to disappear after that, that is fine. Just please. Don't leave me hanging on this.

[Petunia20]

So I'm at work and looked through your Twitter which I shouldnt have. You hadnt posted anything since May and now it seems your back on. And you are back with her. Im devastated. I feel like I was always in your way of being with her and now you have once again sweet talked to her into getting back with you. I feel so rejected and like the evil witch in your fairy tale romance. I feel like I was never good enough for you. Why didnt you leave me earlier? Why did you wait so long that it took me to find out about you two for you to leave? She's your true love and I'm nobody to you. You dont love me and probably havent in years. I'm just so hurt I cant even describe this ugly feeling inside. I really thought you were missing me too...I hate you, i really do now hate you.

[AnyaNova]

So after writing this, I am going to shower, and go to the comp lab on campus to finish some stats lab work that I cannot open at home without SPSS, and then stay and work on my research proposal until class tonight.

 

The part of me that wants to relate to you as if you are a true psychological adult wants to rant about how if you can't show me the decency of reading the one text and responding to it, especially knowing my past history, and why incursions into my personal safety would bother me so much, than I am really just done and I hope that you never do actually contact me again (if you don't contact me today) because I would be very angry with your lack of empathy or respect for me.

 

But I have to remember.

 

Most likely, if I am right, if I have put a myriad of things together correctly, even though you may be 32 physically, you are just a psychological adolescent, if that. You were probably thrown into paroxysms of anxiety, and terror, and are terrified that i am I still angry with you and what might happen. I have to remember that I am dealing with a psychological child in the body of a man, who is not capable of looking past his own emotional state to see someone else's. I have to remember that you feel that your own emotions are so engulfing and overwhelming, that you cannot see how badly, with my past history, this particular incident might have shaken me, or who (if it is not just a random one off creeper) I alluded to in the message, I am afraid it might be.

 

It is all about you right now. Not because you are narcissistic. Not because you are a bad person. But because you are a child inside who cannot see past his own emotional state.

 

I can. I can see beyond mine. I highly suspect that I know in this moment how you feel. But I suspect that you can't even begin to think about how I feel, or how this event in my life might affect my sense of safety in the world. because your's are too overwhelming to see beyond.

 

A psychological child. I must keep reminding myself of that. To keep myself from getting angry. To keep myself from getting sad or thinking that you do not care.

 

I think you do.

 

You just are not capable of acting and behaving in the relational world as an adult. I must remember this.

[mtnbiker3000]

I can't believe how wrong I was about you. About our RS. So wrong. I am naive. I am foolish. I believed things to be so different than they were. I was in love. You were not. So foolish!!

[seekingpeaceinlove]

No matter how hard I try to focus on why we aren't good together and how you were never the right man for me...I can't stop lingering on the good memories and our passionate physical connection. At this point I don't think I'd resist if you called to play...

 

I miss you.

[AnyaNova]

I hope you appreciate what an extreme statement this is for me. I have just ****ing had it with freaking everything. I mean, seriously, I would have been prepared to believe that everything I had speculated about your psychological age was flat wrong, if you had just texted me three little words to tell me that it wasn't you. To show some concern for the way I feel right now. But no. Do you have any clue how hard I've worked to re-establish a sense of safety? Do you have any fraking clue how difficult it was, or how difficult it is to try and maintain that after that guy was looking in my window that late at night? I am sorry but screw it and screw you. There are other people in the world besides yourself, and they have strong emotions too sometimes. Perhaps you could ****ing try and look beyond your own for once.

[Petunia20]

Like I have heard many times on this forum...the only person in the world who can help stop this pain is the only person who is indirectly inflicting this pain on me. Like Daisy has told me...you are not even in my life anymore and you are still hurting me somehow. And you are not doing it purposely, you are just living your life. Its my inability to let you go and my inability to move on. I'm the one who keeps hurting myself. I just think back to how that woman means more to you and probably has for the last two years. She started out as a fling and now you cant let her go. As you put it shes your "babymoma" . Is she really? Are you trying to get her pregnant like you did me? And if I hadn't taken emergency contraceptive all 4-5 times would we have worked out? I doubt that! But unfortunately I am secretly hoping that you guys try it out and see that she is not the one for you. I hope you see that it was me who you wanted the whole time. I'm not sure if that will happen. I just want to stop feeling . I seriously am devastated and feel like Day 1 all over again.