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[love1336x]

I miss you, i want to see you again.

[Tim_horton]

Argh, kind of broke NC. Called and left a message. Was going to E-mail but won't.

 

It's not healthy, I know this. If she wanted to talk to me she'd call. The part of me that thinks she might feel this way too, that she wants to talk but is waiting for my call, is the illness talking.

 

Someone told me that a relationship means taking a leap of faith, every day. Every day you have to trust your partner to love you again. But talking to her wouldn't be a leap of faith.

 

Last time we had contact was Feb 2013, 7 months ago. I know she's with a new guy. It's been three years since the breakup. I don't know why I can't let go.

[SimonSerenade]

I love you, I never get tired of saying that, I miss the times you never got tired of hearing it, funny how I used to wish to be so close to you, now I can't have anything around me that reminds me of you without falling apart, I hope somewhere deep down you feel the same way, either way I guess I'll never know, goodnight, sleep tight my darling,

[SimonSerenade]

You have no idea what you've put me through these past few days, I thought that I was getting better and it feels like you've dragged me back to the start, I don't want to know what's going on with you and the friend I used to think so highly of, I don't want to know what made you think being his friend was a good idea in the first place.

 

Maybe I'm just a laughing stock to you and maybe you can justify cheating on me and leaving me for somebody else but it's not going to stop what you did from tearing me apart, I'll never accept that I deserved all of that and it's something that'll stick with me from now until the end of time.

 

I can't think of those images in my head, I've cried so much about it lately to the point where nothing will come out anymore, I don't want to know how it all came about and how long it had gone on until you finally walked out on me, I just want out of this nightmare.

 

I can't hate you, I just don't have it in me and I couldn't live with myself if I did, you meant far too much to me for me to ever feel that way, I'm just not like you and I can't do and feel the nasty things you do, for the very final time and this is for me, not you, I forgive you, every messed up thing you said and did, I forgive you for it, I don't think your a crappy person for what you did, truth is, I don't even know your heart and mind anymore so I'm getting pretty close to indifferent about it.

 

I love you, you were the best and worst thing that ever happened to me, you made me the happiest I'd ever been and you hurt me more than anyone else ever did, you can say what you want about me but I still believe it takes a really good hearted caring person to be able to stand by everything you did and still be able to say I love you at the end of every day and still forgive you for everything, I bare no shame for who I am and I wear a lot of pride for how I've carried myself through all of this.

 

I hope your happy now, I always hoped it would have been with me but your happiness was the only thing I ever wanted for you, better you find it elsewhere than not at all, I hope now you have the heart to stay away from whatever I have left in my life, I'm exhausted and emotionally washed out, I honestly couldn't take another blow.

 

I finally get to lay my dad to rest tomorrow and after that, I just need to relax, grieve my loss and start fresh because this year has been nothing but hell and I think I deserve something good about now to take all this away, at times like this I'll always miss you and that ability you had that made everything okay and almost like I was sleeping on clouds at night at the very thought of you being mine, your gone though now and I'll never be all of that for you, it's about time I accept that.

[love1336x]

I miss you. Be mine. <3

[Omei]

7 months and you forget me that means you really do no longer care for me, hate that my love for could of never been broken, and you're the one that always had to be forgiven, dont you dare ever seek me out, hate you for leaving.

[Petunia20]

Wow! Another girl crying over you....I told you so! I warned you before about being with someone with kids, I warned you about telling us you loved us when you really didnt. I don't feel sorry for her. I tried to warn her a little before I said "Eff this and walked away..." I hate that I'm one of the girls that cried over you. But I hope that I somehow effed you up in the head before we split. I hope you wonder and second guess yourself about me at times. Not expecting to hear from you, I know you must already have another victim waiting. I feel good because it feels like I'm almost out of the woods. Pretty soon I wont care what you are doing or who you are hurting.

[love1336x]

Today I took you off unblock, and I was going to be foolish and text you, but I stopped myself.

 

I am tired feeling this way about you.

I won't break NC for anything.

[PootieMandela]

To me you are dead. I would prefer it if you acted that way.

[JoelBarish]

Do you miss me at all? Do you still love me? Have you met someone else? Is there something going on with you and K?

 

How can I take you back now? You'll just do this to me again next time I do the least little thing wrong. You will just add it to the list. Why should I be the only one who is sorry for my behavior? Do you think you did nothing wrong in this? Why are you so stubborn and I have to be the one to give in? What compromises have you made? You know, you really have a communication problem you need to work on if you're ever going to be in a lasting relationship.

 

You don't want me anymore. All you did is list what I did wrong. I miss your friendship.

