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May 12, 2013

Being alone sucks. Because it keeps me dwelling and the few beers don't help either. I'm really sick of your immaturity. I'm sick you tried to condemn me for being hurt to the point that I had to talk to our friend, your best friend to see if what you did to me was known to anyone else. You didn't have the decency to just let it go. You couldn't just live with your decision that your broke up with me. It bothered you that everyone in your house, your job, your hang outs and etc. just kept asking why did you break up with me? How did you break up with the "perfect" guy? And so you stringed me along for a week. You kept asking if I would text, and I said no. And you kept seeing if you could get me jealous because it bothered you that I was moving on. All you cared about was yourself honestly. You didn't want to face a future of regret and guilt for giving up on us. So you decided to kill us. You decided that you don't even want a chance of getting back together when you matured because you would have to face guilt and regret in your attempts to win me back. The nonsense I put up with! The amount I cared for you, I would have put myself on the scaffold for you to have a perfect life without me. The tears and the hurt I have to put up with. I try not to demonize you! I really try not to! But even my best friend, the guy who tries to see the good in everyone, even says what you did was completely selfish and your best friend says the same. There was no respect for me! I even had the decency to wish you a healthy good bye and gave some advice, don't do the same to another good guy. Try to make it work and understand that there is another person involved. Have fun with your hook ups and your strange guys from your past where you feel the need for conversation, the intimacy of talk. I won't give you the privilege in the future. I might give you advice, but don't expect me to ever talk to you like we talked in our relationship if you ever contact me a year down the road. That time has passed. Happy mother's day to your mom, she was a nice woman who saw the potential in a guy like me.

May 12, 2013

I hate how you lied to me, I hate how you left me, I hate how you could so easily shrug me off, I hate how I wasn't made a priority in your life, I hate how my feelings and insecurities didn't matter to you, I hate how you did whatever you wanted with no sense of guilt or remorse, I hate how you strung me along, I hate how you messed with my head, I hate that you made me feel bad for having health problems, I hate how spoilt you are, I hate how you assumed i was going to ruin your life in th future, I hate how negatively you thought of me, all these things I hate and there's still more that reside in the back of my mind yet I just can't bring myself to hate you, maybe one day.....

May 13, 2013

I got nothing....

May 13, 2013

It's been almost two days and all I want to do is curl up with you and feel like everything is okay. I had a dream about you and at the end we were saying good bye and I went to kiss you and you ran away. I chased after you and tried again but you pulled away again. I asked if you didn't like kissing me anymore and then I woke up. It basically described our whole relationship in one tiny scene.

It hurts to have the last thing you say to me be I love you so much but you're killing me. It hurts that you gave me a bit of false hope just the night before and then I woke up to that. It hurts to know that you're already moving on and it hasn't even been 72 hours.

As much as I miss you. As often as I check my phone and fb to see if you've sent anything. As much as I've cried in the past couple of days. As horrible as the ache in my heart is and the total emptiness I feel in side. I know that this is for the best. You were the first person I loved and the first person I experienced a lot with. We spent nearly every moment together for the past 3 and a half years. Fell asleep completely curled into each other every night.

I don't know how to live without you. I have spent the past two days laying in my bed trying to sleep away the pain. I haven't ate a single thing because even though I feel hungry I just can't make myself swallow. It sucks that I have to start building something without you when just a couple days ago we were building things together. I have to let go of our plans, the hopes, what I thought I was to you. I have to let go of everything you ever said to me because I don't know what was real and what wasn't.

I really tried. I tried so hard I lost myself. I stopped talking to people you didn't want me talking to. I lost weight. I had a hard time staying positive about anything. I feel like you turned me into someone I'm not with all your lies and flirting and breaking up with me to be with someone else and then crawling back a week or even a few days later. I was so angry all the time because I felt like I couldn't be me. I felt I had to be more like the girls you left me for. I felt I had to talk like them, dress like them, act like them. I couldn't ask for what I wanted because you would get so mad and just stop talking to me, like I wasn't sitting right beside you.

Even though it's for the best you twisted my mind and I'm having a really hard time coming back from that. What makes it harder is knowing that you don't care how bad it is for me. You don't care how other people feel unless you barely know them. Your having fun flirting with the drunk girls that come into your work, your ex, and basically any female that shows you the slightess bit of attention.

