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[intigo]

I accepted my mistakes you didnt,i said sorry you didnt. We could make it work all you had to do was trust me and love me. You dont know what love is you are just a child, you have daddy issues and you are spoiled. If you love me you wouldnt jump into a new RS. You made me feel like you cheated i dont even know why i want you back maybe i just miss holding you and smelling your hair. You wanted my love, you asked for my love, where the **** are you now? **** you **** him i really care about you but you dont deserve it. You said i made you insecure if that was true why on earth would i be chasing you for over a month to reconcile?todaay i woke up again thinking about you and him together it didnt hurt like the days before. Im walking slowly but away from you. hope you crush and burn in your new RS, i hope i see you cry i hate you i dont ever want to see you happy. I can revenge anytime i want i have your ****ing messages. I want to hear you cry on the phone like last time that would make feel sooo good.I just want to stop loving you.

[acatinsane]

Hey F.

 

Yeah you still have my fan and I want it back.

 

Are you unhappy yet? No? Oh, give it time. That traveling is gonna be wonderful, I bet you'll certainly enjoy it. How's the sex? None? Well I'd like to say it's gonna get better but...

 

You have hope, I have faith. Mine is more powerful than yours. 8 years darling, 8 years. Good things come to those who wait.

 

Also I'm going to the gym. May 11th will come soon enough. If I were you I'd be dreading that day.

[ChazzB]

this is ****ing absurd... why do i still care about you. I have this love-hate mix. I love you so much, i want you to be happy, you are still someone important, valuable to me. But i hate that you don't care, i hate you for not doing things "right", for not being honest, for treating me like a piece of ****, and for being such yourself... i told you once, you were behaving like a bitch. and what happened? you got mad. even though you had cursed me so much before, and acted all snug and ****... **** that...

 

i was yours, i really was, i made my mistakes but i learned and i was ready for everything with you, and i knew i was not going to give up, that i would be yours forever, until we died, or , as it happened, until you destroyed me.

 

And i don't want to put myself in the victim's shoes. i am a victim of myself. of not acting / realizing / letting go sooner. it's mostly my fault for not moving on. for giving you the chance to show all your lack of love, your low side.

 

you are who you are, you are free to act how you want. your morality is warped, you have abandoned who you were with me, and you are not the person that i used to cherish and love. i don't know what tomorrow holds for us. but i know that, even if it hurts me, even if i want it so bad, i can't be with you. because the pain is greater, much greater, and you, it seems, will never make it right again...

[Jingle14]

Just to add, you could afford to give your ex a settlement of £350k+ (on top of the monthly maintenance for your brat) and earn more than double my - then - salary of £17,000 and yet you were still happy for me to pick up the tab when we went out. In fact, we only went out when it was 'my treat, I'll pay' after you pleaded poverty due to the spiralling legal costs of your divorce from that money grabbing bitch. I never asked for a penny off you - what a change, eh, after years of you being sponged off?! You even dumped me over Champagne I was - yet again! - paying for and then left me to pay for our hotel bill, standing there all red faced and puffy eyed in front of the receptionist who asked if we'd enjoyed our stay. Shame on you, you have no shame, or conscience.

 

Odd too, that you always had money to go for meals with your (female - I never minded either, yet your ex went mental at your having them) friends, going out to a place where the steak (which you told me you had) costs £18. You're a cold hearted wanker, may God forgive you because I never will.

 

Oh, and as evil as I know it sounds - but you deserve it - at least I bred a good looking child! I doubt that ginger mismatch of you and the gold digger will ever be chasing the model agency scouts off!

Edited April 25, 2013 by Jingle14

[ttoona]

I miss you. I want to know what went wrong.

Why did you have to be so good to me and then break up with me?? What went wrong!!!

[Riiighteous]

It's pretty weird once you reach a point where the anger moves to a sort of melancholy state. I am fully aware of my strengths and weaknesses, and know now that I cannot allow poisonous thoughts to enter mind, because you are a really bad person. I know that life is better without you, despite all the games you threw at me.

 

It's just strange. The things I struggled with for over a year...now I can say, i'm not strong enough to deal with that, and would rather completely forget the past. I am happy to say that naturally with time, I do forget more and more things. I also am human enough to admit that I avoid things and places that stir up memories because I see absolutely no point in walking down memory lane. All of that is destroyed now.

