kindest Posted August 24, 2012 Share Posted August 24, 2012 Life is suddenly so lonely without you. I hope that when you remember me you'll remember the love that we shared. How great it was. How happy we were. How lucky we felt to have met each other. Someday this will come to you and I might be long gone. I'm sorry. Link to post Share on other sites
aanderson088 Posted August 24, 2012 Share Posted August 24, 2012 Arryana, sweetie, I miss you so much. I can't get you back and I am having a really hard time dealing with it. I wish you could feel my conviction when I tell you I'd never let you down again. A year ago you would have believed that, well, accepted it at least. Now we're too far gone and you are moving on. I'm trying to move on. It's only been 11 days since we last made love. I haven't even had the opportunity to wash my sheets yet... Please find your way back to me sweetie. This last break up was a mistake. I didn't see the efforts you were making and I was being unfair. I wish I had seen it sooner. I wish you had told me how angry you were. Maybe I would have cleaned my act up. I hope you remember my email from last night. I'll be here if you decide you can try again. I love you Arryana. From the absolute core of my being. I love you and I miss you. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted August 25, 2012 Share Posted August 25, 2012 I've been thinking of you lately...the cruel things you did and said to me. I've been so depressed about you. Then I thought, "I left him over a year ago. There's no reason to think about and rehash all of the disgusting things he did to me." So there you have it. F-you Link to post Share on other sites
aanderson088 Posted August 25, 2012 Share Posted August 25, 2012 I hope you can see that I'm committed to these changes. I was stupid and didn't realize fully what I was doing. I'll never slip up again. I understand now the difficulty you had in forgiving me and I'm sorry I underminded that the way I did. I understand what you were going through and I swear to never get upset and impatient with your distrust and questions. I know now that I need to be more understanding of the strain this has put on you. I promise to never again belittle your feelings. I was an immature fool and if you take me back I plan on making it my sole purpose to comfort and reassure you that I will never betray you again. We can have such an incredible life together. I hope you remember how much you love me. I hope you allow me one last chance at redemption. You won't be sorry baby. Link to post Share on other sites
tealover Posted August 25, 2012 Share Posted August 25, 2012 (edited) Dear former lover, The more days that pass the more I seem to be clear on what happened. The reasons for your cheating. I believe it now you just used me to recover from your ex just so you to go back to her. You have done this in the past with three other women from what Ive found out. You end up going back to the same girl in the end. I was truly just your tool. Your stupid for going back. Your stupid for leaving someone that truly cared about you. but in the end your no longer my problem. You will be happy that after you teared me apart that I will not go after you any further about it to you. My only worry that I have is the next girl you use as a tool. If I find out about it I will have no issue sending the poor girl a message and evidence that it happened. I will not allow for you to tear up another human for your 'recovery' from your gf. so pray that I never get a hold of the name of your next victim. I'll make sure you'll only end up with the bich you cheated on me with. Remember that. No hard feelings <3, the tealover Edited August 25, 2012 by tealover Link to post Share on other sites
ghenkis Posted August 25, 2012 Share Posted August 25, 2012 Wifey, Do you remember how we’ll always send each other Youtube songs? ^_^ Who would’ve imagined that stirring up a simple conversation about music could pave the path for so much, huh? Without a doubt, I’m overdue on sending you a song now. So, here you go: Link to post Share on other sites
aanderson088 Posted August 25, 2012 Share Posted August 25, 2012 (edited) We're having a barbeque for Mark's little brother's 21st birthday here at the house. I would like nothing more than for you to be here. I miss you and I love you sweetie. Please come back to me soon. Listen to this song. It's exactly what I want to say about this situAtion we're in. I wish you would let me sing it to you. Say Anything "I Want to Know Your Plans" Edited August 25, 2012 by aanderson088 Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted August 26, 2012 Share Posted August 26, 2012 "Yeah it's all because of you that I have the strength I do. To turn my pain to passion, instead of crashing, boy, I'm thanking you. For all the tears I've cried, for all the sacrifice, for all the drama cause in the end it made me stronger. So trust me, I'll be fine. Baby, I'll survive without you in my life. But I want you to know that you were the one that broke my heart... But I won't fall apart, no. I'm moving on." Link to post Share on other sites