I wish I had never met you. I remember how I was before I knew you even existed and while it wasn't perfect, I miss it so much. I don't see anything I can learn from this relationship, except maybe that I'm weak and would rather let myself go then someone who treats me like dirt just so I'm not alone.

May 13, 2013

I just wanted to say thank you for the answers; they are truly appreciated. At least neither one of us had evil intentions right? That is such a relief to know.

I love you and miss you and will always hold you a special place for you in my heart. I truly understand.

May 13, 2013

I love you I wish you didn't have to leave, the thought of you with someone else past and present always killed me, that's why I was so jealous, your so precious to me and the thought of losing you was tearing me apart, I didn't know how to act or cover it up anymore, I can see how it would get to you, I know you can't understand because you've never felt that way before, I just wanted to be your first and only for everything, thinking I might not be and feeling like I wasn't good enough for you was hard to deal with, I wanted to be the only one for you, the one person you could never bare to be without, you never opened up and when I needed to feel your desperation in the past to keep me around, it never came, after all you put me through you never stood by me and made it better, I needed you to make those efforts and you never did, just expected me to stay put and deal with it, i always felt awkward having to ask you to apologise and say something meaningful, it's the simplest thing in the world and you some how made it so hard.

No matter I've been through in my life and past relationships, I always opened up to you and I always wore my heart on my sleeve for you, even after all that I still would of accepted you for who you are and deal with it because in my eyes, nothing was worth losing you, I wish you could understand all of this and I wish you could fix it and come back in to my arms, for all the good we are together, it far outweighs the bad, I'll always believe we were meant to be, I wish you could see that too and put an end to this and just come back where you belong.

Whatever is wrong, we can always fix it, our love would always see us through, you just have to make that effort and accept me for who I am, I think the love we shared was at least worth that much, I wish for once you would muste up some strength to fight because right now after all the times I fought and fought and fought for you, I am emotionally exhausted and all cried out.

May 13, 2013

I just wanted to say thank you for the answers; they are truly appreciated. At least neither one of us had evil intentions right? That is such a relief to know.

I love you and miss you and will always hold you a special place for you in my heart. I truly understand.

Hi i wanted to say that the beginning of your story it's just like mine , I was in a very bad moment when I meet him , but you know he is not worth the time to explain, so yesterday I found this song that I hope it helps you the way it helped me good luck , we all have to be strong !!

FLORENCE + THE MACHINE Shake it out

May 13, 2013

I guess after surviving yesterday and coping with it all, I actually woke up just fine. A bit of me still misses you but I actually had dreams of sex with other people. So you're not the only one I find sexy anymore.... Have a decent Monday R.

May 13, 2013

Why did you feel the need lure me into calling you based on lies? What is it you want? Stop playing head games and give it to me straight. I'm doing fine without you. These calls don't bother me too much I just don't get it. Do you even know what you want? Why do you want to hang out again? Is it that you're lonely or you want to get back, you want to see if there is still something there? WHAT? Just tell the the truth and stop acting like this is a big game.

May 13, 2013

I hate you, I hate how you make me feel, I hate that I still love you and that I just can't get you out of my head, I hate that you won't leave me alone. I hate that I want you in my life still, but I want you gone. I'm scared you and I will never see each other again, and I don't like that. You have a new bf, a whole new life, and I'm sitting here crying because you left me. I should have never went back to you after the first time we broke up, because I wasn't deeply in love with you then, and could have survived this alot easier, instead I went back and you killed me, inside and out. I am shell of my former self, a ghost and just a lost soul now. I pretend I'm fine, that I'm moving on, but I can't, you have a hold on me and it pisses me off, I wish you would just go away but you won't. At least not mentally. We haven't spoke now in person in weeks, emailed 5 days ago and it was a fight, so what's the point? Your not a friend, you continue to hurt me so why the **** do I care? What is my body and mind thinking? You were poison for so long and now that your gone its missing you? Yeah we had great times, I paid for them all, and some good memories but the fights, the screaming the pain, why does that not come up in my mind? Just the good, not the bad, and for that I hate you. We had a chance, you gave up, and went to someone else and left me cold. I hope karma gets you on that one and he does the same to you. You don't deserve to be happy right now, you crushed me to gain that happiness, and you got it by replacing me AFTER 4 DAYS! and you were talking to him before we broke up so don't tell me you didn't have this planned weeks before you pulled the trigger. I had to drive yesterday for 4 hours, you know where, and it was weird because for the first time you weren't beside me, you were with him. Surreal feeling but nothing I can do to change it. I hate you, even though I still love you I hate you so much, your ruining my life and I'm letting you, how sad is that? 3 years with you has turned me into someone I don't even recognize, and I just hope one day I find him again. You can't do this to me, I can't allow it. Nc has to start, even though I'm scared I'll never see or hear from you again, but that's what I need, you don't care anymore and I need to stop caring, one minute, one hour, one day, one week, one month at a time. God I wish I knew why this happened, you lost someone great. But so did I.

