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[lop98]

haha aw look, a breadcrumb filtering in, butter and all. You can have it. Up your ***. Loser.

[SimonSerenade]

I don't know what's going on right now, I don't know where I stand and it's not for the first time, i don't understand how you can do this to us or even why you do this to us, nothing makes sense, it's not made sense for months, you distanced yourself from me and took your childish doubts out on me.

 

What am I supposed to do?, I don't have doubts, I'm a man, I take things at face value and I don't think about the future, I won't waste my life that way, all I know is the present holds you and I love you, that's all that mattered.

 

I'm probably at fault here, I let you talk to me the way you do, I let you treat me the way you do, I let you walk all over me, you left me in the dark so many times yet I was always here and I always took you back, you didn't even have to make an effort, I should be ashamed of myself, the lack of respect I showed myself, I let you rip in to my confidence and treat me like something you hated, you should be ashamed of yourself for treating someone you claimed to love do much like that.

 

I did everything you asked, I fixed everything you had a problem with so what's your excuse now?, you just want to put this break up on my head so you can feel better about yourself, I haven't done anything wrong, I wanted to be treated like a man you respected, you can't even be honest with me, there's no respect in that, your a coward, your scared of commitment, your scared of your own feelings, the one thing you shouldn't of been scared of, you threw away.

 

You left me at a time when I needed you the most, life has been hard and you made it harder, I hope your proud of yourself for that, I need to be a man, I need to reclaim my pride and my confidence, wether I'm with you or without you, you will never get away with treating me like that again.

 

I hope you know what your losing, I hope it hits you hard, I hope you wake up one morning and realise what isn't there anymore and never will be anymore, I hope that makes you sad, one thing that always broke me up was thinking of you with someone else, I always thought we suited each other and I honestly couldn't see myself or you with anyone else but that's out of my control, it's clear that the whole of this situation is out of my control, I'll pray for you, I'll pray you finally let your heart be happy one day, your so fixated on stuff that doesn't matter and shouldn't matter, you let your head rule everything, I hope you let that go one day, I hope you grow up and let your heart have a say for once.

 

I pray you get the best out of life and you get the best possible person to rely on in the future, goodness knows I tried to be that for you, you never had to worry with me, you had a sure thing, I'm not even going to try anymore, I'm blessed, I have a beautiful son, wonderful grand parents who raised me and gave me all the love in the world and I'm blessed to accept who I am and be happy with who I am, I'm a good man who would never do you wrong, what a waste.

[Gingerlee]

you told me i could come over today because you had the house to yourself. we could have a few drinks you said, watch a couple movies you said. i had 3498329848x scenarios playing out in my head. it would have been the first time i have stepped foot in your house since november. but after my shift at work finished, i had no calls, no messages, i waited an hour and zilch. nada. i took the bait and texted and you told me you were out with your horrible friends drinking again. the ones who destroyed my self esteem and called me fatty. remember? i do. it might have been three years ago but i don't forget things like that.

 

im really hurt and upset and mourning the memories we could have made tonight.

[adb22]

I don't know...I just thought about how I really put so much effort into not stepping on your toes and making sure that you felt wanted about, that I didn't even care that you didn't pay me the same respect. Thinking about it now disgusts me...you disgust me. Yet, I still want your company. I wish I had enough will power to forget about you completely!

[mfleck91]

I really miss you. I miss telling you I love you, an hearing you say it to me. I miss holding you and kissing you. I miss having you as part of my family and I miss the way you made me feel. I miss everything about you, all of your perfections as well as your imperfections

[Gingerlee]

i am such a fool. and i have no one else to blame but myself! i chose to continue sleeping with you, i chose to do that, i made my bed. you saw her last night, didnt you? the chick you left me for? she called it off when she found out you were still sleeping with me. did i drive you away from the girl of your dreams? someone more compatible? she loved running and going to the gym and all that baloney. you kept writing "I miss you" on your twitter, and a few friends said they saw you with her at the club last night.

 

my heart hurts. i am hurting so much. i am such an idiot. i feel so stupid.

 

i wake up every morning and pray that i wont be in love with you anymore.

