Dont tell me you've changed, stop telling me your lies. I just cant take this anymore

[MindlessHeart]

This was coming to me sooner or later... Getting hurt by the same man for the past 5 years... Stupid... I know! I just understand this time is real and set in stone that its completely over for the last time.

I cant figure out why I let myself get to this point and feel so much pain. He put me through hell and back. I finally left him this time. How to start...

Today is NC day 1... It seems like the hardest day is the first day. I just don't know how ill react tomorrow expecting some sort of contact-email, text, maybe a call. He has too much pride to do so. I know he'll come around but this time I don't want him back.

I've cried for the past week each night because he hurt me, he lied to me, and I'm pretty sure he cheated. You got to love Myspace!! (Got you stupid!) We broken up so many times I've stopped counting... We've been broken up for a week. He begged me to be with him, to be his gf, that we can work things out!!! NO!!! I just want some sort of advice to see that someday this will all be okay, that NC is the best thing... That maybe one day I wont hurt as much or cry over him anymore. Everything is a reminder of him. I've deleted his number (but its still engraved in my head)- I've deleted him from my msger account (but he can still see me online)... What else can I do? I want to have anger against him, not pain. This is just my way of venting and maybe someone will hear me.

[Guest]

sounds like your mind is set but know it will change a million times. i dont know your full story but if your pretty sure he cheated then he did. first day wont be the hardest there will be worse days to come but you need to be strong. take some time for you now. start a hobby ... find something to keep you busy. be strong and good luck!!!!

[littlebopeep]

No contact is the best thing you can do,even though it hurts so much.Just think of it this way,if you were so unhappy with him and the way he was treating you,why would you want to stay.I already know the answer lol its because we love them and hope they will change.

 

They wont change,why should they?As far as they can see we are more than willing to put up with their ways by staying with them.It comes to a point you need to walk away for your own sanity.

 

It doesnt happen overnight but if you go no contact it will start the healing process and you will realise that you can survive without them.When i 1st went n/c i did it because i hoped he would miss me and realise he had made a huge mistake.

 

8 months on and ive realised after being on my own that i no longer want him back and the n/c helped me realise that.Im now back on the dating scene and having fun with my friends,their is life without him.

 

Take each day as a stepping stone.Their maybe days you slip off the stepping stone but you get back up and try again.Practise makes perfect and 1 day you will cross those stepping stones without falling and then you will know you have reached the other side and that is the beginning of a whole new life.

 

 

Until then,come here and talk to people who have gone are going through the same thing,it really helps i promise.Take care.xx