May 13, 2013

I'm surprised I've done so well and steered clear of calling you up in tears or begging you to come to your senses, despite feeling so crappy I've done really well, I said I'd leave you to your new life and I'm proud that I've kept that promise, this has been tearing me apart and it's so hard to move on, still so much I wanted to know and ask you, geuss it means nothing though now that you don't want me anymore, I said I dont want to lose you and that still remains true but I geuss it's completely and utterly out of my hands.

May 13, 2013

Been watching old 90s music videos on vidzone all day, reminds me so much of you, couldn't believe we had so much in common when we got together, never would of thought we had that in common anyway, I was already living it up knowing I had a football loving girlfriend, I felt like the luckiest guy in the world, I fell so hard for you, the only one thing I ever felt was missing from an otherwise perfect package was simply the fact that you didn't open up and let me know I was wanted, at times when things went wrong, I needed to see that, I felt taken for granted, that was all, I'll never understand why you had so many problems opening up, I would say I've been through a hell of a lot more than you and it matured me and gave me the insentive to nurture and cherish the love I was so lucky to have found in you, I always knew what this was and I always knew I wanted it, this was a serious relationship destined to last a life time, I never intended for it to be that way but you can't fight fates design, I accepted it and couldn't be happier with that, why you had to consistently pick apart something good that just doesn't come along all that often is beyond me, if only you wore your heart on your sleeve and looked for all that right instead of all that wasn't then we would be happy in love right now but here we are thanks to you, one thing is for sure, I'll never ask you for anything again, love is understanding, compromise and putting that person you claim it for first, it's just a word to you and nothing else, I asked you for one thing before we broke up and you couldn't see past yourself to even give me a break on that, you hurt me so much and you never cared, so long as you had all your own way, why the hell would you?, we both know karma is a bitch and I hope one day you find yourself on the other end of this, you deserve to know what hell this feels like.

May 13, 2013

Hi i wanted to say that the beginning of your story it's just like mine , I was in a very bad moment when I meet him , but you know he is not worth the time to explain, so yesterday I found this song that I hope it helps you the way it helped me good luck , we all have to be strong !!

FLORENCE + THE MACHINE Shake it out

Thank you! I will check it out.

I feel so much better today. I had a little weak moment last night when I posted that last post. Little bit too much wine mixed with panic...lol. It was a bad moment and yes, I woke up saying, "Boy oh boy WTH did I do? I will shake this off." We're all allowed minor regressions every now and again before making it to the other side. Right? I actually feel stronger and more resolute today after that silly late night wine induced slip up.

Thank you for the support!

May 14, 2013

Letting you know I do miss you right now. You really ruined my semester by what you did and it would have been better off if you left after the concert so at least I didn't have to deal with this nonsense in the middle of my work. I also had to hide your friend's and families updates on Facebook because they keep tagging you in stuff. I just want my space is all. I don't care that you are going to brooklyn this weekend to that concert/amusement park they are building because you don't care really what I do! I'll probably be working this week in Staten Island and I will probably hang out with E one night or so. We've been slowly getting physically intimate with each other, seems like there is potential between us and says I'm somebody worth waiting for when I'm ready to label us a relationship. Somebody head over heels for me.... I should appreciate her so much more

May 14, 2013

Don't want your picture on my cellphone, I want you here with me, I don't want your memories in my head no....... I want you here with me.

May 14, 2013

Don't want your picture on my cellphone, I want you here with me, I don't want your memories in my head no....... I want you here with me.

Delete whatever pictures you have! I deleted every picture, video, and text we shared together since me and my ex first began talking. It was hard, she said she always wanted to read those text but I'm not going to hold on to them for our second chance. For Facebook I merely archived our messages and old comments out of respect by not deleting them but at the same time I don't wish to see them on my wall or message conversations.

May 14, 2013

I think I will make this my painful diary. Posting daily

Here's my first post. 3-months since we've seen each other. 3-months since you said you didn't want a relationship.