Ugh1 Posted August 26, 2012 Share Posted August 26, 2012 Hey, Stop calling, texting, and bothering me. It's pathetic. I have moved on and he knows how to do it right. You know what I mean. I don't want you. I stopped wanting you when I kicked your ass out over two years ago. You make me sick. I can't even look at you because of how pathetic you sound when you open your mouth. You invited a hooker to my house. You broke my things. You treated my child like a piece of garbage. I was prepared to love you forever. Too bad for you I am not an idiot. If I was maybe you could've controlled me more. So, F off dude and leave me alone. I'm about to roll over and wake him up to please me. He will do it to. Enjoy that thought. Me 2 Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted August 26, 2012 Share Posted August 26, 2012 You ignored me throughout the summer of 2011 and then gave all your time to the woman you cheated on me with. You proclaimed your love for her to me. There I was trying to get over you, suffering. There you were talking about another women...the women you ignored me for. The woman you cheated with. Through October to December you bombarded me with her. You called me to talk about her. Sent a 15 page letter to my house, mostly about her. You texted me about her...the woman you cheated with...and felt that you were within your right. You thought that even though you cheated on me, I should listen about your relationship with her and how much you loved her. Wow, even now it boggles my mind as to how sick you are. Your behavior was scary. Your sociopathic and narcissistic traits frightened me. Sometimes I wonder if you would try to physically harm me. You do what you want and leave a path of destruction in your path with no remorse. With your legal problems and shifting money back and forth among multiple bank accounts....you are a scary person. You are a sneaky person, and you just might be capable of killing someone. I am so incredibly glad that I decided to kick you out of my life and stay away from you. You are depraved, perverted, nasty, disgusting, and a waste of oxygen. Wow, I'm so, so proud of myself for dumping you...BEFORE I knew you cheated on me. All the lies you told...you are a sick, sick person. Link to post Share on other sites
aanderson088 Posted August 26, 2012 Share Posted August 26, 2012 I've been posting on here like crazy because I want to contact you. Bantu, I've been praying that you'll feel my desire to talk to you. I told you once thAt I feel like we can sense when we are thinking about eachoth er. I hope that's still true. Please reach out to me soon. Link to post Share on other sites
InAFog Posted August 26, 2012 Share Posted August 26, 2012 You'll never know everything I would have done for you. You'll never know everything I almost gave up for you. You never saw all that I did do. You never heard a word I said. Just someone to have around. Oh, how little you cared. Link to post Share on other sites
jgregory4614 Posted August 27, 2012 Share Posted August 27, 2012 Dear Nicole, Its been almost 3 months since our seperation. Ive been taking all of this a lot better than i have in past but for some reason i still love you. I still think about you everyday while im at work, driving in my car, and laying by myself in the bed at night. I know i cant get back with you even if you want to. I cant handle you staying out late at night drinking with whom ever. I cant deal with you hiding all the text messages and your facebook. I cant live like that anymore. It hurts to much for me to be around you when im getting the kids or dropping them off. All i want to do is leave as fast as possible when im around you. I cant just not avoid you when we have to deal with the kids so thats the reason why im going the army. That way i can just stay away from you and not have to make myself misrable being around you. Its my only ticket to make you a stranger. Its what i have to do to stay sane through all of this. I hope you find someone that is good to our kids and makes you happy unlike i did. Just keep your head high and do the best you can. I will always be here for our kids financially and emotionally. I love you very much and you will always be in my heart. Love your husband, J. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted August 27, 2012 Share Posted August 27, 2012 You don't understand what love is. The only thing you understand is manipulation and control and how use those things against someone in a very, very, very sneaky way. You are a dangerous person and a menace to society. You are a mentally ill person who is capable of doing terrible things. I feel sorry for the unsuspecting women that you meet. You bounce from woman to woman, hoping with each woman that you meet that she won't recognize that you are a monster....a true monster. I've never dated a monster before you. I hope I never do again. Thank you for cheating on me, lying to me on a consistent basis, abandoning me while pretending to remain my boyfriend, and throwing other women in my face. Because you are so disgusting, I remain fully committed to NC. I wish your mother had had an abortion instead of giving birth to you. Link to post Share on other sites
