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[SimonSerenade]

Your friend was wrong about me, after the way she threatened me and tried to deny me access to where you work, I should be filing complaints to the police and your work but I won't, I don't need that hassle.

 

The only reason I contacted you was for what you promised you would return to me, it shouldn't be this difficult, get off your pedestal because that was the only reason.

 

Your friend said "your pathetic" "you a loser" "you should crawl to your hole and die" "you don't work", everything she said was wrong, the last 2 years have been hell and I've battled through it, a pathetic loser would of given up and hung himself by now, I won't crawl in to any hole and die, nobody is worth more than your life and nobody should be prioritised above that.

 

As for work, I do work, it's not the best job in the world and I bare no shame for doing it, it was the job that bought your expensive birthday present and it was the job that bought the gifts you so cruelly gave away afterwards, I wanted to get you something really special for your birthday so I went out and worked for it, I really had to push myself to do it and at times I just wanted to give up because of how bad I felt but I was doing it for you and it gave me the strength to push on and carry on doing it, I was so proud of myself for doing that, I actually cried because it felt like an achievement, I set myself a goal and I did it and I was so happy that I did it for you.

 

You can say what you want to your friends, you can say I was mr bad guy who treated you poorly and played mind games, I know in my heart I'm a good person who deserved better than I got, I did my best by you and I never stopped trying to be better for you, I couldn't do any more than that, I'm not perfect and I shouldn't be expected to be, I made mistakes and at times I let you down, I was sorry for that and I tried to make it up to you.

 

Since you ended this I haven't said a bad word about you to anybody, if I'm asked I simply say "she's a lovely girl, she just decided she wanted something different from her life", I truly believed that when you left, not so much now but I won't tell anybody any different.

 

You knew the ground rules when you got in to a relationship with me, you knew I wouldn't be with somebody who still talked to people they were once involved with and you knew I wouldn't stand by and watch my lover as they texted other men all day long, I'm not comfortable with that and I'll never pretend I ever will be for anybody, I shouldn't be judged for that, I was open and honest about it right from the start, it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with me, I'm just being true to myself.

 

I don't hate you for what you've said and done, your a narcissist, I figured that out a long time a go and I accepted it because it was part of who you were and if I deserved you at all then I had to accept the good with the bad, my dad is a narcissist so I can recognise it in anybody, one of the main reasons I've been so in and out of his life was because his emotions towards me have always ran hot and cold, he's a nice guy for the most part but sometimes his words and his attitude have been just too harsh and critical to ever truly be a part of his life, I've developed a heavy guard against it, it was all I could do to protect myself and not take it so personally.

 

I really did love you but now, I couldn't care less, you can do and say whatever you want, it's none of my business, if what your friend said is true and that you really are happier than you've ever been then good, that's all I wanted for you, I don't think your a bad person, I just think you've said and done bad things, I'm mature enough to know how to separate that, I respected and accepted your decision to leave me, it was the best thing for you but I'll never respect how you did it, there's no pride in that.

 

I know I'm better off kissing my stuff goodbye than thinking you'll turn around and have some compassion by giving it back, after all of this I figured I deserved at the least an explanation and a quick swift fire away of getting my stuff back but that's your right and there's nothing I can do about that.

 

 

I don't harbour any bad feelings for you and I don't feel any bitterness or resentment towards you, I wish I knew the reasons and I wish you respected me enough to tell me the truth but I'll never know and that's fine, I hope you have a good life and I hope you take care of yourself, that's all I have to say.

[SingOutLoud]

Well whaddya know, I'm back on this thread again. (Unfortunately.)

 

Anyway, I just wanted to give him a quick shout-out:

 

I HATE YOU (Mind you, I don't actually mean it, although I have been very bitter and furious with him for a long time. This is just me trying to drive him out of my world.) AND I WANT YOU TO PERISH FROM MY MIND FOR GOOD! Chop chop, the sooner you get out, the better.

 

I want to move on, and I'm sick of waiting for some form of closure to magically happen between us when it's NOT going to happen in reality. So for the nth time, GET OUT. Thank you.

Edited June 26, 2013 by SingOutLoud

[iouaname]

I don't miss you anymore. It's weird. I used to miss you all the time. I used to miss talking to you, but I don't anymore.

 

Now, whenever I think of you, I just get filled with anger. Anger for the cheating, anger for all of the lies, anger for the stringing me along, anger for moving on so easily, anger for the abandoning me, anger for the callous way that you've treated me and anger for the cruel things that you've said about me. I want to rip into you so badly, but I don't because I'm doing this new thing where I don't allow you and my feelings about you control me.

