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[reddragon588]

I'm dangerously close to breaking NC I feel like.. I don't even know what is say. I miss having someone to talk about nothing with.

[Petunia20]

Everyone tells me "forget about him, you will find someone who treats you better" . But you really did treat me good. You made me feel like i was the only one at times. Like I was the main one. Like i was your ride or die...You washed my clothes, picked up after me, washed my car without me asking you, bent over backwards for my family, made sure we took care of everything for me. And in return i did the same. Today Becca got flowers for her anniversary and I wanted to cry. I remember I was the one that always got flowers and she hardly ever did. I drove through golden gate bridge on Saturday. My heart felt so heavy and I wanted to cry. The whole weekend was just a big memory of what we did and had when we were in Frisco. I kept strong tho and never showed that I was crying inside. I kept on and had a blast!

Im missing you right now...wondering why you're doing what you're doing. Was I that bad that you couldnt work things out with me? Where you are at is what you chose tho. I have to accept that you dont love me anymore and that you are happy with your life right now. You make us fall in love with you and then leave us high and dry. Im not going to go out on twitter, FB or IG to show you how you have affected me. I prefer to cry behind closed doors and hide my pain. I prefer to post here and know that you will never see them. I wont give you the satisfaction of knowing that Im dying without you.

Edited September 9, 2013 by Petunia20

[livdee]

So, i was doing great. Then I saw you tonight. Why did you wait to talk to me? Why open it back up? Now i am sitting here checking my phone. I thought for sure I would get a text but I really should have known better. You need to stay out of my life. While it is hard to see you and you ignore me or just act polite, it is better than my hopes soaring again. I don't want to check my phone. I don't want to be drawn back in...

 

Well, guess back to the drawing board. Minute by minute, hour by hour of fighting the urge to text you...

[SimonSerenade]

You'll never know how much that news hurt me today, it's so hard having to see you move on with somebody else like I never existed, words can't describe how used I feel, I just can't help but think about you with him and how long you were with him before you cut me off completely, I don't know how you can live with yourself for doing that and pretending like you weren't stabbing me in the stab and twisting it all the way in, you always said you'd never do that and you'd never hurt me like that so how could you?, are you really that evil inside?.

 

You were my whole world and it was no secret how much you meant to me, the saddest part was seeing my dad's status's about how happy he was that I was engaged to you, that hurt more than I could of ever imagined it would, I never would of imagined you'd do this to me, not for a second, how easily you replaced me, how easily you found it to cheat on me and lie straight to my face about how disgusted you were that I would think you ever would.

 

The worst part is, I don't hate you, even after all of this, even when I know I should really despise you right now, even now I would still have you back :/ I'm pathetic, I was never good enough for you then and I'm still not now, I hope one day you at least feel bad enough about all this to at least apologize to me, I don't care about what you owe me anymore but you at least owe me that for putting me through all this.

 

I hope your happy now, I'll try and be happy for you, even though right now, I'm dying inside.

[Blastoplast]

Good to see you can muster up enough money for an impromptu trip that certainly costs you hundreds of dollars, but can't even muster up a single cent towards the thousands of dollars you owe me and which you're supposedly feeling guilty about. Must be nice to have an easy get out of debt solution: break-up with boyfriend. Too bad that won't work for your mounds of credit card debt and hospital bills -- you deserve every cent of that.

[SimonSerenade]

Really?, not only have you cheated on me and lied to me all this time but now you've stolen the one friend I really cared about?, do you really think I'm that much of a crappy guy that it's okay to just do this to me?, what did I ever do to you except treat you well and love you?, what did I do to deserve this and to have it rubbed in my face like that?, do you enjoy this?, did you ever stop to think that maybe I'm just not strong enough to handle and cope with all this? because right now your killing me, it looks like I can't trust anybody anymore, I wish you'd never walked in to my life because everything has fallen apart since then, I feel like a worthless meaningful piece of crap right now and there's nobody out there that can take that feeling away other than you but you won't take it back, you won't take any of it back because you just don't care about how you make people feel and how badly you mess them up.

 

I doubt you ever loved me, I doubt that you ever missed me for a second since the day you left, it's just been one thing after another that your giving me to get over, just like when we were together, I had enough respect for our demise to at the very least stay out of your way and stay away from the people that matter the most to you, you should of done that for me, what hurts most is all of this probably makes you feel good about yourself, knowing you could be loved so much and you could hurt somebody so much, just for once, please, just once, give it a rest and let me heal.

