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[Heart broken belle]

I'm broken, I'm devastated, I can't believe you broke up with me, it's been 3 weeks you haven't called, how could younjust drop me like what we had never mattered wow!,,,,, I was so there for you, towards the end , you detached and treated me like ****. You were my first sex, my first real relationship, I know I will heal but wow! Were together so long how couldnyou just have no contactnwith me I gavenyou unconditional love, my body my mind my soul, you just through it in the trash, and then you were mean about it, you been wanting to break up for a long time instead you putndistance between us then you broke upnwith me over the phone like a coward, I know I will get through this, but inwill never trust you again , when I gavenyou thatnexspensive Xmas gift you knewnthen younwanted to break upnwithmme insteadnyou took it anyway, and didn't give me nothing in return, then you broke up with me, was there when you had nothing but in the end you treated me like the plague, I'm broken I'm hurt, but in will make it. When your feelingnchanged toward me you should haventold me instead you keptmme around to use me because you knewni loved you, but younwill pay because what goes around comes around, yourmprobley living with a woman, I wish you the best, in the meantime me and my friends on this forum will be healing our hearts, we will survive and the love of all of ourmlives, inforgave you when you miss my college graduation, when you were mean and un supportive, when you were detox,when you didn't haven**** then you turn around and do me like this, I'm getting angry, but you will pay, some one is going to donyou justnlike you did me, I forgive you and I know I will heal, all your friends are happy now you can drink with them do drugs, sale drugs with no one to pray for you or no one to ask you to call and say good night, I'm rid of you, I'm free, now all I have to do is heal

[Heart broken belle]

I'm so sorry for your pain

[Heart broken belle]

I know how you feel I wouldn't wish this pain on no one

[sweetkiwi]

I dream of you almost every night. It is always so lovely. Last night I dreamt you were in my bed and we were laughing under the covers. I was so sad when I realized it was a dream. And I know today I am not strong enough to stay away from you.

 

I may have to leave the country to keep myself away. In a few hours I will be with you. You holding me. I will look at you and you will see all the love I have written lain as day in my eyes. And you will feel- ? What do you feel? When I look at you it is so obvious that I only want your love. My heart yearns for you with the heat of a thousand stars.

 

You are still my everything A.

[NoMoreJerks]

*hugs*

Try to distract yourself. Sometimes, your tears aren't worth it for the person who can't make you smile. Come on now. Cheer up, okay?

 

Hope everyone else in this thread gets some moments of peace and feel better soon.

Thanks. It's so hard. His breadcrumb text set me back so much. I hadn't read his break-up texts in 3 weeks and now I am back to reading them and crying. I know he's not worth my tears, but I can't help it. In 3 days it will be a month since he broke up with me. I am still in shock. I'm so mad at the fact that he gave me the cold shoulder for a full day before he broke up with me. I should've ended it myself, right then and there. I regret that I wasn't the one to end this. Instead, he acted like *I* wasn't good enough for *him*, when HE was not good enough for ME.

[NoMoreJerks]

I am in a terrible shape right now. I just burst out crying, while preparing lunch. I don't know what it is. I can't put my finger on it. For the first time since this break-up, I can't even understand why I am crying. I tried analyzing myself, but I don't know what's wrong with me, why I'm crying. I think so far, this is the worst day since the break-up. I just feel like I don't have anything more to analyze. I've thought it all out, I know it's over, etc. But I just keep crying, and I have NO IDEA WHY.

[Rekerdz]

i went to a party where my ex was drunk and all touchy with men then infront of me i see her grinding some guy i know so off course i go all crazy broke a glass cut my hand punched a wall i guess i was a bit drunk then told her not do any of this infront of me and to show me sum respect anyways i talked to the guy without beating the **** out of him nd he told me she's the one running after him that he loves sum girl i have not idea i guess he didn't want to piss me off but i can't get the image of them hugging dirty dancing nd all that **** plus i pushed a friend of hers and was about to punch him when he told me to move on who the hell is he to tell me to move on so eventually got kicked out of the club and my ex calls me the day after asking me why i pushed her friend and that i need to understand that we're done and so on what pisses me off is that she's turning into a slut and i was her first as in sex nd now she's all different does drugs hangs around guys all a bit too friendly i hate it but at least i got see who she truly is a part of me hopes she feels sum guilt in the future for what she's doing but watev i need to move on

[Mcnulty]

I miss you, miss your self depreceating sense of humour, your touch, your smile and guffawing laugh...I miss you. But want to thank you for letting us be the friends we are now, supportive and funny together, we still are. The love we have will never dissipate, i know that now and that's beautiful. I moaned and cried on here when you left me for my mate, you were so damned right to do that, i was a jerk, but you came back in a different form, thank you. Forgiveness is the biggest emotion for me and I'm proud to have you as a friend.