[SimonSerenade]

I am waiting till there's nothing left, I'm a prayer, all you see is breath, I am empty, I am skin and bones, I'm a rib cage, well I'm out the door with apathy and I'm coming home with sympathy, I am realised, I am shamed, I choose to stay here.

 

I open up like the back of a book, I ruin everything with just a quick look and I settle down like a rocket explodes, hit the ground but how far out who knows and you got a sign so I payed a ransom, you felt sorry so I felt the wrath come, had a nice grip on my life till you twisted my arm...

[iouaname]

You're such an asshat. It has taken all of the strength I have to not call you up and tear you a new one. All I feel towards you these days is anger.

[SimonSerenade]

I'm finally starting to feel good about this break up, honestly, I wish I'd left you first, the biggest mistake I made was loving you more than myself and looking passed the cold and cruel way you treated me, I'm finally starting to love myself again now I don't have to doubt myself anymore, I have no regrets about all of this, you can't blame me for having one last crack at getting back what should be mine, it could be used for someone who deserves it like I don't know..... my son?, summer time is here and that would of sorted out a lot of fun items for him to enjoy outdoors, a much better cause than someone who simply didnt deserve anything nice that I did for her in the first place so yeah, I have no shame or regrets for trying my hardest for that.

 

I never wanted you back, I knew I deserved better and hopefully if I ever decide to get engaged again, I won't have someone change their mind or resent me for it, I hope to marry out of love not just because someone felt too bad to say no, I'm going to start dating again, it might be soon but I think I'm over the worst of this now, I didn't think it was possible but saying that nobody has treated me as poorly as you have so I genuinely don't miss a thing about you, right now I feel relief to be away from you, I'll never let anybody mess me around or hurt me like that ever again.

 

I've heard all your lies about me, I don't know why you bother, it's probably your inability to ever accept anything can be your fault, after everything you mean nothing to me, no hate, no love, just a feeling of bliss that I can finally be myself and feel good about it, I'm proud of who I am and everything I did for you as that person, thank the gods you have no ability to take that away from me anymore.

[SimonSerenade]

Oh by the way, keep the money, if you can justify that you deserve it, I suppose that just shows your the person that I think you are right now, anything I did, I did out of kindness, it's a shame you gave those presents away that I got you, I really thought you'd appreciate them but I should of known better to ever think you could appreciate anything I ever did for you, I wish I never met you, I never felt like that before but if it could of saved me from knowing somebody could be that selfish, thoughtless and cruel then it would have been worth it, thankyou for wasting a year and a half of my life, the hope that I never see your face again is anything but questionable.

Edited June 28, 2013 by SimonSerenade

[lop98]

I need you. I can't stop crying... my life is going in a really bad direction and I wish you were here to hold me... you were always so sensitive, but I let my fears trash it all. I can't really blame you. I don't know what the hell happened... and he can tell my tears are about you and he thinks I broke up with him tonight but I'm not sure I did... I want to get over you, stop stringing him along, but I need you... I want you back. I want to end this war we started and let you back in, and I can't, I can't contact you for as long as I feel this way, like my heart's being ripped into pieces every night, I want to be okay and then try it again, if there's still time.

[SimonSerenade]

Despite everything I still hope and wish the very best for you in your life, I mean that from the bottom of my heart, I hope one day you can let this bitterness go and see me for all the good that I did for you instead of all the bad, I didn't want it to end this way and I did my very best to prevent that, I'm sorry it came across any other way, I will find true happiness again some day, I know that because as a good person, I deserve that, when that day comes I hope you can at least be happy for me.

[SimonSerenade]

It's hard watching extras and trying not to think of you, we shared so much of the same things, I can't even read a Tottenham article anymore without Liverpool showing up along side of it, god really is an ass hole sometimes (no offence big guy).

Edited June 28, 2013 by SimonSerenade

[iouaname]

It has taken all of the strength that I have to not call you up and completely rip into you. Every time I have thought of you these past few days, I have just been so angry. I am going to stay strong though. I have felt so much better these past two weeks since I've stopped giving into the temptation to talk to you or check up on you.

 

I wish that I didn't feel so angry. I wish that I could pretend I wanted the best for you or hoped you are happy -- but if I tried to claim that, right now, it would just be a lie.

[ChasingCars]

So, 4 weeks since mini Dday... WHAM...I am a lil bit p*ssed off at you.

No, not a lil bit.

More like an inferno of rage from the pit of my being has lit up with a threatening vengeance.

And why?

