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Cherry Blossom

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Cherry Blossom

Hi, I'm new here, obviously this is my 1st post! I'm not just new to this forum though, I am new to dating in general.

 

A year and a half ago I came out of a 7 year relationship with my teenage sweetheart. At 26 I found myself having never been on a date in my life -pretty scary. Anyway, this January I met a very kind guy, and genuine man who I have a lot in common with.

 

I know I should be smitten with him, but something is lacking. I care a lot for him, but not in the way I should, there is not much spark on my part which is very strange because in my previous relationship I had a very high sex drive.

 

I have only slept with one man (other than this one) and that was my ex. I have had a couple of disastrous sexual episodes with this current guy and in all honesty it has put my off a bit. He hurt me quite badly (unintentionally) causing me to bleed a lot during foreplay once -I have avoided it since, and the 1st time we made love I was so incredibly disappointed and unsatisfied. My girlfriends have told me the 1st time is always crap, but in all honesty, I am used to something substantially bigger than what he has to offer. Again, I have found ways to avoid it since.

 

I am well aware that size doesn't matter (I'm sorry guys, but right now I am thinking it does :() , and that my avoiding further sexual encounters has made this more of an issue. I just need some advice on how to deal with the situation, like I said at the start, this is all so new to me. I would also like to add that I am in NO WAY hung up on my ex.

 

I hope some of you can help me, I really am at a loss. All my friends and family love this new guy so I really don't feel like I can talk to them about this issue. :(

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