SoConfusedAndInShock Posted August 27, 2012 Share Posted August 27, 2012 (edited) wow so this is what two months of NC feels like huh? im stilling crying here and there you're always on my mind. when im out, at home, at school, you're just consuming my life in ever aspect. i miss you and im still so deeply in love with you. now i know what its like to be so in love with the person who wants nothing to do with you. i know you dont think of me any longer, i've been told you have no feeling for me and that i mean nothing to you. it kills me to know there no hope of reconciliation for us. i thought you would have contacted me by now but i was SO damn wrong. God, how i wish you were in my place: crying, missing, stressing, hoping, wanting, wishing, praying, scared, worried, so lost ....& YET NOTHING. im still in shock over everything that took place that night/weekend. I wish you would have stayed to fight for us. but now i know the ugly truth. You lost love for me and here i am with so much love for you. ive lost my faith over this. i lost my identity the minute you gave up on me. when the whole world warned me not to go out with you at the beginning, i fought harder to stay with you. i wish you had the courage and heart to fight for me just as much. i miss the silly and the most amazing dude i fell in love with. he would never abounded me, never go a day without talking me let alone 2 months, he would never give up on me and walk away to never com back. i dont know what i did so bad in God eyes or yours even to deserve all this humiliation and punishment. this has been the most painful experience for me. i dont know if i'll ever stop loving you let alone stop thinking about you. you may see a brave face but i have the weakest heart at the moment. its clear you're not coming back.. you moved on so easily. the answer to my prayers is a big NO. you're doing beyond perfect without me in the picture, i wish i could say the same. yes the truth hurts beyond what i can handle at the moment but i have no choice but to accept this phase of my life. i hope someday i get to hear from you. i hope we can be civil and communicate just one more time because i really miss you. Maybe then i would have moved on just a little to stand strong before you. you'll always be in my heart even if these tears fade away years from now. yes im stupid enough to be so in love with the person that hurt me the most and left me for whatever reasons. i hope someday you'll know what if feels like to go through what im going through. Edited August 27, 2012 by SoConfusedAndInShock Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted August 27, 2012 Share Posted August 27, 2012 You are like a ghost, your presence is felt but you no longer exist. You hurt me. All you ever tell me is that it wasn't intentional... but we always have a choice. You always have the choice not to hurt people, but you CHOSE to hurt me. I'm sorry but I wish I had never met you. Link to post Share on other sites
kourix Posted August 27, 2012 Share Posted August 27, 2012 when i'm missing you a little too much, i take a whiff of your scent from the shirt... scrazy, huh? i miss you. but you're happier without me Link to post Share on other sites
big bear Posted August 27, 2012 Share Posted August 27, 2012 OH God.. I miss you so much right now.. Just the sound of your voice.. If I could just talk to you once.. If you could just love me one more time.. If you could forgive me.. If you could look inside me now,, Why is it that when I have changed you have left me.. I am empty without you.. COme back please.. Call me.. I cannot.. Not out of ego,, but your harsh words will hurt me.. That's why.. Come back baby.. God I am crying like a girl without you.. PLs. come back.. I cannot bear the thought of you being not there,, I wish I had not met you.. This pain is killing me.. You crushed my heart,, I apologized for things I did not even do.. Pls. come back... I guess this is some form of poetic justice.. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Coffee20 Posted August 27, 2012 Share Posted August 27, 2012 today I am just sad as always, still thinking why did you prefer your friend to me that time, can't understand why did you take my place (and before you told me to sign from that system off) from that internet school system to be with your friend there and lied to me about it and then told me it was my fault, as always you gave me non sense explanation, although I know the truth now, I can't believe it Link to post Share on other sites
