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[Amelie1980]

I love him, I miss him, I can't live without him. I want to call him up and tell him I love him so. But I know it won't make any difference as you've told me you don't think you love me anymore. How could you want to face life without me knowing how much I love you. You loved me once surely you can love me again.

 

On the verge of contacting him, tell me not to.

[Follower]

After your RUDE intrusion back into my mind, you flipping troll i thought it would be good to let you know that i have an amazing new job where i get to stay in some of the finest hotels in the country get paid a ****ing fortune and you know what get complimented all the time by people around me about how good a person i am, how good at my job i am and frankly how good looking i am!

 

Funny where people can go when they are not being dragged down by an anchor, which you really really were an anchor you selfish **** of a person,

 

Now kindly stop trolling my thoughts and let me continue to move on and upwards in life!

[Missing Him]

You're an idiot. You admit to caring so much about me, and you just let me go. I'm ignoring your breadcrumbs. I'm ignoring all of the little messages of hope that you sent out to me that we might have a future because we DON'T have a future. You decided that the day that you broke up with me, whether you meant to or not.

 

You're such a short-sighted fool.

[msfreebyme]

Well this has thus far been one of the worst years of my life. But luckily the silver lining is that last year I was still so devoted to you, despite you destroying my life...and now I can confidently say and know that I am over you and have no feelings for you.

 

I post this because even if everything else has fallen apart, at least I did grow and move past you. I half laugh, half want to vomit at the thought of what a creep you are, and how you slut yourself around to any girl who gives you attention. I will always have that confidence and reassurance in knowing that i'm not another dumb bimbo, and I actually have the brain and the looks. I know that 10 of those won't ever make up for one of me. This is something I had to learn for myself, and I had to learn that you are a disturbed individual who will one day meet your demise, even if it isn't in this life.

 

So yes, everything else might be sad, gloomy and stressful, but it really is a good holiday because I am miles away from the mindset I had years ago. I never have to see you again, I never have to deal with the lies again, I never have to deal with the manipulation. There is no place, and no door for you to walk into my life again. I slammed that door shut, and it will forever be locked. This is on you, this is for you to warp in your head, and I will never forgive what you did to me. But I will forget you in general.

 

I literally came on here to write a post about my year. But you have just written the exact words that I most likely would have said, which blows my mind. I am sorry for your crappy year, your crappy experience, and all the crappy stuff that has happened to you. I am glad to see you have most likely grown from your experience as I have from mine. I hope your success continues. Happy Holidays =)

[Missing Him]

I'm talking to someone new. I don't know that I want too, though. I miss you. I want you. But you feel you need to explore being single, so I have no choice but to try to move on with my life. I don't know if you're talking to anyone new, or if you're missing me at all, or if you'd even care that I am - but I want to tell you so bad. Probably just to make you hurt as much as you've made me hurt. A part of me also feels like, if you saw that I was moving on - maybe you'd freak out and come back to me. Stupid of me. I wish every thought didn't revolve around you coming back to me. I can't wait until the day where I don't care if you do or don't.

[J-B]

I thought I was starting to let go of you. I knew you were moving on. Thought I was coming to peace with that. You deserve to be happy. I keep reminding myself that's what I want too. Tonight I heard yet more news that you are moving on. I know I will hear even more soon. It's unavoidable. If not for my conflict of interest, I would wholeheartedly support the pairing.

 

Maybe in the long run I will feel it was better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all. At the moment all I can feel is the pain of the loss - the knowing I am being replaced. What's worse is it was under my control - what felt like an impossible choice but from a situation I myself created.

 

You said you were coming to terms with things you can't control. I'm having trouble coming to terms with the things I can. I miss you so much. Less than 48 hours ago I thought I was ready to pick up and throw everything else away for you. Now that feels impossible. But so does continuing without you. I feel so goddamn passive in the whole thing.

 

Trying to hold on to a few things to keep my sanity. I want you to be happy. I remember when we parted... a shared sadness but also resolve. I remember our last contact - you said you still cared.

 

I can't bring myself to regret what we had. It was so beautiful and real. But maybe this is what holds me back. We said it would take breaking each other's hearts to move on. And we gave each other permission to do it.

 

My heart is breaking. Yours I've broken many times over. I'm sorry for that and for everything. I still love you and I think I always will. I hope some of that survives in you too, but doesn't stand in the way of your happiness. I write this here because I can't tell you "in real life".

 

-TRS

[quite.foolish]

oi you knob. don't get me in anymore frickin trouble!

 

It was only a fkin apology! fk sake. you're a twat!

