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[Stevan]

This is so sad. I'm sorry you are going through this right now. I would never want someone I love to ever feel that way. If you feel terrified to talk to the person you love and who loves you too then who can you talk to? Don't ever let fear stop you from being who you are with someone. If they love you I'm sure there is nothing they want more than to calm those fears and show you how silly you're being. It's worth the risk.

 

Mom made the ultimate sacrifices to protect us...so it was not so sad. We can't reward her, she is the best woman and my ideal in life. <3

 

And thank you so much for your support. Hug.

[Stevan]

I wish you missed me like I missed you right now, I hate feeling this desperate for you, I just want you here with me now, it's the only time I ever feel alright.

 

With you always. <3 <3 <3

[Stevan]

I'm speechless........

 

'I will love you till the end of time I would wait a million years Promise you'll remember that you're mine Baby can you see through the tears?' :love: :love:

[Stevan]

How can i change everything? How I wish i was stronger and more comfortable with my self. I feel pathetic right now. How i wish you would Forgive me.

[Stevan]

I deserve ****tttttttttttttt

[Stevan]

I just don't want anything right now. i just want to stop your pain, can't see you hurting...just can't bear this...

[Stevan]

My tears won't improve how you feel nor would ease your pain...I wish am near you right now, to kiss your hands and ask for forgiveness, after that i would vanish and that for your sanity...i deserve this, i deserve this...

[Stevan]

Words mean nothing now. You are hurting. goshh

 

Try your best darling. don't let negative emotions win.. they can impact your overall quality of life. Please, don't let this happen. Please!!

[tinker683]

Dearest Carol,

 

This will be the last letter I send to you. I realized this morning that I'm tired. I'm tired of constantly hurting, I'm tired of clinging to a memory, I'm tired of living in the past. It's been 4 months since we broke up and in that mean I have placed my life on a trajectory that I can say I really like. I've learned how to cook and I cook regularly now. I've resumed my dance classes, and I work out now with a personal trainer regularly.

 

My life is not what it was when I met you. It's better in some ways and worse in others. I miss hanging out with you and the others. I miss our Tuesday night Swing Dance get togethers, I miss the feeling of having a group of friends to hang with regularly. I miss going to the barn with you, hanging out with you. I miss going to horse shows with you, I miss just driving around. I miss kissing you, I miss making love to you, I miss the sound of your voice and your smile. I miss not being able to ask you what you think of a book or movie I'm watching.

 

I miss all of these things....but I'm also so very tried. I'm tired of being angry all the time. You asked me for a commitment and I gave it to you and when I gave it to you, you pulled away from me. You started hanging out with him, all the while stringing me along and telling me that you wanted something from me. I wish you had just let me go, I wish you had just told me you weren't interested in me anymore after that instead of promising me the future.

 

But you know what? I don't want to ruminate anymore. I don't want to hold on to this bitterness and this angst anymore. I just want peace. I don't want to have to keep defining my new life as a result of what happened because of you. I want my life to be mine, something independent of you. I WILL make my life in spite of you.

 

I wasn't good enough for you, but that's ok. I don't have to be. I know my value, I know I have a lot to offer a potential partner. The fact that you didn't see it or didn't want it is your loss. I'm moving forward, I can't stay stuck here forever.

 

That being said...I want to thank you. Our relationship was a bad one, and it ended in flames, but you really did add a lot to my life. You gave me an appreciation for things that I didn't have before. I am a better person now because I met you.

 

I've come to realize that moving on doesn't mean I stop loving you...I will always love you, I will always hope for the best for you. No, moving on means I don't let the hurt and the pain confine and hold me back, it means I keep living life as best I can and I find what makes me happy in spite of you.

 

So...take care of yourself. You have a lot of stuff you need to work out and I hope you are able too. I would ask only that unless you're actually willing to make something work with me, that you stay away from me. Let me live my life. Let me be happy. Don't torture me anymore with false promises and half-assed commitments. I don't want that anymore. I don't deserve that.

 

I love you Carol. I love you so much. Thank you for what you've given me. Good bye

 

Love,

Matt

[mucpa91]

Hey there,

 

That's how you always started a conversation and I loved it. We've known each other for 22 years and it took us 20 to get to the point where we could date. I thought it was great. We supported each other and helped each other until you decided to just not return my texts or emails. What is your problem?? You know everything going on right now for me and how I was looking forward to sharing it with you. Maybe that was the problem - as long as I was helping you everything was great but let me need something and heaven forbid. Oh well, I'm beginning to move on and improve myself. Business is good, vacations are planned and I will be happier without the worry of the last month or so where you were concerned.

 

I wish things could be different. I wish you would have cared enough to try and not just disappear. I hope I'm strong enough not to reply this time when you try to contact me again. I hope I've moved on and you realize what you've lost. I hope I find someone to love who wants to provide the same support for me that I give to them.

