Milano Posted April 19, 2007 Share Posted April 19, 2007 First of all excuse my english. I've met my girlfriend in december( so we have a rather short relationship). It wasn't love on first sight for both of us but we spent a lot of time together(also in bed) and so the feelings began to grow. In February we had a weekend where we had to smaller verbal fights. I made the mistake of asking her why she didn't pay me attention(later I realized that she was only tired). But instead of reacting as I had expected( shortly explaining her behaviour) she seemed to be shocked and withdraw from me - she even thought about ending all. Later she told me that she had a 3-year-relationship where her ex put a lot of emotional demands and pressure on here. The relationship ended last year in July. Well I thought that she would realize that I've got insecurities but that I don't blame her for this. Unfortunately from this day she didn't trusted the relationship anymore. She withdraw more and more and my fear of losing her went over the top. I made an appointment to a psychologist but unfortunately I couldn't stop to talk about our issues with her 1-2 times the week. And her trust went downwards. Well 3 weeks ago we went on holiday and I thought that the situation would relax but instead of this she became much more distant and didn't want to kiss me anymore. We made a pregnancy test and in the moment that we saw that the test is positive she told me that we are finished. She thought that she had to make a decision and decided against me. I was shocked and tried -like usual- to talk this idea out of her brain:this are only your fears and they could be managed with a therapy. Without big success. I had only success when I told her that she had to realize that for me a finish is a finish. So she said that we should wait and see. Back home I started an appeasement policy. I was so shocked that I thought I have to understand what is going on(with her) and I take measures that she isn't afraid any more of our relationship. Long story short: I don't sleep at her home, I don't kiss her, I see her once or twice but her behaviour gets more and more cold and disrespectful. I thought about many different theories but only this morning while reading some articles of Dobson( "Love must be tough") I realized my mistakes. If I go on with this behaviour our relationship is doomed and I am afraid of this - especially as we are becoming a baby. We aren't separated - she calls me her boyfriend- but the situation is rather tricky. Actually I don't feel a lot of self-esteem - especially in her presence. What should I do? Quitting it and using the time to recover? This would be tough for me(I'm jealous). Because of the baby we are always in contact - is this a plus or rather negative? And because we are only together for 4 months I don't know if it is enough for her to feel the urge to come back. Link to post Share on other sites
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