You told me to walk away and it killed me. But you haven't let me go. I've been trying to move on but when you come knocking I answer. You give me hope that I will feel that feeling when we were together. It so hard to ignore you.

But you did it to me again today. You crushed my hope and now I feel like worthless garbage all over.

I need to remember these feelings and how much it sucks. So I can stop making the same mistakes. Your not right girl for me!!!

Let her Gooooooo!

May 14, 2013

Delete whatever pictures you have! I deleted every picture, video, and text we shared together since me and my ex first began talking. It was hard, she said she always wanted to read those text but I'm not going to hold on to them for our second chance. For Facebook I merely archived our messages and old comments out of respect by not deleting them but at the same time I don't wish to see them on my wall or message conversations.

Thanks man I was quoting the killers lol here with me is a catchy song, she loves the killers so i probably shouldn't listen to them, I don't have any of her pictures or videos of her, looking at her would only tear away at me knowing she isn't with me anymore and one day will be with someone else, man she really was a work of art to look at, very beautiful girl, I don't have facebook either, never got into the social network scene, so thankfully I don't have to see her on there, good on you man for doing all the right things, in relationships gone by, I always ****ed up afterwards one way or another.

May 14, 2013

Dearest Carol,

I'm writing this here instead of texting you or doing something else incredibly stupid that will only hurt me because I feel I need to express this but I know I want to keep moving forward with my recovery.

I miss you. I miss you so much. You hurt me and you rejected me and you made me feel like ou had lied and mislead me, but I still miss you. I'm so angry at you and I still miss you.

There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you, that I don't wish I could find some way of healing this hole in my heart. I keep telling myself that if you somehow could know how much I loved you, you'd take me back. You would leave this new boytoy you left me for and you would realize how much I adored you.

But you won't. I know that. So instead I will say that as much as you've screwed me up, as hurt and angry as I am at you, I love you very much and I truly do hope you are happy. I'm sorry I failed you. I'm sorry I couldn't be the man you wanted me to be. I just delighted in your presence and I loved being around you. I am sorry that you didn't feel the same or if you did, then it wasn't enough.

I hope he's why you need and I hope you find what you're looking for

May 14, 2013

Thanks man I was quoting the killers lol here with me is a catchy song, she loves the killers so i probably shouldn't listen to them, I don't have any of her pictures or videos of her, looking at her would only tear away at me knowing she isn't with me anymore and one day will be with someone else, man she really was a work of art to look at, very beautiful girl, I don't have facebook either, never got into the social network scene, so thankfully I don't have to see her on there, good on you man for doing all the right things, in relationships gone by, I always ****ed up afterwards one way or another.

Just can't blame yourself. I don't blame myself at all for my last relationship. Seems like you and me have been really posting on this thread the most the past week. I read some of your post. Just it sucks losing someone. But I know in my last relationship my ex was such an immature girl compared to me. She really doesn't deserve the praise I give her. She was a beautiful girl, great to have fun with, really easy to get along with, and had some gifts in pleasuring me. But when it comes down to it, she bailed when worked was required in a relationship. Such a shame really, she'll need to learn these lessons on her own now

May 14, 2013

Just can't blame yourself. I don't blame myself at all for my last relationship. Seems like you and me have been really posting on this thread the most the past week. I read some of your post. Just it sucks losing someone. But I know in my last relationship my ex was such an immature girl compared to me. She really doesn't deserve the praise I give her. She was a beautiful girl, great to have fun with, really easy to get along with, and had some gifts in pleasuring me. But when it comes down to it, she bailed when worked was required in a relationship. Such a shame really, she'll need to learn these lessons on her own now

Yeah I noticed we were posting the most comments, it helps so much to post on this thread, much more so than posting little things to yourself on the pc, on here it's just out there and you get a feeling of validation from that.

I know what you mean, my ex was exactly the same, She just didn't care for the problems and expected that there shouldn't be any, what a messed up reality she was living in, I always stood by her and she just upped and left for selfish reasons, sometimes I feel like calling her because I miss her voice but then I think again and the urge disappears, she was a real monster at times and didn't seem to know how to deal with real life situations, one of those people who when they should be stood shoulder to shoulder with you just wasn't there.

