For everyone in pain now

[Crazy for Crazy]

First off, I'm here because of a break up I had almost 4 months ago. Yeah, I miss her. Yeah, really I wish I could still be with her. But that's not why I'm making a post.

 

I just wanted to give you all some type of hope. Because 4-5 years ago (can't even remember off the top of my head, to show you how much I care now) I broke up with a gf of a year and half and like two months later I knew it was a mistake. At the time, it was. Since then, I had met a new girl who, really, I loved so much more- she's the reason I even read threads here- still miss her. But for at least a year, the original ex has been wanting me back. Only now have a I really been paying attention. Also, let me explain that I had been with this most recent ex for off and on 3+ years.

 

So while I'm enjoying my single life in that I'm "pimping" as it were, I still miss my ex alot. But, I see alot of posts about things working out after some time and I'll tell you this much: a girl that ****ed me over years ago wants nothing more than me right now. Do I want her? No. But that should still give hope to someone: Yeah, sometimes they do come back. And yeah, like the say, the best revenge is just really not caring.

 

Of course, I'm still kinda bitter about my ex, who I wanted to marry, but I take solace in my own story.

 

And the most important piece I've come to grips with since my 3+ year relationship came to an end: If they wanted to be with you, no matter what reasons and what excuses, they would. And if they didn't want to be with you...well then they're not there and instead you're reading this. If they weren't sure [insert whenever], then it was only a matter of time until they weren't sure later.

 

No, I'm not big on "fate" and "meant to be" and all that. I'm sure random Indians wouldn't be happy about being wiped out by small pox as "meant to be", but I am big on the "If they wanted to they would" thing.

 

Sometimes **** works out: I have an ex that I Was crazy for dying to get back with me now. Sometimes it doesn't: The girl I feel like I legimately loved and could, literally, forever, would rather **** around with another dude and say she's too scared to commit. But go and do it. No matter what anyone says we all have some regrets. Let your regrets be dependant on random luck, don't ever wonder what would've happened if you woulda done {x} and then didn't. You'll regret it forever.