TunaCat Posted April 12, 2015 Share Posted April 12, 2015 I didn't miss you all that much today. I didn't look at my phone at all. I'm not pining for you anymore. Yet, I'm not ready to reach out to you. I'm not ready to unblock your number. I'm trying to move on. It's not easy, but I have to do this. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
ragdoll15 Posted April 12, 2015 Share Posted April 12, 2015 How can I trust you now? You wanted to throw it all away. Not once, not twice, but three times. And even after all this, I want you to come back to me. I want to tell you that I still care for you no matter how many times you have chosen to throw in the towel. A part of me understands that there was love, and I think and feel and hope that you meant what you said when you told me that you saw us together in the future. How am I supposed to move on when I'm constantly thinking about you and wondering if you're making it through the day? How do I not feel guilt over not being allowed to support you now through your emotional struggle? Do you even think of me? Do you miss me? I miss you. Link to post Share on other sites
Throldur Posted April 12, 2015 Share Posted April 12, 2015 I knew I wouldn't hear from you last night. I just hope you thought about it all night and it ate you up inside. Your best friends birthday is this week and you won't be there to celebrate it. Do you regret everything already? Or are you still trying to tell yourself that the worst decision you ever made is the right one? Link to post Share on other sites
RoseHeart Posted April 12, 2015 Share Posted April 12, 2015 I miss you a lot today I just want you to know. The last time I was sleeping in the bed I'll be sleeping in tonight was with you 9 days ago. It's going to kill me to lay my head down knowing the last time was with you by my side holding me. I'll miss waking up to morning cuddles and you kissing me on the forehead and then us walking together to class. I really hope you realize that me saying goodbye to you finally yesterday was the most difficult thing I have ever had to do in my life so far. I'm going to miss you every day and wish you were there to cuddle me at night. Just feeling your foot touch mine under the bedsheets was always the most comforting thing. I really love you more than words can describe and I miss you so much. I'm fighting back the tears. I need to be strong and move on ... Link to post Share on other sites
TunaCat Posted April 13, 2015 Share Posted April 13, 2015 Two steps forward, one step back. I trusted you with my heart. You know how hard that was for me. I feel like you stabbed me in the back. You betrayed me. I'll never forgive you. Sorry doesn't work on me. I'm better than that. Yeah I miss you. But you gave up on us. Link to post Share on other sites
Throldur Posted April 13, 2015 Share Posted April 13, 2015 I wanted you there last night as my team won and I am one game away from winning the championship. I wanted to celebrate this with you. I dont understand why I have to suffer for your stupidity and immaturity. Why couldnt you fight instead of run away? Link to post Share on other sites
BlackbirdSong Posted April 13, 2015 Share Posted April 13, 2015 I wanted you there last night as my team won and I am one game away from winning the championship. I wanted to celebrate this with you. I dont understand why I have to suffer for your stupidity and immaturity. Why couldnt you fight instead of run away? Congratulations brother! Get that championship! 2 Link to post Share on other sites
TunaCat Posted April 13, 2015 Share Posted April 13, 2015 'Cause, baby, now we got bad blood You know it used to be mad love So take a look what you've done (look what you've done) 'Cause, baby, now we got bad blood Link to post Share on other sites
Throldur Posted April 14, 2015 Share Posted April 14, 2015 **** this, **** you, **** him, **** Ontario. I don't understand this world at all. I just want to love you and be loved by you. I just want us to be in a mature position where we can build the life we wanted together. I just don't get why this positive, harmless thing is just too much to ask. ****. Link to post Share on other sites
Zetec Posted April 14, 2015 Share Posted April 14, 2015 You said that I was your perfect guy. You said that you never wanted to lose me. You said that you wanted us to get married and have children. You said that you couldn't even imagine being with someone else. You said that you loved me. Then why did you leave me for him? Why? Link to post Share on other sites
TunaCat Posted April 14, 2015 Share Posted April 14, 2015 No, no NO! You don't get to message me under the guise of checking up on A's sick son. No no, NO. You wanted the break up. You wanted to date other people. You insisted on NC. Yet you're the only one who has broken it in the past 3 weeks. Link to post Share on other sites