 

I unknowingly did such things in the past, and just failed to remember that time does heal all things. Also ignorance truly is bliss, and the day I decided you were dead to me, I made it my own closure.

[targaryen]

I wish I hadn't left it so damn long to get in touch with you; I was too proud, and convinced you just wouldn't reply, and didn't want you to know that I was missing you. And when I found the courage all I could do was suggest a coffee. Knowing full well that you won't accept. Now, I can barely find it in me to phrase the things I want to tell you in actual words..The best I can do is a prosaic list of regrets and yearnings...hopefully you'll understand just how much you mean to me, and how much your loss has affected me...Here it is

 

I wish....

I could stop looking for you in other girls and getting disappointed when you're not there

I could stop having dreams involving you twice a month, bringing me back from the precipice of letting you go

We could have sex one last time .. and that we had more of it when I had time..

That no contact actually worked for moving on. Yet I can't get over it, even though it shouldn't be taking this long.

I could understand what I did wrong. and why you left me. I mean really understand.

I knew if you thought of me since you left and if you miss me at all.

I could block the movies and music and anything that is intrinsically you from my life

I could stop people telling me about you and bringing you up. I wish there was a way to forget you for a few years until the regret goes away.

I wasn't writing this email

That I took you to Disneyland, that amazing restaurant we never got around to visiting again, made you breakfast in bed, lived with you in London

I could invite you to my housewarming party now that I'm finally moving out

I could leave this island now, so I don't have to remember you just because you were in a certain place

I could stop thinking about you with other guys

I could actually understand what I can learn from losing you and avoid doing the same mistakes again in the future if I ever find someone else

That instead of thinking about it I did actually turn up at your door one night and kissed you without saying a word.

I wish I left you as soon as we had the first discussion about your doubts, or at least once you told me you didn't want me in London with you.

I could cry instead of feeling empty

I could tell you that I hate you, but I miss you and still love you

I understood how you can be OK with never talking to me and seeing me again.

That we didn't take away each other's virginity.

I had admitted to you that I almost cheated on you 9 months into the relationship so you wouldn't feel so bad about doing the same later on,,,,

I could stop thinking about the little things you do/did ("but why?")

I could actually feel like 3 months have passed instead of feeling like it happened yesterday, it's all just a bad misunderstanding, and you'll be texting me asking for pringles any second.

I wish I could have celebrated the end of your Masters with you

 

 

The worst thing is not that I can't talk to you anymore. It's that you want it this way.

 

Goodbye

[CaliforniaGirl80]

Friday's here. I'll be seeing you today. I have so much going on in my mind right now. I always get like this when I hear new things from you. Wanting to clear the air. Wanting you to explain all of it away. It never happened. This time I will NOT try to figure something out. I have to accept that I will never get closure from you. I can never control what is going to come out of your mouth. I will never hear what I want to hear especially because I don't even know what I want to hear from you. The only person I have control over is ME! And that is the person who will look you in the eyes and is going to be strong while doing it. I remember one time when I felt some peace and you were shocked at how certain and strong I was. You lured me back in after that but now I won't be lured in anymore. I am this strong new person and I am not going to comfort you if you finally feel you really, really, really lost me. I just can't. You have to finally realize and feel that it is over. You won't get ME anymore..Ever. I won't be heartbroken when I already know you are not interested. You are interested in the way this silly cheerleader has made you feel. I am not your cheerleader anymore. Try to find that kind of support from your ex. A woman like me deserves more. I hope I will make you feel all of this. I hope to God. Because only then will I feel and realize that I am capable of not letting your energy have power over me. That I have to be capable of hurting your feelings. Maybe this will make you apologize. Finally. I would love that. But if you don't. I'll be cool. And most importantly..GONE!