 

Enjoy your work!

[Harradin]

I just feel sadness and pity for you when I think about you. I still don't believe how you thought so little of me when I was crazy about you. I genuinely thought I knew that we were going to end up married for 50+ years with kids, that was how well we meshed together. I get anxiety talking/flirting to/with other women now, I get scared because I've seemed to reinforce the fact that they'll do what you did to me. Every time time I try to get out of that "comfort" zone I find some way of getting out of it. I'm pretty sure I'm going to have commitment issues now, for a good few years. But I suppose at 20, its the best time to have it as it means I won't get emotionally invested at all and I go out, pull and not have a second thought.

 

I still love the Amy I knew, but now you're a trainwreck and I wouldn't touch you with a barge pole.

[SimonSerenade]

I wish I could sleep properly again, coming to terms with the truth this way is killing me, I can't believe I was a fool for so long, whenever I asked you anything about your past or the messages I had to see on the crappy phone you gave me, you always lied and said you didn't remember, you'd change your stories all the time, you even texted a guy you nearly got together with I front of me, you changed your story an said you didn't nearly get together with him but if that was true, why would you find it inappropriate to talk to him?, you've really messed up my head over the last year and a half and you never cared once, you just consistently said I shouldn't be upset, why couldn't you accept that I was and be there for me?, was it really so hard?, I don't know how I'm going to get over this, I should buy a football game and just turn my mind on that but there's no way I'm going to go into your work to buy one, just the thought of seeing you right now is unbearable, I know I'll only wind up collapsing in tears, why did you have to fall out of love with me?, why don't you find me attractive anymore?, right now I'm dying inside and life is impossible to get on with, for you this all seems so easy, I bet your over me already, I'll take that bet.

[Stevan]

Dear love.

 

I know you are more hurt than angry. Trust me, it was never my intention. Sometimes, things are complicated. The only way they can be made simple, is by ignorance. It was never by intention to hid anything, I never have had to. And you know this. In all these years, we've shared our deepest feelings, our most complex emotions. Yes, I did like other guys. However, this was before you came into my life. It wasn't something worth discussing because NO ONE of them can be compared to you, your presence, your intelligence, your persona, your beautiful heart, just everything about you charmed me and made crazy about you, you had me fall head over heels for you. I still could have told you about many things, but my stupid fears always hold me back. I just complicated the whole thing.

 

I'm sorry you had to know about this in these circumstances. I can completely understand how it must have been for you to get to know about this. It isn't your fault either, nothing of this is your fault. You're the best man ever, ever, ever.

 

All I want to say is I'm sorry, and trust me. and it kills me deep inside that I can't do this in person. Maybe I'm a coward, maybe I'm just bad at confrontation. However, whether in person or through this letter, it is important that my apology reaches you.

 

I love you, a lot. Whenever you're ready, let's talk it out and give me the only one chance to answer each and every question.

 

The girl who Loved you, and STILL love you to death.

[Stevan]

Sometimes, I don't get the right words to say what I really want to. Sometimes, I get the right words, but they aren't enough.

 

How do I say the words I'm sorry when I know that words are not enough? Just how?

[SimonSerenade]

Dear love.

 

I know you are more hurt than angry. Trust me, it was never my intention. Sometimes, things are complicated. The only way they can be made simple, is by ignorance. It was never by intention to hid anything, I never have had to. And you know this. In all these years, we've shared our deepest feelings, our most complex emotions. Yes, I did like other guys. However, this was before you came into my life. It wasn't something worth discussing because NO ONE of them can be compared to you, your presence, your intelligence, your persona, your beautiful heart, just everything about you charmed me and made crazy about you, you had me fall head over heels for you. I still could have told you about many things, but my stupid fears always hold me back. I just complicated the whole thing.

 

I'm sorry you had to know about this in these circumstances. I can completely understand how it must have been for you to get to know about this. It isn't your fault either, nothing of this is your fault. You're the best man ever, ever, ever.

 

All I want to say is I'm sorry, and trust me. and it kills me deep inside that I can't do this in person. Maybe I'm a coward, maybe I'm just bad at confrontation. However, whether in person or through this letter, it is important that my apology reaches you.

 

I love you, a lot. Whenever you're ready, let's talk it out and give me the only one chance to answer each and every question.

 

The girl who Loved you, and STILL love you to death.

 

I feel so sorry for you, why don't you talk to him?, surely it's worth a shot?, your feelings seem so genuine, just seems such a shame that your torturing yourself like this, wish my ex had the compassion and remorse that your showing her but she's just like the ex before her and unfortunately that's ignorant and heartless, I'm sure your ex would appreciate knowing how you feel, once again if you ever want to talk you have my email, I thought for sure you were a dude lol

[SimonSerenade]

Killed me before to walk past where you work, knowing I was so close to you and feeling so far away, how are you by feeling the same right now? Why won't you reach out and let me know?, I swear you can be such a c word sometimes, he'll ill say it, coo coo head!