 

i dont even know who i am anymore. i have no motivation to do anything. i havnt been to uni in nearly a month and i've put on 10lbs. i dont know how to regain control, when the only thing that makes me happy is the odd breadcrumb you throw me.

 

i am pathetic.

[NMT1984]

It's nearly my birthday. I keep thinking how a year ago I was so happy. I had met you and was falling in love with you. How did it go so wrong and how is it that now a year later we're over and we don't even speak? Do you think about me? Do you miss me as much as I miss you? I have this ache that just won't go away. My friends tell me to move on and you're not worth the tears. I thought you were. I wish you were. I miss you Tom and would give anything to go back a year x

[SimonSerenade]

And...... I still don't know where I stand

[SimonSerenade]

Well you confirmed it, it's over once again but this time it's for good, you didn't even care enough to give me anything to go away with, you did it over text, that's disgusting, even now you think you can talk to me like crap and brush me off, your not worth the ground you stand on, with any luck it'll open up and you can go back to hell, bitch.

[SingOutLoud]

Listening to Jim Croce's "Time In a Bottle" while thinking of you.

 

I'm trying not to think about what you're doing now, who you're planning to pursue in your current dating life, etc. It's really hard. I feel like I'm looking back on memories of the dead. I wish that I could somehow reach out to the dead, and that reaching out was somehow the solution, but both you and I know that that would do very little to help us grow at the present moment.

 

It doesn't matter what you think of me now. It doesn't matter whether you still care about me, or whether I'm almost completely out of your mind. But I miss you, X.X. And it still hurts, even months later.

 

And why you had to treat me like that in the other forums... I still don't even know. You disregarded my emotional state, sided with the people who disrespected and invalidated my feelings, and proceeded to leave more seemingly "harmless" droppings around the site, knowing very well that I could see them, and blamed me for being upset. Is it because you are so blinded by the years of dealing with psychopaths, personality disordered, and other not-so-nice people that you let your paranoia get in the way of clear judgment, so much that you've become insensitive and gained the need for revenge, even towards those who meant you no harm in the first place? Things like that sometimes make me wish that I never even knew you.

 

I also sometimes wonder if you secretly want to be one of those *ssholes whom you so openly railed against in the past. You know, those who "get all of the girls", act at other people's expense, and enjoy being a dick. If so, not only would that be really low on your part, and it shows just how easily influenced you are, especially by junk articles and trivial opinions over the internet. Not to mention that it would show just how insecure and low your feelings of self-worth are. But perhaps that's just my own paranoid theory. Or maybe it's not so far from the truth.

 

And do you still think that I was manipulating you during our relationship? Please, don't make me laugh. You can try to paint me as the "emotionally dramatic" (Which, quite frankly, is just a nice term for "crazy") villain all you want, but I am aware of what my setbacks and faults are, who I really am, and who I aim to be. I am also aware of how I caused a significant percentage of our relationship to fall apart, including all of the little things. Nothing you say can stop me from learning how to fix these mistakes for the future and improving myself as a person, even if I'm inching gradually to get there, with many pitfalls on the road. Not even your misconceptions about me. I will gain more and more self worth, and when that day comes when I'm at my absolute best, your power over me will be 0.

[SimonSerenade]

I love you, I love you for all you are, I love you for all your not, good and bad, I love you all the same, I never wanted you to be anybody you wasn't, I never wanted anymore than you could give, I gave my all, I gave you all I am, I gave you my heart and soul, I gave you everything I owned.

 

I just couldn't give what I didn't have, I'm proud of myself because I tried, I'm proud of myself because I wasn't ashamed to cry, I'm proud of myself because I stood by you, I'm proud of myself because I put you above myself, I'm proud of myself because I was honest, I'm proud of myself because I forgave, I'm proud to say I loved you and i have no regrets, in the end I did everything right and though it didn't matter, I'm still proud to say that, you never went a day without knowing what you meant to me, you never got taken for granted, I cherished you, I treasured you, I treated you like the beautiful lady you was.

