xoxpipahxox Posted February 25, 2007 Posted February 25, 2007 I don't want this to be yet another whiny post, but I need some help. I need someone to lend an ear to my situation and someone who can possibly relate. I feel like I know what I need to do, but when I try it it doesn't quite work out. Here is my situation. I've been with my boyfriend since last January. I had just gotten out of a relationship (only a three-month one) and quickly jumped into the relationship that I'm in. It's not uncommon for me to jump in and out of relationships so quickly, but this relationship is different. When we first started dating, I was traveling back and forth about forty-five minutes each way, to get my boyfriend from his house. He didn't/doesn't have a car nor does he have a license. Because of the fact that he didn't have a way to commute to see me and he was living, at the time, with his ex-girlfriend, we rushed into living with one another. He moved into my house with my father and other various members. Ever since I've been with him, I've gained weight and my happiness has dwindled drastically. We fight atleast once a week and it's really disheartening. I'm not "allowed" to talk to my male friends and he doesn't get along with my female friends. No one that I know likes him so my social life has gone down the drain. He doesn't like to be around people and I'm very much a people person. I love being in others' company and talking until my heart's content. When we go to my family gatherings he simply sits aside and doesn't talk. It makes me feel like he doesn't want to actually be a part of my life. He's verbally expressed that I'm not his "type". He likes women to be the stereotypical male fantasy (aka blonde, blue eyes, skinny and big breasted). I'm not even partially his type which escalated my low self-esteem. He spends his life on the computer. He literally stays on the computer as long as he possibly can and it makes me feel like he simply doesn't want to be around me. We've discussed all of the issues mentioned by the way, but nothing seems to change. Another thing that is bothering me is the fact that I'm his sole means of transportation. I have to wake up much earlier than need be to bring him to work, I have to pick him up from work and take him everywhere he needs to go. I feel like I'm his mother in many ways. I'm his transportation and I take care of his messes around the house. I'm not happy and I've expressed this to him, but he doesn't seem to want to help me alleviate my worries. We talk about it and then he acts as if there's nothing wrong. I've tried breaking up with him because I feel like it needs to be done, but then he again acts like nothing is wrong. He wants to pretend like nothing happened. I'm afraid to kick him out of my house because he finally found a job that he loves. How often does that opportunity come around? If I kick him out he'll have to move very far away and I don't want him to lose his job. I feel like the love that I have for him isn't as intense as it used to be. The love I feel for him isn't passionate. I've felt stronger love in the past and I, to be honest, miss that. One more thing is the fact that I feel my relationship is missing romance. I'm never told that I'm beautiful, thus I don't feel as if I am. Also, when it comes to sex he doesn't attempt to get me in the mood for it ... he simply goes at it. I'm sorry if that's too much information, but it's something that makes me unattracted to him in that sense. He knows that I feel this way, yet he doesn't change it. I don't know what to do. I've expressed to him, in so many ways, how I feel and he doesn't want to help me solve my relationship woes. Do you think that he simply doens't care? Sorry that this was so long winded ...
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