H*ll if I know.

 

There is nothing to be angry at anyone about.

I know this, logically.

Misdirected anger perhaps but I'm looking in the wrong direction.

I'm glad I'm rational enough to realize what is happening.

 

This is like a bad trip I have to stay in control of.

Lovin how I am trying to logic myself through these emotions.

 

I don't like this, it needs to pass quickly.

 

Maybe it's fear.

What am I afraid of?

 

I any case, I'm cycling through Grief stages I think and been waiting for this one to hit, just didn't expect it to feel quite like this.

Now to keep my mouth shut and not say anything dumb.

NC!!!

:X

[SimonSerenade]

Thankyou for everything you did for me, I appreciate it, if nothing else I took a lot from this relationship and I learned a lot from it too, I lost a lot of traits I came to love about myself for one reason or another but now, I have the chance to regain all that and love myself all over again, I did a lot of things wrong and a lot of things right but I always had the best intentions, I hope you remember me for that.

[ChasingCars]

Yep, I am p*ssed the f&&k off.

 

And I have my reason in my mind now.

I am p*ssed that you talked to me like that.

F*CK THAT.

You can't Honey Sweetie I love You someone and then spin around and talk to them like some random stranger you met yesterday and just making cordial conversation. F*ck that, you shouldn't have even spoken to me if you are going to be that way.

F*CK YOU!!!!

 

That feels good.

 

 

And F*ck You for being such a weak @$$clown!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was there for YOU when you needed me and I bent over backwards for you and any other direction you wanted me to and then you just....just... bite the hand that rubbed your belly and...

F*CK YOU @SSH*LE!!

YOU can GO F*CK YOURSELF!!!!!

 

I feel better now.

[Harradin]

This will be the last post I'll do to you.

 

Well if we were still together, we would have been going out exactly a year. I remember every detail of that day, being so excited to see you I couldn't sleep, trying to make the day go quickly because I really wanted to see you, when I did get to see you, I wanted it to last forever, I miss all the cuddling, the joking, the kissing, it really was special to me. I still remember holding hands with you when I drove you home and the jokes we made when we went official. Do you remember when we said we'd go on holiday together once we had been going out a year?

 

The sad thing is its been over 9 months since BU and over 8 months NC. I was so sure you'd contact me but you haven't even tried. I did make sure you couldn't unless you came to where I lived but I was so sure you would, because to me our love was incredible. It must have just been all one sided...

 

I hate that you cheated on me, I hate that you left me for someone so bad it made me look like a God, I hate that you clearly seem to not care. But I wouldn't take you back.

 

The girl I'm in love with I knew before all of this crap happened, the one who used to text me telling me how she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me, who couldn't stop touching me, who was utterly crazy about me. I really miss that girl, because our chemistry was incredible. Our chemistry was so good it was such a surprise when I found out you cheated on me, I was stunned that you had the capability to do that.

 

I would have married you in a heartbeat, had children with you, lived the rest of my life with you. I was crazy for you.

 

Do you remember telling me how scared you were that you would make a mistake and lose me? That reality is now, and I hope in your most private moments you look back and regret and wonder why you threw away the guy who was crazy for you, loved you more then anyone else did, who would have done anything for you no matter what. I hate what happened to us, but don't you ever forget that you made this all happen, single handedly because you couldn't cope with your parent's divorce.

 

Goodbye Amy.

[Z33]

1 month ago, we celebrated 2 years anniversary and now, we are done.

 

I miss you. Ive done all I could for last 2-3 weeks to save the relationship. When you were sick, I brought you rice soup and you got really mad for no reason. I didnt even see you in person.

 

Last night, you hung up on me first. You always talked about respect and manners but I didnt see any from you. Many people break up easy. I too was one of them. I break up with a girl and same night, I'd go to club and pick up another chick. Now, I am not like that thanks to you.

 

I left your birthday present at your apartment. Luckily, your sister's boyfriend was there and he was nice enough to let me in. I left the gift and 2 weeks of my diary in it. I dont know what you did with it but that present is something you always wanted. I know you like taking pictures but never had a nice camera or DSLR. I hope you like it.

 

I dont know what is going to happen from now on. I feel very empty and confused now. I still love you and I always will. Thanks for giving me an opportunity to love someone so much that made me blind for the first time in my life. I would love to see you again and start the relationship again. If we are meant to be, things will come around. Until then, I am going to improve myself and cope with the break up.

 

Love you, Tracy.

[CopingGal]

It's been two years since I've left you. I know you never suffered when we broke up. You were done with me way before. I served my purpose and you were done. The only thing left was to tie up loose ends by trying to destroy me, which is what you tried to do.