 

You were my queen and I was your king, my loyalty and allegiance could lie nowhere else, I would of stood by your side for as long as I lived, you were the jewel in my eye and there was nobody in the land that could take me away from your side, you really were my fairy tale.

 

Now that your gone I can be bald again so I geuss that's something....

[SimonSerenade]

When will our eyes meet, when can I touch you, when will this strong yearning end and when will I hold you........again <3

[juliebijoux]

It's only been three days of NC and I don't know how much longer I can hold out. I wonder if you miss me. You don't text or call. Are you trying to date new women? Are you learning to cook like you said you couldn't do when I was your girlfriend. Will I ever get that phone call, the one I so desperately want from you? The call that everyone tells me that you will make, once you realize you made a mistake. I miss you so much.

[avelonia2013]

Not to my now, this has to do with something else. Something is starting to occur to me and the MORE it does the more I'm starting to get ANGRY. If what I'm beginning to wonder is actually the TRUTH then ... then I am not sure what I will do, but I will say THIS, "It will not be pretty!!!" This woke me up out of a dead sleep feeee-uuu-ming! Seriously, what kind of person does something like that???! After me being gone for THREE f**king YEARS???!!!

 

Any shred of decency that I thought you had as a human being is ERASED! You hear me???!!! EEERASED!!! I should have known you were capable of something like this due to your inability to let things go...ever! You need serious help even though you think you are smarter than any therapist on this earth. You lousy piece of sh*t. Yeah, read it again - SH*T - because I know how you just love hearing that word. Hahaha! I hope it sends your f*cking head into SPASMS.

 

My decision to leave you three years ago - THREE F*CKING YEARS - was the BEST decision I've ever made in my life! I'm not going to even apologize for anything YOU felt I did wrong because to you EVERY F*CKING THING I did was wrong! NOTHING was ever good enough for you!!! Well guess what you POS?! I proved you wrong and I did it in SPADES! I've surrounded myself with wonderful people who have done nothing but encourage me and who have FAITH in my abilities because they see the REAL person I am. You may have known me, but the ONLY thing you EVER focused on was my vulnerabilities, so you could keep me down and dump your sh*t on me. You never wanted to take responsibility for any of YOUR actions. You always tried to turn it around and make it look like I was the one projecting crap. Yeah, I said that word too! Know how you love it. Hahaha. You were always the victim and it was always someone else's fault.

 

I feel sorry for your friends and especially the one I know and respect. I'm sure they don't know the disdain you actually have for them. They aren't aware that you think you are better than them and that you would and probably still do (!) go on and on ad nauseum about how poorly you think of them. Oh, and let me guess; you probably have enlisted their help in trashing me. Hahaha! I hope they read this because then they can see that I'm not the horrible witch you portray me to be and that it is in fact YOU that has issues. I bet they just love listening to your monologues. Oh wait. No. You saved that wonderful experience for me! They didn't have to sit there and listen to you go on and on - for HOURS.. f*cking HOURS - about how the rest of the world was out to get you and that you were only defending yourself based on principal. No, you saved that for me. They had no idea what I had to put up with and if they think I'm horrible based on your "perception" then so what. Thats on them. I don't care because I did the smart thing for me and got the f*ck out.

 

Everything had a price with you. You only gave with a price tag attached. So go ahead and tell people that I used you if it makes you feel better. I gave my heart and soul to that relationship. I bent over backwards to accommodate you at the expense of my own family! A family who treated YOUR family very nice. Especially your mother. And all you and your sister did in return was criticise them and talk about what you didn't like instead of just appreciating the fact that they were just trying to include you and make you feel welcome. And you know what my mother said the night before she died when she heard you came over? That she was HONORED that you came! YOU should be honored that you had the pleasure of even knowing her. She always stuck up for you; she was one of your fans.

 

And to think that I felt guilty. You know what? As angry as I am right now I still hope you seek help and find peace one day. HOWEVER, if you EVER pull sh*t like this on me again I will take action. Go find someone else to torture with your diatribe. STAY THE H*LL AWAY FROM ME!