 

Don't do it man. that's fked

[Harradin]

I was wondering whether you thought about me and whether you still 'think you made the right decision'. Well you never bothered to wish me a Merry Christmas, it does hurt. I still wish you knew how much I love you, and I guarantee that I would have bought you a far better Xmas present then him if you stayed. I always went the extra mile for you, and this is how you repay me, with silence.

 

Maybe you'll realise what a huge mistake you made, well if this was true love our paths will cross again but if they do, I promise I won't make it easy for you. And you know I never break my promises.

[Angel Heart]

What do you mean you don't know what your plans now that your kids are out of school for now? You can't find a minute to contact me; they're 24 hours in a day and you couldn't bother to acknowledge my existence?

 

Is this your way of telling me you don't want to see me anymore? You just want me to end our relationship don't you?

 

You're a coward and I deserve better if that is the case.

You don't deserve someone as nice as I am now that I've had time to contemplate our time together and how you treat me lately.

 

Bugger off, you.

[Missing Him]

I'm still so resentful at you. I can't even enjoy the things that I used to enjoy because they reminds me of you. And you don't even care? You don't even care that I've had to completely change the way I live because of you. And all for some selfish and short-sighted decision so you could "find yourself."

 

I don't even know what to do to just occupy my time these days. We shared the same hobbies, the same places of interest... and I have to avoid all of them because of you. I find myself bored and alone all the time. I hope that you feel the same. I hope those places are a constant reminder of me.

 

You still have my stuff. You asked if you could keep it. I don't want it back. But I hope that every day those things of mine are a reminder of what you gave up. I got rid of all of your stuff. I can't even look at it without feeling pain.

[TerpVet87]

Dear L.

 

I hope your new boyfriend gets you pregnant and leaves you.

 

I hope child protective services takes your kid away because you would make a bad mother just like yours was.

 

I hope you live alone with a dozen cats who don't love you and conspire together to eat you in your sleep.

 

Sincerely,

J.

 

PS: I FAKED ALL MY ORGASMS!

[Minadee]

Dear J.

 

I hate what you are doing to me. I hate how my mood revolves around you. I hate how you sneak into my head at work and make me break down. I hate how EVERYTHING reminds me of you.

 

Someone bought dreamies at work today, thought about when I split open a bag and your cats raced around and it was so funny. Someone told me how beautiful my hair colour was and I thought about how you would lie facing me after we made love and told me how beautiful I was and how you loved my hair. Someone was buying streamers and things, and I thought about how you said you had family over for new years eve. Then a sickening thought crept into my head. Are you introducing her to your family? Is that why you havn't asked me how I am today?

 

I feel so broken. I hate how you are doing this to me.

 

:'(

[radishes]

Hey you,

 

I thought I was doing better, and I think I honestly was. But I also think I set myself back every time I get antsy on facebook wanting to know if you've met someone new. You don't cross my mind when I don't see your page, maybe I should stop that. I'm self sabotaging. And when it comes down to it, it doesn't matter if you've met anyone new or not. I guess I'm always just a bit scared that the next girl you meet will be that one girl you've been looking for, and you would treat her like a queen unlike how you treated me. I don't know why I feel that way, I just do. Maybe because I know this is the end of it all. Because I can't live in this cycle anymore.

 

Do you miss me? But missing doesn't equal loving, liking, caring. I wish you all the best. NN, I really need to let you go.

 

-me

[sharsh]

Dear as*hole.

 

I've been okay lately. I think it has to do with not getting those random texts from you anymore... I don't know. You still creep into my mind from time to time, but I don't let you stay there for long.

 

When I do think of you it's not the feeling of missing you really.. It's more that I'm angry. Angry for all of the things you've done. Angry for you letting her replace me. Don't you know irreplaceable? I get so mad that I think you think she's a better option. I'm angry that you probably spent Christmas with her. You'll kiss her when the ball drops on New Years. I'm angry you spent so much of our relationship pretending. I'm angry because I think you don't have to pretend with her..

 

I don't know why I'm so angry. Is this jealousy? I don't really know. I don't feel like I want you back... I don't feel like I did when we first broke up.. Hell, I don't even feel like I'm in love with you anymore.

 

Then what am I feeling? Is it a loss for what could have been for us? Am I jealous over the fact that she may be getting what I wanted from you all along?

 

I'm confused. I feel so unemotional about the whole breakup now. Part of me wonders what the future will hold for us. If there even is an us, or if I'd even allow for there to be an us. I'm not counting on it anymore like I was, but sometimes that wondering creeps into my mind.