Every year in march I always go distant and really really sad as in 2007 I lost my best friend and man was I in love with her, unfortunately I had to find her after an overdose and watch her slip away, most heart breaking time of my life, my ex didn't seem to understand why I should be so sad, nobody suited me more than my best friend did and after this break up nobody still does, the thought of that pushes me so far away from her, she was horrible about the whole thing, made things so much harder, if she hadnt of acted like that I'd probably be trying to get back with her but I haven't and I won't be tryin either, if she her wanted me back shed have to put the effort in and come through big time to fix this but she won't, knowing that makes it easier to move on

May 14, 2013

Yeah I noticed we were posting the most comments, it helps so much to post on this thread, much more so than posting little things to yourself on the pc, on here it's just out there and you get a feeling of validation from that.

I know what you mean, my ex was exactly the same, She just didn't care for the problems and expected that there shouldn't be any, what a messed up reality she was living in, I always stood by her and she just upped and left for selfish reasons, sometimes I feel like calling her because I miss her voice but then I think again and the urge disappears, she was a real monster at times and didn't seem to know how to deal with real life situations, one of those people who when they should be stood shoulder to shoulder with you just wasn't there.

Every year in march I always go distant and really really sad as in 2007 I lost my best friend and man was I in love with her, unfortunately I had to find her after an overdose and watch her slip away, most heart breaking time of my life, my ex didn't seem to understand why I should be so sad, nobody suited me more than my best friend did and after this break up nobody still does, the thought of that pushes me so far away from her, she was horrible about the whole thing, made things so much harder, if she hadnt of acted like that I'd probably be trying to get back with her but I haven't and I won't be tryin either, if she her wanted me back shed have to put the effort in and come through big time to fix this but she won't, knowing that makes it easier to move on

Wow, that's a real tragedy I'm sorry to hear that about your best friend. I once lost connection to a former best friend because we tried to get into a relationship. I just couldn't at the time because I was really busy with school. Regardless months after nothing happened I once drunk called my best friend after hooking up with a girl at a party. Got her extremely jealous and she went back with an abusive ex who threatened to kill me if he ever saw me, of course he never did anything when we crossed paths. Regardless doesn't really compare to your story, mine was another lost due to immaturity.

Sounds like your ex was jealous just like mine. She probably couldn't handle the fact that she couldn't replace another love who was a major "what if" in your life. My ex was extremely jealous even with me just talking to other girls. One time we went to a restaurant and it was about 5-6 months into our relationship and it was soon after valentines day and it was the first time she was paying for the meal fully. but of course the waitress was a girl I use to know, so me being a bit prideful felt a bit embarrassed for some reason that my ex was paying soon after V-day, making me feel like I would look bad. So I made conversation to insure with the waitress to calm myself down by being friendly. The ex was so jealous apparently that she thought I felt embarrassed by her in public at the moment. It wasn't till after we went to the movies that she saw how much I was holding her and even a month later when we went to a distant mall together and I held her everywhere we went that she felt like I felt comfortable with her in public. And she only mentioned this when she tried to equate it to when she hung out with this guy from her past who toyed with her and her sister! And I'm not even the jealous type. I was ok with her going to clubs and concerts with her friends, didn't mind if she found another guy attractive or even if she was friends with a few. Just it baffled me why she would want to hang out with a guy who slept with her sister twice while my ex and him had hidden feelings for each other a while back. I dealt with all her old skeletons and immaturity but sometimes they don't appreciate you

Edited May 14, 2013 by maturityassets

May 14, 2013

Wow, that's a real tragedy I'm sorry to hear that about your best friend. I once lost connection to a former best friend because we tried to get into a relationship. I just couldn't at the time because I was really busy with school. Regardless months after nothing happened I once drunk called my best friend after hooking up with a girl at a party. Got her extremely jealous and she went back with an abusive ex who threatened to kill me if he ever saw me, of course he never did anything when we crossed paths. Regardless doesn't really compare to your story, mine was another lost due to immaturity.

