sapphire0903 Posted April 16, 2007 Posted April 16, 2007 After quite a few sleepless nights since XMM called me, Friday morning, I decided I still was feeling confused with a lot of his words he said to me, and I called him. Confirmed with him, that nothing has changed. He had promised he wouldnt call unless things were different, so, he told me he felt bad about calling me, .....he could tell it made me sad. I let him know that it did, and alot of his comments left me feeling confused about what he is feeling. He told me that if things change he wants to go back to the way we were if I was still available. He also told me again, that he would try really hard not to call me unless I tell him it is okay. Again, wanting me to know I could call him if me or my daughter ever need anything, wants to make sure we are okay. So, how did this leave me feeling? Well, initially, sad of course, but not surprised. After the weekend thinking about it, I feel that "the door" had been opened back up a little bit, and with this conversation I have just "closed it" again. It felt like saying good-bye all over again, but not quite as difficult as the first time. Hopefuly now, I can really move on.
woe_is_me Posted April 16, 2007 Posted April 16, 2007 After quite a few sleepless nights since XMM called me, Friday morning, I decided I still was feeling confused with a lot of his words he said to me, and I called him. It felt like saying good-bye all over again, but not quite as difficult as the first time. Hopefuly now, I can really move on. I called back also but his W was there:confused: I don't know what's happened now... I can totally relate to what you're saying Sapphire .. it is much easier bouncing back the second time...
puddleofmud Posted April 17, 2007 Posted April 17, 2007 Hang in there Saph because you seem to be sure about what you want! And you now know this may not be "it". Stick to your guns and stay strong!
Author sapphire0903 Posted April 17, 2007 Author Posted April 17, 2007 Thanks guys, I do appreciate the responses,..........I am trying my best to stay strong,.......the hardest part is my thoughts of him. I cant seem to help it,........he pops in my head in the morning, at night, with a song,.....you name it, he is there. I have been trying to picture in my mind a big "X" over top of his face when that happens.......sometimes it works, sometimes not......(sigh)
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