LoveLace Posted March 26, 2007 Posted March 26, 2007 Just when I decided to accept that my r.m. doesn't want me, something happens to upset me again. A mutual friend of ours is getting married in a few weeks. I"ve been complaining to the RM about not dating, one reason because living with a guy makes it hard. I don't want to just admit my feelings, because I don't want to make his head any bigger than it is already. I finally decided to call a guy that we both know as an acquaintance, and asked him to the wedding. He sounded open to it so I'm very excited. I told my RM this , hoping he'd be happy for me, but instead he has to come back and say, "I"M taking THREE chicks". I was hoping he'd share my excitement but has to tell me this instead. I just laughed and said, "No way! did you put that on the RSVP?"...he said no and didn't seem to think I was being very funny. Then he's telling his buddy who is here about how he has a different chick over for different nights of the week, etc, I said "OH please", and rolled my eyes at him. I mean come on, one girl I can learn to handle, but now it feels like I live in a da*m whore house. I'm sure its the dream of every man almost-40, to be dating hot girls in their 20s and they even KNOW about each other. But why does it have to be my RM? Somehow I don't think that admitting my feelings would change any of this. After that, he wouldn't look at me when I talked or made a joke, once he shot me a brief hard look in my eyes. That was when I realized maybe I ticked him off with my comment. during the quiet phase, I felt like something was between us and now I just want to cry. I can deal with him not wanting me, but this suks. He already thinks I'm jealous of his girls, why does he have push it? I hate it that I have to suffer like this for 4 more months but how would telling him change anything? Also at one point I looked at his buddy while he went in the other room, and I said, How could anyones head be more swollen? The RM came back in and said, "what, just say it"...and I shook my head and chuckled. I guess that ticked him off too. But I don't really care. He goes out with these chicks while his kids are here (lately, anyway, he was never this bad about it before...until I said we shouldn't live together anymore) He also just has to upstage me and supposedly bring 3 dates to the wedding, younger, hotter waitress chicks, and my date is a guy that could easily cling on to their little group, which is fine accept I have a small crush on this dude. If I feel like my RM and his multiple dates steal MY date, I will be very angry. Then when he left for work he hugged the kids but didn't hug me, which he normally would. what would you do!
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