RoseHeart Posted April 14, 2015 Share Posted April 14, 2015 Uggh I wonder what you are doing right now.. I wonder if you think of me and miss me... maybe you thought I would have texted you again by now saying I made a mistake but I didn't. The thing about me is that if I'm gone, I'm really gone. When I get over someone I never look back so I hope you realize that as soon as I finally reach the point where I'm 100% over you, there's no chance of us having a future. I wish you were here to cuddle me and kiss me. That is all I think about ... us kissing like we used to. But I try my best not to. Each day I just tell myself it's another day that went by without me contacting you. Link to post Share on other sites
TunaCat Posted April 14, 2015 Share Posted April 14, 2015 You broke up with me. You broke my heart. You wanted NC. Yet, you've messaged me 3 times in the past 3 weeks. I was hoping it wouldn't come to this, but I blocked you on FB. You made your bed, you go ****ing lie in it. Link to post Share on other sites
Throldur Posted April 15, 2015 Share Posted April 15, 2015 Since you've been gone you've missed Burger week, countless hockey games, the Tragically Hip concert, me getting to the finals and a win away from winning it all, Easter, and now your best friends birthday.. And what have you done over there? Nothing. Probably bored and miserable. This is what you gave me up for? To disconnect from all the positive things and people in your life? It's ****ing stupid. Smarten up. Cut your losses. Come back to me and let's figure this thing out. Ugh, it's going to take a long time for this to happen and it may never happen.. these kernels of hope are the only things keeping me going. Link to post Share on other sites
minimariah Posted April 15, 2015 Share Posted April 15, 2015 i think i had a dream about you last night... i woke up crying and as soon as i opened my eyes - i thought of you. i can't remember anything though. i just remember this intense feeling of profound, deep & hopeless sadness... and even though i was convinced i'll never have the courage to love again after a heartbreak like that...? something completely opposite happened - i'm more fearless than ever because i know i'll survive. and for that - thank you. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Zetec Posted April 15, 2015 Share Posted April 15, 2015 I hate you for the way you treated me, and left me to pick up the pieces of my life whilst you were out having fun with your new guy. You haven't even asked once how I am doing. I haven't even had an apology since you emotionally cheated, dumped me and made me homeless. I hope I see you again in the future. Not now. When I do, I won't give you the time of day - I won't even acknowledge you as you are a stranger to me now. A stranger that I shared 2 years of my life with. I hope it hurts you when I do this. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Throldur Posted April 16, 2015 Share Posted April 16, 2015 we could have been together and enjoyed the play-off games tonight. We could be cuddling in bed, enjoying the victory, calmly and firmly in love with each other.. instead, we are both where we don't wanna be.. this is stupid, just give up on it already, I know its only been a month since you have been out there but you have to know this entire thing is a giant mistake and that we are meant to be.. Link to post Share on other sites
Throldur Posted April 16, 2015 Share Posted April 16, 2015 I'm sorry. I hate myself. I wish I could go back in time and move in with you in September. Maybe all of this would have been avoided. I'm sorry for every mistake, wrong wording, every moment that wasn't as perfect as it could have been. You are/were everything to me. The most beautiful girl, the girl who fit so well in my life, who wanted the same things as me, and I ****ed it all up by being too scared, too slow, to just take the plunge with you. I don't want to regret this for the rest of my life but if you don't come back, I will. Link to post Share on other sites
Zetec Posted April 16, 2015 Share Posted April 16, 2015 Just heard some sad news in my Family. You're the only person I have ever talked to about my family because of certain reasons. Heard that news and now I have no-one to talk to about it. This is where you would normally put your arm around me, listen and tell me everything will be okay. You were my rock in times like this. I need you <\3 1 Link to post Share on other sites
