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[Masana]

I do not know why I looked at your fb today, but now I have the desire to send you a message. Since it ended I know you're not going to send me a message, I will not either.

As far as I know you, you forgot me long ago .... stupid rain, stupid fb, stupid me...

 

Does this mean the first day of NC, again??? s%%t

[pooloflife]

hi ex found out yet hes been charming you for a year ,you finally gave in,i mean come on he could be your dad you never had,16 years older than you,hope he can get hold of some viagra,maybe first time in the sack he miight die,

[radishes]

Man here I was doing so well. Or at least pretty well for how long its been. I should've never went on your facebook. You went to a concert with a girl. You guys were probably just friends. BUT WHY in the world when we were dating did you not take me? I hate the fact that you always do so many of the things I told you we should do together whenever WE BREAK UP! It hurts knowing that you could be seeing someone else. That most likely I'll never be held by you or hold you again. You couldn't possibly know how good it felt for me to hold you. Sigh but all that's in the past now. I'm just aching a little on the inside because you seem to be doing dandy, at least from what I can see you do. Man I should've resisted just like how I resisted all those other times. I hope you two had fun. I wonder if you even miss me, or if you even have any of those feelings left. Then again wondering that doesn't do me any good. I should be over you. I want to get over you. I am over you. But hurt still hurts. But its okay. Its your life. I don't think we were meant for each other anyways.

 

Luckily the hurt I feel goes away pretty quickly, but man while its hurting it sure does feel like a stab with a knife in me. like someone has their hand gripping it tightly. But I'm sure one day even these fleeting feelings will fade.

 

Its too bad we couldn't become something more. I still believe, I don't think I did really anything wrong. Or at least you never communicated what bothered you. It really is too bad. I would've loved you forever.

[theLWord]

Why the f.uck did you have to call me yesterday? I know you just wanted to mess with my head and suck me right back into the circle of our craziness together. That's why I had to block you.. I'm breaking the circle so I can move on and make decisions in MY life, ones that don't just have to do with you. Please leave me alone. Thanks.

[msfreebyme]

What makes me think of you so much? It is still driving me nuts..of course. I know exactly what you did to me. I don't feel like I give a crap about you anymore. Frankly, now I don't even bother to look you up and see how you are doing...big step in healing. I wonder if it is because you were my first serious relationship or what. Could it be I am still coming back to my home state for the holidays? Maybe I am still trying to hold onto my youth since now I am suddenly making a huge change into adulthood...I feel like if I stop thinking about you I lose my teenage self. Or maybe it's just because I am lonely...not on the outside. I have my family around me and my best friend.

 

I feel scared monster. Right now there are things in life I wish I could just go and talk to someone about it, but there is not really a lot of friends I have who listen to my.You were at least the guy I would call for even a bit of my problems. I guess I just never had to deal with issues alone that weren't from you. This is so different. There are small moments like this I wish you were just my friend. I kind of wish that, not that I regret it at all since it taught me a lesson, but I remembered how great of a friend you were to me. Now we can't even have a friendship since you just controlled me. I know I have to become stronger now...this is my time to stand up for myself. I can recognize definitely that you taught me to stand up for myself.I could sit here all night thinking about every bad thing you did to me. But if I kept cycling that crap through my head I would be a hateful person. I do not want to be you. So at least I can start saying things I appreciated from you.

 

When I moved it was great. Sunny skies everyday, perfect weather, and all the happiness in the world. I love it where I am. I have made massive improvements within just weeks. A guy did check me out in a grocery store today...and he was hooot! I think that means I am getting ready in my mind to date or I am smiling more or something since someone noticed I am happy.

My message might seem like I am sad...but over I am happy. I just have big problems I need to deal with.

[KidWeeknd]

How do you do it?

 

How can you just treat me as if I'm another one of your old guy friends you check up on every 2 weeks. I know you still think of the old times. Your fb message a few weeks ago shows as much.

 

Why?

 

Why do you still keep in touch with me? I'm sure its because you don't want to lose one of the 2 guys in your life who can make you laugh at a moment's notice. I mean I understand if it just were happy birthday calls/holiday texts but you seem to believe its important that "check to see if I'm ok". Of course I'm not ok you rejected me because you were sleeping with another guy. Why the f*** would I magically be healed 11 days removed with that bombshell. After 4 years...

 

It takes ever ounce of mental strength I have not to check your facebook, to not text you, to not call you. The worst part is I know you still have feelings for me. The reason you told you weren't comfortable talking with me was because you were afraid you'd start falling for me again.