Edited June 4, 2013 by avelonia2013

[d0620]

You are still the first thought when I wake up in the morning. At least I didn't text you good morning. I know the right thing to do is to forget about you and walk away. If its meant I will see you later. I didn't cry yesterday or I didn't have a glass of wine. I am making progress. I miss the person I fell in love with, the one who use to take me for candied apples in the country, drive around with no destination in mind, and share stories. I miss that person and I haven't seen him in a very long time even before the accident. I realize the best thing to do is give you space, walk away and continue on with my life. I think I have that covered. NC seems to feel like I am counting down the hours of my life instead of living. I need to get to the point where I am focusing on myself and not you. I am working on it.

[JasonJ03]

Well look who it is. Really? Your sending me a friendly text!? Lets quit with the mind games here. Last time I acknowledged you we hungout and then I was ignored. I felt like a piece of attention that you used and tossed aside when you made the decision to go with that other guy. Lead me on and leave me feeling like a piece of ****!? Not this time. You made your choice. **** off and let me have closure. I will not entertain you with a response. If you are truly missing me, you had your chance. Have a nice life!

[Hockeyguy19]

Hey you, I miss your face. Your smile and your laugh. I miss everything about you. Saw your parents last night, you know that was rough. Thought about you all day and all night. I miss you more than ever. Still can't believe you walked away, right to someone else. Worst feeling ever, I'm down today, I'm leaving work early, should do homework but I know I'm just going to lay in bed and sleep. You cut me so deep. **** I hate you for that. I hate that I still love you and think about you all the time. And that you don't. I'm so messed up because of you and it's all in my head. I just can't shake it. I want to call you so bad but that goes no where, all contact goes no where. We're going no where, except farther apart. And I hate it. You won't come back, I know you won't and it kills me. I don't know how to get over you, you were the best part of my life for so long and now your gone, forever. I hope one day I feel better, because I don't know how much more of this I can take

[Gingerlee]

i have a feeling you're meeting up with her again today. it's none of my business... i know... but i know you saw her saturday night and i know you miss her. you were not even her boyfriend and yet you miss her more from two months of dating than you do with me, the person you said was your soul mate and who you hoped would have been your wife, the person you spent three years with. how is that fair? how has it come to this?

 

some girl came in to the shop i work at wearing trakkies and a jumper the other day. it made me smile because i remember when i'd come over your house and we'd have long love making sessions and lounge around watching terrible films, then you'd get hungry and i always felt so lazy and you'd throw me your sweaters and tracksuit bottoms and we'd walk down barefoot, and it could have just been me and you in the world and i wouldn't have cared.

 

despite how horribly you have treated me, i dont believe you ever did any of this intentionally. i know you. i know you're my sweet and kind and emotional boy.

 

i miss you a lot, especially now the weather is so wonderful.

Edited June 4, 2013 by Gingerlee

[SimonSerenade]

I don't feel guilty anymore so stop trying to make me feel bad because I don't, whatever you come up with is from such a long time ago that it doesn't matter anymore and at the time I apologised from the bottom of my heart, I'm not bringing up anything you've said or done because I forgave it and I forgot about it, it's funny how you have to look so far back to find something I said or did wrong, that should prove how good a person I've been to you and how tolerant I've been with you, I'm a good person, despite everything I forgave you and I stayed and wanted nothing more than a fresh start, I just wanted to be happy and I just wanted to feel secure with you.

 

You broke promises, you lied to me, you did it time and time again, you thought about yourself, I never came into consideration, if my son could one day see how much I put up with to be with you, he'd be shocked and ashamed at me, what kind of example would I set if I let him feel it was okay to be talked to and treated the way you talked and treated me, there's no excuse for it, if you ever loved me you wouldn't of talked to me that way, no way you would of found that morally a right thing to do, I know you never loved me at all.

 

My only hope now is that the next woman I'm with wont be able to fool me so easily like you did, I hope she treats me with respect and I hope I'll be a priority for her, I was nothing to you, I know that now.

[mfleck91]

I think about you a lot. All day every day

[missunshine]

I miss you... I think I will never stop missing you... Whenever I start thinking of you, all my feelings awake... and I can't help it, but cry... I want to stop crying... why did I have to meet you?