aanderson088 Posted August 27, 2012 Share Posted August 27, 2012 I'm back again. I went to church yesterday. I felt really amazing after. I knelt, I prayed, I accepted the spiritual communion. I plan on attending confession on Saturday. I believe God has put this desire in my heart to change my ways. I feel so much better after cleaning out all of the gunk in my heart and in my life. I thank you for showing me the importance of finding Him. Among the angst and the tears I feel, I have a sense of relief that can only be brought through realizing faith. I saw Mickey and his little brother at church, too. They both seemed well and they allowed me to sit with them. I thought that was very sweet. I am happy to have seen how important it is to me to help those in need and the ones that I love. It really feels amazing. I used to fight it and was determined to shut those out that "cared" for things. I wanted to be alone. I don't know why but I did. I started getting really good at making sure that was true too. But I'm done. I want to surround myself with my loved ones and I want to care for them the way I should have a long, long time ago. I wish you could see this in me, now. I want to share this with you, as you shared it with me. I miss you. I know it's selfish, but I prayed that you would find it in you to give me another chance. This faith I have now, this new idea of life, it isn't so you'll notice. I'm doing it because I feel great doing it. But sharing it with you would be incredible. Maybe God does see us together. Who knows? I do know this: you told me that I needed to know what it was like to not have you in order for me to change. You've been so right about so many things Bantu. But I was a fool, I was arrogant and proud. I was selfish and inconsiderate. I see everything that I did and I have a very specific plan to change those things and make them never happen again. I love you and miss you dearly. I have a couple more songs I would like you to listen to. I think you'll like them. "The Ballad of Love and Hate", and "Shame" by The Avett Brothers I think about you every day, Bantu. I long for us to hold each other again. Please feel this presence in me. Please see the truth behind these words. Please allow me one last chance to prove to you that I was just an idiot. Let me spend the rest of my life making you happy and showing you that I owe you everything for you were the one that showed me the errors in myself and I am so immensely grateful to you. Until then, goodbye and I love you. Link to post Share on other sites
msfreebyme Posted August 27, 2012 Share Posted August 27, 2012 IT's MY BIRTHDAY!!! YOUR NOT HERE TO RUIN IT! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SEXY BUTT! I am more content being with my family than with you and your annoying mean attitude ever again! Link to post Share on other sites
SeventhFloor Posted August 27, 2012 Share Posted August 27, 2012 I had a dream about you Link to post Share on other sites
InAFog Posted August 27, 2012 Share Posted August 27, 2012 I can't believe this pain and sadness that has come into my life since you are not in it. I know that you are not good for me, and that you can't be what I need. I know that we're just too different. But this sadness feels like its killing me. I miss you, I miss our home, I miss our furry little family. I miss waking up and deciding to just take off for a day. Just the two of us, to wherever. I miss our crazy inside jokes. I miss dancing in the kitchen with you. Our secret language. I miss doing your laundry and sniggering at your threadbare clothes. I miss hearing about your day at work. I miss our drives in the hills. Our days at the lake. I miss you being a part of my family. I miss us being a family. Will I ever be able to stop missing you? Like you've stopped missing me... Link to post Share on other sites
SoConfusedAndInShock Posted August 28, 2012 Share Posted August 28, 2012 so i couldn't stop thinking about you all day at in class. i had a 6 hr long class and you were all i though about. i kept checking my phone because i kep imagining seeing your number every time i got a text. i know im stupid since i haven't head from you in 2 months now. i miss you. please call or text me for Christ sake it its not getting better even after all this time. my world is shattered without you. i thought about what i would do if i saw you on campus...i know you wouldn't talk to me. its just so hard no take in everything and how much you've changed. i guess things are going really good for you and thats why you havent made any contact. i really an dying to hear from you, i would just do anything and give up anything to be able to hear from you one more time. i miss YOU and what used to be "us". im still so much in love with you and i wish you could say the same i want to hear from you but im to scared to reach out as you've made it clear you dont want anything to do with me. please reach out? :'( Link to post Share on other sites
SoConfusedAndInShock Posted August 28, 2012 Share Posted August 28, 2012 (edited) OH God.. I miss you so much right now.. Just the sound of your voice.. If I could just talk to you once.. If you could just love me one more time.. If you could forgive me.. If you could look inside me now,, Why is it that when I have changed you have left me.. I am empty without you.. COme back please.. Call me.. I cannot.. Not out of ego,, but your harsh words will hurt me.. That's why.. Come back baby.. God I am crying like a girl without you.. PLs. come back.. I cannot bear the thought of you being not there,, I wish I had not met you.. This pain is killing me.. You crushed my heart,, I apologized for things I did not even do.. Pls. come back... I guess this is some form of poetic justice.. STORY OF MY LIFE </3 :'( you took the words right out of my mind/heart...EVERYTHING you said is how i feel. Edited August 28, 2012 by SoConfusedAndInShock Link to post Share on other sites
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