 

You will heal physically, as will I and hopefully we can come out the other side, smiling and thankful for what we have in life. We can never be lovers again, this I know in my heart and head, but ye know...I'm okay with that, maybe we've found something a little deeper, thank you honey.

[NoMoreJerks]

ive been crying on and off all day. what a terrible day. i did nothing today other than cry. the worst part is that i can't even tell my family and friends about how i feel, because for the past month, i've been pretending i was feeling great and was actually feeling more or less ok ,especially the past week and a half. and now it's back to square 1.i can't handle this setback. something snapped i n my head today, and id ont care about anythign anymore. i love you too much to be able to move on. no one will understand , but it's ok. take care of yourself. i hope you will find happiness and put your demons to rest.

[ladyabstrused]

Thanks. It's so hard. His breadcrumb text set me back so much. I hadn't read his break-up texts in 3 weeks and now I am back to reading them and crying. I know he's not worth my tears, but I can't help it. In 3 days it will be a month since he broke up with me. I am still in shock. I'm so mad at the fact that he gave me the cold shoulder for a full day before he broke up with me. I should've ended it myself, right then and there. I regret that I wasn't the one to end this. Instead, he acted like *I* wasn't good enough for *him*, when HE was not good enough for ME.

 

NMJ, check your inbox. Please feel better. I hope you will soon. *hugs*

[Njeanne]

My love... My heart still misses you... We have never gone this long without talking... Please, give us another chance... We can rekindle the love you had for me... I miss you so much my little rath...

 

I know I made mistakes in our relationship..., and I promise if you gave me another chance I will change. I will prioritize you, I quit the hobby that kept me four evenings away from you. I will be less insecure about myself, I'll do whatever I can to make you happy. You are my first relationship, I need to learn too... Learn the hard way about loosing you. :'(

[Minadee]

Dear J.

You are an absolute tool.

You KNOW how much pain I am in with my hip condition. You saw my fb status, don't act like you didnt, and you still havn't texted me asking if i'm okay. You say you care about me and the bub but you don't. I am having a very hard time coping with this pain management, and I know I lean on you and sometimes I shouldnt, but you said you were with me and going to support me.

 

Well go to hell. You can't sit there and say texting me saying "You Ok?" once a day is "supporting me" because it isnt! I am the mother of your child, get your priorities straight!!!!

 

/rant

[Njeanne]

I should be sleeping at the moment, but again you are on my mind... I keep thinking where it all went wrong... You were so different during break up, it killed me inside...

 

What changed in October for you to fall out of love with me? My hobby started, I spend a lot of time on it, so yes I spend less time on you but is that really a start to fall out of love? Did you get bored completely? No matter what you were happier when I wasn't around, and now to think off everytime I asked to spend time with me you had excuses... like sleeping entire day, or someone came to house...

 

Please Rikard, what did go wrong? I can't stand it anymore... I thought doing No Contact would kill me, but it doesn't at all. Just knowing I'll never hear your voice again or see you smile again is killing me slowly.

 

My head is hurting so much at the moment, I should learn to stop crying...because I know you aren't for me. I wish we could fix it, I want you back so much...

 

You said being friends would be impossible... You said you were hurting so much from things you said. You started drinking to get yourselves slightly drunk...

 

RIKARD PLEASE GIVE US ANOTHER CHANCE!!!!

[coffeeloverx]

I'm sorry I emailed you. I was weak and missed you. You won't respond. So, I'm not worried but I don't know.

 

Ignore it please.

[sharsh]

Patrick.. This is f*cked up. For real. You wouldn't leave me alone, you kept texting me, saying you wanted to see me, and after two days straight of this, I caved.

 

I let you came over, and we talked forever, I know. I thought about your new girlfriend the entire time, and wondered if you had done this to me too... You kept telling me how much you miss me, telling me you think about getting back together with me, it's always on your mind.. how you would run away with me, start new. I tried to be strong the entire time. I held back so many tears, all the while you kept kissing me, and trying to cuddle with me.. I returned none of your kisses, you didn't care. Why do you do this to me?

 

You are no good. You can't be faithful, can you? You say you were faithful to me, but this just adds more proof that you probably weren't...

