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[radishes]

Its kinda sad knowing you're not here at night. When the day is over and done I guess I lose half my energy and can't keep these feelings down. It'll be a month soon, next week, since we broke up. I guess that's why I'm still feeling ups and downs. I'm sure in a couple of months, I won't feel it anymore. Sometimes I wonder how you could let such an amazing girl go. And then I start wondering if I'm really all that amazing. But at the same time, I remember its you not me. I wish happiness for myself, and lets just get through today. Okay? Smile Because you're worth everything he never gave, because you're worth it all. Because now you can find someone that will satisfy you, and be the person both of you should be and want to be. You can aim for something now, way up there, in the sky.

[msfreebyme]

I keep having this urge to look you up and see how you're doing. Thankfully I haven't done it yet but it drives me nuts because I have a feeling if I do it's going to only stop my progress of healing. I absolutely don't wanna hurt myself by doing this. I just need something to focus on.

[Harradin]

I can't stand it anymore, for the past couple of days I can't get you out of my head. I thought I was healing nicely but all I can think about you. I have to keep being busy but at night, I can't sleep because all I want is you by my side and I have no clue why considering you were a total bitch to me.

[pooloflife]

You know, i dont think i know who you are anymore,cant believe yo have met someone else, after all you only left 3weeks ago.One of our children said you are moving in together,crikey stunned you can turn your feelings from me to him after only 3 bloody weeks he chased you ,he charmed you, you took it all in, and now your out of the family home not seeing the children[have you any idea how they feel] cant say i hope it works out for you, although everyone says you have got to take all the positives from our time together at the moment its one big negative.

[Chai]

I have to make you feel the pain of waiting for nothing. I absolutely won't respond to any of your messages. And I won't even greet you on your upcoming birthday. I'm through with you. I've already given up on you. Enjoy your singlehood, satyr.

[lakerman34]

So that's it. After all your friends told me that you still loved me, and how you wanted to get back w/ me but were to proud to call me and ask me to come talk to you, this is it. Now, only 3 weeks after you broke up with me from a BEAUTIFUL relationship that just got a little sour at the end and we ended in love with each other, you are seeing a new guy. Probably a rebound relationship, I know, but did you REALLY have to rub it in my face? You are making this easier for me, SHOWING me that you weren't worth it. You have confidence, self-worth, self-esteem issues up the gazoo. I called you beautiful, the most beautiful girl in the world, and whenever I said that, I meant it with every fiber of my being. But you want the hook up scene. I can't hold that against you, but I can say you've made a big mistake. Unfortunately, it's going to take years for you to see it, when I'll be gone and possibly with another girl. In real love. You could have made this work, but you chose sorority life and hooking up w/ guys who don't give two ****s about your beautiful mind but care about your massive tights and vagina.

 

Way to go V. You lost. I hope one day you look back at our relationship and it hits you that you lost. Another girl is gonna win HUGE with me. I can't wait to meet her, and trust me, she is WAITING to meet me. And it's going to be beautiful, much more beautiful than our relationship because that girl will put me as her priority, something you never did, and I'll put her as my priority, something I DID do to you.

 

You lost V. You lost big time.

[not-a-drive-by]

Today is exactly 60 days of NC, and tomorrow is exactly 5 months since we broke up. I have been hoping that during this time, you would've broken contact. I am starting to miss you again, more and more as the days come closer to our would-have-been 3rd year anniversary and also my birthday. I do wish that you contact me on those days, as you can use it as an excuse. But I know it will be highly unlikely. If it doesn't happen, I guess I'll just bite my tongue and wait til NYE .

[Minadee]

Hello J

I wish I could say long time no speak but I constantly try to talk to you. It's wrong, clingy and desperate but I can't stop. For the past three years, you are the one I used to talk to constantly. I would tell you about my day, cry to you if i needed to and would listen if you had any problems. Not only was I head over heels, I was lucky enough to be with my best friend who I trusted with everything I had. You wrote me letters and bought me perfume and jewellery and I was the luckiest girl ever. You used to look me in the eyes and tell me that we'd be together forever, i can't believe i bought that! We argued constantly for about 2 weeks over how you stopped making the effort. I was bitchy and you were cruel with your absence. You told me that people and feelings change and that you were not happy anymore. It broke my heart into a million tiny little shards. I begged, I pleaded, I turned up un-invited just to be close to you, i'm not sure how much more turmoi land humiliation I have to go through before I can finally accept it's over. I can't, I really can't. I feel like I have lost a part of me. No one mentions your name because it reduces me to tears.

 

I hope those girls you talk to are treating you okay. I hope you're texting Holly all the time like she texted you throughout our entire relationship and you told me she was "just a friend." You tell me there is no one else and that you are leaving me because you wern't happy, but I know I was making you happy. When you hurt your leg, who was over your house first thing with a bag of goodies just to make you smile? Was it that ugly bitch Amy? Was it that lying little turd Charlotte? No, no it wasn't, it was muggings over here, convincing herself that if you saw how much I loved you and cared about you, you'd want me back. I was on a high when you cuddled me, and we made love so passionatley and you told me you loved me at the door. Then it was straight back to not talking to me. Making me feel like some used and abused little girl.