 

I wonder how many women have you done this to. This is a pattern of yours. I'm very aware of how sick you are. You will never be. No matter how much you cry to other people about your mental troubles, you will never truly understand how sick you are. You cry to people one minute and stab them in the back the next. I pity anyone who is in your life.

[iouaname]

You are such an *******. Does it make you feel good about yourself to mock my pain to someone else? You said hurtful things about me and then mocked me for being upset about it? What kind of person does that. I can't even believe what an awful ******* you've become. I used to think that I wasn't strong - but then I learned just how much will power it takes to not take the opportunity to get you back. I want so badly to call you up and scream at you for this, because I want so badly for you to know that I know you said these things. I want so badly to completely ruin you. But I haven't. And I won't. So if anything, it shows me that I'm a lot stronger than I had previously given myself credit for.

[ChasingCars]

I had an amazing meditation today.

 

I feel like it put me ahead a few steps again or at least gave me a reprieve of sorts for now.

It was WOW.

 

I wish I wasn't thinking about you at this moment though.

[Z33]

I still love you but you dont feel the same way. I got it.

 

If the two years of time were waste for you, you would call me. Until then, I am not contacting you whatsoever.

 

You are the monster who called this off. I love/hate you. I miss you but dont want to see you as well. I gave you everything I had and yet you still ditched me. Now, you've been in my mind for last 3 weeks and controlling my soul and body.

 

No. Ive come to senses and you are not going to manipulate me again. I am the master of my own will and you will not control me.

 

I still love you, Yes. The moment I first saw you, I fell in love with you. You were and are still my angel but I cannot forgive for what you have done to me. For now, I am going to hate you. You are the one who called this relationship off. You are a monster who could throw away the 2 years of love so easy. So for now, I am going to hate you.

[conzboneeus]

Won't get into details except to say I think I was in love with a woman and she me but then she broke up with me during a angry argument. We had had a couple of arguments before where she did same "here's your stuff get out" but I came back next day and we made up. This last time I had it I got some balls, left and have not looked back. Well, the last part isn't true actually I miss her badly but since the day I left no contact.

 

She changed her Facebook status to single days later, took down our photos and made a innocuous post about Mothers day so her status would be broadcast. Whether to irk me or to tell another guy she was now free or both I don't know. She left me as a "friend" though probably so I could torture myself checking her page.

 

After a few weeks she posted something else about her son's graduation party. I realized that I would be checking her page and just deactivated my Facebook page. No blocking or anything I know myself I just wanted off of that friggin site it's a bane to real human contact anyway. I wasn't a big Facebook person anyway she was the one who had me do the relationship status thing when we were going out.

 

Long story short here it is 2 months later and I am still thinking of her everyday and still am tempted to contact her to see if she really meant it or was just mad. She had bad temper my daughter says the Facebook thing was to get at me and I was supposed to apologize. I don't think so I think she meant it. She said get out I never want to see you again I don't love you anymore. I made her tell me that to be sure, and she did with a black look in her eyes. SO out the door I went.

 

Okay so I am about to go out on a date with someone just dinner but dammit I still think of this girl. What if she really was just mad and wanted me to come back. But apologize for what? Naw, her history from what she told me, is guy after guy. Now I am one of them. I need to stop entertaining this fantasy we will get together and really move on. I am training hard, in the best shape of my life. Starting playing my sax again too. Trying hard but have moments of weakness so am posting here as title says BEFORE I contact her. My gut says all it will bring me is more pain. I have come this far, and if she wanted to reach me she could have. I need to get real and move on.

 

Thanks for letting me vent.

[Gingerlee]

"I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you."

[avelonia2013]

I gave you closure and now I want you to leave me alone. I've been hurt enough by you. Leave me be so I can move on for good!

 

Enjoy your Vivi vacation and stay the h*ll away from me. You're not the person I thought you were.

[avelonia2013]

I gave you closure and now I want you to leave me the h*ll alone. You are not the person I thought you were after reading tha message! It was clearly designed to hurt me and any respect I had for you is now gone.

 

Enjoy your Vivi vacation. You'll fit right in from what I've heard. I hope it turns out like the celebrity cruise commercial! Stay away from me.

[love1336x]

i don't miss you.

I miss the type of relationship we had...

Our relationship was good. you was good to me. you made me feel protected, and wasn't cheap, and really did love me for who i am.

 

So, no i don't miss you. I want a man who have your set views in life, and the way you just care.

Ugh.