NightsInWhiteSatin Posted March 12, 2007 Posted March 12, 2007 It's been a long time since i last posted on here, i've tried to avoid it because it means i'm struggling again... It will be a year in 3 weeks since i last saw my ex's face, i've practised NC for almost a year throughout this time. Even though i've made it clear to him that i don't want to be in contact he keeps texting me every other month and becoming more frequent. It's always in the early hours of the morning he does it waking me up and it drives me mad, i've come so far and he keeps pulling me back everytime i hear from him. I've never replied once, he doesn't deserve to know i still think about him. He's narsissistic and egotistical and won't let go of the fact that i've moved on and don't want him in my life. I'm just feeling low and lonely, finding studies hard at the minute...just tired...and stuff....just need to vent...maybe go to bed. lol
Pyro Posted March 12, 2007 Posted March 12, 2007 It's been a long time since i last posted on here, i've tried to avoid it because it means i'm struggling again... It will be a year in 3 weeks since i last saw my ex's face, i've practised NC for almost a year throughout this time. Even though i've made it clear to him that i don't want to be in contact he keeps texting me every other month and becoming more frequent. It's always in the early hours of the morning he does it waking me up and it drives me mad, i've come so far and he keeps pulling me back everytime i hear from him. I've never replied once, he doesn't deserve to know i still think about him. He's narsissistic and egotistical and won't let go of the fact that i've moved on and don't want him in my life. I'm just feeling low and lonely, finding studies hard at the minute...just tired...and stuff....just need to vent...maybe go to bed. lol I think that if you are unable to ignore him completely, then you should change your number or block his number. Its obvious as long as he knows that it gets a reaction from you, he is going to keep doing it.
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted March 12, 2007 Author Posted March 12, 2007 That's the thing though, he doesnt see or hear or know of any reaction because i don't give him one, i don't think he even knows if i recieve the messages. He just doesn't give up...i reckon..he was most likely drunk on all of these occassions. He does drink alot more nowadays apparently. Anyway i've decided i'm feelin low because i have an extremely pessimistic outlook on any future relationships im concidering or will concider having. I might become a nun.
Pyro Posted March 12, 2007 Posted March 12, 2007 That's the thing though, he doesnt see or hear or know of any reaction because i don't give him one, i don't think he even knows if i recieve the messages. He just doesn't give up...i reckon..he was most likely drunk on all of these occassions. He does drink alot more nowadays apparently. Anyway i've decided i'm feelin low because i have an extremely pessimistic outlook on any future relationships im concidering or will concider having. I might become a nun. Well then I think that you should have a fresh start and get a new number. That way the only people that can contact you is in your power. I know that you are feeling low. We all feel that way while we are trying to get over someone, but this feeling is only temporary. The moment that you change your number and you stop hearing from him, you will see that it will get better for you.
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted March 12, 2007 Author Posted March 12, 2007 aye i suppose i should change my number, truly is goodbye then isn't it. never thought i'd love someone so much that even having their number in my phone would bring some sort of emotional comfort and closeness to them. how sad am i lol.
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted March 12, 2007 Author Posted March 12, 2007 Everyone's bitter at some point in their lives, i'm just not ashamed of it. Why should i pretend to be happy when someones treated me badly? Better out than in if you ask me.
magichands Posted March 12, 2007 Posted March 12, 2007 Better out than in if you ask me. That's what I mean. It's good that you don't harbour it.
ruby_gloom Posted March 12, 2007 Posted March 12, 2007 It sucks that you stay away from posting on LS, especially since you don't have the PM feature. I always liked reading your posts. That's the thing though, he doesnt see or hear or know of any reaction because i don't give him one, i don't think he even knows if i recieve the messages. He just doesn't give up...i reckon..he was most likely drunk on all of these occassions. He does drink alot more nowadays apparently. Anyway i've decided i'm feelin low because i have an extremely pessimistic outlook on any future relationships im concidering or will concider having. I might become a nun. I think it's good that you've come so far along. I think I remember you posting about how you guys would talk to each other via MSN even after you had broken up, and how it would make both of you cry. I've been in similar situations, and it certainly is extremely painful to know that you are so close, yet so far away. Not replying to him is great, but I think that changing your number would be even greater because you'd be sparing yourself of more pain. It's good that you are not letting him know you hurt for him or that you still think about him or anything, but the ideal is to actually not be hurting anymore, not to be masking it for him, you know? If every little contact only serves in making you feel bad, then I think it's time you get rid of those little forms of contacts. aye i suppose i should change my number, truly is goodbye then isn't it. never thought i'd love someone so much that even having their number in my phone would bring some sort of emotional comfort and closeness to them. how sad am i lol. Yes, it certainly is more definitive, but sometimes this is just what you have to do. By keeping your number, it seems as if you're trying to keep that little strand of connection between you; I know I've done it before. But you see, the problem is that while you might temporarily forget that that strand is there, when it resurfaces again, it will serve as nothing but pain and discomfort. And the keeping his number in my cell phone thing--I used to do that. Seems so pathetic, no? Oh, and btw: I'm going to become a nun too. Screw this.
Pyro Posted March 12, 2007 Posted March 12, 2007 aye i suppose i should change my number, truly is goodbye then isn't it. never thought i'd love someone so much that even having their number in my phone would bring some sort of emotional comfort and closeness to them. how sad am i lol. He was your first love I take it? The first loves are always the most difficult to part with, but like I said, if you do this you will see in the long run that this is what you need to do. This will be the only way for you to move on and get rid of that pessimistic attitude. Take it from me, it was difficult for me to get past my first love. I kept telling myself that I could still handle being her friend after the break-up but I was only kidding myself and it only brought me more grief and stress. Parting ways with her was the best thing that I could do and that I did do.
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