 

I wish I could talk to you. I just want to know where your heads at and why you did the things you did. Just an honest answer, you know? But I broke NC once, and that was a disaster. So much so that I KNOW I will never allow myself to do that again.

 

I wonder if you miss me or if you even think of me. You didn't wish me a merry Christmas. Was that you finally respecting my choice of not talking to you? Maybe you just didn't care. I didn't dwell on it. I wasn't even waiting around for it.

 

I don't know anymore, Patrick. Maybe it's just because you've disappeared from my life at my request. I didn't think it'd be so easy.

 

I don't think I miss you... But I wanted you to know I think of you still from time to time..

Edited December 31, 2012 by sharsh

[sadpanda87]

one day you'll regret it. one day, not today. by then id be gone

[MyAngel]

So it's almost the end of 2012. The year where I met you, fell deeply in love, and you left me. So much "you" has happened in this year and it seems strange to enter a new year knowing you are no longer in my life. We would have been together next Friday, you know? Next week. After all this time waiting desperately to see you again.... And you're not coming. It's just another thing that breaks my heart.

 

I loved you so much. I told and showed you this all the time. My crappy handmade gifts (the scrapbook I was going to give you next Friday has since been torn up, every single page - crying so hard as I did so). I always told you how beautiful you were and if you could only have seen into my mind you would have known exactly how much love I feel for you... I am slowly feeling myself heal but it's a slow process. I'm trying as best as I can. I will get there, I know I will, and I will be strong once more.

[sharsh]

Damn. I was so totally gone out of my mind tonight. I was f*cked up. Then, there you were, creeping into my mind again. I wasn't thinking about you being there with her, at all. It was more that you should've been there with me. It was a weird feeling. Maybe because, for the last three new years you were right beside me, kissing me as the ball dropped. It just felt like something was missing.

 

I don't miss you though. I still remember everything you've done to me. It was just kind of bittersweet.

 

You were part of my daily routine for almost four years. I guess it's still kind of weird sometimes that you aren't around now.

 

But it really is better this way.

 

I hope, this year we're stepping into now, you'll become a better man. Instead of the selfish little boy you slowly revealed yourself to be.

 

Looking forward to the day you no longer sneak into my mind, Patrick. Did you think of me at all tonight?

 

Sarah

[littlesunshine]

Hey S, or should I call you, Mr Unavailable,

 

Why do I seem to hate you? Well, let's see. You might be so called "genius" when it comes to mathematical matters, but you are hopeless about love! You don't know how to respect your significant others, and you obviously have a sense of superiority whenever you talk to me, which cannot ever be justified, ever, no matter who you're dealing with. I might not be the most beautiful or talented or sexy or whatever women, but I have dignity, I have a right to be respected because I am a human as well. I am not a five foot mirror for adoring yourself. I also need to be valued! So get lost with your BS and good luck on actually holding on to somebody. You are such an insensitive jerkface.

 

You don't know what love is, you just do as you're told. You still want to sit on your mama's lap but you're far too old. You're hopeless and helpless, because you are not going to get any chance to change your narrow mind no more.

[sangel07]

Well your wishes are useless, since there's no way I'm going to get what I want this year. What I want is going back to that damned city tomorrow, and I'll just sit here waiting to stop feeling so crushed. I guess I'll have to work on changing what I want.

[newmoon]

you are such a loser. still living with your mom at your age. working a part-time job. you're too emotional and feminine for me. you have no ambition. no goals. and no kind words ever ever ever came from your mouth. and sitting in bed all day talking is romantic? no! i hated every minute of those days because i was wasting time. lazing about all day is only okay if you have no ambition and no reason to get out of bed. geesh. what was i thinking. you are such a gigantic loser. i never respected you. i lied. i never liked your mom. i lied. i told you tons of lies. and i did go out with jack on dates, several times, so i lied about that too. he can actually say he loves someone -you never could. my dog was right all along - she never liked you. take your time thinking us over because i won't be there when you come crawling back because you will, i know it. your dating pool is pretty shallow and when you realize how good you had it, you'll be reaching out to me and i won't be there. urgh, you are such a waste of time

[miss_u_crazy]

A,

 

I dont know how to communicate my feelings to you right now. I want you to know I still love you. It's been nearly 3 months, and I still think about you every day. I want to talk to you, but I don't want to cause any problems. I wish that night never happened. I wish I could make all the painful things from your past go away. I wish I could be there to make you happy in the future.

