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[moczycraig]

[FONT=Times New Roman','serif]Just a little back ground on me and my girl friend or ex girl friend? I am 46 and she is 45 years old, both of use have never been married before or have any kids plus have professional carriers. We both live and work in the same two cities, work in the same city during the week and then go back to our home town during the weekend. This is were the big dilemma is, we both travel on the same airlines and usually at the same times. Like I said I have been seeing her for over a year now, but as of two months ago we have been in N.C. per her request. We both met at the airport traveling to Dallas for work and at that moment I had a sudden attraction for her like no other women that I ever seen. We dated for four months and everything was great, but then I started feeling pressure from everything moving to fast. Because I just got out of a long term relationship of seven years and I was not ready for a new relationship. So I stopped calling my new girl friend without telling her why and went N.C. for over three months. After three months I saw her at the airport flying to Dallas and I waved at her to say hello, but instead I received from her the biggest go to hell look that I ever saw, I can’t blame her for that. And then I got on my flight thinking I would never see her again. Two weeks later I decided to write an apology letter to tell her how much she means to me, plus how much I love her. The next time I flew home I put the letter on her car at her house and left. Two weeks later I received a call from her and she told me she read the letter and she wanted to see me and that she has been very lonely and that she missed me. So for me N.C worked and everything was even better then ever. I wish I would have never left her. The next five months after the letter were the greatest times in my life. We were both very happy and truly in love with each other talking about marriage and being together forever and everything were just perfect. We were seeing each other every weekend and traveling together on weekend vacations out of town. We never had an argument between us till we went to Florida on a trip for the weekend at the end of October. That is when we had or first argument and it was a dozy. After that both of us still spent every weekend together but she stopped telling me she loved me. The E-mails and calls slowed down and the worst of all the sex stopped all together. She kept telling me she needed time to miss me so she could get back the feelings of love she had for me. I was not ready for a break because Christmas was coming and I did not want to do the N.C during the holidays. And she wanted to spend New Years and Christmas together. We had a great time during the holidays and one night she called me during that week after Christmas and said that she loved me and I was so surprised to hear that. That was the first time in one month that she said she loved me. So I thought things were going to turn around. But after just one week she told me again that she wants space so I can miss you “I just want to miss you and you are not give me time to miss you” she said. Two weeks later I received a call for a new job back in Dallas. And I thought that would be great so I could try to work on getting back together. I called her and told her that I was taking the job in Dallas, she only responded by saying that “I hope you are not move here because of me are you?” I just said no I wanted to be closer to home in San Antonio. Since then she has started N.C. rule with me. She has been doing the N.C. for the last two months. Since then I lost 30 pounds in one month, being very depressed not being able to sleep plus thinking about her all the time day and night. In that time of no contact I decided to write her a Love Letter about us and would either mail it to her house or give it to her at the airport. After about one month of N.C. I saw here at the airport while I was walking up to her I saw her looking at me and her eye were watering and looked as if she was going to cry. I told her I had something for her and I handed her the letter and the movie You Got Mail. I asked her to read it and she said see promised me she would. As she was getting on the plane to leave I asked her to call me and she said “I promise I will call you” That was the last time I saw her or had any contact from her. Finally I wanted to ask everyone what I should do next. I have been working on my self, working out reading about relationships and trying to figure out what to do next. I need advise besides friends and family. Do I try to get together with her and talk to see what went wrong? She told me when the N.C. started that she was not seeing anyone that she just needs time to herself. Also I have a question; I still have things at her house like garden tools that she said I could come back and get them later. But every time I leave her a message that I need to pick up my tools she never returns My E-mails or messages I left on her phone. I have only brought this up only a few times. So what now? Why would she be holding on my things?[/FONT]