 

Im sorry baby, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to shout at you, call you pathetic when we fought. I don't mean to sound so bitter. A part of me would give anything to have you back in my life, and i'm still lingering onto that hope. I would take it all back if I could, even all the bad stuff, because when we were lying together in a dark room with nothing but some music on in the background, I have never been more connected to someone. We could make eachother laugh so easily. But if there comes a day when you tell me, "I've met someone" I will have to cross that bridge when it comes. I don't want to think about that. It's too painful.

 

I will be seeing you in 10 days for my bloodtest. I hope you are not offering to drive me there because you feel sorry for me or guilty, a little part of me hopes you want to see me too. I really hope you can see how much i've changed. How easy going I am now, despite everything i'm going through. How im trying to be the girl you fell in love with, the girl who had a sparkle in her seagreen eyes and used to fill the room with light and laughter. Maybe if I turn into her again, you'll fall for me again, and i'll fall in love with myself again. Maybe.

 

I'm just going to take each day as it comes.

I love you.

[Harradin]

I don't understand it.

 

Last week I was happy because I realised you weren't worth it after what you did to me. All of this week I can't even get you out of my head and I want you back even more then I ever did before.

 

Why do you have this effect on me?!

[Droplet]

Knowing how in love I was with you, I hope leaving me was worth it, in one way or another, since you aren't any happier now...I've been your most loyal friend for the last five years, and I was ready to spend a lifetime with you but I guess "good was not enough", as you said.

 

The good times we've shared are getting blurier every day, and it makes me sad, because those years were the best time I've ever had. We used to be such great pals, we didn't even have to talk to know what the other thought and now the only communication we have left is when your ego needs a rub. How the **** do you even sleep at night ?

 

I probably won't ever forget you if that's of any consolation, but I won't forget how different from the person I love you proved to be either.

[puzzled1]

I want to respond to your text messages so bad, but I am forcing myself not to. Only because that will bring more pain and suffering. It just sucks I invested over 3 years of my life to you and you just threw it away. All the bull**** phases you went thru, I stuck by you and supported you. But now, I feel as if I should have just left your ass then and you could have dealt with them yourself.

 

I was thinking about having dinner this week, but thats my heart talking. Once my brain overcomes it, there is no way I am gonna spend more time with you. Thank you for nothing and hope you are regretting your decision because I will never be yours again.

 

 

 

(I know it sounds harsh, but I would never send that to her, I only did it because it made me feel better lol)

[theLWord]

I contacted you and it wasn't exactly how I thought it would be in my mind. I don't regret it. It was good hearing your voice, and I do feel like I did get closure. I won't be contacting you again. I know our lives are on two completely different paths, so far apart, that we can't intersect, or even see each other. I hope it works out for you. I'm going to be getting back to who I was before I met you, but even better.

[Minadee]

Hello J

 

Today is the day I initiate NC. I talked to you yesterday and it was like nothing had happened. We laughed and had banter and I hope you saw a little glimpse of the positive new me. But, enough is enough, now I will not be contacting you till the 17th. It will be a very long and tedious 9 days from now but I need to prove to myself that I can do this, and that I'm strong and don't need to rely on you for my own happiness. I'm getting back in control of my life. I'm going to go for a long stroll with my little dog who you loved so much, do my workout and then take a long hot bath. Today WILL be a good day, and I won't be FB messaging you, trying to call you or texting you.

 

I will see you on the 17th.

I love you.

[PYTpisces]

This weekend I would have been seeing you, since we planned to see each other once a month until we lived in the same city. Now we're strangers to each other. I've been so strong for a whole month, but I'm falling apart. I thought I was making progress in filling this gaping whole inside me. Today I feel empty again. I can't break NC because I've worked so hard to regain my dignity and self respect. I just hate that I have to feel this way for God knows how much longer. I hate that we won't share our good times anymore. No more adventures. "I can't take one more step towards you. All that's waiting is regret." My mind is trying to trick me into believing that I was happier with you than I really was. What I really miss is the idea of you. Even when we were together, I held my breath plotting out every moment in my head and how I hoped it would unfold. You always led me one step toward my fantasy of romance, then 2 steps back with you unavailability. Now that I think of it. It was emotional hell. I just want security. I want to be in love and feel secure. I wanted that with you. I want to forget the desperation I built from thinking it would be with you. I just want to fall asleep and wake up with no memory of you.

[sloblob]

I dreamt about you again, and it ruined my morning. I miss you so much right now, but I think the worst part is knowing that nothing can fix this now, not even you.

