kepners Posted April 20, 2007 Posted April 20, 2007 basically, i want my ex... deep deep down i know it wont happen, but i live in hope... i live denial... either way i dont want to give it up... i am guessing its because i am lonely, i dont know... either way, i give people advise about being a man, and look at me now... basically i am chatting away to jess today like usual, she says how much uni work shes got and that shes not going out this weekend and how shes canceled all her plans so she can work... then starts showing off about money blah blah blah, and how her mum has given her money back... i laugh and say has someone dumped you for tomorrow night?and i bet ur going out this evening, she starts getting shirty with me and says no, susan pulled out... but i am still going out this evening. and i am going to do 17 hours work... to which i say jess ur still going to go out tomorrow, and this evening, and not do more than 3hours work. ur never going to get ur degree finished, your in the last three weeks of ur degree and ur going out partying... shes says its my release from stress... i reply ok, but your out 4times in 8days, i know loads of people doing degree who in the last three weeks are not acting like freshers! shes starts swearing at me, blocks me then unblocks me, then wont talk, then tells me i think shes a slob and lazy i then tell her to stop over reacting&when did i say those words to her, i am her friend and someone got to tell you, because i want you to get a 2:1 ur good enough. she explodes at me swear at me more, and say whatever mate, ur too stressful i need to work on my study. I then says ok, but i am a friend whos telling you my opinion, i am allowed a opinion, and i someones got to say soemthing, because we both know you wont study when you get home. then i say, ok i'll let you get on with it, talk to me when you have thought about what i said. that was the last i heard from her....she hasnt been online since, and spoke nothing to me... and i know shes in an utter rage with me, i want to say sorry for upsetting her, because i am quite... hard almost rude and nasty when i say things, but i dont sugar coat or soften anything.i tell it how it is... but i am NOT stupid i know i have hurt her. i mean she has over reacted, and she over reacted three times this week to me... and i have told her to stop over reacting and telling me to block her. i have told her that shes not reading or listening to what i am saying- for instance: when i says its boring, i mean its boring for both of us, your not boring. i know sometimes i guess i am saying it out of frustration because i want her, but u know.... its like she used to txt me when she got home from club or going out, but i missed the texts two or three times, because i am not waiting up on the OFF chance she might or might not, (though i sure she used to wake her self up to text me when i was work)but now shes stopped... it was nice getting a text from her, but shes stopped texting me during the day. i have stopped to as a result, because i am not text her, i mean once this week i had to tell her i texted you because i said i would, because i did nt want you thinking i am playing mind games on you by saying something then not bothering. Her reply on the phone was 'oh, ok' i think i almost texted her this evening saying sorry, but in all honestly if i do it, i will not be a man, and i willbe backing down to her, so **** it. i cant. but i know i was utterly hard on her, but i guess its because i am jealous and frustrated... i dont know... she had a massive operation 9months ago... shes not the woman she woz... but to me it makes no ****ing differnec, but i can tell you to other men it will do big time!!! also, i think because shes very attractive and curvy she will put it out there to get some thing this weekend - which she will know will utterly kill me, but i know what you all will say, but she hasnt done it yet! its just a guess! she has changed ALOT since her op! i know i want to text her, but i will not be being a man if i do, i have told her to come to me when shes thought about it... but shes a stubborn lady.... help me if you want. i feel better in just typing that out! there is alot more detail - like a other women who have been give me the eye etc.... well such is life. Keps
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