TunaCat Posted April 16, 2015 Share Posted April 16, 2015 I'm sorry. I hate myself. I wish I could go back in time and move in with you in September. Maybe all of this would have been avoided. I'm sorry for every mistake, wrong wording, every moment that wasn't as perfect as it could have been. You are/were everything to me. The most beautiful girl, the girl who fit so well in my life, who wanted the same things as me, and I ****ed it all up by being too scared, too slow, to just take the plunge with you. I don't want to regret this for the rest of my life but if you don't come back, I will. You sound EXACTLY like me. My ex left me unexpectedly but I think it was because I was insisting on taking things slow & I was too scared to take the plunge with him despite us both wanting the same things. Link to post Share on other sites
Throldur Posted April 17, 2015 Share Posted April 17, 2015 You sound EXACTLY like me. My ex left me unexpectedly but I think it was because I was insisting on taking things slow & I was too scared to take the plunge with him despite us both wanting the same things. Your ex and my ex were the same.. it wasn't that we were taking things too slow, they just had one foot out the door with someone else the entire time so they could leave if things didn't go exactly how they wanted them.. And to my ex.. I heard today that all you are doing is snapchatting pictures of you with dogs. Seriously? Dogs? You told me many, many times you hated dogs even when I suggested I would like to have a Husky one day if I had my own yard. Now, you love them? You are doing exactly what I told you not to do, changing yourself depending on who you are with so they are like you, you aren't healing, you aren't learning, you aren't maturing, you're just being the same old ****ed up girl who can't love herself. This is ****ed and I know we are done now because you don't know who you are and you never will because you change like a chameleon. You moved away and it's just you and Dogs? That's what you gave up me, your family and friends for... dogs? Not a snapchat of you doing something exciting or new, just sitting at your foreign place with dogs. Unbelievable. Yeah, you really made out good there. You've missed out on tons of great things, great people, great experiences and you're not even doing anything out there. Have ****ing fun. Seriously, threw away an amazing guy and an amazing life for nothing. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Throldur Posted April 18, 2015 Share Posted April 18, 2015 Just remember I love you more than anyone in this world possibly could. Remember that we used to laugh at so many things together and we had an understanding of each other that no one else will ever have. Remember the way we would cuddle and nothing could stop us. Remember we both shared the same vision of the future, yours was just a faster story than mine. Remember that we shared so much, that we fought through so much and none of that broke us down. Remember me and how you felt about me. Remember how even your friends said the happiest you've been was with me. Please, remember. Remember before it is too late and there is no hope of salvaging this. Remember that I love you and that you love me. Remember forever. I don't know what the future holds but I hope it holds you. Link to post Share on other sites
TunaCat Posted April 18, 2015 Share Posted April 18, 2015 Today is the start of the NBA Playoffs and I was supposed to be watching it with you. I wonder if you'll be watching them with her? Will you root for my favorite teams out of habit or will you root for none of them because your team isn't in the playoffs? Link to post Share on other sites
zoroste Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 For a long time, I blamed myself for letting you get away. I am done with that. From now on, I am going to stop blaming myself and remind myself what happened: YOU left me, when I loved you and treated you better than anyone you have ever known, including your own family. YOU gave up on us, not me. YOU are the one who ripped my heart out and showed no remorse. From now on, I am blaming you and forgiving myself. Maybe I will forgive you some day for what you did to me, and to us, but I sure as hell am not going to blame myself anymore. Why do I find myself in this so much? Exactly what happend and I blame myself for braking up with her half a year after. Link to post Share on other sites
zoroste Posted April 20, 2015 Share Posted April 20, 2015 I wanna text you so ****ing bad!!! I miss doing all the stupid things we were doing. But it's your fault, not mine. You ****ed up. TWICE. You're probably sleeping right now and hugging that teddy bear I gave you. That could be me if you weren't such a moron 4 months ago. leave my mind already. I miss you a lot, but please go away. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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