Sounds like your ex was jealous just like mine. She probably couldn't handle the fact that she couldn't replace another love who was a major "what if" in your life. My ex was extremely jealous even with me just talking to other girls. One time we went to a restaurant and it was about 5-6 months into our relationship and it was soon after valentines day and it was the first time she was paying for the meal fully. but of course the waitress was a girl I use to know, so me being a bit prideful felt a bit embarrassed for some reason that my ex was paying soon after V-day, making me feel like I would look bad. So I made conversation to insure with the waitress to calm myself down by being friendly. The ex was so jealous apparently that she thought I felt embarrassed by her in public at the moment. It wasn't till after we went to the movies that she saw how much I was holding her and even a month later when we went to a distant mall together and I held her everywhere we went that she felt like I felt comfortable with her in public. And she only mentioned this when she tried to equate it to when she hung out with this guy from her past who toyed with her and her sister! And I'm not even the jealous type. I was ok with her going to clubs and concerts with her friends, didn't mind if she found another guy attractive or even if she was friends with a few. Just it baffled me why she would want to hang out with a guy who slept with her sister twice while my ex and him had hidden feelings for each other a while back. I dealt with all her old skeletons and immaturity but sometimes they don't appreciate you

Your a better man than I am, i was the jealous type if you could call it that, more insecure I geuss than anything else, I had the misfortune of knowing what she was like before I came along and I was the kind who sends sex texts to random guys, jury's still out on wether or not she doing it behind my back, the stupid bitch gave me her old phone without deleting her saved messages >.> she was such a bitch about it too when I confronted her about it, usually when girls are like that it means there hiding something.

Surprisingly she wasn't the jealous type.... So she said, didn't come across that way at times though, your ex sounds a little over the top though but you were mature and accepted it, I bet we both accepted so much ****ed up **** to be with them yet they expected us to be perfect 24/7, there was a 5 year age difference between us and man you could really tell expect it felt like I acted older than I am and she acted younger than she is, I e never had a problem within commitment and never felt like I was missing out on anything, I was jut so happy with everything me and her had, just a shame she had to go and be all messed up in the head, it's not the first time she's messed me around but it is the last time, I shouldn't of ever let there be a for time, probably the reason she takes me for granted, if she ever came back I wouldn't give her the opportunity to ever do it again, if your ex came back, would you take her back?.

May 14, 2013

I miss you and I don't know why. I gave you everything. I gave you all of me. I gave you more than I had ever given anyone else. I tried so hard to help you. I tried so hard to make things perfect but once one problem was gone, another would arise.

I remember all the bad things and there were so many but all I can think of are the good things and how any of the bad stuff could still be fixed even though I know they can't because I already tried so so many times.

I remember finding out about other girls. I remember what it felt like when I found out you slept with your ex. I remember what it felt like when I found out you were lying to me. I remember what it felt like to be ignored when I was standing right there. How you would curl up into a ball, or cover yourself with a blanket or go as far as to crawl under your futon mattress. I remember how every time I tried to calmly and quietly bring up an issue I was having and you immediately getting irritated with me. You'd be sarcastic and and then get so mad that you would break stuff, throw stuff, put your head through the wall. Or you'd start with your crocodile tears. You'd cover your face and it would really seem as if you were just sobbing but there was never any tears. It would make me feel bad and stop talking about my needs and tried to help you feel better.

I don't know if there is something wrong with you or you just acted that way because you truly did not like me but was with me for some other reason other than love but either way I didn't deserve it. I put so much of me into this relationship. Trying to fix it. Trying to make it better. Tried so hard to make you happy that I ended up hating myself.

The worst part about it all is you don't care. You blame me. You call me abusive and say that I'm killing you. You've always loved playing the victim. You never cared when I cried. You never cared when you hurt me. You said sorry all the time but I honestly feel like it was to shut me up. To get out of the problem as quickly as possible. You don't care that I'm left feeling like nothing. That all that effort broke me because none of it mattered to you. I was always honest, faithful and there for you no matter what and none of it matters to you.

You tell everyone you know that I'm a crazy bitch and they believe you. And maybe I am now but it's because you drove me there and I let you. I wasn't strong enough to walk away because I always thought I loved you and that you loved me and that we could get through anything but I was so very wrong. You get to have fun and laugh. Date and flirt with anything that shows you the slightest bit of attention and I get to be sad and depressed. Feeling worthless and pulling every little bit of strength I have to just get out of bed. It's not fair. It's never been fair.

Even with most of our relationship being crap I still wish I could be with you and I guess that means there is something wrong with me. I almost don't even care because I can't stand the way I feel right now. I can't stand trying to fill the void because I have nothing to fill it with right now.

May 14, 2013

Despite everything, I still love you, I still miss you, that won't change, I just you would, I was all ready to marry you and be the happiest man alive for the rest of my life, you meant the world to me and I would never have left you, why couldn't the feelings have been mutual?, I geuss I was just a joke to you, nothing more than someone passing by, I hope you regret this one day .

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