Guest Posted March 5, 2007 Posted March 5, 2007 Hiya everyone, A boy (my now best friend) moved to my school about 2 years ago now....and without even speaking to him, i thought "wow"...it took me about 3 months to get talking to him...and when i did it was great. We started hanging out more and more, and at the time, he was into girls. had a few girlfriends, and seemed to be coming on to me. i was ready to tell him i loved him. then disaster struck, well to me it is, he got a boyfriend, which really screwed me up in the head. i couldn't work it out. about a month later i told him the whole "i love you" malarky, but pretended to be drunk at the time. and when he "reminded" me of my actionst the next day, i broke down and told him everything, which led to the whole "i'm gay/bi" story. We've been "Best friends" for about a year now, and he's brought up many a time that if his boyfriend hadn't of come along, he would have definately been with me...this makes me feel 100 times worse, and i end up crying myself to sleep with a bar of dairy milk or something :-( I really do not know how to approach this matter...it's really starting to get to me. i love him so much. and it's not a crush, i don't love him. I am IN LOVE with him. And i know i do, when i see him and his boyfriend kissing, and hugging, and being all sweet, i get all edgy. they look so cute together, but i just look at them together and see me in his place. i want that place. i'm jealous. yes, i admit it. but i was there first, and i can't turn down yet another man by telling them i love someone else. it's really... ...argh! someone in the same boat/has experienced/can help! please do, i'm really torn, heh...here come the water works again ...thanks everyone xx
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