[puzzled1]

Just wanted to let you know that I feel GREAT right now!!! I just came across a reading that stroked my ego so much that I almost came! LOL jk

 

Just letting you know that I forgive you! I forgive you for being weak, I forgive you for letting me down. I forgive you because I thought you were stronger than this. I forgive you for repeating the same **** your dad did to your mom. But its okay, you have made me realize that I can handle situations and tackle difficult events much better than you, and even though I offered to help, you pushed me away. So I can proudly say I gave it my all and I thank you for letting me go thru this shiitty and depressing time. I have learned that I don't need you! I don't want you! and lastly, you will never have the pleasure of being with me again!

 

Thanks for the last 3 years! I am feeling invincible right now!!

[not-a-drive-by]

H, at what point in our relationship did you start affecting me so much? 5 months on, and I still wish for your return. It's starting to become unbearable again. I am sitting here wishing that you would somehow initiate contact with me. Somehow you will realise that you miss me and want me back. Oh H, what do I do? I miss you. It's driving me crazy again. I feel like I have noone to turn for support now. I want to hear your voice. I want to see your face....

[coffeeloverx]

Sorry I flicked you off in the coffee shop today. I'm mad at you. I'm mad and hurt and don't know what to do with myself.

 

I'm mad at you for leaving me. I'm mad at you for playing the game where you want to get back together and then you didn't. I'm mad at you for saying you loved me simply for sex. I'm mad at you for saying "I can see us together in a few years." expecting me to wait.

 

I don't want you back and yet I do. Holidays will be hard, but if I can make it past the New Year, it'll be a new year, a new chance to start over, my first year without you. Maybe I need to figure out our situation and myself before I can figureout the rest of my life.

 

I'm just mad at you. I hope you know that. I'm just really pissed off.

[radishes]

I can't believe I haven't seen you for a month. At times I feel completely over you, especially when I see someone attractive, but at other times I feel like I'm trying to compensate for something I can't magically patch up. I really miss our dog. I wonder if you still think of him as mine too. I wonder if you ever think of me when you're out with him. I know you weren't that great of a boyfriend, but I did appreciate the things that you did for me. I can't think about them now, because I'll start wallowing. We really could have been something amazing, but your fear of commitment kept me at arms length. Prevented you from intimacy and progression with our relationship. At least I know, I'm tired of that. That is something that I don't need regardless of how I felt about you. I dreamed last night that you gave Charlie away. I hope he's still there happy. But I'm mentally exhausted, I wish you could quietly bow out of my head.

 

And like I have said all this time, I would've loved you forever.

 

But now I can find myself someone more suited for me.

[ladyabstrused]

There's this bugging feeling that I keep having. Like there's unfinished business. This time though, I feel like I'm ready. I'm not scared to face you anymore. I'm not scared to talk to you anymore. I think I'm ready now to stand up for myself before you.

[Minadee]

Dear J

Oh my god I am furious right now, furious for how little you care about me. I was at a little gathering with my family last night, and after a drunken revelation from my auntie i found out my closest cousin had been abused. I went outside and I cried and I stupidly texted you, telling you about it, hoping you'd ring and tell me that there was nothing I could have done. Instead you sent me "Oh dear :/" and posted "leave me alone!" on your twitter account. How dare you! I was weak and vulnerable and needed someone to talk to, and stupid me thought you still cared about me, i am the mother of your un-born child that you consider a "thing that will be taken care of" Oh my god I am crying till it hurts. I am beyond hurt. How can I still love you? Why did I spent the entire journey home crying and remembering times with you. You are a bastard! why do I want you back when you are so happy chasing other girls that you have no regard for me! You F*cking Pr*ck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[not-a-drive-by]

I can't get you out of my mind, H. I've been praying and praying that you would change your mind. But nothing. Why aren't my prayers been answered?

[Harradin]

I can't get you out of my mind, H. I've been praying and praying that you would change your mind. But nothing. Why aren't my prayers been answered?

 

Seconded, been feeling like that too.

 

I did well in my sport today, I feel glad that I did well but you're still in my mind and I still feel upset you're not here to celebrate it with me.

Edited November 11, 2012 by Harradin

[Cloaky]

You do not keep your promises.

You lie about almost everything.

You've cheated on all your relationships, and you'll do it again.

You've been given so many chances.

You've wasted eight months of my life.

You deceived me into a marriage that you didn't even make an effort in.

 

I will not let you back in my life. I have higher goals to reach. You are a pathetic person, and all your actions have no remorse.

 

Enjoy getting STDS.

Enjoy working minimum wage or being jobless your whole life.

Enjoy having a dysfunctional family if you manage to trick someone into marrying you again. I certainly don't want my future kids being raised by you.

 

I'd rather talk to myself on a forum than to respond to your text messages.

[theLWord]

I'm really sad tonight for some reason. I was doing good the past few days but just woke up crying and can't go back to sleep. These days suck really bad and it makes me mad at you for what you did to us. I used to be able to call you if I woke up and now I can't and wouldn't want to anyway. It's just not fair how things change but I know it had to happen. I wonder if you are feeling any pain or if sometimes when I think about you, if you are thinking about me at the exact same time. These holidays are gonna be so hard, I can't wait for them to be over. You won't get the best of me though.