 

Maybe I say all these things today because I forget how crazy you could be. I have to remind myself of all the negatives to remind myself why I had to walk away. I hope you truly understand why I had to end things. I tried to explain whenever I felt you would do something I found unacceptable. How many times could I tell myself one more time? Then you physically attacked me, I had to end it. I couldn't respect myself staying in a relationship like that.

 

Now that the anger from that night has gone, I miss you more than ever. I don't even know how to let you know this. I don't want to cause you any pain. I know the only way things could work between us is if you were able to control your emotions on a level I don't know if you're capable of. We would just end up hurting ourselves more in the process if it didn't work out again. This is all stuff I have been thinking about since we broke up that night. Explaining all this and all my feelings to you right when we broke up was only going to hurt you more. It was easiest to just hide behind the anger and let the relationship fade away.

 

I still want to see yellow mountain. I miss my Africa queen. I miss Amandimal

[MyAngel]

I feel like I'm going to feel the loss of you for the rest of my life. Trying to fight my way out of this hole I've been in since you said goodbye. Each day feels like I'm not making much progress. I just hope I can be whole again.

[Jingle14]

I feel like I'm going to feel the loss of you for the rest of my life. Trying to fight my way out of this hole I've been in since you said goodbye. Each day feels like I'm not making much progress. I just hope I can be whole again.

 

This is exactly how I feel, even though it will be 2 years in June since I was dumped by the person I was 100% sure I would be spending the rest of my life with. Since that day I have lived a half life with the sadness never far from the surface.

 

I hoped the start of a new year would be a turning point but I miss you even more when I think I didn't kiss you, see you naked, hold your hand, see your warm eyes gazing into mine for the whole of last year. I just want you back so much, no one else comes near to you for me. Shame that's not the same for you with me. How long have you been with her now, I ask but don't want to know.

 

You broke my heart, T, and it will never be healed. Do you know that? Or care, even a tiny bit? What we had doesn't happen, let alone to people our age. Why did you let it go

[radishes]

I'm really tired of feeling this way about you. The only reason I texted was so I could get my money back that your roommate owes me. Yet when I hear you had fun on Christmas and New Years, it aggravates me beyond belief. Obviously I'm nowhere near ready to be friends, or to randomnly talk to you. Maybe I'm feeling this way because it feels like you're over me, or you've probably been over me. Wait, so why do I care about you, someone that obviously doesn't care about me?

 

I'm reminded once again of all the reasons why we shouldn't be together... and it soothes me, no matter how I feel for you. Ugh I really want to be able to say "I wish you the best and I hope you stay happy" but I just can't. I used to be able to. I just don't feel like staying the martyr. Maybe I'll be able to say that again sometime, but for now I'm leaving it as: F*** you, and all the s*** I took from you, and the hurt you said you went through when we ended even though you acknowledged I was way more emotionally invested than you. You are a boy, nowhere near a man, and honestly I can't believe I took all of that crap from you. Seriously? what was I thinking? Man... Now stop thinking about him. Its not worth your time and effort.

 

I don't curse really at all, but boy you bring out the worst in me.

 

-love me.

Edited January 2, 2013 by radishes

[Harradin]

For what you and my so called 'friend' did to me, you don't deserve to even be in my head, but yet its your birthday in just under a week, I did consider sending you something but it would have been a waste. Its been nearly 3 months NC and not a single word from you, no Xmas or NYE text or anything. But you knew I wasn't going to be friends with you, so I guess you were fine with cutting me out of your life as I wouldn't have replied to your breadcrumbs. It does hurt to think I mattered so little to you.

 

I wonder whether you're still with the 'friend', mutual friends told you about his manipulation and backstabbing, I always had my suspicions about him but I never expected him to even take you from me. Nor the fact that you really wanted to "be with me" days before you left me, would CHOOSE to leave me for him and be willing to have the nerve to tell me the pair of you did "nothing wrong."

 

I wonder how you're stupid enough to not realise what he does, I bet he spent hundreds of pounds on Christmas presents and birthdays on you, but I would have topped that, because everything I did for you was because I love you, and wanted you to feel like the best woman in the world. Where as he just buys it so he can keep you happy as he looks for the next person he can parade around. I can bet you millions of pounds he doesn't love you, its a pretty safe bet for me.

 

But considering that on both clubs you're on, nobody likes you and you're doing a good job of turning everyone against you, he'll get rid of you soon enough when he realises that the minority of the club who actually liked him, don't anymore. Then when you're down, you'll wonder why you let me out of your life, and it'll be the biggest regret of your life, I promise.

 

I shouldn't love you, but I do, and I'm going to hate the fact that I'm not going to help you when he kicks you to the kerb. But you chose to go on that train so you have to stick with it.