 

I just don't want to hurt anymore. Just go live your new life and leave me be. Just call me and tell me you don't feel the same as I do so I can move on. Don't say you miss me, or that I hope we can be friends. Just tell me the feeling isn't mutual and nothing more. So that I can always remember you by those last words. Just give me that and I'll be gone

[spaniard]

wow, 4 months after the break up tonight I find it exceptionally hard not to stalk you fb page...

[knightshadez]

.. I woke up this morning and you are the first thought in my mind... as you are on many mornings, and i miss you, just talking to you, and being able to know that it wasnt wrong to call you and just talk.. you were my best friend and if something went wrong or if i had great new you were the first person i would call you were my biggest supporter in everything i had going on in my life whether it was good or bad news, you would always be there for me even to this day, so naturally I really genuienlly miss you. I feel like dialing your number but somewhere along the way i knew that i was just wasting my time and putting my heart thru more because reality would set in and i would begin the remember that you are married and even if we did talk about how things wouldve been if we got married or what we could have done to make it better.. it wouldnt

change the situation. It is what it is.. I feel the ache in my heart everytime reality settles in.. but i do want to thank you for everything you have done for me during our relationship.. loving me unconditionally even when thing with me were extremely stressful for you, you took upon yourself to be there for me thru my drug and alcohol abuse, and i am very sorry i wasnt able to be strong enough for you thru that time... and thank you for always being my home when my own so called home fell a little short at times.. and making me feel like i was a good thing in your life when things were good.. accepting me for me like always.. lol.. giving me motivation at times when i just couldnt seem to pull it together on my own.. and giving me a love not many people experience.. for being the first person to show my heart how to love so deeply.. for being my first love.

 

I dont know when or if i will stop loving or missing you.. this whole I have done nothing but think of you and sleep...lol... bad ikr.. I havent really had the feeling to get up and get to work (good thing i am self employed..lol or id be out of a job) .. I have been drinking a little.. its had been months with no alcohol but all of a sudden i find myself drinking with the "King of Beers" because I cant stop thinking about you marrying and being with someone else, and it relieves the sting just for a little while.. but i CANT go on like this any longer. The pain in my heart has been there for may years and ive tried soo many ways of getting thru it.. I hope being on this awesome site and talking aoubt it some will help me to get over whatever it is i need.

 

I just want to function and not be hit by these sort of emotions soooo strong and focus more on myself and my business. LOL.. sometimes when i go to see customers they ask me, "so how did you come up with the name of you business?" I ramble my brain for some sort of answer and the only one that seems to stick is its catchy.. but in reality i just want to tell em the story.. that, the name came from you and what you wanted to name our daughter slightly different... lately tho when new clients do ask i just tell them its my future.

 

Well I miss you...

[radishes]

I feel like ranting, but have no one to rant to. So here I am ranting indirectly related to you. I HATE when people break up and then they're all over facebook posting indirectly related things that suggests how difficult life is, or has been. I hate seeing all the sympathy geared towards that when they have mutual friends, and one of them is getting all the sympathy just because she's more popular, or friendly. Or maybe its because everybody knows the reason, or their story, and they just chose to take a side... NO! THAT's NOT OKAY! Why in the world do mutual friends get to do that? Who is she to make them do that? I totally understand it hurts, I'm hurting all the time! SUCK IT UP! seriously. rant to your close friends. great, i hope it helps. go party, go cook, go do whatever makes you happy! But seriously, I hate seeing those updates on facebook. How bad he must feel! I understand you're hurting, but most likely he is too! He just can't show it like you do! Later on, when you recover, I'm sure you'll regret posting all those things. Its not a flattering time, I just wish you could see. Even I avoided doing that, no matter how much of an ******* my ex was when we broke up. It seems like you've forgotten how much longer 4 years is compared to 2, maybe even less. I'm sorry its just that we're all young. It should be understandable. And its just you two want something different that the other one can't offer. Just stop trying to cope and stab on facebook. its silly.

[radishes]

I should've never checked your facebook again. I should've learned from yesterday. I guess I didn't. you wrote that life is good. I wonder if that means you've moved on, you've found something, somebody new. If everything is falling into place for you. I wonder if that's what it means. But then again, I won't ever really know. I'll resist talking to you, to see what you're up to. I'll resist liking your status, I shouldn't give you a second thought. It sucks to see that one little comment can throw me off. I don't care. I shouldn't care. It doesn't matter. not at all. I'm mostly happy these days, maybe not all the time, but at least some of the time. I'm not moping on facebook, even though i do more on there than I should. I'm not stalking your every move thank goodness.

