rejected get out of jail free card...

[countrygurl11823]

ooook... so... i am completely not a relationship girl. or at least i wasnt until i met this kid. we were together for 2 months and didnt have the title yet so i questioned his motives. about a month later he asked me out.. the day before my birthday. now i am in college so when he asked me out we were in the middle of our christmas break which lasts a month. things were AMAZING for a majority of the break. i live in CT and he lives in LI so i went to his families house for new years. it was the best new years i have ever had in my entire life. we would tlak on the phone and stuff while i couldnt see him. then about 2 weeks after new years things started getting weird. he stopped calling, hardly texted me, stopped calling me baby. he told me he loved me a little after new years then took it back a couple of weeks later. we got back to school and things were a little awkward. he was very quiet and didnt interact with me as much as before. i didnt take it personally instead i just thought it was just because we werent new anymore. after a week back at school i had found out that he tried to cheat on me with a girl that lives a floor under me. he was extremely drunk while attemptin this but the girl had enough decensy to reject him because he had a girlfriend (me). i waited until the next morning to talk to him so he could sober up and stuff. he tried telling me he didnt cheat on me and thats the important part. i love him so i gave him the get out of jail free card.. and he didnt take it... after this it was texting and calling non-stop. it was like it was before. we still hooked up and such and went out to eat with eachother and even partied together.. so a week after this whole cheating thing he decided that was it... no more me and him. that night i got extremely intoxicated and his best friend kissed me. i pushed the guy away and sed i cant do that to john. john cought wind of this and was extremely upset.. to the point where he was crying. it didnt make sense to me because he let me go.. he decided not ot be with me. he told me how he still had feelings for me and stuff and says he still does to this day. but he doesnt want a relationship. everytime im with him i just love him more and more.. and i dont know what to do about it anymore. iv tried telling him howi feel and he agrees to stop hooking up and stuff and just be friends but it never works out that way. theres an obvious attraction between us but he's a firm believer if its meant to be it will happen. where im a firm believer in taking chances while u have them before there gone. he says he just needs time but idk how much time i can give him. he just doesnt want to have a relationship with me and wonder "what if" which is understandable but if he wants to go hook up with other girls (which he told me he does) then why isnt he? i dont understand whats going through his head no matter how much he tries to explain it to me. his brother told me not to worry and he'll come through but he doesnt show it. i feel like im just his softest place to fall... please someone give me some advise as to whats going through his head or what to do or expect please!! now dont judge him hes been the best boyfriend EVER while we were together hes perfect to be completely honest. everyone still refers to us as boyfriend and girlfriend cuz as they say we're a "perfect match" ahhhh help please!!!!!

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[ he told me he loved me a little after new years then took it back a couple of weeks later... after a week back at school i had found out that he tried to cheat on me with a girl that lives a floor under me. ]

 

To be honest with you, this is all I needed to see. If you truly love somebody IMHO, the thought of cheating should never cross one's mind. There are a few guys out there that treat their ladies' like the queens they are and would never display these behaviors.

 

When somebody says they love you, no matter at what point in the relationship, they damn well better mean it. To me it seems that he doesn't know what he is saying. I think you should follow what your heart tells you, but do not settle for anybody that doesn't deserve you. You are worth it and if you keep the faith, you will meet the guy that will treat you the way you want to be treated. It happens, trust me!

 

In the meantime, keep living a fun life, and you'll probably meet the man of your dreams when you least expect it. I wouldn't waste much more time with this guy.