LoveLace Posted March 22, 2007 Posted March 22, 2007 I'm whipped. Between work, school, and my roommate, I haven't ate or slept hardly at all this whole week, pretty sure i've lost about 5-6 lbs. just since the weekend. Not that I mind that though! Last night I typed a one page letter to him, and left it up on the computer for him to see it when he got home from work. I said he interpreted my actions in the wrong manner. It was not an angry letter at all. I wrote that I do love him, but it doesn't mean I want to ruin his life, or even be his girlfriend. Once I got to bed, I felt good about the letter at first, and thought I could finally get some quality sleep. But my mind wouldn't allow it, despite how tired I was. I didn't get to sleep until 4 or 5 this morning and I'm miserable here at work. Then I have school until 9pm tonight. When I got up this morning, there was a girl's jacket on the couch, obviously he had the same girl over again. She seems to be the only one to keep going to him; so apparently I didn't even make her mad at him. But he's sure acting like I did. HIS shirt was on the floor by the computer. Almost as though they read my letter and started making at the same f*****g time. I'm just sick to my stomach, it makes me want to call and tell him today that I DO hate it, I AM jealous, and maybe we shouldn't wait until the lease is up after all. It's obvious that he's going by what I said about NOT being jealous. Now it just plain feels like he doesn't care if he's hurting me, or wants to push me as far as he can go. Just about everyone here at LS says he knows how I feel already, so if thats true, why does he have to provoke me this way. I don't know that he really read the letter, it was still minimized when I left today, I just closed it without caring if he seen it or not. For several weeks, he didn't care about girls at all, and even ditched one to hang out with me one night. Now its the opposite. I was tempted this morning to send him a text, FINE, I HATE THIS, AND I AM JEALOUS, MAYBE SHOULD END THIS SOONER AFTER ALL.
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