 

You toying with my emotions with the stuff you were saying... ugh... it made me so mad.. I'm sorry I got spiteful... I am.. I f*cked up. But I shouldn't feel this way. After all you put me through, I shouldn't care that now you hate me for what I did... I should be happy that you're out of my life... but I keep thinking how I probably really ruined it this time.

 

I let the sex happen, only because I had bad intentions... I showed your new girlfriend all our texts, and you admitting to having sex with me that night... I knew you would be mad. I just wanted to hurt you. Instead, I think I only hurt myself. I shouldn't be so upset over you. But I keep playing your voicemail over in my head.. "I hate your fu*king guts. I hope you die. Never contact me again."... I want to apologize. Even though it seems so silly to apologize. I want to apologize for being so spiteful. I want you to forgive me. I don't want to be on bad terms with you... I really don't.

 

Even though you did a lot of shi*ty things to me, I forgave you for all of them.. You were such a significant part in my life.. and by doing this, I feel like I've ruined everything... Why do I feel this way..? If I apologized... would you just have your girlfriend text me again?...Would you accept? I hate this. I wish I could just forget about you.

 

I don't know what to do... I should just leave the thought of you behind, but something is holding me back..

[Vander77]

I don't know what to do... I should just leave the thought of you behind, but something is holding me back..

 

My ex played with my head for 3 years. Every single time we broke up she would text me or call me after about a month or so and want to "hang out". Which led to sex of course and an attachment. Contrary to popular belief it meant more to me than it did to her. As a 35 yr. old man I finally realized that I was like a fish on the end of a line. She would reel me in, and then slowly let me back out at her convenience.

 

Don't be someone else's fallback option. Be their first and only choice. He used you much like my ex used me...at their convenience. From another man to you, a woman, he's trying to have his cake and eat it too. Stop letting him. Don't answer texts, emails, facebook msgs. etc. That's what I've had to do even though I miss and still love my ex-gf. While she's out bangin other guys, she tells me she's not going anywhere...riiiight like I was born yesterday....put it this way if the one you were with isn't sleeping in your bed, they probably are sleeping in someone else's, and in your case you know this to be true.

 

Find someone that will put you first and foremost. You're a very beautiful girl, by looking at your profile picture, and I'm sure there are plenty of MEN, not boys out there that will treat you the way you deserve to be treated.

[Njeanne]

I am not a believer in god, nor any type of religion... Why am I praying every night in my bed to myself hoping we would have another chance? I know where we went wrong, and I know you were hurting too at breaking up with me...

 

Rikard, please close your eyes think back to the time we first met, the moment we both confessed, everything. You teaching me your language, and me teaching mine to you.

 

I know your feelings are still there, deep inside you... you just have to find it... You were more in love with me then I was with you, I know that. It is my fault why you were loosing your feelings, I should never have started doing that other thing that kept me away from you for four evenings a week. You became bored, because you had nothing to do at your computer while I was raiding.

 

Hon...I should've prioritized you... I neglected you, you became bored...and you grew apart from me.

 

Please give us another chance, I quit that part of my life, I will follow you wherever you go.

[Vander77]

So you post a picture of the diamond necklace on Instagram??? For what purpose?? And then say how you really love it with xoxoxoxo at the end of your sentence!! You know I would see this and yet you do this why?? Oh because you want me to hang around and wait until you're ready...if ever. Well here's a big F U!!! I will not be your default option any longer. Go find someone else that will put up with all of your childish BS. Sad that at 30 years old you still act like you're 15....

[Njeanne]

Sigh, what is wrong with me crying every single evening... I know now what made you fall out of love with me, I am sure of it... Nurturing a relationship, specially a long distance one is hard... I should never have started playing that specific mmo you didn't like. I should have grabbed your wrist and told you "let's go play that one that you like" we would've still been together to this day.

 

Me raiding four evenings a week for those two months, now looking back I prioritized that game over you...that is just how it makes me feel.

 

I am so sorry Rikard... We were happy when we were playing GW2...talking about future, teaching each other languages... then I went to Wow and it all gradually stopped...

 

Please...I am sorry...

I am so sorry!!!!!!

 

Please, please, please, you should've told me... You were my first serious relationship, not a fling, I can't stand this anymore I want YOU back!!!

 

I love you so much...

[Gingerxr2]

It's been 4 months with no contact and in this time I believe I have become a better person , I understand that the reasons that we split up was we treated each other like crap and this is also mainly because we really didn't want to say what we was feeling !

 

I really should of said that I love you with all my heart and thank you for everything that you did for me no matter how small , I should of made more time for you and showed you that I adored you !