Edited April 26, 2013 by CaliforniaGirl80

[intigo]

I wished i could hear you cry and it happened you called yesterday and you cried you said i cant forgive you i just cant. You called again at night with a ****y excuse and you said you are in pain. You dont know what pain is. I asked you if theres anything i can do to make you happy and you said you cant. Then what to hell do you want from me? Ten days NC and you broke it twice in a day. I dont have the power to say leave me alone because i ****ing love you to my bones but just make up your mind. I learnt that you havent decided if you want to start something with the new guy. But what am i to you? tell him you are in pain hes waiting for you. I thought ten days ago was the last time we spoke and now this. Will you call me again? What will you say to me?Do i have to wait for something for a miracle?At least i know you are thinking about me and killed your pride by calling. I really dont know where this is going i thought it was dead but you keep giving me breadcrumbs. Ten days now i was waking up thinking about you two together and now this, you made me happy yesterday but i am sure you are gonna kill me again. I still love you stupid bitch.

[intigo]

I wish you call me again tonight and say that you want to be with me.

[alittlejaded]

Last couple of days I have felt in a fog. I wish I knew how to turn this off. I am so tired of feeling this way and not being able to really move on with my life. Am I an acquaintance? An old friend? A back pocket girl? A plan B? I know the answer, just hate how it sounds.

 

The last time I saw you, all I wanted was for you to let down your guard and speak the truth. Good or bad, I needed to hear it. I begged you for closure and you couldn't give me that. I spoke from the heart because I was tired of playing this chess game with you. I feel like we both acted like this is no big deal for too long. Well I am done pretending. Here is your Truth:

 

You were my first love. You were my everything. We were so young, it was bound to end. We were too immature to handle what went on between us. We shouldn't have started talking years later. We both allowed this to go to a place we should have never gone. My heart became invested in the relationship. You pulled back emotionally but still have contact with me. There it is.

 

I wanted to go NC, delete your number, etc and asked you to do the same. You had an out at that point--why did you not take it? You continued to text me. It has been a while since we last saw each other. You want me to ask you to see me. You hint at things but just won't come out and say it. You hinted that you had a dream that I asked to see you. Why can't you just come out and say that you would like to see me?

 

I won't ask you again. As hard as it is, I won't text you again even if I have to write here every night. I pray that I fall in love with someone else.

[eachcomingnight]

Hey you.

It's been about a month now. I've stopped keeping track of the days which I think is helpful. My life doesn't revolve around you, after all.

 

I've had a great weekend filled with friends and adventures. I hardly thought about you when I was with them. In the in-between spaces, I am always thinking about you - but it doesn't hurt the way it did before. They are just thoughts, just there. I'm not trying to fight them, because I know they will pass in time. I am re-training my brain, after all. I think about you because I have been thinking about you for the past two years -- in a positive way. It takes more than a month to re-learn those patterns.

 

I am confident now that my life will go on, and it will be wonderful, just as it was before you came into the picture. I am already pretty awesome as I am but I am using this as an inspiration to make myself even better and to open myself up to new opportunities and influences.

 

I do still think that you are a wonderful person and I have done my best to understand your decision. I would probably still be open to trying again, if you reached out soon enough. But I know, if you are to change your mind, it needs to be on your own terms and in your own time. Until then, I will stay in my own world, one that seems to be drifting farther each day from yours.

 

xx

[TheBladeRunner]

Hey "J", just wanted to drop you a line to tell you that you are a selfish pig. I have not seen my daughter for five nights. You thought nothing when you had your affairs that killed our marriage. I don't miss you, you are an a#$Hole, but I do miss being with my daughter every night.

[lop98]

I saw that picture of you.. and where you took her. To the place you kept asking me to go with you when you knew I couldn't go. Good move there, whoever tags along I see.

 

My friends say you look ugly in the picture and ask me how could I be into you. I saw you in that picture and thought you've never looked more handsome. I feel like a drug addict when it comes to you, completely delusional.

 

I'm now officially going out with this guy I met the day after the storm. We like the same things, chase the same things, come from the same place, are moving to similar places too, work out... why does it not feel perfect?.. why are you such a mess and such a jerk and such a selfish d*ck and I still can't stop thinking about you? I hate you, I want you to come and hug me, to open up again, I wouldn't hurt you, I'd take care of you... I can't believe you chickened out so much... I didn't dream of this, it happened and it was as real for me as it was for you, why did you decide to bury it all down and move on? we're not that young anymore, life is short....