[Stevan]

I never meant to hurt you. I never meant for you to fall.

 

I care for you so much. You were/are the highlight of my day.

 

I’ve never been able to talk to a guy like I talk to you. I’ve never felt as comfortable with a guy as I do with you. It scared me how easy it is to talk to you..I swear it. I don’t want to hurt you. I want you to heal, I want to ease your pain. I want to be able to give you a hug and not worry about what you might see in it. I want to tell you things without worrying about what you might read into them.

 

I never meant to hurt you. But I guess I’m screwed either way.

[Stevan]

I loved your smile, I loved your eyes, but most of all I fell in love with the person inside all of that. <3 <3 <3 You made me laugh. You totally cracked me up. You also made me cry, and I didn't hate that. Most of all, you made me feel alive. I love you, and although you have left an enormous gaping hole in my heart, I will never regret having met you and falling in love with you. If nothing else, I am glad that I made you happy for sometime. I wanted to make you happy for the rest of your life.. I ache, I hurt, I cry, but I will never regret loving you.

 

The pain I feel at losing you is intense. Unimaginable. Indescribable. Even now I still ache. It is unimaginable, indescribable pain, accompanied by a huge kick in the guts when the reality hits.

[Stevan]

I know that so far I have not been doing to well. Losing you has been far, far, far harder than anything I could have ever imagined. Unexpected devistation is the only way to explain it.

 

I cry a lot, I wail a lot and I miss you a lot. How could I not? In such a short time, you became my everything. I loved you with all of my heart and soul.

[mfleck91]

We aren't lovers, we aren't partners, we aren't friends or even acquaintances....we're just strangers with 4 years of memories

[SimonSerenade]

You knocked me sideways when you said that you was leaving, you knocked me over when you cried and told the truth and you left speechless, the secrets you've been keeping, your running now cause someone's chasing you.

[SimonSerenade]

Man I really wish I hadn't found out the truth, just thinking about all I tried to block out all this time, the pain is excruciating, the thoughts are stuck in my head and won't go away, I know it means little to you because it's in the past but the fact you lied about it means something else entirely, I don't know what to think about our time together anymore, feels like it was all built and based on lies, all I ever wanted was someone to be honest and sincere with me, is that really too much to ask for in this day an age?, I can only blame myself for wanting commitment with people that are probably too young and selfish to want the same in the long haul, I honestly felt you wanted to marry me and be with me forever, i was a fool to ever think I'd be enough for you.

[grayfox]

I need to say this.....

 

I hate what you have become. I cant even look at you, let alone talk. Its good that your family hasnt taken sides and that im still able to see my daughter. You have changed beyond anything I could think of. This me me me attitude doesnt suit you. Your a disgrace for what your doing.

 

You dont see the damage you are creating for yourself! The confusing its causing our daughter. No wonder shes naughty for you. Your ignoring her and concentrating too much on him! He will get bored and leave your sorry a**e!

 

Just dont expect me to come running back! You burnt thou bridges! I would never have you back.

 

Ill find somebody, somebody that will love and appreciate me, that will accept me and my daughter!

I hope your happy with yourself for what you did. I could never forgive you!

[SimonSerenade]

All those promises you broke time after time, I bet the though of losing me never crossed your mind at all, you always put yourself first, you always did what've you wanted and didn't care how it affected me, you never cared before or after, the way you treated me after all these things you did, it's disgusting, you didn't love me, if you did you wouldn't or treated me that way or talked to me like you did, I was devastated and you ways rubbed it in my face and made me feel worse, I'm struggling to comprehend what I ever really did wrong, I had feelings and i never hid them from you, I was open and honest, all I wanted in return was your consideration, I'm not going to apologise to you anymore, the fact I was bothered about those things meant you were the world to me, you never once had to worry about anything with me because I never gave you a reason to worry, you knew what you meant to me and you knew where you stood in my heart, I could never have done this to you, I would never have messed you around like this, the hardest part now is accepting the truth and finding a way to get through it, I thought I meant the world to you, I thought you waited for me all your life, I thought it was fate that i was your first love and the first one to make love to you, it meant so much to me, to know now it was all a lie, my heart desperately wants to stop beating and just how out together.

[SimonSerenade]

I wish I never met you, I wish I never fell in love with you, I wish I never set my eyes on you in the first place, I don't deserve to feel like this, I was loyal to you, I loved you, I stood by you, you traded me in for a life of superficial things, I just don't know what to do anymore, I don't trust you, I don't feel safe with you, you left me when I needed you the most, I'll never forgive you for that.