[JoelBarish]

There should be a no snooping thread. I was tempted to look at My ex's Facebook a few minutes ago and I resisted. Small victories....gotta celebrate

[xLogan]

Damnit! You got me... and you were the first. It's been quite a while - longer than I imagine. When I step in you throw me for loops, when I step out it's out of sight, out of mind.

 

I never thought I'd let someone hurt me, but I guess it isn't as simple as that; it doesn't work that way. I was naive, and I'm ready to move on. I just wish you would vanish. I don't know if I still want you. I don't know what it is about you...

 

!!!

[love1336x]

I check your Facebook like an idiot...

You went to another country.... in July of last year?

When you supposedly was broke?

I am so confused... but at the same time... I don't care.

 

Well it would explained why you didn't have money... if you are traveling...

*le sigh* I am glad I didn't text you tonight.

 

I need a new love!!!

[love1336x]

This sucks.

I want you back into my life.

But, all I will have of you is memories, and fantasies

[ellowmay]

I conjured you and you came, but it was at great expense to me. I can't even admit it to myself fully. I can't stop thinking about you, wanting to have your body near mine, the smell of your skin tangled in my hair, your smile wrapped around me like a hug.you were my first love, and I don't want to let you go. We went through some things no ordinary humans should have, and you were a true companion to my soul. I'm sorry that you had to hold my body as my mind decayed. I did not want this. The funny part is, that even though the thought of you, that smell, that smile still lingers on my dreams, in my waking hours, I feel content. I feel happy even, knowing that. You are still out there somewhere and that I'm still alive too. The sound of your hearbeat is never far away from me, and I wish that heart well. Come back to me soon with an apology and a hug so we can start over as friends. I love you so dearly, I hope you hear me.

[Petunia20]

Its cold this morning in Cali. I feel like winter is coming . My first winter alone. Replaying the same song over and over this morning. I miss you. That's all I guess.

[thishatteredsymphony]

The great irony is that the one person I want to talk about my pain to is the one who caused it. You're the only person I know of right now who could understand it, the one person who wanted at some point to be the one who could take it away. Now you're the last person who cares about it.

 

I'm not over you, and dammit I probably won't be for a long time. I can feel myself getting stronger each day the longer I implement NC, but some days, like today, are harder than others. There's no reason for it, it just seems to happen.

 

I want to move past this. My memories of you are tainted. I can't think of the good memories and smile; all they do is make me sad and angry. I want to get to a point where at best I will look back on our time and remember them fondly. At worst I want to be indifferent. I just don't want to be angry anymore.

[seekingpeaceinlove]

I'm craving you today. Wish we could just have hot meaningless sex.

[Nancy87]

We are souls with broken hearts, n we need to help each other to maintain the NC policy for our improvement.

So anytime, anyone of us feel the urge to break NC, we will post here.

 

I am myself suffering from relationship withdrawl symptoms, i miss his voice, his smile, his eyes. they way he would skype with me..

But this missing must not convert into an irresistible URGE of contacting our ex which would be a HUGE HUGE mistake and take us so many steps back in our healing process. And would make us feel rejected again! Must not go on like this!

 

I begin my day 1 of NC from here..

NC at all, not even on social media!

Lets help each other..

[KeepItBoosted]

The first weeks will try your soul! Stay strong and keep afloat, I'll throw you a life jacket if you need.

[Nancy87]

If he is heartbroken or if he wants to get in touch with you, he will COME looking for you.

You dont need to endorse yourself on him, will only give him an ego boost and make him more confident.

If you are going on a date, cool! exs who MISS their exs stalk like crazy (ask me about it , n even those who dont miss, stalk out of curosity)

so if he is still into you, he will find it out eventually. U need to maintain STRICT NC!

If he says sth rude, how will u pull yourself together later on.

SO NO. STRICT NC!

[Ireallydontknow]

We have no mutual friends and we don't have Facebook. He wouldn't find out unless he ran into me.

 

I so BADLY want to send him a text with a picture of the guy I'm going on a date with!! Saying how he lost me! or something like that...

 

What is wrong with me?!?!?!

 

It's normal. We want to inflict pain on someone who did it to us. We want to see if they still care with jealousy.

[Ireallydontknow]

EXACTLY. Have you ever done it? Tried to make them jealous?

 

No that invites them into my life and they don't need to know what I'm doing, they lost that privilege when they cheated on me

[lindsay1990]

Go Nancy! Stay strong!

[lindsay1990]

I think that upon the break up, they are okay with us being with other people. Or at least they are okay ENOUGH to take that chance.