 

I just want to feel better. To not feel that I lost something, to see something that could've been. I don't want to ever regret. And I don't want you to be the first thing that I do. Its good that it doesn't take much anymore to put me back at ease. I have great friends and family that surround me. MY LIFE is good.

 

I saw some relationship quote today that reminded me of you. And it just reminds me, that because I care and cared for you, I want you to be happy, just like I want me to be happy. I hope you are genuinely happy, just like the way I feel and have felt lately I feel fulfilled. But man not seeing your face does make me miss those days a little. You're just too familiar for me. I'm willing to bet, that there's still some leftover feelings inside me, but soon those familiar things will once again return to being strangers. I have the guts to admit that its hard now, but it'll get easier, it'll be better, and I'll be happier.

[theLWord]

I missed you a lot today, I'm sure my friends are all really tired of hearing about you. I always need them to confirm that I've done the right thing. I can't stop thinking about all the lies you told me and it's making me angry at you. But then I still feel sympathy for you at the same time. It's just hard because I would never lie to someone I love. I don't think you know what love is. I need to remind myself that more.

[radishes]

I cant believe you're the cause of my sleepless night tonight. I hope that doesn't cross your mind. I don't want you to know that it's still tough for me. That when you seem fine, I don't want to be seen worse off, weaker than you. I hate thinking about you because it gets me absolutely nowhere.

[Harradin]

Some days I realise how much better off I am without you but I still love you. Some days I wish you weren't such an idiot by leaving someone who would have given you unconditional love for someone who's going to hurt you and knowing how emotionally fragile you are I want to protect you from it but I have no place now as you have to find out for yourself what happens.

 

But I'm starting to realise you weren't worth my effort, and the amount I love you decreases every day and there are far better girls to go for so its your loss.

[sweetkiwi]

i woke up crying. And i'm crying now. I'm locked in my room because i don't want to have to interact with people. How can you not love me?? Me! I was so good to you. I know you felt my love for you. And i hope you remember everything i was. I let it go on for too long. I won't make that mistake again. Not even for a nice guy like you.

 

Why didn't you love me. Or why couldn't you just leave me alone if you didn't love me. Did you stay for the sex or the convenience. We were never more than friends in your eyes. Maybe its a cultural thing to just stay with someone because its easy, not because you desire to be with them. I'm so confused. Stop texting me like its just another day. You don't love me. You can't just say buongiorno and expect me to be okay. Just do your thing and be silent. Hide behind your silence so i have to draw my own conclusions and you won't be really held to blame.

 

All i wanted was the truth, no matter what it meant. You couldn't even do that for me. I deserve so much better.

[not-a-drive-by]

I learnt some things about you tonight, a side that I really know about. Who have I been dating for the last 2.5 years? It scares me a bit. Makes me wonder what we had was genuine. I don't know why I'm doubting the relationship now, even though it's over. But it feels like I don't know you at all. Maybe it's time for me to take you off that pedalstool, a**hole.

 

Maybe I don't want that reconciliation that I've been wanting for months now...

[radishes]

Checking your Facebook was a terrible idea. I actually thought of you when I woke up today. It hasn't been like that for awhile. I wish I could take back what I did but I can't. I can only imagine you moving on now and seeing you be or sleep with someone else. I don't want to think about it anymore. I want to check up on you too. But I won't do that either. I know I'm strong

[sloblob]

I miss you so much. I cannot stop thinking about you tonight. Where you are. I know you are moving on, and it hurts so bad. I feel paralyzed and cannot handle this at all. I dont know what to do. I miss you.

[PYTpisces]

This guy had been asking me for a date for months now. It makes me sick to my stomach to imagine that you're chasing women around like this guy is chasing me. I hate that I'm afraid of emotionally available men. I hate that I keep putting myself in this situation. I hate that I was emotionally available to you and that's what turned you off from me. I hate that this is all I know. I hate that I don't know what real love is. I hate that you told me you would show me, right before you disappeared.

[sloblob]

I had a really sad dream about you tonight, and the day has been bad ever since. How can you move on so fast? It makes me sick. And I don't get this at all. Where did we go wrong?