 

I know that you fell out of love with me and the fact that you had to control everything in your life including me , but for me that isn't showing someone you love them , or going out with another bloke isn't right !! I may not be perfect and I may not of shown you correctly how I felt , but I tried to show you I loved you , but clearly not enough !

 

I can forgive you for how you turned on me when we split and how you have gone no contact , and changing your number , blocking me from Facebook , and ignoring every message and cry for some sort of contact , but the one thing I can never forgive Is the fact you never gave me a reason for dumping me after five years , I know it would have been hard for anybody but to leave someone you love , questioning everything and feeling lost while you go out enjoying life is just heartless .

 

I hope that one day this doesn't happen to you , because it's the worse the in my life , but I have to move on and I can sleep well boing you will never see this and get the satisfaction of deleting my feelings .

Edited January 23, 2013 by Gingerxr2
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[CopingGal]

I'm so glad I moved away. Go on and stay there and continue to wreak havoc. I'm so far away from you. I don't google you. I don't check your facebook page. I feel very sorry for you. I can't imagine you having a good life with your many, many problems and your lack of conscious. You are pathetic.

[cavalier99]

Its been 4 month today since you told me over the phone while I was traveling that you talked to the new guy that "likes you" and you are pretty sure about ending things with me. We held on for like 10 days after that when i came back until the final goodbye.

 

I'm so mad that you made me miserable stringing me along. I knew that you were developing feeling for him even though you denied it. You treated me like **** the last month growing distant and especially not answering my calls when i was away. Who know if you were already f*cking him or not. I feel so pitiful that i held on those days after and didn't kick you to the curb. F*ck you bitch for playing with my emotions and not making a clean break. That part I'm not sure ill ever be able to forgive. And F*k me for letting you do it.

Edited January 23, 2013 by cavalier99

[baRx]

hey stupid,

 

don't bother me... okay? i'm busy with this 'life' thing i have going on. i don't have time for your retarded picture-messages of nothing.

 

i've got sh-t to do. go bother your boyfriend or fiance or whatever the hell he is or isn't or could be or wasn't.

 

-me.

[Njeanne]

I am quite proud of myself, I didn't knew what No Contact was till week after you broke up with me. I just automatically did so...why would I beg, plea for you to come back? Because it wouldn't make you love me again, you would do it only out of guilt.

 

It has been six weeks since the break up, 42 long days...

A girl get's a lot of thinking done during this time, unfortunate it is only in this time that I realised my mistake in the relationship. You were my first seriously boyfriend, and I made the number one mistake... I became comfortable in our relationship, so I figured I could do something extra on the side of fun for myself, but it it ended up making you feel horrible/unhappy and neglected.

 

We had less time to spend with one another, and in a ldr that is a crucial fact. You fell out of love with me because of this... I ruined a perfect boyfriend/relationship, and I'm not kidding. You were everything I wanted in a bf, smart, friendly, caring, loving, sexy, strong, never moody/angry/aggressive what more does a girl want?

 

We were good friends... first time I saw you on picture I was like "damn you're fine!!!" but I already had feelings before that, sadly they emerged after I had to reject you when you confessed too me. I remember that morning... You wanted to say something too me, but were afraid too. I said "tell me, tell me, tell me" over and over again. Then you confessed second time, and I was "oh, **** he still likes me" in my mind.

 

We were so happy together, so full of love, had future plans together, teaching each others language... We were playing mmo's together so we wouldn't seperate, but then I decided to go back to Wow, a game you dislike. I became serious in it, started raiding, you never logged on you were doing other things, waiting for me all time... I prioritized a ****ing game over you, but you never told me you were bored/neglected so I couldn't tell I was doing something wrong!!

 

Rikard, I made you fall out of love with me...

I can't ever fix it, because I lost you...

You never knew why you stopped loving me, only that you did...

I wish, dream for a second chance, but in my heart it say's I shall live with this guilt forever...my heart pains so much more now then after break up, because now I got less hope of you ever coming back too me because in your heart you'll remember me as a painfull episode... I quit that game now...if you gave me another chance it'll never be mentioned again... I still pray and cry every night for you to forgive my mistake, but since we are on nc you shall never know...

 

Rikard, I love you...

I am sorry for hurting you...

My first boyfriend and the most perfect one, I ruined with my inexperience...

 

I am sorry...

[Thaurin]

I know that you met him through a dating site. So I know you were looking around for other men while you were still with me. So I know you're a piece of ****. So I'm very glad you pissed the hell off and got out of my life.