C_O_N_F_U_S_E_D Posted March 23, 2007 Posted March 23, 2007 Many Thanks in advance.... and its only been 3 days since we last talked (Tuesday to be exact). But anyhow, here goes the story... Background: I've been dating this girl for almost a year (11 months to be exact) where our one year anniversary is next month... We have a slight age margin: I'm 26 while she's 21. However, her being a single mom with a rough childhood made her somewhat more mature than my past girlfriends... In all honesty, her background always bugged me during the relationship: Her background: 1) She used to date my younger brother - which actually created a strain between my brother and I for a couple of months, but finally squashed it a month ago. 2) She's too involved in the Hollywood scene with all the high profile friends (even though I'm more of a homebody). She does not having any college education, no job, while still being a single mom, and with a broken family. Her parents take care of her. My background: 1) Completed a college degree and working full time 2) More of a homebody and not too into the clubbing scene Despite tolerating a lot of these baggage, I still grew to love her but still had doubts cuz of her background. We lasted for almost a year without any arguments until recently..... The story: During our relationship, the beginning was good (typical of a lot of relationships) and we a lot of time with each other. We would rarely occasionally go out to clubs but we were both comfortable about our situation with he exception of my younger brother. Since I dated her, my younger brother gave us a guilt trip and made it more difficult for us. However, we still dated, trying to overcome this strain when finally my younger brother talked it over between us and supported us along the way. A month later in the relationship, while I was New York, she got a little more distant and began going through states of depression where she overdosed while i was away for a business trip. I felt useless because whatever I said wouldnt help her. She regretted being a mom and missing the party life. Since I returned, she tried to find herself and found that doing the clubbing scene with all her old friends made her happy. As a boyfriend, I didn't like the idea cuz it wasn't my scene, but I agreed to support her all the way. Since then, she would have all these pictures of herself having fun at her myspace page which of course made me feel really awkward. Then the series of events followed: Saturday: I really felt offended at some of the pictures I saw of her (flirting with some other guy). That was the first time since I've known her that I was really pissed off. Thus, I left her the impression that I wasn't too fond of those pics. She argued that it was only for fun (which I still think its stupid). btw, she's really the type of person to get attention from guys and stuff. We argued and brushed me off saying that she was gonna call me back which she never did That night, I decided to let out my anger with a group of my friends to a club. I was high and drunk and found her there. This fueled my anger even more because i didn't want to see her and I couldve sworn that she saw me with my friends not even trying to say hi to me that night - she played it off pretending to not see me. While under the influence , I came up to her on the boat in front of her friends and made a comment "What, u don't wanna say hi to your own boyfriend?" She claimed that she didn't saw me, but i thought it was bull****. She looked at me, knowing that I was intoxicated and walked away. This even made me more angry which made me do one more attempt. She then walked away again... I was soOOoo pissed that I texted her twice saying: 1) "Thanks 4 running away. It really reminds me of what kind of person you are" 2) "Its over" * All I wanted that night was for her to just say "Hi" and tell me that we'll talk later about it. I just wanted to fix things right away... I went home with my friends pissed off the rest of the night Sunday I was still pissed, and she called me that afternoon. I didn't answer Monday I decided to call her back. We talked for a few mins and she pissed me even more by saying I f**ked up by confronting her in front of her friends... What pisses me off more was that she didn't apologize for the pictures she posted and that she claimed that she never saw me in the beginning of the party. She was less than 15 feet away from me. She even saw my friends. So I was pissed off and decided to touchbase with some old peeps. During the conversation, she said she'll talk to me later, which she never did Tuesday I already miss her and the last conversation bothered me. So I decided to be the better man and call her. I basically told her that I was leaving soon for another business trip and I wouldn't know if was gonna talk to her again or not. I also just apologized to her about the way I acted towards her in front of her friends which was very disrespectful ( i know... i was drunk and high) Finally, while being sincere i told her good luck with everything, and that I'll be here if u ever need to talk to someone. Here tone changed from being upset in the beginning of the conversation to whining that we're still gonna talk. She said that she was busy and she'll call me later.... which she never did anyways.... Wednesday to Friday I never called her back since...but I ran to my other ex girlfriend to catch up. Even though she has a boyfriend, we're good friends now and we've been hanging out everyday which helped me go through this situation. Conclusion: I know that my recent ex isn't my type, but I miss her company. Whats driving me nuts is that she hasn't called me back. I dunno what to do.... I've already told myself that I wasn't gonna talk to her unless she called me. I miss her so much.
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