[Harradin]

I didn't feel the urge to contact you, as I realised last night there's no point in feeling upset for a decision you made. But to be honest you've done me the biggest favor by realising you weren't worth my time, and I can find a girl who will want me for who I am, and maintain a mature relationship unlike you. That's why I hurt because I want to go out and find that girl, so that's what I'm going to do.

 

But this song comes to mind whenever I think about you now.

 

[Deleted]

Hey baby

Enjoyed hearing from you last week. Gosh after all these years you say we've really grown apart. Amazing how three months ago you said I was your best friend and we would always have each other. Now you decide that I don't really want the same things in life that you want so you wont take my calls or communicate with me. Gosh we had so many plans for the future. Now you decide I have no future with you. Well you no what baby? I'm done. I don't need to be your emotional crutch anymore. Your a coward and not worth all the years I spent with you. How dare you think an email is worthy to end a relationship after 11 years together? Go f--- yourself. BTW. Have a great life!

[theLWord]

I talked to someone tonight and I know she was flirting with me. I kinda flirted back, but it was really hard. She got my number and text me but I already don't know what to say back. You were in the back of my mind the whole time, but I know it's done. My friend tonight said, "If it's over, let it go.. You don't need a big time frame to let it go. Just move on." And it sounded so much easier than it really is. Today is now only day 10. I keep wanting time to fly, (as if it doesn't already) but it just hurts. I want to get through this. I hope by one month of NC I will feel better. I feel like if you came back into my life now I'd collapse and just cry uncontrollably. It's a good thing I'm not unblocking your number. I thought about it, though. I'd just stare at my phone more. I check my e-mail at least five times hoping you'd e-mail me, even though I don't want to go back. I guess I just want to know that you miss me, but I know you can't NOT think about me sometimes. It doesn't matter anyway. I'm trying really hard here. I really got attached to you. It's scary to say that. It feels like my heart was ripped out. I wanna feel this heartbreak so I can get through it, but I don't know how. I can't cry. I did wake up almost in tears because I had a dream about you when we were in bed last time and you kept waking up and kissing my head telling me you loved me. It felt like you were right there wrapped around me again. It hurt so bad though. I don't know what to do. Oh well, goodnight.

[radishes]

On days like these, or maybe just today my heart aches for what's lost between us. I feel liked you've moved on and you're enjoying life to the fullest with the going to concerts and what not, but then I remember that the rest of the time your usually wasting your life away. I know I made you a better person, even you couldn't deny that. But at the same time if we never ended I would've settled for somebody less, would never had a taste of heartbreak and grew, and would never be able to find somebody that treated me better. I know ill be a better person when I come out if this. I know ill have gained more respect for myself knowing that I did what I never imagined I could do. Moving on is a process and its okay if it takes time, I just won't bend to those temptations to contact you when my will is weak. I have met better people. I met people I could really talk to, the way we used to. I think that matters. We never communicated. Only I voiced my displeasures but you never bothered to understand why I felt the way I did. Or maybe it's because you understood completely well, that you never treated me the way you should. I should ve noticed that you never felt like a good boyfriend until you found a job with money. Because you never really cared that much about me, because it was always always about you. Your selfishness, your needs, what you wanted to do. I think you're scared of being intimate, because then a relationship would progress and you can't handle that. You're really not worth hurting over, but I let myself feel these things because you were such a big part of me. Because I loved you so much. Because you were a part of my happiness, and because I cared about you like I never did for anyone else, because I felt like you were irreplaceable. I ignored everything that was in front of me because I didn't want to lose you, because I didn't want my heart to break. But man if I acknowledged those feelings then, I would've been in a better place now. I wonder if you still think of me, if you try to reason this out like I do. One day ill be able to think of the happy memories too, but just not today. Not right now. I don't let myself think about any of it, because you'll haunt and waste all my precious time in my head....

[radishes]

Maybe because its late that I'm feelings like this, maybe its because I haven't kept myself as busy of late. Thoughts of what you might be doing runs through my head occasionally. and i wonder what its like to see you again. i wonder what its like to hear your voice again. but i can't. good night.

[theLWord]

I know you got my text about giving your stuff back to your mom tomorrow. I put the picture you gave me of us in there too. I feel in my heart you already have someone anyway. It hurts, but I know you won't ever learn from your mistakes by doing that. I hope I feel better when I get rid of your stuff tomorrow. I'm anxious just to drive to your moms because the last time we were there together. I know this has to happen. Goodbye for good.