[SimonSerenade]

I guess I was the problem all along, it's not that you didn't want to settle down and be commited, you just didn't want to do with me, can't help but wonder where I went wrong and how it got to the point that would cause you to cheat on me and leave me for somebody else, can't help but wonder what aspect of me wasn't good enough for you.

 

I can't help but wonder a lot of things now because you weren't honest with me, you took everything from me, everything but my son, at least I know that's one person you can't take from me, I could expect all this bs this from a lot of different people, it's just so sad because you weren't one of those people.

 

I used to wish that one day you would come back and be bigger and better than ever before, I wished so much that you would tell me that you loved me and needed me, That you could never be without me, I don't know what I wish for anymore.

 

I'm just a worthless bag of crap who never mattered to anyone is how I'm feeling right now, I just wish it was as easy for me as it is for you to get over this, you replaced me completely and I won't even meet up for a coffee with somebody who by all accounts is probably good for me because you won't leave my mind and I'm too scared to get close again.

 

I know it's too much to hope for that you'll ever feel bad for what you've done but I at least hope you got rid of anything I ever bought you, that engagement ring would of sank to the bottom of the canal by now for all the bloody good it did if I had my way.

 

Goodluck with your new guy, I hope he does a better job than I did.

[Klaatu17]

For some reason, I really felt like texting you today to see if u wanted to get together tonight as "friends". The urge was so strong. But then I thought about the 2 possible outcomes...either you would ignore me which would hurt or you would accept my invitation. And then I thought about that and realized, I'm not ready because if we got together and you brought up that you were seeing someone then it would hurt me instead of me just being able to accept it. And I also realize that I don't really want to know what you've been doing these last 2 months while I've been in such pain and misery...Therefore, I am posting this here instead. 2 months NC...got to keep being strong!

[joe86]

I really need to start using this thread! (Even if she does get in touch & tell me what she's up to,)

 

"I hope today went well x"

[loveiswar101]

"I know you asked for time, but surely if you love me like you say you did why is this happening and why can't we talk and fix it. xxx

[love1336x]

It's been a week and three days since we seen each other.

A week since we had contact.

 

Ugh. I miss you.

Why do I think about you every single day? You plague my poor mind with thoughts of you and me being together...

 

I am glad I have you on block. Because I can text and called you, and it won't go through. I miss you, idiot.

[ScarlettDaisy]

It's been 6 months of NC so why do I want to talk to you so badly?? And about nothing really. I know you are a scumbag but I miss you.

[SimonSerenade]

It's so hard lately to sleep, I still miss our night time phone calls, I hate everything that happened between us, it breaks my heart that you probably see me as a bad person, I don't know what I did to make you feel that way but I'm sorry either way.

 

In light of everything that has happened, I just can't see you the same way I used to, I don't even recognize you anymore, that pains me so much, I used to think that we were made for eachother and since the day I layed my eyes on you, I just couldn't see myself with anyone else, I used to think you felt the same, now all I see you is with the new guy, that image will break my heart every time I think about it.

 

I hope your truly happy now and have the life and love you always wanted, on top of that I hope you at least remember that I tried my little heart out to be that for you, even at times when it was all I could do not to cry inside.

 

I love you and the best part of me will always miss you not being around, your still the last person to have kissed me and held me tight, I wouldn't have it any other way, goodnight my darling, I hope you have a great life.

[SimonSerenade]

I still can't sleep, I just can't stop turning everything you've done over in my head and how you probably don't care at all but what bothers me the most is that you knew what my friend meant to me and you knew it was wrong to talk to him and you still did it anyway.

 

By that logic would that mean it's okay to talk to your best friend?, I don't think you'd like that at all, I never would though because I wouldn't hurt you that way and I would never intrude on your personal life like that.

 

I don't know what your trying to prove but I know your doing this on purpose, your not that stupid, I know that much, if your trying to prove you can hurt me more than you already have then yeah, you can, you did and your still doing it and I don't need it.

 

If you had a heart at all you'd leave the people I hold dear to me alone and just stay out of my life, I don't need all this and come to think of it I don't need friends like him who are gonna stab me in the back either so congratulations you broke up a great friendship, I hope your pleased with yourself about that.

 

You took everything from me, that's fine, have it all, just leave whatever I have left alone and go mess up someone else's life, I'm trying to repair all the damage and cope the best I can but right now I'm falling apart and everything is going wrong, worst of all, I'm going it alone.

 

I know you don't care and you hate me for whatever unknown made up reason you have in your head but please just please, make things easier for once and don't give me any more crap to hurdle over because I honestly can't take anymore.