[SimonSerenade]

Hmmm what to say?, your an idiot, you couldn't enjoy being engaged to me because you were hung up on me being engaged to my ex, my ex was a monkeys ass and she smelled like one too, I couldn't of been happier that it ended now, it all led me to you, you who I loved, you who I couldn't be without, you who meant the world, you said you didn't want commitment so young so I don't know why it bothers you so much, can you ever just accept a good thing and enjoy it?, why does all this good stuff sound so negative to you?, I loved what we had, I loved how close we were, I loved that we were moving forward, I felt like I'd finally settled down and I was so happy about that, I was ready to spend the rest of my life with you, you were everything to me, I had my second chance with my ex and I chose to build that life with you instead, where is the bad in that?, I just don't get it.

[SimonSerenade]

What a mess, what to do now, shame all I'm gonna remember you by now are bad memories, I can't help but think if you opened up we could of talked things through, speaking to me like crap won't really do it, I should hate you for ending it the way you did, I should hate you for how you've treated me afterwards, I should even hate you for not giving me a solid reason why but I don't, I forgive you because I'd rather not hate you, I've said some things in the past but so what?, why bring them up now?, you've said A LOT of things and i forgave you for them and kept them in the past because they mean **** now and though I said these things your putting a lot of extra sauce on them.

 

I hope you don't go away hating me for all this stuff, that would be ashame, I won't remember any of this, I'll move on and do my best to think of you as a good thing I once had, there's no point spending my life thinking about you in any other way, in the end I'm just your average ordinary guy who loves the simple things, nothing more nothing less, maybe now you have big ambitions but trust me, in time you'll see it's all over rated.

 

I know you'll regret this, you lost out on the best thing that ever happened to you and for what? Superficial crap that doesn't mean a thing, I know that because I was the exact same way in my first relationship, chased things that I thought would fulfil me, things I wanted, went to places I was excited about, all over rated, all that I ever truly wanted I had all along, I can't blame her for leaving, she put the effort in and I didn't, my mistake.

[SimonSerenade]

I really did love you, being with you had to be the most trying and testing experience I've ever had and you know what?, I passed with flying colors, it goes to show that I'm worthy of being in a REAL relationship, I wanted so much for you to be the one I was devoted to all my life, now I'll have to accept the fact that it won't be me, it'll be someone else, that's a hard pill to swallow but I'll swallow it with pride knowing I did all in my power to be that for you.

 

We were great together and the love we had for each other really showed, being in you arms was as fulfilling as it ever got, the world waa at peace when you were here with me, it was all time well spent, I wish I could of spent more of it with you, do I have any regrets? No i don't, I loved, I learned, I had a hell of a time, yeah we argued but that was outweighed with all the good stuff, all the love, all the meaningful conversations, all the times I kissed your lips and all the times I just simply had the pleasure of admiring everything you are.

 

I pray every night that god keeps you safe and gives you all the happiness you desire, honestly the only time I slept well at night was knowing I made you happy, I always said "I love you heather" hoping youd hear it, it was such a comfort thinking you did, I don't know how or where this mess came from, I just hope one day you can forget, it always hurt to think you thought bad of me because my intensions were only good ones, I never wanted you to be miserable, I'm sorry you ever felt that way, I truly am.

 

I geuss no amount of talking right now can make anything right, I doubt there's anything I can say or do that will get you back to how you was, even so I would of waited and would of never stopped trying until that beautiful soul came back round the corner, you were just worth it, I wish things were as simple as they are in my head, I geuss I have more sense than I know what to do with.

 

It's hard to see myself with anyone else, it's hard to see someone else by your side, I hope one day there'll be a new better and stronger us so I never have to see that but I won't hold my hopes up high to that, it's a small false hope that will reside in my heart, there's just no words to describe what I've lost and how I feel right now, I won't even try, I just hope you knew what you meant because its a lot more than you thought, goodnight darling, I love you, I miss you, for the last time, you were everything good and everything pure, everything I couldn't be without since you walked through my door.

[Loving_Me]

I wish I had never met you.