Am4Real Posted March 11, 2007 Posted March 11, 2007 It’s Sunday morning; I woke up at 4 AM (again) although with the move to DST it’s actually 5 AM. Bottom line I’m not getting much sleep, maybe 5 hours a night while my mind spins on thinking through my situation. Thank goodness it’s not as bad as January when I would wake up in the middle of the night and the first waking moment were similar thoughts up until I went to bed again. Progress? I read my personal journal I started in January; geex it's 49 pages of typed emotions and such and continues to grow. However, I find myself posting less often. Re-reding old entries concluded with knowing how much has changed in my head since then; I was rambling and venting so often only seven or eight weeks back. My thoughts or entries today are gathered and certainly more rational, however, my heart has only slightly progressed towards healing. I suppose it’s a journey. I imagine the change with the character of the journal entries is proof (to me) that time does promote healing. If ever there was a way to just have it go a little bit faster...
oppath Posted March 11, 2007 Posted March 11, 2007 As I've realized, sometimes you just need to let go of the anger to finally reach acceptance. This doesn't make things well because your life may be drastically different than it was before or with your ex, and your life may not be in as desirable place. The hardest part about a break up is often the change, the transition, not from being a couple to being single, but just the absence of something and someone good in your life, the loss of friends, and any number of things aside from love. Keep treating yourself kindly.
Belovely Posted March 11, 2007 Posted March 11, 2007 Am4Real: I know all to well what you are going through. My heart was always the last to follow and that's, perhaps the reason why I stayed as long as I did. I knew in my head that things weren't right, but my heart pulled me in another direction. Even after the breakup my head knew it was the right thing, but my heart is and still is slow to follow. But the feeling is stronger and thus, makes sense that it would take longer to heal.
Trialbyfire Posted March 11, 2007 Posted March 11, 2007 Let go Am4real. Really let go of him. The love you retain is for something that's not real, whether the person is real or not. You can never let go of the love you experienced but try not to apply it to the person you thought existed.
RichC Posted March 12, 2007 Posted March 12, 2007 Unfortunately I don't think it can go faster. But, it will be like a long distant memory that will become more and more blurry as time passes before it finally goes out. That is what is happening to me concerning my breakup. The feeling is less and less intense and now its not intense at all but just there and gradually fading. Hang tough. One day you will recognize it by its abscense.
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