 

All I want to do right now is pretend you never even existed and find the time after stressing out so much about burying the poor buggar, just a little window of time to fall apart and grieve, that's all I want.

 

I love you and I'll always have those feelings for you but stop being an evil selfish bitch and adapt the term "don't do to others what you wouldn't want done to you", that being said, I'm gonna go die for a while and pretend none of this crap ever happened in the first place,

[KCCK]

it's been 6 weeks and I still miss you.... i really hope we can still be together... but since you had already made a decision to be with someone else, all i can do is to stay strong and heal... i still love you and i still miss you very much..

[thishatteredsymphony]

**** you. That's all.

[Petunia20]

Today's rant wont be about why or what if or how could you. Today is just me saying that today I'm awesome! Today I feel great. Today is not about you!

[Joyvke]

I was happy, I truly was. I'm sorry for things I've done wrong, the things I've said. Some of them were not meant at all, whilst others were. I really cared for you and us, and it's a damn shame I couldn't reignite that spark for you again. I tried my best, I don't know what else I could have done. I just want you to know I was really happy with our time together and a shame those small things that could have been solved (maybe if you had taken your medications again) so you wouldn't be so tired all the time and sleep our only time together away .

Edited September 12, 2013 by Joyvke

[nadepsine]

why was i tempted to reach out to you. why am i tempted to talk to you and reveal myself. You're too much for me to handle! this is typically unfair!! Why am i the only one from the two of us feeling this. just seeing you online there in the list makes my stomach churn. i wish i wasn't so hopeless. There's a cascade of feeling falling all over me whenever i do something stupid as texting you... i'm stuck in one place because of you. Nothing soothes me! i don't wanna go back, i know it's a bad idea... it's been a bad idea so many times... my heart is stupid. I wish i wouldn't long for your affection so much!

[OverThinker72]

Well your 3 hour phone call last night just confirmed how selfish and pathetic you are. Instead of being happy for me you get angry because I'm moving on? You call the man I'm dating bad names when you don't even know him!!! You brought up the past not me. Why call me if you have nothing positive to say? I'm angry right now, furious!!! You say I didn't fight for us...but you are the one who ended it. Yes ok, I ended it first but that's because you close up instead of expressing yourself. You say you are shocked that the shy sweet woman you met is now smiling, happy and strong. Erm..shouldn't you be happy for me instead? You ask if I still wear your jacket, if when I saw the Star Trek DVD coming out did I feel anything, you bring up moments we shared and what a mess you were after the break up. Tough!!!! I went through hell but I stayed out of your life. You are with someone else and I can see you hurting her because of this...you should have moved on first. You are no longer my problem. The only thing I miss about "us" is that I miss your little boy. Stay out of my life and get on with yours. See ya!!!

[SimonSerenade]

I just can't keep thinking about all of this, I don't hate you, I think you've crossed lines you shouldn't of crossed and I think you have handled this break up in a really crappy way and though it hurts like the flames of hell, I just can't think about it anymore, hopefully now this is the end of your reign of terror and hopefully I can just move on from here on out, if not then I guess that's just the kind of horrible person you are these days but I pray to god right now that it is and there's at least some decency within you to spare me another painful moment.

 

I will always love you and if you ever loved me at all then you will think before you act in the future and have the respect to stay away from the important people in my life, I know your over me and your happy now and that's great for you but I'm still feeling this and probably will for a very long time.

 

I'm in a very dark and lonely place right now, I'm living in the ruins that my life has become, I know you don't care and I don't expect you to but at the very least I expect an easier ride from here on out, no bumps, no pot holes, just the time and peace of heart and mind to get over this, that's all I ask.

 

You'll always be in my heart and if you ever need me, I'll always be here, just look over your shoulder and I'll be there, I doubt you ever will but my heart will always want the very best for you, take care.

[RightThere]

I wish there was a reset button for all of this, but I know there isn't. I hate you so much, but I hate even more there is a tiny part of me that still loves you.

 

You don't even realize how badly this other relationship is going to end for you and what you're doing to out daughter.

 

I just need to get you out of my life so I can at least start to move on from everything you've done to me.

[joe86]

Hope you found a good (few) glasses of wine to help get the weekend started & forget about the stresses of the week.

[loveiswar101]

It was so nice to see you the other night, I understand you want space with what was said and will do my utmost to oblige, you said you loved me which was nice to here but please just don't let us stop communicating if those are you feeling..

[loveiswar101]

He's you saying thing can change and you love me, yet mutual friend tells me your son has told everyone were over. Just great, real pick me up. Thanks................