 

.... the worst part is that I know you'll get her pregnant. I can see in your eyes you're so determined to move on that way. Putting into practice every single thing you talked to me about.

[reckoned]

Am stuck in the past. Am clinging to a memory- an idea, an immortalized ghost of a man who once bore your name and wore your clothes. I don't know why he haunts me. I miss him. I wonder about the man you have become. I wonder if you are happier than you were when I knew you.

 

Do not underestimate the impact you had on a life.

 

X

[Jingle14]

Am stuck in the past. Am clinging to a memory- an idea, an immortalized ghost of a man who once bore your name and wore your clothes. I don't know why he haunts me. I miss him. I wonder about the man you have become. I wonder if you are happier than you were when I knew you.

 

Do not underestimate the impact you had on a life.

 

X

 

^^ this. Every bit of it.

[Alderaan]

I apologize if I seemed too desperate to keep our relationship even though you are at this time not capable of keeping it healthy and being a good boyfriend. I understand now, your mind is torn between the million things going on at the same time in your life. I wish you all the best of luck in your work because you're amazing and brilliant, and I glad you said it's nothing you can't handle.

 

Go out there and do your magic. I'll be fine, somehow.

[IS IT Better late]

I really can't believe this. In 5-months you turned my whole world upside down. I've never missed anyone like this before. I hate it, I hate the way I feel. I want to be happy again. I want you out of my head. I have work to do but I can't concentrate.

 

How did this happen? Why am I so messed up today? Go Away!!

 

Or comeback... and be the girl I met. God Damn!!

[Jingle14]

I hate that you've robbed me of my love of daffodils, of blue skies and birds singing, of blossom in the trees, of spring. I used to rejoice in all that, now they are daggers in the heart and reminders of 'us'.

[acatinsane]

You contradicted yourself yesterday all the time! Couldn't speak clear, and explain why you were doing these things and yet you say your mind has never been clearest. I wonder if you know she's going on a master's program far away. I'm so worried of what you might do. If you go it'll be hell to bear but better eventually. Malcolm says you'll be alone, cause he went through that, and he is generally right about this sort of stuff. Well, I just pray to God you'll start acting like a grown up soon enough, and I'll move on if I am meant to. If you can be with me and I can still save you, bless it then. If not, I'm terribly sorry about it.

[bitterruin]

I don't understand why you scoff every time you pass by me on campus. It's very unbecoming and rude. All it really does is make you seem immature and shows me that my decision to end things with you was the right one. I hope I never have to deal with you again, no matter how much I miss and love you.

[Alderaan]

Day 5 since break up.

 

I apologize if I seemed too desperate to keep our relationship even though you are at this time not capable of keeping it healthy and being a good boyfriend. I understand now, your mind is torn between the million things going on at the same time in your life. I wish you all the best of luck in your work because you're amazing and brilliant, and I glad you said it's nothing you can't handle.

 

Go out there and do your magic. I'll be fine, somehow.

 

But you know what though? You should be ashamed of yourself for apparently having decided our relationship has to end weeks before you actually told me. And all this time you were saying how honest and straightforward you are. Yeah breaking up with someone takes guts and it's not easy. But how could you leave me waiting and wondering in the dark what's going on and not tell me that you're not ready for a relationship anymore right now.

 

First you avoided me, then lied about not having the time to tell me why, rejected my affection, kept me in the dark after indicating our relationship is hitting troubled waters, even though you knew how much it hurt. And I can't help but feel that you would have stalled even longer if I hadn't asked you to tell me what's going on in your mind.

 

It makes me question whether it's even true that your strong feelings for me, which you gave me no reason to doubt before, are still there as you said when you broke up with me.

 

Yet at the same time I can imagine why you handled it this way. Your life became a mess and everyone is expecting excellence of you. I know. Maybe you just went some kind of irrational chicken and were drawing a blank about how to tell me that you needed to fix yourself and your life too, and our relationship had to take a back seat.

 

I understand. But I am so so angry now. At you, at myself, at my mind, at everything.

 

You shattered everything that we built. And I love you. And I miss you.

