thecount Posted April 1, 2007 Posted April 1, 2007 Today while I was doing some cleaning. I came accross some of my ex's things. I thought she took everything. Guess not. Just looking at the stuff made me think back at when we first met. I guess I'm just feeling depressed again. How something so good just turned to sh*t so fast. It's heartbreaking. We had this great relationship. and then all of the sudden because of a miscarriage it fell apart. She pretty much blamed me for getting over it quickly, because i have a son. that happaned over a year ago. We didnt' even know till it was too late. To this day she calls me and told me she's still having nightmares about it. I really dont care to hear from her these days. I saw her, and she just looks horrific. She was so beautiful too, now she's pale, face sucked in. dark circles under hes eyes, and her persona is just full of hate and self loathing. It's like her looks match her personality. I couldn't believe what I was looking at. I felt sorry for her. When I went home that night I almost cried, well I had tears in my eyes. I just can't believe what she's done to herself. I loved this girl so much. I still do care about her. The sh*t she put me through though is hard to forgive and forget. It's sad. :-(
RichC Posted April 1, 2007 Posted April 1, 2007 She is going through her own hell. Everyday she may be torturing herself with "what would my son/daughter be doing today?" Some of the women I know who have gone through micarraiges never get over it, even if they successfully deliver later. I think what she put you through is a reflection of what she is feeling day in and day out. This in no way lessens what is happening to you and, I am sure you are going or went through your own version of it. There is no way to know which way relationships will go after this kind of event and, I think, the best you can do is make the best peace you can in your own soul and try to move on in your life. I am sure you will carry this with you for a long time. She also may be trying to deal with her own pain by transferring it to you. These are just suggestions because I am no expert.
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