Guest Posted March 6, 2007 Posted March 6, 2007 Sorry for the length of this; I was trying to summarize 16 months! I really hope someone will take the time to read this and help me out. I've seen great advice on LS before, although I have never posted. I broke up with my boyfriend of 16 months this past weekend, but I really miss him. I have been out of town more than in town for the last couple months, so when I was in town I was just trying to catch up on work. We hardly saw each other. I was always exhausted; we've also had very little sex, maybe three times in the last month. I broke up with him because I've been mean to him. He and I know we will break up at the end of the year because I will graduate and continue at another school, and he really doesn't want a long distance relationship. I kept thinking about this more and more and was mean to him to make it easier on myself. I felt like I couldn't keep going in the relationship while just watching the end come. I also have been in counseling for the last year because my best friend (and ex-girlfriend) has borderline personality disorder and can be very avusive and manipulative. Despite this, I keep talking to her and fighting with her daily. My boyfriend doesn't feel like he can keep watching me destroy myself through my relationship with her. But he has always been wonderful to me, very patient, always can make me laugh. I can't avoid him because we go to the same college and are both music major with the same teacher. We are even sharing a stand in orchestra right now. I have decided to not talk to my best friend for a while to try to distance myself from her, but I've tried this before and it didn't work out well. I got very despressed and ended up talking to her just as much. I know he has plenty of reason not to trust me, but I really miss him. I feel like it was a mistake to break it off without trying to work it out. But I think I may have blown my chance, and even if I didn't what will happen with the end of the year break-up? I would really appreciate some advice on this. I feel so lost.....
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