[Skipper888]

hey baby... we are never going to get back together unless one if us changes or you want to.. you love your life at the moment and that is great..what we are doing is just going to keep on going it will never end.. so we have to end it all together .. im not happy being the person i am at the moment, im fragile, insecure and crazy lol, i want to be that confident, fun, loving person i always have been and the guy you fell in love with and im not going to be that person when we arnt committed to one another...its obvious you dont want me otherwise you would be with me and tell me you want me and u would respond to my flirtyness and be your natural sexual self that you have always been.. its little things like that, that i miss the most and makes me realise that we are apart and you probably have someone else who u are like that with.

 

You mean the world to me you literally do.. i have never loved someone so much in my life even after all we have been through.. but i also never thought you could hurt me as much as you have.. You were my sweet innocent baby girl who loved me to death then u changed into someone who i cant trust with my heart anymore cause you really dont care about me, you dont tell me whats going on or how you feel about me.. Trust me i know whats going on... your talking to a guy who was once playing you .. Its easy to ignore someone for hours on end and to not give a **** about how they feel when you dont get a **** yourself .. if you cared you would be loving and caring and understanding not a heartless selfish person who even after you told me you kissed someone u still managed to put the blame back on me and you never even said sorry for doing it.

 

When a person loves someone and wants to be with them they usually want to show that person. You broke up with me first, came back and said we need to take things slow and then broke things off again. You then came back again and didnt tell me anything about what was happening or your intentions.. we spent a weeken with your family where we both acted like we were back together.. then you went distant again and went away with your friends partying.. all the while i had no idea what you were doing and made

me go crazy.. U probably blame this on me but you take no responsibility for causing arguments.. you leave me in the dark with all this emotion to juggle myself, then expect me to act normal like nothing is wrong when everything is.

Im afraid to ask you questions and talk to u about us in fear of losing progress we have made and in fear that you will ignore me for hours on end making me question myself even more.

 

I asked you yesterday if you had kissed anyone and you said yes.. You then tried to get made at me when i was ignoring you cause i was hurt so much, and since you have me wrapped around your little finger of course i was like oh it doesnt matter, yet i told u i was texting someone n u didnt speak to me

for 3 days which at the end of you broke things of for a 2nd time.

 

I just sent you a good morning msg in hope that things were forgiving yesterday. Its been an hour and still havent received a reply when i know for a fake you have been up for over an hour, been for a jog and

now on your way to work. You just ignore me cause you really dont care and i need to do the same, except i cant cause the truth is i actually care about ppl i love.. which proves to me you only love me when it suits you.

[soifnaegvbaoeaiegoaobgaiou]

Dear N. Get bent. You are a manipulative, evil little girl. You led me to believe we had no issues whatsoever, and all of a sudden I'm "treating you like a friend." But yet, another reason for leaving me was because I was smothering you? Make up your mind. Instead of stringing me along for two weeks, only to finally force me to give you an ultimatum and have you tell me you don't believe I can change, why not just dump me to begin with?

 

Oh, because that would require you to have a spine, and you've never stood up for anything in your life, because it's so much easier to get everyone else to do it for you.

 

Did I get a chance to fix the perceived issues we had? No. Because why? Because you evidently got bored, AGAIN. And instead of talking to me about it, and trying to fix it, you just vanish until I give up.

 

At least this time I know how your damn breadcrumbs work. Even as I was DEMANDING that you leave me alone and quit texting me, that's when, of course, you'd contact me more than you had in days. "I love you." Bull****. You love me when it's convenient.

 

So, once again, get bent. Enjoy your nowhere life, with your nowhere friends, with your dead end future, because all any other guy will do is enable your laziness.

[lop98]

First night in a while that I allow myself to cry for an as(hole like you. Tomorrow is May. Another month. Do you miss me? do you never want to hear from me again? you're so cruel... I know you'll come around, but I will never allow myself to forgive you for all this pain and agony I've been in since you decided I was a liar and didn't deserve to be in your life. I never lied to you about my feelings, they were as sincere as I could, I had trust issues and you know all the reasons... you gave me barely a month to work through them, that's how deep your love was, you're the one that lied to me, led me on, kept me around waiting when you had planned nothing for me, all bulls(it, you're the most selfish motherf.cker I've ever known and the biggest disappointment I've had in my life so far, and by far. I miss you and yet I only hope for karma, I hope I don't have to feel this way for someone as low as you are.